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Ngibingelele Mam Khoza Nomaleli woKHOZI FMNginomuntu engizwana naye akangiphethe kahle izinto azenzayoziyangihlukumeza wenza noma yini mangithi ngiyamkhuza ngiyamtselangamaphutha akhe akhwele azehlele ashiye angalazi angitsele ukuthi yenaunomama bezingane zakhe yena kusamele aganwe mangizibhekileangathatha mina angiyise kubo.Ngasukelwa nguye ngingambizanga wangishela engibona pho yini leeseyenzeka angibone ngingasile uyangifihla akafuni nje kwaziwe uzwananami emini noma engangibona ngathi ayazani ebusuku ke useyangaziUma elele kwami angafuni bambone ephuma kwami mangikwakheangivuse athi angihambe ziningi izinto ezibuhlungu azenzayo ezingilimaza inhliziyo sengizame kaningi ukumyeka akayekeki angisamthandi kephainhliziyo ayifuni ukumdela ngizame kaningi kuthi sengimkhiphile sengizizwasengi right avele abuye abe right kumsuke futhi, inhliziyo yami isihlalaibuhlungu ngize ngikhulume ngedwa ngisho ngihamba emgwaqeningingezwa ne moto ngisaba nokuhlaselwa I depression ngoba yakeyangihlasela.Uyangishisa lomuntu wesilisa angibize endlini yakhe ngifice ama take awayamabili ne drink okukhombisa ukuthi bekuno muntu angeke futhi ngisholutho ngithule kodwa ngaphakathi ngibe ngisha, kwamali akangiphi ngisho Icent , kwala ngiyibona angikwazi ukucela ngisho ngingasebenziubengayingeni unesihluku lomuntu wenza noma yini phambi kwamiukhuluma noma ikanjani angisamfuni kepha ngiyahluleka ukumyeka

Sikhuluma ngodaba wesifazane obekade engakwazi ukukhulelwa,umyeni wakhe waze wamshiya wakhulelisa ngaphandle,nalona wesifazane wahamba emuva kweminaya emibili wabuyela ekhaya kubo, manje sekukhona omunye wesilisa ahlekisana naye usevele wakhulelwa amawele kubo myeni wokuqala bathi sekumele imali yenhlawulo ilethwe kubona

Ngingowesifazane Okuma40s ngineminyaka engu15 ngishadile nobaba wasekhaya kwenzekangonyaka odlule ngathola ukuthi unengane nomzala wami bafihlile isina2yrs.Mam Khoza ngahletshelwa umakhelwane ngoba ebona ukuthi sengiyozengidle ushevu ngoba umama kamzala uthi ufuna umyeni wami a oboleindodakazi yakhe. Uma ngibuza Umyeni wami ngaloludaba uthi uyayondlaingane mina ngingangeni kuloludaba ngoba lomuntu Waye funa ukuchithaumuzi wami, yena akamshelanga wamyenga walala naye hayingobawayemthanda kwaba ukulingeka.Inkinga ke MamDudu yimina esengingene ekukhulumeni ngoba Indodaingafuni ukuhlawula kuba sengathi yimina enginqabayo KaAnti nabo u-antinomzala abakazi bakhulume Nami ngizwe uhlangothi luka mzala, minangazi elomyeni wami. Futhi wathi Leyongane ayisoze yeza emzini wami ngisho engafa.Uze ethi ngamlethela isigebengu emzini wakhe esathi sizombulala. Monkeylokho ngizwa ngomyeni wami Angilazi inside likagazi.Inkinga ke konke lokho kuzoba sengathi kuPhuma kima kanti minangitshelwa umyeni wami, bona njengabantu bakithi abakaze bengihlalisephansi ngizwe side lamzala ukuze inganeyenzelwe imfanelo. Nokuthi njeThina singabantu abakholelwa edlozini awukwazi ukulahla igazi lakhonakwelami uhlangothi akukuhle ukungazwani komndeni ngenxa yomonanempakamo ngoba uma ngizwa kuthiwa umzala wathi ngihleli kahle emziniwami manje uyabona ukuthi kunomona phakathi.Ngiyaxolisa ukulula ngicela usizo kumiswa kanjani esimweni esifana nalesi.Kuvaleleka amathuba omtwana ngento eyenziwa abantu abadala besekuba umkhokha omubi oyosala sesadlula emhlabeni. Nenzondo sezazanaizingane ukuthi yatholakala kanjani kube nenzondo mhlampe sebengekhookumele bechaze iqiniso.

