Still A Part of Us

Shelbie talks with Winter about her beautiful son Ryder, who was still born at 35 weeks due to a placental abruption. Shelbie tells us about the events leading up to her having to face this hard time all by herself, and how she has lived a life that involves honoring her son every day. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Vinnette talks with Winter about things she has done and things other people have done to help her and her family in this time of loss. Vinnette talks about how people have helped with food and how that has relieved the mental taxation she has, and how that is one wonderful way to show love to someone in need. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Vinnette and Winter talk about the birth of Meekah, who passed after 7 hours of life due to the complications of anencephaly. Vinnette tells us of how she and her husband decided to expand their family and how it was such joyous news to hear that they were pregnant. Vinnette talks about the diagnosis at the anatomy scan and how she decided to continue with the pregnancy to term and finding peace in the process. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Karen and Winter talk about that has help Karen after the loss of her daughter Kori, who was stillborn at 23 weeks due to unknown reasons. Karen talks about the help she received from her work and her husbands work. She tells us about how getting texts and calls helped her and still helps her to feel that Kori is remembered and not forgotten. Karen closes with a beautiful letter she wrote to Kori. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Karen and Winter talk about the birth of Kori, who was stillborn at 23 weeks due to unknown reasons. Karen tells us how her pregnancy progressed and how she and her husband were so excited to welcome in this new baby to their family. Karen talks about the process of having to be transferred to a MFM after the anatomy scan. Karen recounts how she has to have a follow up scan and it is at this scan where she finds out that her sweet little Kori has no heartbeat. Karen tells us about how she was preparing for a procedure to deliver Kori, but in the end she was able to naturally deliver her. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Emily talks with Winter about her sweet little Dexter, who was stillborn due to anencephaly at 38 weeks. Emily talks about how she was so blessed to be able to bring Dexter home for 10 days and how that has helped her cope with his passing. Emily Also reads two poems, one that was read at Dexter's memorial and one she wrote for him. Emily's TikTok handle: https://www.tiktok.com/@mum_to_rosie_dexter DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Emily and Winter talk about the birth of her son Dexter, who was stillborn at 38 weeks due to anencephaly. Emily talks about how she had to take control of her own health care and advocate for her and her son. Emily tells us about all the wonderful people who helped her to make the sorrowful situation one of healing and love. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Emily and Winter talk about what has helped Emily after the death of her son Kehpri, who died due to spina bifida and complications of cervical myelomeningocele. Emily talks about how there is no timeframe for grieving and that as a parent your whole world view and goals need to be readjusted. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Emily talks with Winter about her sweet little son Kehpri, who passed 5 hours after birth due to complications with cervical myelomeningocele and spina bifida. Emily tells us about moving back to her home state of Oregon and finding out early that her little baby might not make it with a misdiagnosed scan. Emily talks about the hope she had when the medical staff informed her that the original diagnosis was false, but that the new diagnosis of spina bifida would most likely be terminal to the little baby. Emily moved on with hope and carried little Kehpri till 36 weeks. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Evelina talks with Winter about what has happened since the birth of her daughter Alia, who was stillborn at 29 weeks due to complications with CPAM (congenital pulmonary airway malformation). Evelina talks about getting professional help from a therapist and the good that has done for her in navigating the wide variety of emotions and feelings from experiencing the death of Alia. Evelina also reads a letter she wrote for past self giving encouragement and love for the future. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Evelina talks with Winter about the birth of her sweet baby Alia, who was stillborn at 29 weeks due to complications with CPAM (congenital pulmonary airway malformation) and a placental abruption. Evelina tells about how she and her husband would love to have a large family and that Alia was their second daughter. Evelina also suffered with polyhydramnios, which is excessive amniotic in the womb. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Shermica and Winter talk about what helped Shermica after the lose of Zai, who was stillborn at 39 weeks. Shermica talks about having her aunts around her to pull her out of the darker parts of depression. And how she was able to have a painting of Zai commissioned for her to pick up right from the airport so it didn't feel like she was arriving home so empty. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Shermica talks with Winter about her sweet little Zia, who was still born at 39 weeks due to a placental infection (Chorioamnionitis). Shermica talks about how terrible her first trimester morning sickness was and how there was no relief from it until the start of the second trimester. Shermica tells us about going to New York for better health care and staying with family until the terrible day of finding out little Zia had no heartbeat. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Amy talks with Winter about things that have helped her over the past 16 years since the stillbirth of her daughter Ava. Amy talks about taking time and space to allow yourself to heal. Amy reads a poem about "shoes" that is a metaphor for stillbirth and infant loss. