Mill Creek OA 100 Pounder Speaker Meeting

2010 5 years old eating rolled balls of bread, chubby and judged by my parents Evan heavy I excelled in athletics just to prove my dad wrong. I had a feeling, I needed to eat. I maintained a weight loss with hours of excersize and handfuls of laxatives. in 2015 I went to an Xmas party and partook of the food to the fullest. Early 2016 I started meetings for 9 moths with no food plans,steps or honesty. I just recently got honest on al levels and the difference is palpable. I am using all the tools. My anger has been replaced with tolerance .

I was large as a child. first meeting August 1988 and the recovery started.' I grew up in an unsafe household. with multiple candidates fr 12 step work. When I started babysitting all my money went for food. I ended up in the biggest size I could find. No where to go. The laughter pissed me off. It took a while for me to have the change. I got a life, i started dancing in recovery, I have a sponsor and I am a sponsor. Gone through steps multiple times, and continue to find new things. A morning ritual is a core component of my program. My last relapse was during the pandemic by overeating abstinent food. My food plan is pretty tight, I take my food with me most of the time.

Wide weight swing - 5'8' and 108lbs And way up. Confusing childhood. Finish you food, you're fat but a later a reality check indicated I was not. I was given 'Metrical' as a kid. On the cleanup I could finish lots of plates. Protein shakes lost weight fast. seemed like a plan. until every parts of my life was compulsive including fasting, excersize, weighing myself, drugs and alcohol. I sober first in '82. My sponsor suggested OA which I had never heard of. They were my people. and fell into the program. After a year of success and weighl loss I shifted my addiction to men. and up to 360. next time into the program it took all the lessons and truly embraced it long term.

I was fat and teased by my family Came into OA 55 years old, 130 lbs overweight with 30 years sobriety. Recently I was at a party that had EVERYTHING that was of my list , abstained and had a great time actually relating with my family. None of my alcoholic foods are in the produce aisle. Accountability is still uncomfortable for me. Long timers mentioned they do service, so I got involved in service. As a result of my abstinence I am able to learn so much about OA, its working, the tools and Zoom etc y and offer it back when needed.

It is important for me to attend strong meetings where people ave gone through all the steps. My weight popped between first and second grade. Food helped me handle my home life. Admitting I was a compulsive eater was easy. Surrendering to the program - not so easy. I developed daily practices, had a spiritual connection and i was working. When it slipped, I slipped for about a year. When I came back I embraced the reality of the program and my life changed - for the better. Meeting my current husband (11 years) was only be possible because I was using the tools of recovery in all my affairs. I continue to do the steps in a variety of ways each revealing something different. Today I ask myself questions about how I can improve and then act on the answers.

Addictive family, Dinner was a challenge. A smorgabord of food behaviors. My first obsession was bread and I knew enough that is brought me sham My first real addiction was cocaine and it helped me eat less. Exercise bulimia was also part of my story. When drugs and alcohol left my left there was room for food. Being in 2 12 step programs, heard of OA and one more time I found a way to not belong. I discovered my emotional triggers fro binging and continue to do the work one day at a time.

OA Really did save my life. 1999 5x shirts .'6'4'' over 400 lbs,type 2 diabetes I remember Mary G., the person who first greeted me at my first meeting. I identified as a compulsive over eater not realizing I was taking the first step. She was diagnosed with cancer,and always shared she wanted to die sober and abstinent. Abstinence gave me the ability to have continuous improvement in every area of my life.

Coming into OA I have lost weight ans gained skills Started with junk food early in my youth. I powered through sugary, snacks. My physical activity offset my eating unll I got married. I treated myself with bags from the gas stations. Food programs never worked long term. Covid was a disaster for me and my food intake. I was in another program but had never heard of OA. When I did find out I jumped in with the help of the meetings i went to. My program has not been perfect but never left my meetings. I continue to learn in practice personal skills which are bringing me a great life.

I lived in LA when they started 100 Pounder meetings. I became and addict in infancy with teabags filled with sugar instead of a pacifier. I married at 17 to get away from my parents. I was not anything resembling a adult relationship. Came to OA first in 1976 In LA embraced the grey sheet food plan an lost 140 lbs. and relapsed as a blackout eater in and out for 7 years. Took me a long time to connect my weight with my food. Finally got it abstinence coming up on 40 years continuously.

