Still A Part of Us

Mom Bre tells of her daughter Amber Rae and how she was born without kidneys (bilateral renal agenesis) like her older brother Jeff Jr. Amber died after living for only 1 hour. Bre tells of her and her husband's grief of losing their 2nd child Jeff Jr first, then getting pregnant and were devastated when they were told Amber didn't have kidneys either. Happy Birthday today, Amber! Listen to Bre's husband Jeff's account of Amber's birth and death here: https://youtu.be/WkTp7uX5sFU DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Amber Rae 01:14 Some family history 05:28 Pregnancy 08:28 1st Ultrasound 16:01 2nd Ultrasound 25:43 Preparations for birth and funeral 38:30 Going to the hospital 43:40 Birth 44:54 Time with Amber after birth 58:30 Going home 1:01:45 Funeral 1:08:49 Now what? SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

Dad Tad shares in the interview what helped him to grieve the loss of his daughter Hazel, who was born still at 36 weeks. He found that taking care of himself physically helped him emotionally. Tad also thinks about how they'll celebrate her upcoming 1st birthday, and Lee advises Tad to be gentle on themselves that day. Tad and his wife Taylor also have a dedicated spot with all of Hazel's things that helps them feel close to her. Watch Tad's account of Hazel's birth: https://youtu.be/jSbs1zUKY5g Watch Tad's wife Taylor's account of Hazel's birth: https://youtu.be/6CZCGoBk52c Watch Taylor's advice episode: https://youtu.be/bWw6qu6Dg7A DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 00:52 Upcoming first birthday 02:54 What's helped Tip #1 07:10 Physical reminders 11:46 What's helped Tip #2 12:27 What's helped Tip #3 SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/

Dad Tad recounts the stillbirth story of his daughter Hazel in the middle of the COVID pandemic, telling us of his wife Taylor's early miscarriage, then pregnancy with Hazel and when they found out Hazel's heart wasn't beating anymore. He describes their time in the hospital and when she was born and how perfect she looked. They later made arrangements for her burial and had a beautiful funeral for her with family and friends as best they could during the pandemic. Listen to his wife Taylor's account of Hazel's birth here: https://youtu.be/6CZCGoBk52c Listen to Taylor's advice episode here: https://youtu.be/bWw6qu6Dg7A DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Hazel 01:39 Finding out 05:37 Telling family what happened 08:56 Birth 15:13 Spending time with Hazel 18:50 Going home 20:29 Funeral arrangements 33:59 Autopsy SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep: https://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/ Music: "She Dreams in Blue" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

Dad Tad recounts the stillbirth story of his daughter Hazel in the middle of the COVID pandemic, telling us of his wife Taylor's early miscarriage, then pregnancy with Hazel and when they found out Hazel's heart wasn't beating anymore. He describes their time in the hospital and when she was born and how perfect she looked. They later made arrangements for her burial and had a beautiful funeral for her with family and friends as best they could during the pandemic. Listen to his wife Taylor's account of Hazel's birth here: https://youtu.be/6CZCGoBk52c Listen to Taylor's advice episode here: https://youtu.be/bWw6qu6Dg7A DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Hazel 01:39 Finding out 05:37 Telling family what happened 08:56 Birth 15:13 Spending time with Hazel 18:50 Going home 20:29 Funeral arrangements 33:59 Autopsy SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep: https://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/ Music: "She Dreams in Blue" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

Mom Taylor tells of the struggle she and her husband Tad had after their daughter Hazel was stillborn at 36 weeks, during the COVID-19 pandemic, and how they were unable to be physically close to others when they may have needed it. But because of that, they were able to draw closer together as a couple, though they grieved and mourned on different timelines and in different ways. Taylor also talks about how much her faith in God and the prayers of others has helped her through this sad time for her and her husband. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Musician Josh Garrels: https://amzn.to/3EGB9sP Turner Falls in Oklahoma: https://www.turnerfallspark.com/ DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 03:49 After Hazel's funeral 13:00 The holidays without her 14:41 Her gravestone 18:10 Grieving differently 24:08 A kind thing a friend did 28:39 I struggled with this 37:26 The major thing that helped through stillbirth SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts.

