Mill Creek OA 100 Pounder Speaker Meeting

Abstaining over 37 years. Came in over 340 lbs. I came to OA because a friend but n=knew nothing of any anonymous program. My only motivation to come to OA was because I was afraid of loosing my children. Could not come up with a good enough lie to not go to the 2nd meeting. I got a sponsor who tricked me into more meeting per week and discovered a thurday night meeting of people just like me. Still my home group. I do everything for one day. Same routine. I invite my higher Power into every aspect of my life listed out loud. I have never left, I am still teachable, and I can ask for help.

Topped out 576. lbs in 1999. Came into program thinking I would loose enough weight to do Barriatric surgery. God had other plans. It was 'suggested' I work the program. My food plan has changed but my program has not. i was a compulsive rebel - today I have a pause button which helps me to take more appropriate actions. Today I have a God of my understanding which, like my program, has never failed me. I am blessed with a home, a family a career and a partner. I am 350 Lbs lighter without surgery. It is all result of my working the OA Program to the best of my ability.

I recovered through AA literature and it has stayed my focus. I remember the anticipation and pleasure from my first steak when I was 6 and my life changed. I would binge on bologna sandwiches. I could not stop doing the binging which caused me so much misery. I realized there was something wrong with me. Nobody did what I did with food. In my mid thirties my world became very small. Working a graveyard shift allowed to go to 3 meetings a day. I had physhical success from my diet. No recovery whatsoever. Finally it seemed that getting a sponsor may be helpful. I surrendered my sugar and was allowed my atheism. So I stayed. Today my health, my PTSD and my Atheism have been addressed. For me I remain in action for my recovery and helping other which helps me.

I discovered comfort food as a infant. I was tall and big before I was 9. At 25 I had my first suicide attempt. I was blackout eater. I have been paddled back to lifetwice at 350 lbs. There is so much more. Today I have a daily ritual, which keeps me sane, abstinent and useful. I record my food and and express my gratitude to my Higher Power maintaining a 150 Lb. weight loss.

I Was in mental hospital at 16 and learned about drugs. It did not help my weight but I was taken to AA. Found OA grey sheet in 1977. Got physical recovery and several relapses. For me the "OA Diet" worked briefly several times with more weigh gain up to 300. For more than 35 years I took what I liked and left the rest. Eventually I actually did all 12 steps with a sponsor Today I have a food plan. Participate in service, sponsor people, and work the entire program to the best of my ability.

First came into OA in 2006. After multiple relapse I finally realized my recovery HAD to be my primary focus in order to have the rest of my life. As a child I wanted to be invisible but my weight made that impossible. I had excel spreadsheets for the diets I would start on Monday. Today I have am maintaining a 150 lb weight loss. The level of my honesty is reflected in the quality of my recovery. I have walked through a myriad of problems and not turned to the food. My daily ritual for my recovery it sacred for me. When My relationship with God is right relianace of food is gone.

33.75 years abstinent and maintaining121 lb weight loss. Prior to OA I was a nutritional expert gaining and loosing over 700 lbs a little at a time. I knew how to get shinny, but not for long. Heavy I was angry, Thin I was angry. Hmmmm. About the time I was planning my suicide I went to OA. Found people who didn't overeat AND they didn't want to. They had the 12 steps. I have had tragedy and good fortunes and did not turn to the food on either end. I can put an abstinent meal together anywhere in the world. I do not believe I could just go to a couple of meeting a week and maintain my life. It is the whole program. meetings, sponsoring, calls and introspection that works for me and keeps my disease at bay.

2002 Came to OA hundred pounder. Knew about AA and felt sorry for those poor addicts. My pitch is for those who are tortured by what they eat. I was convinced I need a sponsor, needed to call him and I recived a new life. Got involved in service, met a girl and got married. By 2017 I lost interest in recovery. my weight climbed, my enjoyment in my life plummeted. Every plan I made feel through until I the only thing left was back to OA. I thought if I lost weight fast I was getting better. Today I make no food decision on my own. I am food neutral. I am an atheist who prays a lot.