When I came to OA in 92 I was broken. They asked me to read at my first meeting. I said "I can't read, I'm new" - Really? I call my disease my Lower Power. I will go through the 15 newcomer questions to confirm I qualify. I do. Today I am half the man I was both in weight and size. My relationship with my Higher Power, service and the steps are the foundation for my recovery.

I excelled in academics to hide my insecurities up through scholarship in undergrad and flunked out at Grad level. I am a sugar addict, Not a normal eater. I ended up suicidal in a locked ward. I tried going Vegan which was really not compatible with my body. My first 12 step program was ACA, Finally into OA where I learned I had to clean up other addictions to be sober in OA. Today I am active in 3 programs. My motto is to do more of what works and less of what doesn't. I continue to work the steps out of the big book examining my part and what basic instincts are out of whack. i do a little every night. I do a little every day.

I was not wanted and ended in an orphanage. I was adopted by parents who had their own personal and relationship issues. Big as a child and picked on at school. At 20 I worked in LA, saw diet DRs, used speed and lost weight with unintended consequences. Got married for all the wrong reasons. Failed at DRs food plan, Did not qualify for bypass surgery, Was sent to OA - the free one. Eventually leaned into the program. The miracles started kicking in and have not stopped.

"Missed first few minutes, Mike G, amung a crew of guys whose sole purpose was to eat BBQ and lots of it. REALLY LOTS!!!" My BBQ band was my way of being. I would eat tons, publicly, deliberately and proudly. I came into OA My sponsor suggested go to 3 meals a day and 5 things I don't eat. Meetings made it seem real. I was doing the deal. Others were doing the deal. Eating was my connection- now it is OA. Now I sponsor men and i REALLY do care about them. I came in with a list of what my higher power was not. I found I could determine what it would be. My food is now a gift from my higher power building me, nutritionally, I used to used food to keep my rage down. it pooped out as I recovery. I stayed the course and have some scene of emotional sobriety, appropriate reactions to life

Grew up as a perfectionist which served me well during that time. Always overate. No amount of education would help. Drifted near OA but left when I realized there were no 'cheat days'. Like my Birthday. I next came back for a while dabbling as OA 'adjacent' I knew the word but not the behavior. I finally accepted that I am NOT the best judge of what I should be eating.

Member of multiple 12 step programs. I am retired and more to hang by the fridge. I grew up in alcoholic home. and learned to avoid everything with all five children with working addictions. My brother was morbidly obese and recently passed away. I learned to use food to escape, specially at night.. Dinner . then the junk until I passed out. I do the first three steps before every meal. I slows me down to eat mindfully so I know when I am full. Helps me feel satisfied. If I don't go to meetings I can forget and end up listening to my disease rather than my sponsor. There are lots of opportunities for service. It really make a difference for my recovery and helps others...

I took notes during meetings and used the notes as a topic for sharing during outreach calls. First OA meeting 1979. i@ 230 and binging chocolate. I learned to ' Act as If' i believed these suggestions might possible help. Regardless of whether I 'Felt like it' or 'Believed it' or 'Liked it' I weigh and measure my food. 'Sharing pictures' The weight of my body and the weight of the food I eat are the touchstones of truth. I was willing to go to any lengths and it has worked. Good to have a home group where you know them and they get to know you.

I came to my first OA meeting early, thought it was a free weight watchers. My family enjoys exercise and outdoorsy stuff. My dad put a padlock on the pantry for me and a padlock on the liquor cabinet for my brother. For a long time my I thought the most important thing was that I was not slim. Being fat was the cause for all my problems. In 1999 I went to OA full of shame the whole meeting but kept coming back. Physical recovery was the last thing I achieved. I know I am either maintaining or gaining. That thought helps me stay on course.