Mom Taylor shares the heartbreaking story of finding out that her first child, her daughter Hazel's heartbeat stopped around 36 weeks gestational age and that she would be stillborn. She and her husband Tad were devastated and she describes her pregnancy, finding out, delivering Hazel, and spending time with her in the hospital. She also tells of her beautiful funeral service and the autopsy results. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Hazel Rae 01:18 Introduction 04:03 Pregnancy 11:35 Finding out 16:33 Anguish 21:36 Birth 27:37 After birth 39:53 Giving her back and going home 41:29 Funeral arrangements 55:57 Autopsy SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep photography service: https://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/ Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

With this meditation, we're trying to get comfortable with all the emotions--fear, anger, sadness, weariness--that we may experience after we lose a child or someone close to us. *Please note that there are references to God in this meditation. You can find Stacey and her work here: https://www.soulgardencoaching.com/ DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: Thanks to Dream Wave Music

Mark gives his advice on how to grieve after losing his daughter Breklyn only 10 hours after she was born: Grieve in your own way and in your own time. He also talks about how he and his wife Corchele look for Breklyn everywhere (pennies, their Brek bear, and white butterflies), and how they started Because of Breklyn, that raises money to buy unstuffed Build-A-Bears for families of stillbirth or infant loss. Hear Mark's birth story of Breklyn here: https://youtu.be/dVHWjPx0XGs Hear his wife Corchele's birth story of Breklyn here: https://youtu.be/0fGC788ngjk Hear Corchele's advice episode here: https://youtu.be/GUX_hZf62o8 Request or adopt a Because of Breklyn bear here: https://becauseofbreklyn.com/ DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 00:36 Tattoo 01:33 One important advice 04:00 How I remember Breklyn SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #becauseofbreklyn #kissesfromheaven #buildabear #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Dad Mark describes his wife Corchele's pregnancy with their daughter Breklyn. When her water broke, they headed to the hospital, and while there, Breklyn was under distress and Corchele had to undergo an emergency C-section (where Corchele was completely sedated due to the epidural/nerve block not working originally) in order to deliver Breklyn. The doctor stated that Breklyn wasn't going to make it, but she was put on life support. When Corchele was finally able to see Breklyn, Mark and Corchele made the heartbreaking decision to remove Breklyn from life support. After she dies, they get time with her in the hospital. Mark talks about the funeral and what the cause of Breklyn's death: an infection called chorioamnionitis. Listen to his wife Corchele's birth story of Breklyn here: https://youtu.be/0fGC788ngjk Listen to Corchele's advice episode here: https://youtu.be/GUX_hZf62o8 DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Breklyn 01:33 Pregnancy and going to the hospital 04:19 Emergency C-section 06:44 Breklyn's prognosis 10:47 Spending time with Breklyn 12:25 Breklyn's funeral 15:11 After the funeral and a mission 19:51 The infection SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Because of Breklyn: https://becauseofbreklyn.com/ Music: "She Dreams in Blue" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

Mom Corchele talks about the death of her daughter after 10 hours after her birth due to an infection, and how because of her daughter Breklyn, she and her husband were able to help change hospital policy in their area to help detect this type of infection before it's too late, thus saving more babies' lives. Corchele also recounts how she didn't properly grieve after Breklyn died, how they got pregnant, and then she admitted to herself that she had postpartum depression and sought help. She is in a much better place and started a non-profit organization called Because of Breklyn, to provide unstuffed bears to families that will go through something similar. Listen to Corchele's birth story and death of Breklyn: https://youtu.be/0fGC788ngjk Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Because of Breklyn (donate or request a bear): https://becauseofbreklyn.com/ DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 01:32 Being advocates for other babies 04:10 Journey after Breklyn's death 10:03 Life coach 15:43 Pregnancy after loss 22:17 What helped Corchele after 27:58 What not to say 33:22 Donating bears 40:42 Moving forward SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts.

Mom Corchele describes getting pregnant with her fiance Mark and having an uneventful pregnancy with her daughter Breklyn. However, at 39 weeks, Corchele remembers feeling terrible and having a fever. When they go into the hospital, she tells how Breklyn was in distress, so they did an emergency C-section. They gave her ketamine, because the epidural/nerve block wasn't taking effect quickly enough. Breklyn was born, but had to be revived and kept on life support, since Corchele was sedated. Once Corchele awoke, she and Mark made the heartbreaking decision to take Breklyn off of life support. She passed away 10 hours later. The doctors concluded later that she like died due to an infection call chorioamnionitis that was missed during Corchele's intake at the hospital. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Breklyn 04:46 Getting pregnant 08:33 Fever 12:58 Distress 14:37 OR 17:56 Keep her alive 20:32 Seeing Breklyn 26:42 Death 34:32 Funeral arrangements 40:58 Cause of death SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

In honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, we partnered with Stacey Cardon of Soul Garden Coaching to develop this meditation, to cultivate compassion and understanding and tenderness toward your body after the death of your baby. After the stillbirth of my son, I felt like my body failed me and him, and it has taken me a lot of prayer, mediation, and pondering to be *okay* with my body. I hope that this short body scan meditation helps bring a measure of peace to your heart. Find Stacey at Soul Garden Coaching here: https://www.soulgardencoaching.com/ DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Music: Healing Mediation Music (Abundance And Love 528Hz Solfeggio Frequency)

Parents Kirby and Tom talk about the aftermath of their first son Tommy's stillbirth, how they stuck themselves in those early months and how their families, God, and service helped them get through the sadness and ache. Kirby talks about feeling a need to adopt and they adopted their son Ace after many disappointments. Shortly after the adoption, Kirby got pregnant and welcomed their son Ace into their home. Both Kirby and Tom talk about what helped them the most and recommend things you should (and shouldn't) say to a loss mom or loss dad. Hear Kirby's stillbirth story of Tommy here: https://youtu.be/Y0LhGQ0L0zM Hear Tom's stillbirth story of Tommy here: https://youtu.be/G74GvmISlAg DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 07:58 A Four-Letter Word 11:51 Acceptance 19:15 Births compared 22:17 Physical reminders 26:35 Help from heaven 29:06 Jesus and God 35:07 Last bit of wisdom and advice SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Book Jesus Calling by Sarah Young: https://amzn.to/3mwpqFB

It's October and in honor of Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, we are sharing some of the worst things people have said to us and other moms and dads that have lost a baby either by stillbirth or infant death, so you know what NOT to say (and what to say) to a loss mom or loss dad. If you're a loss mom/loss dad, what are some of the things you've heard that you would recommend people NOT say? Check out Winter's interview with Nicole at Mamas and Misses about Pregnancy After Loss (PAL): https://youtu.be/DP7jLdkbX1U Shout-out to Ashlee of Presentlee for words of wisdom and beautiful, encouraging jewelry. See their mission and shop here: https://www.presentlee.com/ @presentlee DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 What?!? 01:00 Disclaimer 01:16 Why would you say that?!? 02:20 Are you kidding me?!? 03:36 Yikes! 04:03 I can't believe you just said that! 04:53 Oh c'mon! 06:29 BONUS! 08:06 Last advice SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth #infantlossawareness #stillbirthawareness #lightthewave #october15 #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents

Dad Tom recounts how his wife Kirby noticed decreased fetal movement around 37 weeks of her first pregnancy. They went to check and they were able to find the heartbeat, so they were reassured all was fine. The next day, she noted less movement again and when they went in the second time, they were shocked when there was no heartbeat. Kirby was induced and their son Tommy was born still at 37 weeks. This is Tommy's birth story. Hear Tom's wife, Kirby's stillbirth story of Tommy here: https://youtu.be/Y0LhGQ0L0zM DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Tommy 01:53 Pretty sick pregnancy 02:43 Worried about his movements 06:26 Finding out 13:55 Birth 17:15 After birth 26:16 Tommy's funeral 28:00 Coping afterward 33:09 Tom's hardest challenge SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep: https://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/ Music: "She Dreams in Blue" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

Mom Kirby tells about how her first pregnancy with son Tommy and how it was a picture perfect pregnancy. But at around 35-36 weeks, Kirby noticed a drop in her baby's regular movements. She followed up a couple times and was told the baby had a strong heartbeat. Kirby then felt that something was wrong and when they went to the hospital, they were told Tommy no longer had a heartbeat. Kirby delivered Tommy, born still at 36 weeks and 3 days in January 2018. There were nothing conclusive about the cause of his death, but one of per providers thought it could be due to a maternal fetal hemorrhage. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Tommy Ryan 01:17 Who we are 05:10 Pregnancy 10:19 Events leading up to finding out 18:08 Going to the hospital 26:47 Birth 34:37 After birth 40:50 Going home 47:36 Funeral 01:04:58 Autopsy SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

