Still A Part of Us

In this combined birth story and advice episode, dad Jones talks about his daughter Kampbell. She was stillborn at 30 weeks for unknown reasons. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

After the stillbirth of her daughter Kampbell, mom Kristyn encourages other loss parents to take the time to feel all the emotions, and that even though your loss may be similar, it is still unique and different from your own. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Kristyn tells the story of the birth of her sweet daughter Kampbell, who was stillborn at 30 weeks for unknown reasons. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Paul encourages other loss parents to let all the emotions come and to feel them. He also shares his experience of getting out into nature and planting a tree for his son Henry after he was stillborn at 38 weeks. And he advises that if you're going to ask a loss mom or loss dad the question "How are you?", to know that it is a loaded question. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Paul recounts his wife Erin's pregnancy with their son Henry, and his subsequent birth. Henry was stillborn at 38 weeks possibly due to a fetal maternal hemorrhage. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Erin shares with us her experience after losing her son Henry, who was stillborn at 38 weeks due to a fetal maternal hemorrhage, how she managed her anger, and how she learned to ask for help especially when she didn't feel safe being alone. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Erin, a labor and delivery nurse, tells us of her sweet son Henry, who was stillborn at 38 weeks, due to fetal maternal hemorrhage, a rare occurrence. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Cristen talks about how she honors her own experience with the loss of her son Dane, who was stillborn at 35 weeks, and tries not to compare what others have done when they've lost a child. She also wants others to know that her loss isn't a test or a punishment or has to have a meaning--loss just happens. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Cristen tells of her son Dane, who was stillborn at 35 weeks due to funic presentation of the umbilical cord, where the cord was prolapsed and became crimped. Cristen also describes prenatal care and delivery during the time of the COVID-19 pandemic. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Paige goes more into the grief she was anticipating after finding out her son would likely die due to a genetic abnormality that was discovered at 13 weeks. Trigger warning: She also describes her pregnancy after losing her son and how she navigated the emotions she felt during this time. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Paige discusses how she and her husband found out that their son Hoff had a genetic abnormality that would likely result in his death at an ultrasound at 13 weeks. They found themselves dealing with anticipatory grief, knowing they would lose Hoff. He was stillborn close to 20 weeks. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Dad Jem talks about how differently men and women mourn, and not to shy away from asking a loss parent if they want to talk about their child. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Dad Jem recounts his memories of the birth of his daughter Jordan and how she deteriorated quickly and passed away after living for one day. She died of a heart defect that was not detected earlier on ultrasound. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Despite how awkward the conversation may be, mom Jen likes it when others talk about her daughter Jordan, who passed away from a heart defect. She was born full term and died one day after her birth. She also encourages loss parents to accept help when it's offered. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Jen tells us of how her daughter Jordan was born and had 5 minutes where everything was perfect. Bur Jordan quickly declined and passed away one day after she was born due to a heart defect that was not caught earlier on ultrasounds. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Author and grief coach Patricia Sheveland walks us through her book "How Do I Survive? 7 Steps to Living After Child Loss" and what we can do to process the grief we are experiencing after losing our children. Visit her at https://www.healingfamilygrief.com/ for more information and a free copy of her book. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Today, October 15, is the International Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Let's take a moment to remember to our babies and to remember this journey we're going through. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes and transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

In honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, we interview Julie Card, vice-president of Share Parents of Utah. She talks about the loss of her son Isaac when he was 2 days old, how she started volunteering for Share Parents, a national organization to help loss parents, and some things she's seen recently volunteering in group meetings, such as grieving during COVID. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

After his daughter Paige was stillborn, dad Adam recommends talking to other people and a therapist. He also advises to try and find something or someone that helps you be happy after a child loss. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Dad Adam recounts how his wife Liza gave birth to their daughter Paige, who was stillborn at 36 weeks and 4 days due to a placental abruption and HELLP syndrome. HELLP syndrome is characterized by hemolysis (H) (breaking down of red blood cells), elevated liver enzymes (EL), and low platelet count (LP). Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Liza gives advice about how she allows herself grace to feel all the feelings following the stillbirth of her daughter Paige, how she and her husband Adam navigated the birth of their next child via surrogacy, and how she's learned to be more present every day. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Liza recounts the birth story of her daughter Paige, who was stillborn at 36 weeks and 4 days due to a placental abruption and HELLP syndrome. HELLP syndrome is characterized by hemolysis (H) (breaking down of red blood cells), elevated liver enzymes (EL), and low platelet count (LP). Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Lili describes all the things she created to honor her daughter Leia after she was stillborn at 32 weeks due to a nuchal cord accident. She also talks about being pregnant with her 2nd child, her son Indiana, and navigating all the issues that comes with pregnancy after loss. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Lili recounts her pregnancy with first child and daughter Leia, when they discovered that Leia didn't have a heartbeat, and the subsequent birth of Leia at 32 weeks. Leia died due to a nuchal cord accident. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

On this advice episode about her stillborn son Thomas, mom Ashley talks about how grief comes with you, how she needed structure to get back on her feet, and how she appreciates not getting "the look" of pity from others and appreciates when they allow her talk about Thomas. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Ashley tells the birth story of her son Thomas. He passed away at 17 weeks, but they didn't discover it till Ashley's 20-week appointment. He was stillborn at 20 weeks for unknown reasons Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Lee and Winter Redd recount how the last 2 years have been, after the birth of their son, Brannan, after he was stillborn at 38 weeks. They share the big and little things that people have done to help them and what they've done to remember Brannan on a daily basis. Happy birthday, dear Brannan boy! Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