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Amy talks with Winter about the birth of her sweet daughter Ava, who was stillborn at 38 weeks and passed in utero to unknown causes. Amy talks about how perfect the pregnancy was and how everything was going great until the time of actual delivery when they couldn't find a heartbeat. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Kayla and Winter talk about what has helped the years after Camie passed away from hypoxic ischemic encephalopathy (HIE). Kayla talks about when she was getting ready to go back to work how she sent an email to all her coworkers informing them what had happened and inviting them to ask her questions and how she gave them permission to talk to her about Camie. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Kayla and Winter talk about the birth, life, and death of sweet little Camie Rose, who died at 2 months due to hypoxic ischemic encephalopathy (HIE). Kayla talks about how they were excited to welcome in a new daughter and how they were getting ready for all that having two girls would mean to them. Kayla talks about the labor and the issues that arose that would ultimately change the course of their lives. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Daniel and Lee talk about the birth of his son Landon, who was stillborn at 35 week due to a placental abruption. Daniel talks about the pregnancy of Sarah, his wife. Daniel talks about the day that would ultimately change the course of his life and how he and his wife have handled it these years. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Dad Music: "She Dreams in Blue" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Sarah and Winter talk about the impacts Landon has had since his death due to a placental abruption. Sarah talks about changing her career and how that has let her honor her son while also helping other mothers in loss. Sarah talks about having other children after Landon and experiencing all sorts of emotions and anxiousness. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Sarah and Winter talk about the pregnancy, death, and birth of Landon, who was stillborn at 35 weeks due to a placental abruption. Sarah tells about the struggle she had with infertility and being to excited when she was able to conceive and then having to be pregnant during the COVID-19 pandemic. Sarah talks about having an underlining feeling of worry the whole pregnancy, but not being able to pinpoint the cause. Sarah tells Winter about the events of Landon's birth and how he actually saved her life though he was already dead. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Paris and Winter talk about the helpful things people have said and done since the death of Drexton, Paris's son who died at 6 months old due to an undiagnosed atrial septal defect (ASD). DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Paris and Winter talk about the beautiful life of Drexton, who died at 6 months old due to an undiagnosed atrial septal defect (ASD). Paris tells of the relative ease of the pregnancy, and having to have an emergency cesarean and finally bringing home her little bundle of joy. Paris tells Winter about finding a nanny when she went back to work and the tragic events that lead to her rushing to the hospital and finding her son on life support. Paris mournfully retells the events of being told that Drexton has severe brain damage and her having to choose to let her son go. She talks about organizing with her hospital to have Drexton be an organ donor and the continuation of this sweet little boy in blessing others with life. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Elizabeth and Winter talk about what has help after the loss of Lael, who was stillborn due to a subchorionic hemorrhage at 19 weeks. Elizabeth talks about finding out about using a saline solution to preserve Lael and how that helped her and her family admire their son and brother a little longer. Elizabeth talks about how her faith has helped her put this loss into an eternal perspective and how that has helped her to mourn, but not be lost. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Today, we're joined by an incredible guest, Elizabeth, who has experienced unimaginable heartbreak—11 losses. Through her strength and resilience, Elizabeth is here to share her journey, offering hope and comfort to others who may be navigating a similar journey. Elizabeth and her husband, Jacob, are parents to a big family, including six living children—all whose names begin with "L." Elizabeth is a homeschooling mom, a church pianist, and leads a children's music class at church. Jacob works as a truck driver and preacher, having served in ministry for over a year at the time of this recording. In this episode, we are focusing on the story of one child in particular, Lael. Elizabeth shares the story of Lael, who was stillborn at 19 weeks due to complications with the placenta. She opens up about her journey of multiple losses before Lael, finding a compassionate OBGYN, and reflects on the day she gave birth to Lael. Some highlights from our conversation with Elizabeth include: Elizabeth's gratitude for her six living children and the grief from her losses Pregnancy, early ultrasounds, and the process of navigating healthcare after multiple miscarriages The emotions around her diagnosis and her family's response to bringing Lael home How Elizabeth leaned into her faith, trusting God's plan, and finding strength in His presence The difficulty of grieving privately and holding space for her other children Hearing Elizabeth's journey is both heart-wrenching and inspiring. I hope this episode encourages you to honor your own healing process and to lean on loved ones and community for support during challenging times. Quotes: "She said, 'It looks like you're out of the woods,' and I honestly believed that with all my heart––that everything had been fine, that God was just going to allow that to be a trying of faith on my part, and that was going to be all it was, and I was going to have a healthy baby, and everything was going to be fine" – Elizabeth (22:53) "And even though the Lord was like, am I not enough, in that moment, He still was faithful to give me a verse, because in that same chapter, it says it is God that girth me with strength and make it my way perfect. And so he was just reminding me, I'm