In this interview, dad Jonah talks about the things that helped him after his daughter Lydia was stillborn at 30 weeks because of an umbilical cord accident. He understands that he and his wife Danielle mourn differently and they both strive to help each other in the moment. Jonah also talks about the anger he had after Lydia died and how he had to acknowledge it as part of the grief process. Hear Jonah's birthstory of Lydia here: https://youtu.be/OvCgdJzezKI Hear his wife Danielle's birthstory of Lydia: https://youtu.be/iq3iPBNdWMQ Hear Danielle's advice episode: https://youtu.be/LQIVDN-kIbk DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 02:27 Open communication with his wife 05:24 Overlooking insensitive comments 08:52 Writing after Lydia's death 10:06 Homemade Molly Bear 12:23 People grieve differently SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Molly Bear: https://www.mollybears.org/ The 5 Love Languages: https://amzn.to/3tVNSU9 #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Dad Jonah recounts the events of his wife Danielle's first pregnancy, and how he remembers Danielle asking the doctor about whether she should be monitoring the baby's movements. Danielle noticed decreased fetal movements, and when they get to the hospital, they are unable to find Lydia's heartbeat. Lydia Jaelle was stillborn at 30 weeks due to an umbilical cord accident. Listen to Danielle's account of Lydia's birth here: https://youtu.be/iq3iPBNdWMQ Listen to Danielle's advice episode here: https://youtu.be/LQIVDN-kIbk DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Lydia 02:42 Pregnancy and finding out 07:28 Going to the hospital 10:52 Birth 16:25 After birth 19:46 Going home 30:37 Funeral arrangements SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: "She Dreams in Blue" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​. #stillbirthstory #stillborn #umbilicalcordaccident #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Mom Danielle talks about how she's grieved, mourned, and celebrated her daughter Lydia's life after she was stillborn at 30 weeks. She died due to an umbilical cord accident. Danielle talks about her 2 pregnancies after loss (PAL) and how she coped with the anxiety, and encourages other pregnant moms to "count the kicks" using the Count the Kicks phone app.She also started a local Walk of Remembrance with her friend and fellow loss mom Emily as a way to honor Lydia. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Listen to Danielle's stillbirth story of Lydia: https://youtu.be/iq3iPBNdWMQ Listen to her friend Emily's stillbirth story of Margaret: https://open.spotify.com/episode/0VuKlDCvl8HHibLPFAhIAn Listen to my friend Lindsey's stillbirth story of Sadie: https://stillapartofus.com/12-lindsays-story-sadies-birth-stillborn-32-weeks-cord-accident/ Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 2:17 After Lydia's birth 7:17 Pregnancy after loss with Luke 10:29 Count the Kicks 17:08 Work and how's she's coped 27:23 Therapists and grief support 36:14 Coping as a couple 44:06 Keeping Lydia a part of her life SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Count the Kicks app: https://countthekicks.org/download-app/ Count the Kicks information: https://countthekicks.org/ Danielle's blog to Lydia: https://letterstolydiajaelle.wordpress.com/ Walk of Remembrance: Miles for Margaret, Lydia, and All Babies Gone Too Soon Facebook Group: https://www.facebook.com/WalkOfRemembranceCHS/ How to donate to this Walk of Remembrance: https://secure.qgiv.com/event/chswalk2021/ #countthekicks #pregnancyafterloss #angelmom #walkofremembrance #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Mom Danielle recounts the stillbirth story of her first pregnancy with baby Lydia and how incredibly excited she and her husband Jonah were to have her. Near 30 weeks, she noticed that Lydia wasn't moving around as much one day, and were concerned enough to go in to be checked out. They didn't find a heartbeat, and Danielle later delivered Lydia, who was born sleeping. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Lydia Jaelle 01:23 Introduction of Danielle and Jonah 04:17 Pregnancy 11:20 Lydia's name 17:08 Less movement and going to the hospital 27:45 Silent, silent, silent 31:12 Birth 38:02 After birth 45:42 Pictures 47:35 Arrangements and Lydia's service SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​. #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornsotry #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Miranda, mom of George who was stillborn at 39 weeks, talks with Winter about how difficult it was to function after the stillbirth of her son, and how her husband Graham helped her greatly on a day-to-day basis in those early days. She also talks about how she remembers George with tangible things like his memorial bench, and recommends some things to say (and not to say) to an angel mom. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 01:34 Not going home after George was stillborn 06:50 Miranda's sanctuary 11:43 Her new full-time job 20:22 Grief support groups 23:43 Running 30:33 Her husband Graham 35:43 Physical reminders of George 41:41 Things that were helpful and things that were NOT helpful SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Star Legacy Foundation: https://starlegacyfoundation.org/ Bonsai Tree Lamp: https://amzn.to/38oJm6U Miranda's blog: https://thoughtsandpavement.com/ Sands (stillbirth and neonatal death charity): https://www.sands.org.uk/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #growthrestriction #griefdoula #griefmidwife #EMDR #gonetoosoon #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