There are some gaps in the recording due to poor internet. ***** Even as a child the goal of being thin and eating as much as possible were at odds. At 11 I went OA. They were nice but that was all I remember. At 15 all I wanted them to do was' Stop Talking!' I followed a diet and called it recovery. In '94 I began my recovery, getting a sponsor and following directions he gave me. I got amazing results loosing weight AND found the ability to spout OA wisdom like it was my own. I got so good I began sponsoring myself because I was so good. Finally got back with all my weight, followed new directions with a slight degree of humility developed and relationship with my higher power and began the road to real recovery.

My childhood was devoted to sweets. A friend died of obesity when we were 41. Got me to a doctor who scared me healthy for a moment. Found a new diet online called OA. Followed grey sheet, lost weight with no recovery. and paid the price. Finally found my way back to OA and the Pizza Box meeting. They were extremely serious about their recovery AND had fun. Today I have have a daily ritual including the tools of the program and tools I have learned from other abstinent members. Today I do my best to do the right thing around food, relationships, driving - life. My step zero is to always remember WHY I am in OA. Isolation is my enemy. The fellowship helps me conquer that enemy.

Sugary and starchy foods are a problem for me. I was a chronic dieter and nothing ever lasted. At 5' 1" almost 300 lbs is a lot of mass. My thinnest got me hospitalized. Always Malnourished. I came to O. A. seeking and external solution to an internal problem. Self loathing is not the path to recovery. I was inspired (Not my idea) to attend an OA Conference. I was struck abstinent at that weekend. I am always moving toward or away from my Higher Power. Toward is better. I cannot do this alone. I need all of you and all the tools. My GPS is God's Powerful Spirit.

Came in 2007 at 519 lbs I had a core belief ' I am not ok". If thing did not go the way I wanted it proved me right, kept me outside. I learned to accept that truth. My relationship with food verified it more. My weight went up, down, up more, down, up more up to a high of 525. The honest awareness and acceptance I could not do it by myself got me into O.A. Step 1 was a grieving process for me. When I want too know what I am supposed to do, I look at what I am resisting. Any time I think I got away with something, it becomes a heavier weight than the food.

Came back into program from a terrible relapse in 2010 Took until 2014 to get abstinence. My mother put me on diets very young. No diet lasted very long. I went from a small town catholic girls school to NYC nursing school. discovered I really like to party. Married with two children I thought there would be a top to my weight gain. Did not find it. Anxiety pills and vodka produced the expected result and ended up in the ER. Finally I committed up in OA followed direction, did service, had friends and thought I was good and could do this without meetings. That did not work. and I got up to my highest weight. In 2014 I started my real journey to recovery into a life beyond my wildest dreams.

I think I was a compulsive over-eater as kid. Thin kid with a belly. I got in trouble for bumming food. I picked up drugs and that worked for me. I ended up putting down the spoon and picked up the fork. I ended up using and eating up to over 300 Lbs. I found out about OA, got a food plan and literature and did it on my own. But not very well. Finally realized I needed a sponsor. got a real food plan and accountability. He helped me realized how many of my thoughts were insane. Helped me discover the phone was not my enemy. Riding a stationary bike, I lost 100 lbs, gained 80, lost it again all while riding the bike hours a day. Discovered the quantity of appropriate food I was eating made a difference. By the time I finished the steps I was eating extra bites with the obvious results. For the past 20 years I call my sponsor, am accountable for my food, sponsor other men and hold the programs as sacred.

Spring bringing a sense or renewal parallels my experience in OA Prior to OA I was a Seed, full of potential but eating and nothings happens, In OA I germinated and began to grow - spiritually. But not right away. My highest was at least 562. so far over 300 lbs Walking upstairs is a miracle given to me by my participation in OA. There are "God shots" which give me appropriate times to share about program. Things tend to work out better when I am present and that only happens when I am NOT in the food. The problem is rarely what I think it is, It is more likely how I think about it.