going to be your strength in this." – Elizabeth (1:12:16) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/i-have-learned-how-to-notice-when-someone-is-hurting/id1473594556?i=1000675489519 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. Melissa's daughter, Patricia, was born 16 years ago. Tragically, due to a cord accident, Patricia did not survive. Though it's been 16 years, Melissa continues to not only remember, but celebrate her daughter's life. In this episode, Melissa shares her journey of remembrance and grief and we discuss the importance of understanding that these heartbreaking situations are not your fault. Highlights from our conversation with Melissa: Coping with the loss of her daughter, Patricia Her children's connection to their sister Helpful coping mechanisms and the importance of routine Ways Melissa keeps Patricia's memory alive The different ways people experience grief Melissa's mental and emotional journey during subsequent pregnancies Whether it's been six months or 16 years since the loss of a child, grief can resurface on birthdays or even in everyday moments. You may catch yourself wondering "What would they be doing now?" or "What would they look like?" The grief is always there in some way, but hearing others' stories can bring comfort and we hope Melissa's story brings you that sense of understanding and connection. Quotes: "In the moment of holding her and spending a little bit of time with her, I tried to enjoy it, and it was good–I held it together pretty well after, until that night..." – Melissa (1:48) "I always had it in the back of my mind that, you know, something would go wrong, that it could happen again. And that was just always something that stayed with me." – Melissa (9:12) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/she-had-a-full-head-of-dark-hair-a/id1473594556?i=1000671902845 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. Being a young mom of two is both beautiful and challenging. But when you become pregnant and experience constant morning sickness throughout the entire pregnancy––that adds another level of difficulty. In this episode, our guest, Melissa, shares the moments leading up to the birth of her baby girl, Patricia, who was stillborn at 36 weeks due to a pinched cord. Even though this happened over 16 years ago, Melissa's love for Patricia has only grown, just like any mother's love for her child. Highlights from our conversation with Melissa: The challenges of morning sickness Navigating pregnancy and early appointments The third trimester and an unusual, concerning strong kick Time spent with Patricia after her birth The emotional impact of funeral arrangements Melissa's story is a powerful reminder of love, support, and the journey of healing and this conversation truly highlights the bond between a mother and her child and the resilience that comes in the face of unimaginable loss. Quotes: "They left me in the labor and delivery room, so it was like I was able to hear the other babies. And then that is when I, once everyone left, is when I started crying. They had to give me something to sleep because, you know, here are all the other babies, and I don't have mine, and all I had was a stuffed animal." – Melissa (31:07) "Even though I know it's not my fault, you know, I would think, like, what did I do wrong?" – Melissa (31:35) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/16-years-of-remembrance-melissas-journey-with/id1473594556?i=1000672862574 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. Nothing can prepare you for navigating life after the stillbirth of your child. My guest, Veronika, shares her experience of grieving her son, Benjamin, whose cause of death is unknown. She opens up about the comfort she found in community support, the challenges of loss, and the words that have been both helpful and hurtful along the way. In this episode, Veronika reflects on the church's compassion and support that surrounded her and her husband, Scott, during their grief. She also discusses what helped, what hurt, and how each of them processed their loss in unique ways. Highlights from our conversation with Veronika: The emotional impact of not knowing the cause of Benjamin's passing Why grieving a child is different from other types of loss The importance of self-compassion and resisting self-blame Ways Veronika and Scott supported one another Finding comfort in hearing others' stories of loss Veronika's story is a reminder of the unique ways each person grieves. Her journey sheds light on the importance of self-compassion, community, and openhearted support from loved ones. Through shared stories and compassionate listening, healing becomes possible. Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/i-had-just-heard-his-heartbeat-a-mothers-story/id1473594556?i=1000670284332 Quotes: "There's no exact reason why, and you kind of want to have that, because that could, I feel like, help you in a lot of ways to process and grieve. Your mind just wants to know why and what went wrong." – Veronika (01:23) "But when people from your church family tell you, like, 'This was the Lord's will,' and 'Everything, you know, works out,' that's not what you want to hear at that moment. You need to find that out for yourself, not somebody on the outside, or someone who's never gone through it trying to encourage you." – Veronika (22:12) Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. Hours after hearing her son's strong heartbeat at a final checkup, Veronika received the devastating news that her sweet Benjamin had passed away. Looking back on her challenging pregnancy, Veronika shares the heartbreak of losing Benjamin at 40 weeks, with the cause of death unknown, and the impact it has had on her life. In this episode, Veronika opens up about her pregnancy, finding a new OB-GYN, and hearing Benjamin's heartbeat only to be told he had passed. Highlights from our conversation with Veronika: The emotional impact of the ultrasound and fears that something was wrong The overwhelming emotions and confusion surrounding her experience Receiving support from her church community Challenges with funeral home arrangements Allowing her other children to grieve and how they helped her through the loss Veronika's story is a reminder of the different ways