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SUMMARY: In this weeks podcast, we have my dearest friend Shala Nicely talking about how she manages mental compulsions. In this episode, Shala shares her lived experience with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and how she overcomes mental rituals. In This Episode: How to reduce mental compulsions for OCD and GAD. How to use Flooding Techniques with Mental Compulsions Magical Thinking and Mental Compulsions BDD and Mental Compulsions Links To Things I Talk About: Shalanicely.com Book: Is Fred in the Refridgerator? Book: Everyday Mindfulness for OCD ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 284. Welcome back, everybody. We are on the third video or the third part of this six-part series on how to manage mental compulsions. Last week's episode with Jon Hershfield was bomb, like so good. And I will say that we, this week, have Shala Nicely, and she goes for it as well. So, I am so honored to have these amazing experts talking about mental compulsions, talking about what specific tools they use. So, I'm not going to take too much time of the intro this time, because I know you just want to get to the content. Again, I just want to put a disclaimer. This should not replace professional mental health care. This series is for educational purposes only. My job at CBT School is to give you as much education as I can, knowing that you may or may not have access to care or treatment in your own home. So, I'm hoping that this fills in a gap that maybe we've missed in the past in terms of we have ERP School, that's an online course teaching you everything about ERP to get you started if you're doing that on your own. But this is a bigger topic. This is an area that I'd need to make a complete new course. But instead of making a course, I'm bringing these experts to you for free, hopefully giving you the tools that you need. If you're wanting additional information about ERP School, please go to CBTSchool.com. With that being said, let's go straight over to this episode with Shala Nicely. Kimberley: Welcome, Shala. I am so happy to have you here. Shala: I am so happy to be here. Thank you for having me. Kimberley: Okay. So, I have heard a little bit of your views on this, but I am actually so excited now to get into the juicy details of how you address mental compulsions or mental rituals. First, I want to check in with you, do you call them mental compulsions, rituals, rumination? How do you address them? Shala: Yeah. All those things. I also sometimes call it mental gymnastics up in your head, it's all sorts of things you're doing in your head to try to get some relief from anxiety. Kimberley: Right. So, if you had a patient or a client who really was struggling with mental compulsions, whether or not they were doing other compulsions as well, how might you address that particular part of their symptomology? Shala: So, let me answer that by stepping back a little bit and telling you about my own experience with this, because a lot of the way I do it is based on what I learned, trying to manage my own mental rituals. I've had OCD probably since I was five or six, untreated until I was 39. Stumbled upon the right treatment when I went to the IOCDF Conference and started doing exposure mostly on my own. I went to Reid Wilson's two-day group, where I learned how to do it. But the rest of the time, I was implementing on my own. And even though I had quite a few physical compulsions, I would've considered myself a primary mental ritualizer, meaning if we look at the majority, my compulsions were up in my head. And the way I think about this is I think that sometimes if you have OCD for long enough, and you've got to go out and keep functioning in the world and you can't do all these rituals so that people could see, because then people will be like, "What's wrong with you? What are you doing?" you take them inward. And some mental compulsions can take the place of physical compulsions that you're not able to do for whatever reason because you're trying to function. And I'd had untreated OCD for so long that most of my rituals were up in my head, not all, but the great majority of them. Exposure & Response Prevention for Mental Compulsions So, when I started to do exposure, what I found was I could do exposure therapy, straight up going and facing my fears, like going and being around things that might

SUMMARY: In this weeks podcast, we have my dearest friend Shala Nicely talking about how she manages mental compulsions. In this episode, Shala shares her lived experience with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and how she overcomes mental rituals. In This Episode: How to reduce mental compulsions for OCD and GAD. How to use Flooding Techniques with Mental Compulsions Magical Thinking and Mental Compulsions BDD and Mental Compulsions Links To Things I Talk About: Shalanicely.com Book: Is Fred in the Refridgerator? Book: Everyday Mindfulness for OCD ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 284. Welcome back, everybody. We are on the third video or the third part of this six-part series on how to manage mental compulsions. Last week's episode with Jon Hershfield was bomb, like so good. And I will say that we, this week, have Shala Nicely, and she goes for it as well. So, I am so honored to have these amazing experts talking about mental compulsions, talking about what specific tools they use. So, I'm not going to take too much time of the intro this time, because I know you just want to get to the content. Again, I just want to put a disclaimer. This should not replace professional mental health care. This series is for educational purposes only. My job at CBT School is to give you as much education as I can, knowing that you may or may not have access to care or treatment in your own