Came into OA through Al-Anon. I grew up in a dysfunctional home and coped by being good and eating, supressing any emotions and pretending to be what they wanted. I accepted a suggestion from my wife, went to an OA meeting and knew I had found my people. I fell in line, got a sponsor worked the steps lost weight. Lost my sponsor, stopped working the steps and some weight came back on. Today with a new sponsor I am working steps like a newcomer and my recovery is coming back. I still wanted to be my own higher power or let other be that Power That has changed with my surrender to the OA Program. Now I am turning everything I can over to my HP and my life is getting better. The more honest I am with my steps the more I discover. I am gaining acceptance of things that happened,things I have done and myself.

My core family emotion was rage. Learned to ask for NOTHING. As an anorexic I was not connected to my hunger until I was way overdue for food and then I binged. I entered recovery by removing all sharp knives and having my friends hide them from me.I was not well. Today I still weigh and measure my food at home. Every step has life lessons. My food plan is redundant - That works well for me. I have been with my food sponsor for 30 years. He knows me well. My friends are in recovery. I am in other 12 step programs. I have to be good in all 3 to call myself 'sober'

Topped out over 300 LBS Now I have 44 years abstinent. I was overweight early and hated myself growing up I was berated by my family. Went to first OA meeting at 17 in 1973. I had lots of difficulties with the steps The grey sheet helped me loose weight. . . A lot of weight. but not for long. I ate my way into the threat of diabetic blindness. All my reasons for avoiding OA were trashed my first meeting back. I was full of resentments and did not want to be told what to do. Eventually I began the inner work and got better results in my body but specially in my mind. There are always reasons to eat. Better reason to abstain.

My parents were both Holocaust survivors which brought food issues. My parents in the food business which made it easy for me to catch this disease. In 4th grade was prescribed Speed. as time went on I tried many prescription drugs as well as the pay and weigh. Working at Knotts Berry Farm there were rides I was not allowed to ride. I got a newcomer pack, read it, learned it and eventually figured i would be here for the long haul. In OA with a sponsor I got the unconditional love I was desperately seeking from my family. I continue to learn in this program.

I went to AA Meetings to support another and it filtered into me and my food. Even with sponsors I went insane with dieting. which led me away from the program. In 2008 I hit another bottom which took me back to program. I jumped into all aspects of the program, steps, service, a daily ritual. My experience is that with my yellow light foods I was in denial that they belonged to the red light list.

My wife was taking a client to AA meetings sitting in the back. Mentioned they had a problem with alcohol like I did with food and mentioned OA. That did not please me. I ended up in OA wanting relief from the grief without making any changes in my behavior. Eventually I embraced actually doing as told, getting a food plan, doing the steps. I have done the steps and continue each time I take a sponsee through them. I have daily actions regarding my food, my programmed and my life. I can still be driven by pride, self centeredness or fear but not as often not as long and not as intensely.

I was adopted and that comes with its unique baggage. I always felt there was something wrong with me. My story matches so many others, My mom comforted me with food and it worked. I came to OA in 1976. I followed the strict food plan, lost weight and collected sponsees. It cost me my family which was not a bad thing. I started meetings at my apartment. And found a church that synced well with my program. I unknowingly married an alcoholic which led to my relapse. which led me to Al-Anon. which opened my eyes even more. The beginning of her sobriety was also my return to abstinence. I have a morning ritual which includes my sponsees, reading, walking and it seems to be working . . for me.

Always bought clothes in Husky.My parents would bribe me to loose weight. did it, got the prize then right back up. It was suggested. I go to OA. and found out it was not Order of the Arrow. First food plan was grey sheet. lost weight, too much weigh. I was sent to AA and discovered 'Solutions.. Learned to listen for the similarities, not the differences. I was directed to a sponsor who scared me the most. How do you keep weight off? - repeatedly running up the steps. Today I can be honest with God, Myself and my sponsor. I share my gratitude with individuals freely.

My first food plan was no sugar which seemed impossible. When I got 21 Days i was eligible to be a sponsor. The foundation of my abstinence was still no sugar my food plan is built on that. That gave me too much wiggle room. I ended up down to 88 lbs on the food plan I had been given. It did not last and I left OA From then on I went up and own with insane eating and insane diets. I calculated how much laxative I need to take take to offset my eating. Today I have a daily ritual, solid food plan that works and a relationship and conscious contact with a higher power.