each person grieves. Her story shines a light on the importance of self-compassion, community, and getting support from loved ones. Quotes: "She said, 'Mommy, I'm very sorry Benjamin didn't get to know you. You're a great mommy, and he didn't get to know how good you are.' And that was just the absolute sweetest thing." – Veronika (17:49) "I didn't scream or cry—I just shut down. I wanted to be left alone. I was really irritated by all the staff coming in, and, you know, you still had to deliver that baby, so you can't just get up and go home. You still have to go through all of that." – Veronika (40:55) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/since-my-baby-passed-powerful-life-lessons-from-a/id1473594556?i=1000671153704 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. While at least 25% of stillbirths are preventable, stillbirth is almost never linked to parental behavior. Still, parents often blame themselves, wondering, "Should I have done this?" or thinking, "I shouldn't have done that." It's a natural response––it's just what humans do. But families should be reassured: stillbirth is almost never linked to the behavior of the parents. This is why we're so honored to interview Dr. Bob Silver and Sarah Lopez, MHA, MPH, CPH, from the University of Utah Hospital and the Stillbirth Research Program at the School of Medicine. In this episode, we discuss the research they're doing in stillbirth detection and prevention, as well as their efforts to set up clinics and programs nationwide to better support at-risk mothers and families. Some highlights from our conversation with Dr. Bob Silver and Sarah Lopez: Dr. Bob Silver's expertise in high-risk pregnancies, stillbirth, and placental issues Sarah Lopez's impactful research on stillbirth Understanding stillbirth and common misconceptions The roles of preventability and parental blame Global trends and ongoing challenges in stillbirth research This is an important discussion about the realities of stillbirth and the work being done behind the scenes for families. Thank you for joining us in today's conversation! Quotes: "People blame themselves and they wonder, "it's because I was stressed" or "I exercised," or "I had sex" or "I had a beer," or "I should have done this," or "I shouldn't have done that." and parents should really be reassured that stillbirth is almost never caused by any behavior––or failure of behavior––on the part of the parents." – Dr. Bob Silver (6:35) "I think dads get a little overlooked. Unfortunately, while we're focusing on mom's physical health and well-being, dad is sometimes the silent, strong one, trying to keep it together for mom, so making sure that they have resources, too, is really helpful." – Sarah Lopez (44:34) Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. They say time heals all wounds, and for today's guest, Scott, that's been true. Although everyone's journey through grief is different, as time passes, the process of healing can start. In this episode, Scott shares the story of losing his son, Benjamin, due to a single umbilical artery. Scott talks with Lee about how he and his family found support from a local pastor even though they weren't from the area. He also opens up about the challenges that grief can bring to a marriage and the importance of leaning on each one another. Some highlights from our conversation with Scott: Support from the church––receiving meals and prayers How grief impacts marriages and why leaning on each other is key Grief is both a personal and shared journey Coping mechanisms and healing A call for men to speak openly about their feelings While grief is personal, Scott highlights how it is also a shared human experience and we don't have to compare our pain to anyone else's. Grief may feel isolating at times, but with support and time, wounds do heal. Quotes: "What I realized in the moment since then is that I have to think about it in small pockets, you know? If I want to think about my son, I know that it's going to set the tone for the rest of the day." — Scott (07:54) "Men like to bottle things up. And, you know, I had heard that there were some who had turned to suicide, which is unfortunate. It's a permanent solution to a temporary problem." — Scott (10:40) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/we-were-excited-to-meet-you-a-fathers-stillbirth-story/id1473594556?i=1000667944403 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. There's not only heartbreak, but resilience that comes with the loss of a child. Our guest, Scott, shares about the devastating loss of his beautiful son, Benjamin, at 40 weeks and how this has reshaped his life and strengthened his bond with his family. In today's episode, Scott and Lee talk about the heartbreaking moment when Scott and his wife, Veronika, discovered Benjamin had only one umbilical artery, sparking fears around the diagnosis. Scott dives into the painful experience of going to the hospital after noticing a lack of movement from Benjamin, only to hear the words no parent wants to hear: "He has no heartbeat." Highlights from our conversation with Scott: The events leading up to Benjamin's birth Scott's struggle to process his emotions Arranging Benjamin's cremation and saying goodbye Explaining Benjamin's passing to his two young children The role grief support groups played in helping him process his feelings and find community Though the pain of Benjamin's loss remains, Scott has so much gratitude for the growth and resilience he has gained. He now approaches life with a renewed sense of purpose and awareness of what truly matters—all while carrying Benjamin's memory. Quotes: 'There are problems and solutions, and you want to try to figure out how to handle this. And I didn't know what to do in that situation. It is very confusing. It's, it's frightening, it's, it's scary, it's heartbreaking––all at the same time." – Scott (27:22) "As men, we tend to bottle things up more and we try to figure out how to handle it ourselves, but it did help to kind of hear some techniques and things to work on." – Scott (49:05) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/i-had-become-a-true-partner-with-my-wife-after-his/id1473594556?i=1000668757783 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. In this episode, Winter and Lee