Ngiyakubingelela LADY-D nomlaleli woKHOZI FM, nakhu nami ngibhekanenenkinga, ngingowesifazane ngiganile, sineminyaka eyisithupha sishadile (6 years) kodwa ezinyangeniezimbili ezedlule ngathola ukuthi umyeni nejngoba ewumuntu osebenzela esifundazwnei saseMpumalanga kunomuntu ohlalisana naye. Ubelokhu engasabuyi uma kuyisikhathi sokuthatha i(LEAVE) ubengasabuyi ekhaya noma abuyeisiskhathi esincane aphinde abuyele emuva kanti uhlala nalomuntu wesifazane, ubengasafuni nokuthingize lapha ehlala khona eMpumalanga, besekuyena kuphela omuya ekhaya nakhona ubuya isiskhathiesifishane aphinde ahambe futhi.Mam KHOZA ngigcine ngizwa ngodade wabo engihlebela ukuthi ngathi ubhuti wakhe usefunaukulobola unkosikazi wesibili kodwa lokhu ukusho ngathi uyangibuza ukuthi ngabe ngingakwazi yiniukumelana nokuba sesithenjini. Ngamtshela ukuthi anngisoze ngayivuma leyonto ngoba wangithathyaaeyazi inkolo yami.Asikaze mina nomyeni wami siyikhulume nakancane indaba yokuthatha unkosikazi wesibili, kungconoumuntu uama ekutshela kuqala ukuthi izinhloso zakhe ukuthi abe nomunye unkosikazi, okubuhungunakho konke�� ngizwa sengitshelwa udade wabo uktuhi ubhuti wakhe ufuna ukuthatha umfaziwesibili.Mina ngikhuliswe ngokwe nkolo yobuKrestu, angihambiselani nesithembu, angikaze ngikufihle lokhokuyena, wangithatha azi kahle, manje ngididekile ukuthi kumele ngenze njani ngoba sinawo umndeni,izingane zimbili, bengingathandi ukuthi izingane zami ngizikhulise ngedwa uYISE ekhona, lokhukuyinto esasentsha kumina angazi ngenze kanjani , isimo esinje ngalesi ubhekana kanjani naso MamKhoza, ngicela izeluleko kwenziwa njani makunje.Mlaleli wokhozi fm Uma nawe unodaba ofisa sikusize ngalo siWUJABULUJULE. Ungasithumelela ku [email protected]

Ngiyabingelela Ku Mam Khoza nabalaleli bo Khozi FMngicela ukuba ngu anonymous ngibike udaba lwami. Ngingowesilisa oseneminyaka engu 8 eganiwe, uNkosikazi akaze anginikeisizathu sokungamethembi kodwa manje usanda kunginika sona shuthi keezinsukwini nje ezedlule bengibheka ucingo lwakhe uMama wakwamingahlangana nengxoxo ephakathi kwakhe noNkosikazi kaMfowethuomncane Ibiveza ngokusobala ukuthi uNkosikazi kaMfowethu uyajola kanti yonke intouyayixoxa noNkosikazi wami, yonke lendaba ingiphathe kabi ukwazi njeukuthi kudlalwa ngomfowethu kanti uNkosikazi wami uyingxenye yakhokonke lokhu, yize kungekho engikutholile okuveza ukuthi hlampe noMamawakwami naye kukhona akwenzayo eceleni kodwa angisamethembi njenhlobo kungenza ngizibuze ukuthi uma ekwazi ukuthula futhi aseke umuntuophingela umnyeni wakhe yena yini emuvimbayo ukuthi akwenze ngoba phela shuthi akakuboni akubi ngakho sekunzima nje nokuthi ngimthintengoba kunzima ukuzitshela ukuthi yena uthembikile kuminaNgiyamthanda kakhulu uNkosikazi wami, sino mndeni omuhle kakhulu kantifuthi sisuka kude sinaye angifuni ukumosha umshado wami ngentookungenzeka ukuthi ayikho , ngesimo samfowethu sokujolelwangizomtshela lokho ngiyakwazi kodwa mina into engifisa ukulekelelwangayo yile yowami umshado, ngingamthemba kanjani futhi uNkosikazi wamingiphinde ngikwazi ukumthemba njengasekuqaleni, ngingajabula umangingezwa izeluleko kwabanye abafwethu abaseke badlula kulokhu ukuthibabhekana nakho kanjani, ngibonge ithuba ngizolalela emsakazweni.

Ngibingelele Mam Lady-D nethimba lakho, ngithe angedlulile namiokusenhlizweni yami, ngikhungathekile.Ngingowesilisa oneminyaka engaamashumi amathathu (30years) bengikade ngisebudlelwaneninowesifazane osekhulile kunami ngoba uneminyaka engamashumi amane (40 years) ekusho ukuthiungishiya ngeminyaka eyishumi ubudala.Inkinga yami iqala emuva kokuthi sambatha sbbabili savuka sibathathu, shukuthi wakhulelwangokusho kwakhe ngoba ungumuntu engamthola ngase khaya kodwa njengamanje mina ngihlala eGolingisondelele amatoho, inkinga iqala emuva kokuthi sike salahlalekelana ngoba ngangihlushwa ucingo,sangaxhumana kahle kodwa shukuthi wazama ukungithola ngoba emuva kokuthi sengizamileukulungisa ucingo ngikwazile ukubona imilayezo yakhe nezithombe zengane isizelwe.Ngizamile ukondla ingane ngilokhu ngithumela imali yengane njengoba ewumuntu ongasekhaya minangise Goli, ngizamile ukumcela ukuthi ingane ngizocela ukuthi iye ekhaya ukuze izobonwa ngabazalibami, wanqaba waphetha , kanti lona wesifazane ingane akuyona eyakhe yingane yendodakazi yakheendala, shuktuhi ubeqamba amanga sonke lesi sikhathi , lokhu ngikuthola ezinkundleni , ngibonekubhale ingane yakhe ifake yona lengane engithi yeyami kanti akuyona eyami, mangimbuza ukuthiwethuleleni ngesikhathi ngiyobona ingane ekhaya kubo wangitshela ukuhi ubecabanga ukuthi uMamawakhe uayyikhulumela nje.Ingane isisenminayak emithathu manje, sengiyenzele lezozinto ezincane ebengilokhu ngizithumela ,ngimnikeza nemali ebeyifuna, ngapha nengane besengakhe ubudlelwane nayo, lokhu okwenzekayokuyangihlukumeza angazi ngingabhekana kanjani nakho. Ngicela abalaleli bangicebise ukuthingingabhekana kanjani nalesimo.