We, Lee and Winter Redd, are happy to celebrate our son's 2nd birthday today, by finally telling his birth story. Brannan Chan Redd was born still on July 23, 2018 at 38 weeks. Happy birthday, our sweet Brannan boy! We love and miss you! Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

We, Lee and Winter Redd, are happy to celebrate our son's 2nd birthday today, by finally telling his birth story. Brannan Chan Redd was born still on July 23, 2018 at 38 weeks. Happy birthday, our sweet Brannan boy! We love and miss you! Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

We chatted with Dr. Jessica Page, a Maternal Fetal Medicine specialist doctor at the University of Utah Health and Intermountain Healthcare in Utah, about stillbirth and the research surrounding stillbirth. She also discusses the many options when performing an autopsy after stillbirth or infant loss. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Dad Sam talks about life after his son Collin's stillbirth and how much he appreciates when others acknowledge his son, no matter how small that acknowledgement is. He also realizes people aren't trying to be mean or insensitive in their comments, and to let these comments roll. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

In this episode, Sam shares his experience of how he and his wife Stephanie discover that their son Collin would be stillborn at 39 weeks. They find out that he likely passed away due to an umbilical cord accident. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Stephanie tells how she took the full 12 weeks of FMLA to heal, how she is navigating talking with her doctor about Collin's cord accident, and that acknowledging Collin, even through a simple text message, makes such a difference to her. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Stephanie tells how she took the full 12 weeks of FMLA to heal, how she is navigating talking with her doctor about Collin's cord accident, and that acknowledging Collin, even through a simple text message, makes such a difference to her. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Stephanie shares her heartbreaking story of discovering her son Collin didn't have a heartbeat and how incredulous she still is that he didn't come with them. Collin was stillborn at 39 weeks due to an umbilical cord accident. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Dad Alfonso shares about the pregnancy and the birth story of his and his wife's daughter Vanessa, who was stillborn at 37 weeks and 6 days. Alfonso talks about his sadness, anger, and sense of needing to connect with someone who has gone through a similar situation. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Kaitlyn tells of how a fellow loss mom validated all her feelings and told her that the pain never leaves you, but days get easier, how she was recommended by her therapist to feel all her feelings and grieve for short amounts of time regularly, then to move forward with her day, and that her friends are sad and mourning for them and their loss of Vanessa. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Kaitlyn shares about her pregnancy and the birth story of her daughter Vanessa, who was stillborn at 37 weeks and 6 days. They would find out that Vanessa died due to a placental abruption. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

In this podcast episode, dad Jackson talks about how grieving takes time and it also changes with time. He observes how his grief and his wife Sydney's grief is sometimes similar and other times, different. They find ways to celebrate and remember their daughter Charley. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes and interview transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Dad Jackson tells his personal account of the birth story of his first child, Charley Mae, and how she was stillborn at 37 weeks, possibly due to a cord accident. He also tells of how he and his wife Sydney had to plan for Charley's funeral afterward and all the support they received. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Sydney reflects on the last 8 months after the stillbirth of her daughter Charley, how everyone has moved on, though it feels like yesterday. She also talks about how much she appreciates a friend who told Sydney that she could talk as much or as little as she wants to. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes and interview transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom and nurse Sydney shares how she suspected something was wrong and tried to find her daughter's heartbeat with a stethoscope. She and her husband Jackson were devastated when they discovered that their first daughter Charley had died and would be stillborn at 37 weeks. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

After his daughter Henley is stillborn, dad Scott tells us of things that he doesn't like people to say to him about his daughter and tells of how much he appreciates it when people say her name and acknowledge that she was a person. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes and interview transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Dad Scott tells about finding out that his daughter Henley would be born still at his wife Meghan's, 36-week appointment, and describes her being born by C-section, and the time after with his daughter. After they decide to have her cremated, Scott finds a castle urn, because she's "his princess". Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

We're Going on a Bear Hunt by Helen Oxenbury and Michael Rosen Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes and transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Because of her experience with her stillborn daughter Henley, mom Meghan tells of how she always warns other pregnant mothers to watch for large, erratic, unusual movements from their baby, which may be a sign of distress. She also encourages other loss parents to do what is best for them when it comes to the time they spend with their baby after birth. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes and interview transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Meghan tells about her textbook pregnancy and the birth story and with her first child, daughter Henley, who was stillborn. At her 36-week checkup, she and her husband Scott heard the words every parent hopes to never hear: I'm sorry. She has no heartbeat. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes and interview transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

In this advice episode, dad Ben tells of how he was given advice about how he and his wife Brooke will mourn differently, how saying "I'm sorry" goes a long way, and how taking the initiative when helping a family mourning the loss of their child will be appreciated by that family. Find the complete show notes and interview transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Dad Ben of the @DonutCritic tells of the details of his pregnant wife Brooke getting a blood clot at 35 weeks, then finding out at 36 weeks that their son Tommy didn't have a heart beat. Ben describes the waiting for labor to progress, Tommy's birth, and his funeral. #stillmychild Find the complete show notes and interview transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

In this advice episode, mom Brooke tells of the past year, grieving the stillbirth of her son Tommy and how it's looked for her family, how she acknowledges her sadness and anger, but tries not to stay on those feelings, and that she feels that Tommy is taking care of her along the way through this process. Find the complete show notes and interview transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.