This is the stillbirth story of George Robert, told by his mom Miranda. Originally from Canada, Miranda and her husband Graham have been living in London for work, and they made the decision to start trying to have a baby. She talks about her pregnancy and "going to" appointments (telemedicine) and how George was progressing during the COVID-19 pandemic. After feeling no movement from George one morning around 39 weeks, Miranda headed to the hospital to be checked. They couldn't find a heartbeat, and Miranda gave birth to George the following day. She and Graham did not want to see George after he was born, and with some encouragement from their bereavement midwife, they both did see him and spent time with him. This is George's story. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 George Robert 02:21 Introduction of Miranda and Graham 09:01 Pregnancy 19:10 Something is wrong and going to the hospital 30:09 Birth 36:26 After birth 41:17 Leaving the hospital 45:50 Funeral 55:04 Autopsy SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​. #stillbirthstory #stillborn #growthrestriction #gonetoosoon #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Mom Jess is interviewed about the time after her daughter, Addelyn was born at 30 weeks and died shortly later due to a severe case of fetal hydrops, and what she did to heal, what helped (and didn't help), and what she and her husband Patrick did for Addy's memorial service. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 02:47 Grief shortly after Addy's death 06:54 At work 12:11 Transitioning to a new home 15:44 Her sister 18:55 Memorial Service 25:51 What has helped 28:37 How Patrick and her relationship has worked 35:17 What not to say SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://youtu.be/wp28l5A7y0I SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #fetaldhyrops #mirrorsyndrome #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #csection #podcast #hypoplasticleftheartsyndrome #HLHS #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Mom Jess recounts the birth story of her daughter Addy, from their planned pregnancy during the pandemic and her pregnancy being perfect until around 30 weeks. Jess tells about how she became more swollen and gained 22 lbs in 2 weeks, and one of her non-stress tests came back abnormal. They discovered that Addy had a severe case of hydrops, where there was a lot of fluid buildup in her body, and Jess also had developed Mirror Syndrome (mimics preeclampsia), where as Addy became sicker, so did Jess. Jess and her husband Patrick decide on a Caesarean section, since Jess was getting so sick, so Addy was born on October 8, 2020. Addy was later diagnosed with hypoplastic left heart syndrome, where the left side of her heart stopped developing, as well as underdeveloped lungs, from either being too early or from the hydrops. Addelyn deteriorated within 8 hours of her birth and passed away peacefully, surrounded by her parents. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Addelyn Renee 01:49 Introduction of Jess and Patrick 04:38 Pregnancy 08:28 Anatomy Scan 15:37 30-Week Appointment 24:29 Mirror Syndrome 30:50 C-section 41:58 Saying goodbye 49:58 Spending time with Addy after her passing 54:04 Discharge and home 01:03:51 Autopsy SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​. #fetaldhyrops #mirrorsyndrome #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #csection #podcast #hypoplasticleftheartsyndrome #HLHS #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Mom Jess recounts the birth story of her daughter Addy, from their planned pregnancy during the pandemic and her pregnancy being perfect until around 30 weeks. Jess tells about how she became more swollen and gained 22 lbs in 2 weeks, and one of her non-stress tests came back abnormal. They discovered that Addy had a severe case of hydrops, where there was a lot of fluid buildup in her body, and Jess also had developed Mirror Syndrome (mimics preeclampsia), where as Addy became sicker, so did Jess. Jess and her husband Patrick decide on a Caesarean section, since Jess was getting so sick, so Addy was born on October 8, 2020. Addy was later diagnosed with hypoplastic left heart syndrome, where the left side of her heart stopped developing, as well as underdeveloped lungs, from either being too early or from the hydrops. Addelyn deteriorated within 8 hours of her birth and passed away peacefully, surrounded by her parents. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Addelyn Renee 01:49 Introduction of Jess and Patrick 04:38 Pregnancy 08:28 Anatomy Scan 15:37 30-Week Appointment 24:29 Mirror Syndrome 30:50 C-section 41:58 Saying goodbye 49:58 Spending time with Addy after her passing 54:04 Discharge and home 01:03:51 Autopsy SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​. #fetaldhyrops #mirrorsyndrome #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #csection #podcast #hypoplasticleftheartsyndrome #HLHS #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Mom Angelica sits down with Winter in this interview to talk about the trauma of finding out her son would be stillborn and giving birth to him via Caesarean section, how she transitioned back to work as a NICU nurse, and what's she's done to cope after Ezra's death. She also shares things that you should and shouldn't say to a loss mom or dad. Listen to Angelica's birth story of Ezra here: https://youtu.be/him_GqKvddQ DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 02:09 After Ezra's birth (stillborn) and what helped 07:57 Work 15:02 Physical reminders of Ezra 24:54 How has Nick (husband) handled everything 36:27 What not to say and what to say SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Molly Bears: https://www.mollybears.org/ Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep: https://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/ Memorial baby book "I Love You Still": https://amzn.to/2XvlU5J #stillbirth #infantloss #infantdeath #stillmychild #podcast #stillborn #birthstory #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #1in100 #stillbirthawareness #stillbirthsupport #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Mom Angelica, a NICU nurse based in Idaho, USA, tells of how she and her husband Nick expecting her 2nd baby Ezra. Her pregnancy was going fine till around 33 weeks, when she noticed that he wasn't moving around as much during a work break. She went home, worried and tried to calm her fears, but got even more worried when she couldn't find his heartbeat using her own stethoscope. She and her husband wen to the hospital (during the COVID pandemic), and were told that there was no heartbeat. Angelica delivered her son Ezra in June 2020 via C-section. Despite all the restrictions due to the pandemic, their parents and some family were able to meet Ezra after he was born. At the time of the recording, the cause of Ezra's death was unknown. Listen to Angelica's advice episode here: https://youtu.be/aq3cHL9HIH0 DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Ezra 01:22 Angelica's intro 05:32 How was pregnancy 12:06 When they found out 31:27 C-section and meeting Ezra 36:57 Time with Ezra 48:07 Funeral arrangements 53:50 Did they find anything? SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​. #stillbirth #infantloss #infantdeath #stillmychild #podcast #stillborn #birthstory #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #1in100 #stillbirthawareness #stillbirthsupport #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Mom Tiffany talks about how she has both grieved and celebrated the short life of her sweet daughter Khyana, who was born at 26 weeks and died four days later due to an infection because of a hole in her bowel. She talks about how grief is not linear and the many ways she celebrates her daughter. Listen to Tiffany's birth story and death of Khyana here: https://youtu.be/Pwacny3_3iM DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 04:42 Celebrating 1st birthday 07:53 How Tiffany's relationship changed with her then-boyfriend 08:51 What not to say to a loss mom 10:54 Grief is not linear 12:12 What she does to honor her daughter SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Tiffany's Facebook Page: https://www.facebook.com/RiseUpInfant... Tiffany's book "Celebrating the Life of Your Infant After Death" by Rise Up (Tiffany Beckom): https://amzn.to/3fzDMmi #infantloss #infantdeath #stillmychild #podcast #stillborn #birthstory #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #1in100 #stillbirthawareness #stillbirthsupport #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Mom Tiffany tells the birth story and death of her daughter Khyana, of how she got pregnant with her boyfriend at the time, but she found out that she had an incompetent cervix. She was 1-2 cm dilated around 24 weeks, so they admitted her to the hospital. Tiffany's water broke a few days later and she developed an infection a week later. She was induced and gave birth to her daughter Khyana, who needed to go to the NICU because her lungs were not developed and needed assistance breathing. The doctors discovered an infection, likely due to a hole in Khyana's bowel, and were prepping her for a procedure to fix it, but her heart stopped before the surgery and she died 4 days after she was born. Listen to Tiffany's grief journey and advice to other loss parents here: https://youtu.be/tnAzQFjcijo DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 00:00 Welcome 02:43 Pregnancy 05:51 Problems with pregnancy 07:13 Admit to hospital 10:47 Giving birth to Khyana 20:03 Khyana in the NICU 23:49 Khyana has an infection 26:45 Her heart stops 31:49 After she Khyana dies SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel (https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus) for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