2 Periods of abstinence. For me abstinence is binary, I am or i am not. When I came back I was eating from the produce aisle and still gaining weight. There was a shift when I changed from eating emotionally to eating nutritionally based on a food plan. I have a Higher Power and I shorten it to God. I still feel the pull. Today I call me sponsor instead of giving into it. Half of my abstinence is an attitude, Program always comes first.

Sober 32 years , Abstinent - 2 Food is a bigger deal and harder Top weight over 350 lbs. I am now in a body and a mind that does not include dieting. I just wanted the diet, I can do this! For a while For me steps 6 and 7 were the miracle steps. Transformed my relationship with me. I imagined a abstinent life of suffering. I din't hear that, just imagined that. I was not ready for so long, I prayed be ready and one day it happened. I stopped convincing myself of the path I imagined and started to accept reality which was not anywhere near as bad as my scenario.

I have maintained an over 300 lb weight loss for past 4 years. in High school I had friends who were concerned. at 250 lbs. As I moved up in weight I just gave any thought of approproiate eating. I knew I needed more that a diet. I prayed to have the weight removed and it was still there in the morning. Massive health problem gave me pause to think about it No More. I was sure I was going to die and surrendered to that which led me to surrender to believing i was a compulsive over eater which allowed me to allow OA into my life. I hit a bottom which was the moment I stopped digging. Once I got a sponsor and started working the steps, my recovery started. Not only the weight loss but keeping it off is a miracle,' My children no longer have to be my caregiver. I get the be the dad. OA - Simple yes, Easy no

Came in over 350. Was told I needed surgery but not until I lost 70 lbs - I put on 20. I got candy to keep my dad's alcohol secret and got paid with candy to rat him out. I learned to pray, but for stuff. I ended up married and pregnant an got permission to eat like I wanted. I volunteered for everything all over the place to prove I was worthy. There was a moment when I realize I was choosing between life OR chocolate cake. i am no longer alone. I work with a sponsor and my doctor.

Highest weight - 460 I had lots of real feelngs, food kept me safe. I had skills, sought and achieved validation. but it was never enough. I had a way of pushing people way, and feel rejected. Food never rejected me. 2018 dangerous diabetic diagnosis.doubled up on food and medicine.Made since to me. 11/11/2020 arrived in OA and admitted I was powerless over food. Had negative side affects. Got a sponsor early on and went through the steps but still do step 1,2 and 3 every day. Every step was transformational the first time trough and still is. More is revealed every time I go through them. now know I have a multitude of characters defects which I work on AND characters assets which continue to grow.

1st abstinence I lost over 200 lbs. Verbally and physically abusive upbringing. Food helped. Top weight over 400. 2 devastating losses brought me to my knees. My self talk was extremely negative until I started working the steps Still working on improving my relationship with a higher power.

Thin untill High School Up to 350. Drugs were the only diet than helped until OA. After car accident 1983 I ended up in OA. I heard my story. Abstinent since 5/31/83 Initially I was reluctant because of the God stuff. Jumped into the steps I WANTED what you had. When my sponsor went out I moved to the middle of the herd. I realize now I was very angry my first 5 years. I hate the phrase 'More will be revealed' It is true and today I have twe steps to handle this new stuff. I talk the tools in and out of the program........

Missing first two minutes of recording. :( Dieted in college comparing myself to everyone else. First time I thought it was a problem. Going to Weight Watcher did not work as I was not willing to take directions and be different from my peers. Somehow I thought the larger I got the more invisible i became. Knowing I could eat in class was a gift from God. By the time I got to OA I was pretty beaten down. I could not fit in a booth etc. Could not keep lying to myself. In OA I saw the light in people eyes, They told a shameful truth and people clapped. I wanted that. Two parts of my abstinence.Temporal and substance. When and what I eat are different components for my recovery. once I decided I wanted what you had and became willing to go to any lengths it all kicked into gear. After a while my mind, my heart and my soul opened up and could receive the gifts of this program.