inkinga iqala ngesikhathi undodakazi wakhe ephikwa umfana asola ukuthi uyen aomkhulelisile kodwa ngokuhamba kwesikhathi unezinsolo lapho elokhu ebona umuntu wesilisa olokhu engena ngewindi emzini wakhe kanti uyena Yise wengane lona, evunyelwa undodakazi wakhe, umfana lona owayiphika intombazane wathi akayazi uma kuyobikwa isisu kodwa uyakwazi ukungena kulomuzi evulelwa yindodakazi, manje sekunenkinga njengoba umzukulu lona engena iphuma ezibhedlela odokotela labo ababonayo bathi ingane izolokhu igula ngoba shukuthi kumele ilungiselwe izinto kodwa kubo kaYise abazimisele ngalokh

Ngibingelele Mam Lady-D nethimba lakho, ngithe angedlulile namiokusenhlizweni yami, ngiyazi baningi abahlezi bebhalela kuloluhlelo le Tea time, angazi nokuthingiqalephi , inhliziyo ibuhlungu ngoba sengingenil Phakathi kukhona okuyizimpawu kpdwa angizangengizinake.Mam Khoza, ngisebudlelwaneni futhi sishadile ngokwaka (home Affairs) ulobolile waqeda thenwambesa, then sayobhala, angazi noma ukuvaleka amehlo uthando yini.Siqale ukuzwana ngonyaka ka 2012 uze walobola ngonyaka ka 2021, bese wambesa ngonyaka ka2022. Abukho ubudlelwane obuhlezi buhamba kahle kuba khona ukungaboni ngaso linye noma lezozinkinga obonanyo ningakwazi ukubhekana nazo kodwa kukhona okunye obonayo ukuthi kuyagqilazangoba uzitshela ukuthi ngokuhamba kwesikhathi kuzoshintsha…Ngingumuntu okwaziyo ukubekezela noam ngabe sekukubi angithandi kuthiwa ngishintshaamadoda.Sinezingane ezimbili, siyasebenza sobabili kodwa ngokwezimali mina uyazi ukuthi ngitholakangconywana ngavezela ngoba umsebenzi ngawuthola ngenx ayakhe, uyena owabona isikhangisosomsebenzi wangikhutahza ukuthi angifake isiscelo , ngemepla ngafaka ngabizwa ngagcianngitahthiwe.Inkinga manje ukuthi useyangiyekelela angazi noam ngifela lesi khathi bengikade ngingasebenzi yini,ngoba kunezinto aziyeka ngamabomu anagzikhokhela ngikhokhe iziznyanga zize zilandelane athulenoma uma egodukile akayifaki imali kwi akhawunti esifaka kuyona ukuze sikhokhele izidingozalapaha ekhaya.Lento seyenzeke isiskhathi eside angazi ngibhekane nayo kanjani ngoba nginezingane, sinomuzi, mina kuthi kupehla inyanga angisenayo imali ngoba ikhokhela zonek izinto zasendlini, angikwazi ukusebnzakodwa kube ngathi ngisebenzela izikweletu, kumele ngimncenge ukuthi enze izimfanelo zakhenjengendoda yomuzi, kumele ngimncenge ukuze angiphe imali, njengesithandwa sakho ukubonakalisaukuthi uyalibona iphutha lakho kuyenzeka uvale ihlazo noma kungemali ka petrol kodwa yena lutho.Ngithi ngibhale nje Mam Khoza, mhlampe bakhona abakulesimo engikusona, ngiyazi ukuthi isinqumosilele kumina, ngithi ngikhiphe okusesifubeni sami. Sengiyabona ukuthi ngathi sengizoyehla lenqola,sengicabangela izingane zami, udaba lokuthi zikhule abazali bengekho endaweni eyodwa kubanomthelela omubi kodwa angikwazi ukufa ngiphila ngibualwa yisimo engakwazi ukuzihlangulakusoona, kubuhlungu ukuhlukunyezwa “financially “ okubuhlungu kakhulu umuntu engithi uyithemba lami.