In this interview, mom Lori Ann describes what grief and mourning has looked like for her after her son Owen David was born via emergency C-section one week before the COVID-19 pandemic shut everything down in her area. He was 26 weeks old and passed away a short time after he was born. She tells of how she incorporates him into their lives on daily basis, how she and her husband have learned to support each other, and that grief is like waves and how you learn to ride them. Watch More: Lori Ann's Birth Story of Owen: https://youtu.be/ziEhbmP1fa8 Matt's (Lori Ann's husband) Birth Story of Owen: https://youtu.be/O7SjbnzUDGM DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: *** SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel (https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus) for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Molly Bears: https://www.mollybears.org/ #infantloss #infantdeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstory #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #1in100 #stillbirthawareness #stillbirthsupport #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Dad Matt shares the birth story of his son Owen David at 26 weeks and his subsequent death a few hours after he was born. His wife Lori Ann had a cerclage put in earlier, but her water broke at 21 weeks. Lori Ann stayed on bed rest till 24 weeks and was admitted to the hospital so they could do everything medically possible to keep Owen alive. She developed an infection and Owen was delivered by emergency C-section at 26 weeks. Owen was unable to breath on his own, and Matt and Lori Ann were able to be with him and hold him before he died. Listen to Lori Ann's story of Owen's birth and death here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ziEhbmP1fa8 DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music - "She Dreams in Blue" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