I came from a long line of good cooks and compulsive over-eaters. I thought I could eat whatever my husband ate, added baby weight and kept it all and more. Medical, pay and weigh, hypnosis and a multitude of other weight loss schemes failed to work for very long. June 201 I started a diet took me form 317 to 192 in two years. No steps yet. 2020 landed in OA, qualified according the test questions, discovered my tribe but didn't know it yet. Today I am retired andand not afraid. I work the programs, am involved with my meeting. do service and have a good realtionship with my higher power. I am active, accountable and am loving my life due to OA.

Abstaining over 37 years. Came in over 340 lbs. I came to OA because a friend but n=knew nothing of any anonymous program. My only motivation to come to OA was because I was afraid of loosing my children. Could not come up with a good enough lie to not go to the 2nd meeting. I got a sponsor who tricked me into more meeting per week and discovered a thurday night meeting of people just like me. Still my home group. I do everything for one day. Same routine. I invite my higher Power into every aspect of my life listed out loud. I have never left, I am still teachable, and I can ask for help.

Topped out 576. lbs in 1999. Came into program thinking I would loose enough weight to do Barriatric surgery. God had other plans. It was 'suggested' I work the program. My food plan has changed but my program has not. i was a compulsive rebel - today I have a pause button which helps me to take more appropriate actions. Today I have a God of my understanding which, like my program, has never failed me. I am blessed with a home, a family a career and a partner. I am 350 Lbs lighter without surgery. It is all result of my working the OA Program to the best of my ability.

I recovered through AA literature and it has stayed my focus. I remember the anticipation and pleasure from my first steak when I was 6 and my life changed. I would binge on bologna sandwiches. I could not stop doing the binging which caused me so much misery. I realized there was something wrong with me. Nobody did what I did with food. In my mid thirties my world became very small. Working a graveyard shift allowed to go to 3 meetings a day. I had physhical success from my diet. No recovery whatsoever. Finally it seemed that getting a sponsor may be helpful. I surrendered my sugar and was allowed my atheism. So I stayed. Today my health, my PTSD and my Atheism have been addressed. For me I remain in action for my recovery and helping other which helps me.

I discovered comfort food as a infant. I was tall and big before I was 9. At 25 I had my first suicide attempt. I was blackout eater. I have been paddled back to lifetwice at 350 lbs. There is so much more. Today I have a daily ritual, which keeps me sane, abstinent and useful. I record my food and and express my gratitude to my Higher Power maintaining a 150 Lb. weight loss.

I Was in mental hospital at 16 and learned about drugs. It did not help my weight but I was taken to AA. Found OA grey sheet in 1977. Got physical recovery and several relapses. For me the "OA Diet" worked briefly several times with more weigh gain up to 300. For more than 35 years I took what I liked and left the rest. Eventually I actually did all 12 steps with a sponsor Today I have a food plan. Participate in service, sponsor people, and work the entire program to the best of my ability.

First came into OA in 2006. After multiple relapse I finally realized my recovery HAD to be my primary focus in order to have the rest of my life. As a child I wanted to be invisible but my weight made that impossible. I had excel spreadsheets for the diets I would start on Monday. Today I have am maintaining a 150 lb weight loss. The level of my honesty is reflected in the quality of my recovery. I have walked through a myriad of problems and not turned to the food. My daily ritual for my recovery it sacred for me. When My relationship with God is right relianace of food is gone.

33.75 years abstinent and maintaining121 lb weight loss. Prior to OA I was a nutritional expert gaining and loosing over 700 lbs a little at a time. I knew how to get shinny, but not for long. Heavy I was angry, Thin I was angry. Hmmmm. About the time I was planning my suicide I went to OA. Found people who didn't overeat AND they didn't want to. They had the 12 steps. I have had tragedy and good fortunes and did not turn to the food on either end. I can put an abstinent meal together anywhere in the world. I do not believe I could just go to a couple of meeting a week and maintain my life. It is the whole program. meetings, sponsoring, calls and introspection that works for me and keeps my disease at bay.

2002 Came to OA hundred pounder. Knew about AA and felt sorry for those poor addicts. My pitch is for those who are tortured by what they eat. I was convinced I need a sponsor, needed to call him and I recived a new life. Got involved in service, met a girl and got married. By 2017 I lost interest in recovery. my weight climbed, my enjoyment in my life plummeted. Every plan I made feel through until I the only thing left was back to OA. I thought if I lost weight fast I was getting better. Today I make no food decision on my own. I am food neutral. I am an atheist who prays a lot.