reflect on how they navigate the grief and loss of their sweet baby boy, Brannan. They share an update on their healing journey, how they honored Brannan's sixth birthday, and discuss how they continue to heal while keeping his memory alive. Lee also reads an essay he wrote about the forces that turn dangerous broken glass into something beautiful. Some highlights from this episode with Winter and Lee: Celebrating Brannan's sixth birthday Reflecting on the different phases of grief Comparing grief to sea glass and the beauty that can come from pain Finding solace in remembering their sweet baby boy on his birthday How honoring their baby boy brings peace and a deeper sense of family While the reminder of the loss of a child can be painful, it's possible to find comfort in celebrating their life. How do you remember your child on their birthday? We'd love to hear your stories. Quotes: "It was nice and we didn't go over the top. [And nobody] I don't think we felt like we were guilting anybody to celebrate with us. And it was very well incorporated into what a birthday for a six year old would be like in our family." – Lee and Winter (2:02) "This year was my son Brannan's sixth birthday, and maybe for the first time, it was a very peaceful, calm day for me. It wasn't filled with hectic scheduling, trying to figure out how to get fundraising, or do service projects. It was a day of remembrance and a day of family." – Lee (8:21) Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. After a decade has passed, the pain of losing a child never fades. Today's guest, Jennifer, shares the challenges she's faced since that routine checkup when she discovered her son, Nicholas, no longer had a heartbeat. In this episode, Jennifer and Winter talk about the years following Nicholas's passing, the sweet help she received from her family (especially from the family dog), and the meaningful ways she remembers her son to build a legacy for him. Some highlights from this episode with Jennifer: The importance of emotional support that doesn't try to "fix" grief The struggle of packing away Nicholas's belongings after his passing Dealing with insensitive comments and advice from others Emotions that come up on Father's Day Finding solace in honoring Nicholas's legacy Jennifer's story is one of strength. Through honoring Nicholas's memory, she has been able to find both comfort and purpose. How do you keep the memory of your little one alive? Quotes: "I know he's in the best place he can be. But like, in my mom-heart, like, he needs to be here with his mom." – Jennifer (13:39) "My amazing maternal fetal medicine doctor, when I was getting moved to the rooms, gave me a hug. And she said, 'You'll never get over this, but you will get through this' and that stuck with me every day." – Jennifer (20:46) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/telling-his-story-after-11-years-a-mothers-stillbirth-story/id1473594556?i=1000662864599 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. Little baby Nicholas was diagnosed with multicystic dysplastic kidney syndrome after an anatomy scan. Doctors advised that they would just keep an eye on it, assuring Jennifer that he should be a normal functioning baby. Tragically, Nicholas had blood clots in his umbilical cord and was stillborn at 33 weeks. In this episode, Jennifer shares her journey, including her move to Florida, discovering she was pregnant, and finding new care for herself and her baby. She talks about choosing the name Nicholas after learning she was pregnant in December. Jennifer also reflects on the heartbreaking moment when she was told that her son no longer had a heartbeat. Some highlights from this episode with Jennifer: A difficult delivery experience and the trauma following her baby's death Confusion and frustration with medical staff during a stressful hospital visit Memories of Nicholas, including a memory box given to them at the hospital Events during the funeral planning and service and dealing with the loss of a child due to Losing Nicholas at birth due to an umbilical cord complication While the pain of losing Nicholas may never fade, Jennifer continues to honor his memory in meaningful ways, finding healing and purpose along the journey. Quotes: "My baby shower was supposed to be the weekend that he passed away. So that was kind of hard to call people and say, 'Hey, you know, please don't show up at my house.'" – Jennifer (16:34) "I cremated him because I wanted him to come home in some sense." – Jennifer (48:34) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/ive-learned-how-to-be-fine-after-11-years-advice-from/id1473594556?i=1000663560485 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Stacy's sweet little son, Carson, was stillborn at 34 weeks due to unknown reasons. Stacy opens up about the support that helped her navigate her grief and shares advice for others who are experiencing similar pain. In this episode, Stacy talks with Winter about the support that helped her after the stillbirth of Carson. Stacy also talks about her wonderful family and friends that reached out and helped, as well as the great support group that she has been able to be involved with. Highlights from this episode with Stacy: The challenges of finding support and managing grief after a stillbirth Accepting different grieving styles Finding joy in memories of her son, Carson Navigating well-meaning, but sometimes unhelpful, comments The importance of open communication permission to talk about your baby Stacy also shares a deeply emotional letter to Carson, honoring his memory and the impact he continues to have on her life. Stacy's story is a powerful reminder of the importance of community, communication, and allowing oneself the grace to grieve and heal. Quotes: "I think we just started grieving differently as the months went on and I had to learn to, you know, not judge his grief based on my grief." – Stacy (9:47) "And I think as time goes on, there's days that I'm sad, there's days that I'm okay, but it's nice that, you know––I'm probably never going to be the same as I was, but at least I can find joy in life still." – Stacy (13:13) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/he-was-such-a-smiley-baby-a-stillbirth-mothers-story/id1473594556?i=1000661421771 