Lori Ann tells of her journey through infertility, miscarriage, and complications with her next pregnancy, which included putting in a cerclage due to an incompetent cervix and later her water breaking at 21 weeks. Instead of terminating the pregnancy, Lori Ann and her husband Matt decided to wait to see what would happen, monitoring her temperature to make sure she didn't develop an infection. At 24 weeks, she was admitted until Owen was born at 26 weeks via emergency C-section. Owen was 2 lb and they were able to see Owen open his eyes, but he was struggling to breath on his own. They decided to remove the breathing tube, and she was able to hold him till he passed away. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts: Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/%E2%80%A6/still-a-part-of-u%E2%80%A6/id1473594556 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/5JzwyLpsUrciSyVsUmJHpy Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9zdGlsbGFwYXJ0b2Z1cy5saWJzeW4uY29tL3Jzcw%3D%3D&hl=en&fbclid=IwAR1bPTrSXxRvN3l-J2agBvs3QMrUOISqqG8BZurOwYb7YssPyPHeaR_8qbg Stitcher: https://www.stitcher.com/s?eid=63606689 Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: Music - "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​.

Parents Bianca and Michael share their experience of delivering their stillborn son Jalen during the restrictions of the COVID-19 pandemic. They also share things that have helped them grieve and mourn and celebrate their son, who was stillborn at 20 weeks and 6 days. They also share some helpful things that people did for them, who were supporting them, and they also share what NOT to say to a parent who has just experienced a stillbirth. You can hear each of their version of Jalen's birth here: Bianca's: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x95n8CXiuYY Michael's: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CpYwfb2tY_4 DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ #stillbirth #stillbornstory #stillmychild #podcast #stillborn #birthstory #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #1in100 #stillbirthawareness #stillbirthsupport #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #stillbirthstory #mystillbirthstory #COVID19 #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Dad Michael tells the story of the birth of his son Jalen Jeremiah during the COVID-19 pandemic. His wife Bianca had an incompetent cervix and they put in a cerclage, but it failed. When the medical team was trying to remove the cerclage, they broke the water, and they had to deliver their son at 20 weeks and 6 days. Because he was so young in gestational age, there was nothing that they medical team would have done. Jalen was born still after Bianca labored for a short time. He was tiny, but he was perfect. SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts: Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/%E2%80%A6/still-a-part-of-u%E2%80%A6/id1473594556 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/5JzwyLpsUrciSyVsUmJHpy Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9zdGlsbGFwYXJ0b2Z1cy5saWJzeW4uY29tL3Jzcw%3D%3D&hl=en&fbclid=IwAR1bPTrSXxRvN3l-J2agBvs3QMrUOISqqG8BZurOwYb7YssPyPHeaR_8qbg Stitcher: https://www.stitcher.com/s?eid=63606689 Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Music: "She Dreams in Blue" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​. #stillbirth #infantloss #infantdeath #stillmychild #podcast #stillborn #birthstory #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #1in100 #stillbirthawareness #stillbirthsupport #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth #cerclage #incompatiblewithlife #COVID19pandemic

Mom Bianca tells of her pregnancy with her 3rd child, Jalen Jeremiah, and complications with her cervix, which led her medical provider putting in a cerclage around 20 weeks. Some of the stitches had come out, causing Bianca a lot of pain and the beginning of labor. Jalen did not survive the birth and was stillborn on February 2021, likely due to the umbilical cord around his neck. Her pregnancy, Jalen's birth, and funeral were all during the time of the COVID pandemic. SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfv_ZeqPi9o-0clf_1528Mg for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Time Stamps: 0:00 Jalen Jeremiah 1:54 Introduction 4:30 Pregnancy 7:29 Cervix Funneling 8:45 Cerclage 11:16 Emergency 15:27 ER 21:28 Birth 32:10 Funeral 35:06 His name 41:55 Going home 44:27 Support group 48:02 Momentums SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, on Apple Podcasts, Spotify, Google Podcasts, and Stitcher or wherever you listen to podcasts. Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Music: Music - "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​. #stillbirth #infantloss #grief #advice #bereavedmother #lossmom #stillbornstillloved #infantlossawareness #stillborn #umbilicalcordaccident #earlytermstillbirth #cerclage #incompetentcervix #funnelingcervix #birthduringCOVID #COVIDpandemic