There are some gaps in the recording due to poor internet. ***** Even as a child the goal of being thin and eating as much as possible were at odds. At 11 I went OA. They were nice but that was all I remember. At 15 all I wanted them to do was' Stop Talking!' I followed a diet and called it recovery. In '94 I began my recovery, getting a sponsor and following directions he gave me. I got amazing results loosing weight AND found the ability to spout OA wisdom like it was my own. I got so good I began sponsoring myself because I was so good. Finally got back with all my weight, followed new directions with a slight degree of humility developed and relationship with my higher power and began the road to real recovery.

My childhood was devoted to sweets. A friend died of obesity when we were 41. Got me to a doctor who scared me healthy for a moment. Found a new diet online called OA. Followed grey sheet, lost weight with no recovery. and paid the price. Finally found my way back to OA and the Pizza Box meeting. They were extremely serious about their recovery AND had fun. Today I have have a daily ritual including the tools of the program and tools I have learned from other abstinent members. Today I do my best to do the right thing around food, relationships, driving - life. My step zero is to always remember WHY I am in OA. Isolation is my enemy. The fellowship helps me conquer that enemy.

Sugary and starchy foods are a problem for me. I was a chronic dieter and nothing ever lasted. At 5' 1" almost 300 lbs is a lot of mass. My thinnest got me hospitalized. Always Malnourished. I came to O. A. seeking and external solution to an internal problem. Self loathing is not the path to recovery. I was inspired (Not my idea) to attend an OA Conference. I was struck abstinent at that weekend. I am always moving toward or away from my Higher Power. Toward is better. I cannot do this alone. I need all of you and all the tools. My GPS is God's Powerful Spirit.

Came in 2007 at 519 lbs I had a core belief ' I am not ok". If thing did not go the way I wanted it proved me right, kept me outside. I learned to accept that truth. My relationship with food verified it more. My weight went up, down, up more, down, up more up to a high of 525. The honest awareness and acceptance I could not do it by myself got me into O.A. Step 1 was a grieving process for me. When I want too know what I am supposed to do, I look at what I am resisting. Any time I think I got away with something, it becomes a heavier weight than the food.

Came back into program from a terrible relapse in 2010 Took until 2014 to get abstinence. My mother put me on diets very young. No diet lasted very long. I went from a small town catholic girls school to NYC nursing school. discovered I really like to party. Married with two children I thought there would be a top to my weight gain. Did not find it. Anxiety pills and vodka produced the expected result and ended up in the ER. Finally I committed up in OA followed direction, did service, had friends and thought I was good and could do this without meetings. That did not work. and I got up to my highest weight. In 2014 I started my real journey to recovery into a life beyond my wildest dreams.

I think I was a compulsive over-eater as kid. Thin kid with a belly. I got in trouble for bumming food. I picked up drugs and that worked for me. I ended up putting down the spoon and picked up the fork. I ended up using and eating up to over 300 Lbs. I found out about OA, got a food plan and literature and did it on my own. But not very well. Finally realized I needed a sponsor. got a real food plan and accountability. He helped me realized how many of my thoughts were insane. Helped me discover the phone was not my enemy. Riding a stationary bike, I lost 100 lbs, gained 80, lost it again all while riding the bike hours a day. Discovered the quantity of appropriate food I was eating made a difference. By the time I finished the steps I was eating extra bites with the obvious results. For the past 20 years I call my sponsor, am accountable for my food, sponsor other men and hold the programs as sacred.

Spring bringing a sense or renewal parallels my experience in OA Prior to OA I was a Seed, full of potential but eating and nothings happens, In OA I germinated and began to grow - spiritually. But not right away. My highest was at least 562. so far over 300 lbs Walking upstairs is a miracle given to me by my participation in OA. There are "God shots" which give me appropriate times to share about program. Things tend to work out better when I am present and that only happens when I am NOT in the food. The problem is rarely what I think it is, It is more likely how I think about it.