I came into OA wondering why everyone was cheerful. My eating habits were reflected in the birth weight of my children. I picked a sponsor for their energy and joy, not the weight loss. I don't know what ' A little bit' means. I am better off when have a solid food plan and don't have to think about it or make decisions. I survived my son's wedding. I work to avoid complacency. I am maxed out with 2 sponsees, school and a family. It all brings me joy as long as I work my program. I am look forward to what God has in store for me tomorrow.

Normal weight up till 11 when my Dad died. In HS I was 4'9" and 250. My mom put me on every diet available and none worked. 1st time in OA I lost over 100 Lbs but it brought up issues I was unwilling to deal with. OA works if you work it. I didn't. Came back with a clearer understanding my step one. I lived with the paradox of the my weight saying 'Notice me' and also wanting to be invisible. My 2nd time in ended with one bite of See's candy. I came back a 3rd time with a commitment not to leave, no matter what. Today I am comfortable in my body, I am healthy and happy. I know OA saved my life, gave me self-esteem. I exercise regularly, talk with my sponsor and more. My food plan varies based on an honest evaluation of my relationship with particular foods at particular times.

I have had all the promises come true and can still be a jerk. I came into program 40 years ago. Living in Woodland hills drove to LA to meeting. the obsession hit and I bought food on the way home but was to sick to eat it. GOD = Gift of Desperation. I came in angry at everybody and everything. Today I am a safe person. Find someone you trust and can really talk to. Happy joyous and free is feel safe and secure in yourself. At the end of one successful diet I gained 17 lbs in one week. I still report my food in every day. It is what works for me.

Never a time when food wasn't the most important thing to me. First OA Meeting when I was 12. At 23 I was my top weight 423 but because I was young the physical damage was not that bad yet. I broke toilets, lived through surgical complications and more all because of my weight without any change. My body was killing me and I couldn't do anything. It was the only body I knew When I fanallly return to OA that meeting was about death and I felt at home. For the first year I sponsored myself rigorously and had some results until I hit my own plateau several times. Regardless of where I was food wise I never left the program. I am two different people. My life in the food and my life in recovery. Today I have a life where I am trusted, I experience love in both directions and I have self esteem.

100 Pounder multiple times. I lost the weight but i was still me and my best friend was food. I am a survivor of abuse as a child. As an adult I addressed my part and moving from victim to survivor. I was always my own worst critic and I was brutal. When I found my first OA Meeting I was broken and hopeless. They welcomed me. Current weight loss is about 155 lbs. Service has saved my life. I recommend it. I continue to connect the dots from my past to adjust my future. My disease wants me dead. Today I want to live.

Top weight over 500 lbs in high school. Now around 195. I flucuated between 350 and 500 many times. Coming into OA I had a food plan AND I restricted. I started lying, the food and weight was coming back and I acknowledged I was in relapse. I eventually ended up praying, had a spiritual experience and the journey to recovery started for real. Rigorous honesty became a way of life as I made my amends. I still want more - That is my disease. But I don't act on it - That is my recovery.

Cannot remember a time when I was not obsessed with food. Major disappointment when I realized my size was related to my food and thought it was my fault. Going away to college opened up all the doors. Top recorded weight was 236. now about 135. On my own I lost weight but was super unhealthy and the stress was still terrible. Why can't I control this? Came into OA realizing I was an alcoholic with food. Crazy for the first few moths, Then settled down as I did the steps. Some of the tools every day.

No matter how long I have been in the program I need to be accountable for my food. I gained 110 Lbs in my last relapse which brought on a host of physical problems When I took my 1st compulsive bite 4 years ago it did not occur to me downhill path I would go down. I never stopped going to meetings or the OA birthday event. In a moment without my intention I jumped back in. got a sponsor and took direction against my will. Day by day I developed and improved a relationship with a higher power. . for REAL. Now I have 2 years. A ropes course became the metaphor for my not having and then reconnecting with my higher power.