home. So, I'm hoping that this fills in a gap that maybe we've missed in the past in terms of we have ERP School, that's an online course teaching you everything about ERP to get you started if you're doing that on your own. But this is a bigger topic. This is an area that I'd need to make a complete new course. But instead of making a course, I'm bringing these experts to you for free, hopefully giving you the tools that you need. If you're wanting additional information about ERP School, please go to CBTSchool.com. With that being said, let's go straight over to this episode with Shala Nicely. Kimberley: Welcome, Shala. I am so happy to have you here. Shala: I am so happy to be here. Thank you for having me. Kimberley: Okay. So, I have heard a little bit of your views on this, but I am actually so excited now to get into the juicy details of how you address mental compulsions or mental rituals. First, I want to check in with you, do you call them mental compulsions, rituals, rumination? How do you address them? Shala: Yeah. All those things. I also sometimes call it mental gymnastics up in your head, it's all sorts of things you're doing in your head to try to get some relief from anxiety. Kimberley: Right. So, if you had a patient or a client who really was struggling with mental compulsions, whether or not they were doing other compulsions as well, how might you address that particular part of their symptomology? Shala: So, let me answer that by stepping back a little bit and telling you about my own experience with this, because a lot of the way I do it is based on what I learned, trying to manage my own mental rituals. I've had OCD probably since I was five or six, untreated until I was 39. Stumbled upon the right treatment when I went to the IOCDF Conference and started doing exposure mostly on my own. I went to Reid Wilson's two-day group, where I learned how to do it. But the rest of the time, I was implementing on my own. And even though I had quite a few physical compulsions, I would've considered myself a primary mental ritualizer, meaning if we look at the majority, my compulsions were up in my head. And the way I think about this is I think that sometimes if you have OCD for long enough, and you've got to go out and keep functioning in the world and you can't do all these rituals so that people could see, because then people will be like, "What's wrong with you? What are you doing?" you take them inward. And some mental compulsions can take the place of physical compulsions that you're not able to do for whatever reason because you're trying to function. And I'd had untreated OCD for so long that most of my rituals were up in my head, not all, but the great majority of them. Exposure & Response Prevention for Mental Compulsions So, when I started to do exposure, what I found was I could do exposure therapy, straight up going and facing my fears, like going and being around things that might

SUMMARY: In this weeks podcast, we have my dearest friend Shala Nicely talking about how she manages mental compulsions. In this episode, Shala shares her lived experience with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder and how she overcomes mental rituals. In This Episode: How to reduce mental compulsions for OCD and GAD. How to use Flooding Techniques with Mental Compulsions Magical Thinking and Mental Compulsions BDD and Mental Compulsions Links To Things I Talk About: Shalanicely.com Book: Is Fred in the Refridgerator? Book: Everyday Mindfulness for OCD ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 284. Welcome back, everybody. We are on the third video or the third part of this six-part series on how to manage mental compulsions. Last week's episode with Jon Hershfield was bomb, like so good. And I will say that we, this week, have Shala Nicely, and she goes for it as well. So, I am so honored to have these amazing experts talking about mental compulsions, talking about what specific tools they use. So, I'm not going to take too much time of the intro this time, because I know you just want to get to the content. Again, I just want to put a disclaimer. This should not replace professional mental health care. This series is for educational purposes only. My job at CBT School is to give you as much education as I can, knowing that you may or may not have access to care or treatment in your own home. So, I'm hoping that this fills in a gap that maybe we've missed in the past in terms of we have ERP School, that's an online course teaching you everything about ERP to get you started if you're doing that on your own. But this is a bigger topic. This is an area that I'd need to make a complete new course. But instead of making a course, I'm bringing these experts to you for free, hopefully giving you the tools that you need. If you're wanting additional information about ERP School, please go to CBTSchool.com. With that being said, let's go straight over to this episode with Shala Nicely. Kimberley: Welcome, Shala. I am so happy to have you here. Shala: I am so happy to be here. Thank you for having me. Kimberley: Okay. So, I have heard a little bit of your views on this, but I am actually so excited now to get into the juicy details of how you address mental compulsions or mental rituals. First, I want to check in with you, do you call them mental compulsions, rituals, rumination? How do you address them? Shala: Yeah. All those things. I also sometimes call it mental gymnastics up in your head, it's all sorts of things you're doing in your head to try to get some relief from anxiety. Kimberley: Right. So, if you had a patient or a client who really was struggling with mental compulsions, whether or not they were doing other compulsions as well, how might you address that particular part of their symptomology? Shala: So, let me answer that by stepping back a little bit