Today is Bereaved Mother's Day. We hope your heart feels close to your babies on this bittersweet day. Grief is like waves at the beach. Sometimes you'll want to wade back in the water. Timestamps: 00:00 Announcement 00:55 A Brief Note on Grief: Waves of Grief SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCfv_ZeqPi9o-0clf_1528Mg DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate here: Ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts: Apple Podcasts: https://podcasts.apple.com/%E2%80%A6/still-a-part-of-u%E2%80%A6/id1473594556 Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/5JzwyLpsUrciSyVsUmJHp Google Podcasts: https://podcasts.google.com/?feed=aHR0cHM6Ly9zdGlsbGFwYXJ0b2Z1cy5saWJzeW4uY29tL3Jzcw%3D%3D&hl=en&fbclid=IwAR1bPTrSXxRvN3l-J2agBvs3QMrUOISqqG8BZurOwYb7YssPyPHeaR_8qbg Stitcher: https://www.stitcher.com/s?eid=63606689 Links: Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Share Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Music: Music - "Sleep Well, My Dear" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​. #bereavedmothersday #stillbirth #infantloss #grief #bereavedmother #lossmom

In this combined birth story and advice episode, dad Jones talks about his daughter Kampbell. She was stillborn at 30 weeks for unknown reasons. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

After the stillbirth of her daughter Kampbell, mom Kristyn encourages other loss parents to take the time to feel all the emotions, and that even though your loss may be similar, it is still unique and different from your own. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Kristyn tells the story of the birth of her sweet daughter Kampbell, who was stillborn at 30 weeks for unknown reasons. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Paul encourages other loss parents to let all the emotions come and to feel them. He also shares his experience of getting out into nature and planting a tree for his son Henry after he was stillborn at 38 weeks. And he advises that if you're going to ask a loss mom or loss dad the question "How are you?", to know that it is a loaded question. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Paul recounts his wife Erin's pregnancy with their son Henry, and his subsequent birth. Henry was stillborn at 38 weeks possibly due to a fetal maternal hemorrhage. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Erin shares with us her experience after losing her son Henry, who was stillborn at 38 weeks due to a fetal maternal hemorrhage, how she managed her anger, and how she learned to ask for help especially when she didn't feel safe being alone. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Erin, a labor and delivery nurse, tells us of her sweet son Henry, who was stillborn at 38 weeks, due to fetal maternal hemorrhage, a rare occurrence. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Cristen talks about how she honors her own experience with the loss of her son Dane, who was stillborn at 35 weeks, and tries not to compare what others have done when they've lost a child. She also wants others to know that her loss isn't a test or a punishment or has to have a meaning--loss just happens. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Cristen tells of her son Dane, who was stillborn at 35 weeks due to funic presentation of the umbilical cord, where the cord was prolapsed and became crimped. Cristen also describes prenatal care and delivery during the time of the COVID-19 pandemic. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Paige goes more into the grief she was anticipating after finding out her son would likely die due to a genetic abnormality that was discovered at 13 weeks. Trigger warning: She also describes her pregnancy after losing her son and how she navigated the emotions she felt during this time. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Mom Paige discusses how she and her husband found out that their son Hoff had a genetic abnormality that would likely result in his death at an ultrasound at 13 weeks. They found themselves dealing with anticipatory grief, knowing they would lose Hoff. He was stillborn close to 20 weeks. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Dad Jem talks about how differently men and women mourn, and not to shy away from asking a loss parent if they want to talk about their child. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Dad Jem recounts his memories of the birth of his daughter Jordan and how she deteriorated quickly and passed away after living for one day. She died of a heart defect that was not detected earlier on ultrasound. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.

Despite how awkward the conversation may be, mom Jen likes it when others talk about her daughter Jordan, who passed away from a heart defect. She was born full term and died one day after her birth. She also encourages loss parents to accept help when it's offered. Become a patron: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Find the complete show notes & transcriptions at www.stillapartofus.com. Thanks to Josh Woodward for the use of his music. Find him at www.Joshwoodward.com.