Joined OA In San Fernando Valley for a year. The premise ' I can do it in my own' did not work. My intellectual armor was the wall I kept banging into. Coming back to OA it was a spiritual focus on the steps and tools which relieved me of the bondage of self and made the difference for the long term. Our food plan is personal based on our PARTICULAR way of eating compulsively.

I was packing food. Loved being full. Day after day - "I'll never do this again." I married the first guy who asked and had 2 kids by 21. I believed I was a victim . . .of my husband, of my disease of everything. It was always a diet, Goal weight and immediately 'game on' I got caught eating a spoiled sandwich for the first time I was outed for a particular behavior. When I admitted I was a compulsive over-eater I had my own identity for the first time. I embraced the concept of 'No Matter What' from the beginning. I feel anxiety over any change in my food plan. I avoided the God stuff in the beginning. then it changed.

When I ate I got things done. I was choosing food over shelter. A 300 lbs I felt small. I went to OA, got embraced, hooked and started my recovery. I get an apartment and a job the first week. The foundation of my recovery is honesty. That creates the space for God to come in. My recovery is not a return but a discovery and becoming who I am. I am in multiple 12 steps programs and I need to be. but OA is my home base. I have been through a lot of emotional events and stayed abstinent. Question begin @ 26 minutes.

Thin to normal until late teens. by 24 years old I added 3 kids and 125 pounds. Tried to manage my weight myself with little results Came to OA 2 years ago, Had 1 short slip after 6 months and now a back on track. I have medical issue and medicine that affects my weight. At one point I would try to make my husband responsible for what I ate.

As a child my constant discontent was only salved with food. Joining the service kept in under control . . for a while. When everything failed even in the program I finally surrendered and got a sponsor and followed direction. and i worked. Who knew?

I am not an occasional or moderate over eater. I am addict as outlined in the Big Book My relationship with my higher power mirrors my recovery. My recovery jumped into high gear when I started working the program as outlined in the Big Book.

We are united by a very personal and individual disease. well over 300 LBS a number of times was one way my disease manifested in my life. Rapid weight gain and rapid weight loss was a recurring pattern. My therapist 'suggested' OA. I became abstinent immediately. It was a shock. I found I was able to out foods down for one day . . repeatedly. The Doctor's Opinion in the Big Book meant a lot to me. I Liked the effect of my reaction to my addictive behavior. As a result of this program I HAVE experienced the psychic change.

I had my stomach pumped at age 5. I ate over every single feeling. My family tried everything, doctors, bribes etc, some worked . for a second. Food was my second addiction, Poor me. Joined a very strict program, Felt great for two years, then back out and plus 100. Important to trick the fast food clerk that it wasn't all for me. Found OA in order to work the steps on food through the Big Book. Honesty was a real problem for me. Or rather lack of honesty. First miracle was starting on a Thursday. This time through the steps was an eye opener (understatement). Doing what was asked yielded real results. Zoom is gift of Covid allowing me to sneak back into the rooms before I was perfect. Today I do morning prayers, text my sponsor, read from the Big Book. commit my recovery to my higher power. Still working on my honesty.

I had a good childhood. No major drama, church etc. However Love = Food and I wanted love. with weight - Loosing =Good, Gaining = Bad. Only in hindsight do I realize food was my drug even as a child. I was active which helped keep my weight down but I still used pills. Left on my own in college - Game on! Through marriage, kids the YoYo got bigger, more expensive, and more devastating. I knew there was a spiritual problem but knowing it didn't work. I ended up in OA,, surrendered to God, have given up 197 Lbs, and maintain it.