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. Stacy's conversation with Winter is a powerful one. She opens up about how she found comfort during the most heartbreaking time of her life––the loss of her son, Carson, who was stillborn at 34 weeks due to unknown reasons. In this episode, Stacy and Winter talk about getting 4D and 3D ultrasounds and seeing Carson's smiley face and happy demeanor. Stacy talks about being pregnant with baby Carson and what led to going into the hospital to check on him. Some highlights from this episode with Stacy include: Pregnancy after miscarriage, early ultrasounds, and OBGYN appointments Regret around not tracking baby's movements and the importance of counting kicks Her decision not to undergo an autopsy The difficult moment of handing over their stillborn baby to funeral home staff Finding a special spot for Carson in the cemetery and feeling comforted by the presence of other children buried nearby Stacy's story is a reminder of the importance of cherishing every moment and fidning healing through connection and reflection, even in the face of unimaginable loss. Quotes: "I wanted to be alone––so that's just what I preferred. I sat in that room. I remember there was a clock right in front of me and I just was watching it tick. I felt like I was just having a bad dream or something." – Stacy (29:12) "But it was like I was holding a baby. like, because I was just––he just wasn't crying. He wasn't breathing, but he was there. And that moment will forever be so special because, again, it was peaceful. It was sad, but he was perfect." – Stacy (46:28) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/he-was-such-a-smiley-baby-a-stillbirth-mothers-story/id1473594556?i=1000661421771 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. Today's guest, Claire, shares her experience of losing her daughter, Paulie, during childbirth due to shoulder dystocia. She opens up about how she found ways to navigate her grief. In this episode, Claire talks with Winter about the journey she's faced since the tragic loss of her daughter, Paulie. She reflects on the comfort of a meal train organized by supportive friends, which took the burden of cooking off her family's shoulders. Claire also discusses her return to work as a step toward finding a sense of normalcy and as a way to help distract herself from the immense pain. Some highlights from this episode with Claire: Claire shares Paulie's birth story, including the tragic accident during delivery The physical and emotional toll of losing her daughter Returning to work as a way to ease back into everyday life How staying active supported her emotional and mental healing The importance of acknowledging grief and practical ways to support someone after a loss Claire's story is a reminder of the power of community, the importance of recognizing grief, and the small, meaningful steps toward healing after loss. Quotes: "The day before the funeral I had went for an ultrasound early in the morning because I had an infection in the uterus–it really felt like the world is kicking you when I was down. That's really what it felt like." – Claire (13:31) "I definitely think to ignore and talk about other things is worse for me than bringing it up and saying––not, 'are you okay?' But like, you know, really saying like, 'I loved your pregnant belly,' like, 'I wish Paulie was here with us. I wish she was able to experience how amazing you are' or whatever." – Claire (26:28) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/one-moment-we-were-so-happy-and-then-it-all-changed/id1473594556?i=1000659933271 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. While pregnancy is often filled with joy and anticipation, sometimes things take a devastating turn that no one should ever have to face. In this episode, Claire shares the story of her sweet daughter, Paulie, who was born at 41 weeks but tragically passed away during the birthing process. Claire talks about the early stages of labor at the birthing center, where everything seemed to be going smoothly, until complications when Paulie became stuck in the birth canal and needed to be rushed to the hospital. Some highlights from this episode with Claire: Getting pregnant, a previous miscarriage, and its emotional toll A positive pregnancy experience and enjoying the journey An emergency c-section and the medical team's efforts to save Paulie The grief of losing Paulie and the support Claire received from loved ones The importance of getting photographs taken by the hospital's photography team We hope this episode helps you find gratitude for the brief, but precious, time spent with your little ones who have passed. We also hope you can find comfort in those cherished memories, despite the heartache. Quotes: "I was, like, getting ready to cry and feel all the feelings. The head was out and immediately the midwife looked panicked and said, 'call the ambulance right now.'" – Claire (52:23) "It was just not the way we had planned 12 minutes ago––not what we thought was going to happen 12 minutes ago, as we were literally laughing. To go from that to, like, a huge tragedy was just horrible." – Claire (1:08:25) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/what-can-i-do-to-help-a-mother-after-their-child/id1473594556?i=1000660674141 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. Seeking out community support and recognizing that grief is a normal, ongoing process are key steps in healing. In this episode, Ari opens up to Winter about the loss of her sweet baby boy, Kai, who was stillborn at 30 weeks. They discuss the importance of finding community and seeking professional help when needed. Ari looks back on the support she received from family and friends who all played a crucial role in her healing journey. Some highlights from our conversation with Ari include: Attending support groups and therapy for emotional healing Remembering to take breaks from sadness and rediscovering yourself outside of parenthood The experience of pregnancy and anxiety after the loss of a child Sharing memories of her son Kai with loved ones Finding comfort in acknowledging her grief We hope this episode brings comfort and serves as a reminder that seeking joy and taking time for yourself are crucial steps in the healing process. Quotes: "And so being pregnant after losing Kai was hard, I lost a lot of that kind of joy. Because I knew very well, like, the statistics of baby loss and had experienced it myself. So at every turn I was just constantly worried and had come prepared for every like appointment with lots of questions.'" – Ari (13:51) "It's really, really heavy in the beginning––it's incredibly heavy, and it will continue to be on certain days. But I think over time, generally speaking, like, although the grief stays with me, you just kind of wear it differently. It's a little bit lighter, it's a little bit easier to carry. And, yeah, you're not alone, so seek out community." – Ari (26:09) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/he-was-born-in-the-golden-hour-a-mothers-stillbirth-story/id1473594556?i=1000658305902 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. After struggling with infertility for 18 months and finally conceiving naturally, Ari talks about the "sweet and tender moment" of their first prenatal appointment. Everything seemed to be progressing well until sadly, their son, Kai, was stillborn at 30 weeks. In this episode, Ari and Winter reflect on the process of grief, the support from loved ones, and how Ari navigated their heartbreaking loss. Some highlights from our conversation with Ari include: The emotional experience of delivering Kai naturally and trying to remain present during a tragic moment Cherishing the moments spent with Kai after his death The gentle guidance provided by supportive professionals and a social worker during a difficult time The grieving process and how to cope with such a profound loss Exploring options for post-mortem care, including cremation and burial Ari's journey through the loss of her son, Kai, is a powerful reminder of the importance of honoring the memory of our loved ones. We hope this episode offers comfort and guidance as you navigate life after loss, find support, and take the time to grieve, heal, and cherish the moments we have. Quotes: "My heart just sunk. And it was just like, such disbelief. And immediately I was just beating myself up for not having gone in earlier and just flooded with questions of like, 'How long ago did he pass?' And then also, just feeling like, you have disbelief that like, no, like, this can't be real." – Ari (47:44) "Regardless of, you know, the outcome of this pregnancy and this baby's death, like, he's a part of our family––we're always gonna love him.'" – Ari (1:06:35) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/how-finding-community-helped-me-heal-in-my-grief-advice/id1473594556?i=1000659149776 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. At 28 weeks, placental issues led to emergency C-section where Elif gave birth to twins. Tragically, she lost her daughter two hours after birth and her son three days later. In this episode, Elif and Winter talk about the grief process, cultural practices, and how to memorialize and cope with such profound loss. Some highlights from our conversation with Elif include: Losing her daughter two hours after birth and her son three days later Seeking help through couples therapy to navigate grief Grief journeys and the importance of not judging others' experiences The need for better parental leave support in the United States The fear of children being forgotten We hope that Elif's belief in a light at the end of the tunnel and the hope for a better outcome from suffering is encouraging to anyone who's listening. If you or someone you know is going through a similar journey, we encourage you to reach out for support and know that you are not alone. Quotes: "I felt sad, then I felt angry, then I felt devastated. And now I am slowly starting to feel more positive about the whole experience. You know, I am so proud to be their mother." – Elif (2:25) "We shouldn't judge anybody's grief journey. We can just see someone looking so strong over the whole process and deep inside they can be devastated so we shouldn't be judgmental." – Elif (4:33) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/my-little-swallows-are-flying-in-paradise-a-mothers/id1473594556?i=1000656777622 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. Elif and Winter have a beautiful conversation about Elif's sweet twin children, Mavi and Deniz, who were born at 28 weeks due to placental failure and complications of cholestasis of her pregnancy. In this episode, Elif talks about her and her husband's struggles with infertility and their eventual success with IVF. We also talk about the joy of discovering they were expecting twins, the attentive healthcare she received during her pregnancy in her home country of Turkiye, and the heartbreaking experience of undergoing an early planned Cesarean birth and the loss of both her children. Some highlights from our conversation with Elif include: The challenges of infertility and IVF Cultural differences in healthcare in Turkiye A closely monitored high-risk pregnancy Facing an emergency C-section at 28 weeks The emotional and physical challenges of the NICU We hope Elif's story inspires you with her courage and belief in hope and healing. If you or someone you know is on a similar journey, remember that support is available and you are not alone. Quotes: "Doctors always talk, I guess, in a safe zone. They don't want you to get your hopes up, but they don't also want you to feel hopeless." – Elif (43:03) "They kept telling me, 'you are the strongest person we have ever seen.' I said, 'I have no other option. This is my only option. I have no other way. I have to be strong.' " – Elif (48:06) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/im-able-to-say-their-names-and-share-their-story/id1473594556?i=1000657546130 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Trigger Warning: This episode discusses infant loss, including miscarriage and stillbirth. Please listen with care. Life for Kaileigh changed drastically since the loss of her daughter, Melody, who tragically passed in utero at 21 weeks and 5 days. In this episode, Kaileigh reflects on the support she received from family and friends and shares a heartfelt poem she wrote for her sweet baby girl, Melody. Some highlights from our conversation with Kaileigh include: Feeling lost and searching for answers after her loss