Stats - came in 2011 at 35 years old and 320 Lbs. Now maintaining a 150 lb loss for the last 4 years. Only one of 5 kids who was overweight.. I was a participant in my life. My weight did not define me but it was always with me. Lost 90 lbs before getting pregnant, Put on 100 during and after. I had heard about OA from my mom forever so I knew where to go when I was ready. 3.5 years for physical recovery. Finally hooked up with a sponsor and worked the steps from a phone meeting way before Covid forced it upon us. Going through the steps and the Big Book transformed my recovery, my relationship with a Higher Power and I achieved food neutrality. I ended up overeating with fruit which was triggered by dextrose in salt pack at work AND because I did not tell the truth to my sponsor. Today I maintain my weight and my clothes always fit. I can be with my family without enjoy them enjoying thier food. I work the steps every day as need without shame. and wrap my day up with a review of my successes and a ask God to help me get better in other areas.

I put on 250 lbs in high school. I had success with a soup, Valium and scotch diet, for a minute. I thought drugs would be my solution. I had highly negative side effects. I ended up in OA with 3 three meals nothing in between one day at a time and today I have a level of serenity and acceptance beyond anything I could have imagined. My goal weight is what I weigh today and adjust my food plan accordingly when it drifts. I can find an abstinent meal in any restaurant in the world. My never ending journey through the steps has ups and downs with continuous improvements in my behavior. My dreams are coming true because of OA.

Young trauma, Covered it up with food. There was a moment when I really did eat a full dinner for 5 by myself. I used my size and was successful in football and still wanted to avoid the spotlight. My binge was a cycle. dramatically dropping weight for specific events. I struggled with letting people in. Good at work but no social skills. A woman, God and church came into my life and chased the binges away - for a while. I was sure if anyone knew how I ate they would reject me - horribly. I had a medical emergency which turned into a miracle. Then ate up to 670 Lbs Treatment ended up in white knuckle recovery. worked for a year. Back up and back to treatment where the OA seed was planted. Miracle after miracle led be into my current successful recovery and a quality life.

I come from an obese family so we were all big boned. I was able to be a large drug addict. My 20's and 30's was a series of Pay and Weighs. I started out as an OA Rockstar led to 'I got this'. Back up to 300. I came back and have been weighing and measuring for over 5 years. It works for me. It took me while to find my spiritual groove for my life and my food. Everyone is different. I have been in the same weight zone and have been the same size for years. I no longer weigh myself so I am not affected by the number. I wish I could include my family on me recovery journey but that it is their choice. I am no longer envious of 'normal' eaters.

I did not realize I was overeating until I found family photo when I was 9. I was devastated. I believed I was a hopeless case. Came to OA at 29 and found my people. Got a sponsor and got up to step 5. Then I met him. Got to top weight. The was series of OA meetings I didn't go to. Finally back to OA 26 years after the first time. I have done the steps multiple times; each time different because each time I am different.

I thought nobody did what I did, lied, hid etc I have had the same food plan for 18 years. Today food is fuel for my body. I came in just to change my body, what changed was everything. As I read the big book I identified with so many of the stories. I have admitted, accepted, surrendered and changed. My sponsor says "What do you want to talk to me about that you don't want to talk to me about?" Action is the magic word. Now my life is the opposite of the Bedevilments (Big Book P. 52)

Geographics, Hair/no hair, nothing helped me stop eating. Today I have over 15,000 days abstinent. I thought OA was going to be a cult, I went to a meeting halfway out the door. Instead I heard MY story and had recovered. I resonated with the term ' Food Addict'. I Did go through withdrawal. and I only had to do it once. Aha - If it works for you it might work for me. Worth a try. Much to my chagrin the day I hit goal weight was just another day. Our spirituality is based on service.

1st abstinence after my third son for a few years and thought 'I got this' and did not leave meetings. Thought I couldn't do school and OA, -I Picked school. Ended up in pain unable to walk much and all the physical stuff. I was scared I would die in my sleep. Controlling my program got me to 242. Following a food plan gave me food neutrality. My life is not perfect but I am not in the Hell I had with the food. The least of my positive results is my weight loss. My family relationships are so much better. I aspire to behave as a woman in recovery one day at a time. I know in my heart ' It works if you work it . . with a sponsor.'