Navigating unmet expectations, frustration, and loneliness Coping with anxiety during pregnancy Embracing the grieving process and allowing space for all emotions Using journaling and speaking aloud as powerful tools for healing Kaileigh's story is a testament to the power of naming our emotions and processing grief through writing and reflection. Quotes: "I just was lost and the only thing I could focus on was searching for the reason––anything I could come up with wasn't good enough. " – Kaileigh (2:26) "Our hearts were shattered. Dreaming of who you would be while you were growing in my belly was such a joy. Well, we'll never get to hear your cries or stare into your beautiful eyes. And while none of this was inner planned, I know this is the most beautiful life for you. And we can't wait for the day that we meet again." – Kaileigh (32:26) Other Episodes You Might Appreciate: https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/her-big-brother-chose-the-perfect-name-stillborn-at-21-weeks/id1473594556?i=1000655297577 Support the Show: By donating $5 or $10, you'll be supporting the ongoing production of these stories. We appreciate your help toward production and hosting costs. Donate here: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus Thank you for your support! Subscribe: YOUTUBE: Please subscribe to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus THE PODCAST: Please subscribe to Still A Part of Us wherever you find podcasts. https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/still-a-part-of-us-a-podcast-about/id1473594556 Links: Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you.

Winter has a wonderful conversation with Kaileigh about her daughter Melody, who was stillborn at 21 weeks and 5 days. Kaileigh talks about how she had the "perfect" first trimester with very little morning sickness. How the got the 3D ultrasound and the beautiful videos of Melody. Kaileigh then recounts having a premonition feeling that something wasn't correct as they come home from a short vacation. Kaileigh and her husband went in for the postponed 20 week ultrasound and were told that their daughter didn't have a heartbeat. Melody was born the day after and Kaileigh was blessed to have had many wonderful hospital staff members that helped her in her grief. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Makayla and Winter talk about the little things that helped in the recovery after Makayla's little daughter Cambria passed away due to complications with Type 1 diabetes. Makayla talks about the wonderful people what have surrounded her and helped her become a better mother and advocate. Makayla talks about the changing circumstances in her healing that has lead her to where she is now. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Winter talks with Makayla about her little sweet daughter Cambria, who was stillborn due to Makayla experiencing complications with Type 1 diabetes. Makayla tells Winter about the excitement of finding out that she was pregnant and getting more excited to welcome this little girl into their lives. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Lori and Winter talk about how grief has changed over almost 30 years since Cassi was stillborn. They talk about the way life has shaped the way Lori and her family has gone about remembering and including Cassi. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Winter talks with Lori about her sweet little Cassi, who was stillborn due to the umbilical cord being wrapped around her neck multiple times. Lori talks about the fear of getting pregnant for the fifth time (three live births and one miscarriage) and not knowing if she could do it again. She talks about how they had moved to a new-ish city for them, and were away from family with only a small network of friends and neighbors. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Chelsie talks with Winter about the impactful things people did after the death of her son Desmond, who died at 38 weeks due to a true knot in his umbilical cord. Chelsie talks about having time and space to mourn and the differences in grief she and her husband experienced. Chelsie reflects on the was they talked to their 2 year old daughter about the death of her little baby brother and hopes that it will help her understand the love they have for him. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth

Winter chats with Chelsie about her sweet little baby boy, Desmond. He was stillborn due to a true knot in his umbilical cord. Chelsie talks about he joy of finding out that they were pregnant, and the excitement of expanding their family. Chelsie talks about going to the hospital to get a NST after not feeling Desmond move and being told that there was no heartbeat. DONATE $5 (aka "buy us a coffee/hot cocoa") to support the continued production of these stories. We appreciate all the help toward production and hosting costs. Or if you want to purchase an "Always a Part of Us" Legacy Gift for $20, you'll be providing to one of these families that shares their story, full transcriptions, mp3s, and mp4s of the recordings of their baby's birth story and advice episodes for their family history records. You will also get a shout-out on an upcoming episode. Thank you! Donate: https://ko-fi.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our YouTube channel for more birth stories from families who have experienced a stillbirth or infant loss. We're grateful that you're part of our community! https://www.youtube.com/stillapartofus SUBSCRIBE to our podcast Still A Part of Us, wherever you find podcasts. Links (some of these links are affiliate links, which means we may get a small commission off your purchase, at no extra cost to you): Website: http://stillapartofus.com/ Grief Support Groups: https://nationalshare.org/ Mom Music: "Flickering Flame" by Josh Woodward. Free download: http://joshwoodward.com/​​ #stillbirthstory #stillborn #stillbornstory #birthstory #infantloss #infantdeath #babydeath #stillmychild #podcast #birthstories #babyloss #mybabydied #bereavedmother #bereavedfather #infantlossawareness #dadsgrievetoo #mamasgrief #pals #childloss #lifeafterloss #saytheirnames #babylossawareness #breakingthesilence #grievingmom #grievingdad #bereavedparents #pregnancyandinfantlossawarenessmonth