Food was my little buddy. Didn't know how to be without it. In Jr High I controlled my weight but I was an emotional wreck. I vacillated between managing my food or my emotions but not both. I had the lap-Band surgery and gained 20 lbs because I was always a grazer, small amounts all the time. Second surgery for sleeve, same results. just took longer. Covid was my last food failure but OA on Zoom became my Savior. I got a sponsor who gently dragged me through the steps and I have some recovery. My relationships, my finances, my self talk has all improved - ALOT. Daily 10th step keeps me emotionally present.

Missing First 15 Minutes of the speaker. Outreach calls are gestures to God that I am willing to participate.

We do not have to face this disease alone. I was trained to be open and tell the truth. I got the sponsor and threw myself to the steps. I wanted to make my amends abut my sponsor made me do the steps in order. Her amends are inspirational. 35 years of service in OA has uplifted my program and my fellowship. My 27 year amazing marriage was a direct result of OA.

I was obese and active, leave me alone. My OA Journey started 5 years ago when I was traveling. But I didn't have a problem. Even though 5 doctors had told me to loose weight. I was already a member of several 12 step programs but OA started to drip into my consciousness opening the door to listen and change. OA Birthday parties always kicked my program back into gear. Suddenly 7 months in I am in a hotel with a microwave feeding 2 for months. It wasn't pretty. I did it better each of the next 5 times. My open heart surgery was a major turning point to make more healthy food choices . .seriously! I have let some foods go and embraced new foods. Its a healthy adventure. Begin anytime. and begin again anytime. Today I am excited to see what my Higher Power has in store for me.

I was an outsider in my own family. I ate a lot at meals and more is secret. I discovered I judged others to feel better about myself. Sometimes I had hard time sleeping so I found meeting for 24 hours a day. I got recovery when I followed the program suggestions. I can find an abstinent meal at any restaurant. Today my life it full of 'Thank You God' moments.

My mom threw lots of money at my weight. I came into OA for the diet. Today I will never diet again. At my high weight I was a physical and emotional wreck. First I wrote everything I ate, then three meals a day, incremental additions became my recovery. I thought my Higher Power was my servant. Eventually I reversed it. My weight loss was a by-product of focusing on my recovery. I no longer steal my children's food. Today rather than fixing everyone and everything My Higher Power helps me seek to adjust my mind. my attitudes, my behavior,

Three legged program - Physical, Emotional, and spiritual. Today I am willing to wear red pants. I went to church and had a relationship with God, Not one I liked. Growing up I turned to food and as long as I didn't eat the last one, avoided trouble . My disease manifested as a single path to isolation. Today I am surrounded by loving friends and I believe them.

22 years in program. I am 5' 6" and was a shade under 600 lbs. I returned after a 6 week relapse with a renewed commitment leading into a spiritual change. . but not right away. Not only do I have a toolbox of recovery, I have learned how to use the tools and DO. I know my problems, OA offers me the solutions. I work the 12 steps AND the 12 traditions.

My first psychic change was in 1973 - Before OA. I can still be willful, vindictive and have learned to make amends. There are other weight loss programs. This is a spiritual program. I eat my entire food plan and no more. Today I have a conscious and continuous contact with my higher power. My family relationships are less than perfect. So it goes.

Abstaining member of OA for more than 36 years. and a recovered liar, sneak, cheat and thief. I was 340 LBS, miserable, my job in jeopardy and I could not stop. I bought the book so I could find the secret. OA didn't teach me how to eat. It taught me how to stop. . . for one day. Little by little I made different choices and avoided certain food. OA was working in my life. Once I was powerless over my addiction I was able to accept help from a higher power. I get to practice not eating compulsively all day today. I use most of the tools every day. (not big on writing)