and telling you about my own experience with this, because a lot of the way I do it is based on what I learned, trying to manage my own mental rituals. I've had OCD probably since I was five or six, untreated until I was 39. Stumbled upon the right treatment when I went to the IOCDF Conference and started doing exposure mostly on my own. I went to Reid Wilson's two-day group, where I learned how to do it. But the rest of the time, I was implementing on my own. And even though I had quite a few physical compulsions, I would've considered myself a primary mental ritualizer, meaning if we look at the majority, my compulsions were up in my head. And the way I think about this is I think that sometimes if you have OCD for long enough, and you've got to go out and keep functioning in the world and you can't do all these rituals so that people could see, because then people will be like, "What's wrong with you? What are you doing?" you take them inward. And some mental compulsions can take the place of physical compulsions that you're not able to do for whatever reason because you're trying to function. And I'd had untreated OCD for so long that most of my rituals were up in my head, not all, but the great majority of them. Exposure & Response Prevention for Mental Compulsions So, when I started to do exposure, what I found was I could do exposure therapy, straight up going and facing my fears, like going and being around things that might

SUMMARY: Covered in This Episode: What is a Mental Compulsion? What is the difference between Mental Rumination and Mental Compulsions? How to use Mindfulness for Mental Compulsions How to "Label and Abandon" intrusive thoughts and mental compulsions How to use Awareness logs to help reduce mental rituals and mental rumination Links To Things I Talk About: Links to Jon's Books https://www.amazon.com/ Work with Jon https://www.sheppardpratt.org/care-finder/ocd-anxiety-center/ Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. To learn about our Online Course for OCD, visit https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free, and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION I want you to go back and listen to that. That is where I walk you through Mental Compulsions 101. What is a mental compulsion, the types of mental compulsions, things to be looking out for. The reason I stress that you start there is there may be things you're doing that are mental compulsions and you didn't realize. So, you want to know those things before you go in and listen to the skills that you're about to receive. Oh my goodness. This is just so, so exciting. I'm mind-blown with how exciting this is all for me. First of all, let's introduce the guest for today. Today, we have the amazing Jon Hershfield. Jon has been on the episode before, even talking about mental compulsions. However, I wanted him to status off. He was so brave. He jumped in, and I wanted him to give his ideas around what is a mental compulsion, how he uses mental compulsion treatment with his clients, what skills he uses. Little thing to know here, he taught me something I myself didn't know and have now since implemented with our patients over at my clinic of people who struggle with mental compulsions. I've also uploaded that and added a little bit of that concept into ERP School, which is our course for OCD, called ERP School. You can get it at CBTSchool.com. Jon is amazing. So, you're going to really feel solid moving into this. He gives some solid advice. Of course, he's always so lovely and wise. And so, I am just so excited to share this with you. Let's just get to the show because I know you're here to learn. This is episode two of the series. Next week we will be talking with Shala Nicely and she will be dropping major truth bombs and major skills as well, as will all of the people on the series. So, I am so, so excited. One thing to know as you move into it is there will be some things that really work for you and some that won't. So, I'm going to say this in every episode intro. So, all of these skills are top-notch science-based skills. Each person is going to give their own specific nuanced way of managing it. So, I want you to go in knowing that you can take what you need. Some things will really be like, yes, that's exactly what I needed to hear. Some may not. So, I want you to go in with an open mind knowing that the whole purpose of this six-part series is to give you many different approaches so that you can try on what works for you. That's my main agenda here, is that you can feel like you've gotten all the ideas and then you can start to put together a plan for yourself. Let's go over to the show. I'm so happy you're here. ----- Kimberley: Welcome, Jon. I'm so happy to have you back. Jon: Hi, Kimberley. Thanks for having me back. Difference Between Mental Compulsions and Mental Rumination Kimberley: Okay. So, you're first in line and I purposely had you first in line. I know we've had episodes similar to this in the past, but I just wanted to really get your view on how you're dealing with mental compulsions. First, I want to check in, do you call them "mental compulsions" or do you call it "mental rumination"? Do you want to clarify your own idea? Jon: Yeah. I say mental compulsions or mental rituals. I use the terms pretty interchangeably. It comes up at the first, usually in the assessment, if not then in the first post-assessment session, when I'm explaining how OCD works and I get to the part we say, and then there's this thing called compulsions. And what I do is I describe compulsions as anything that you do physically or mentally to reduce distress, and this is the important part, specifically by trying to increase certainty about the content of the obsession. Why that's important is I think we need to get rid of this myth that sometimes shows up in the OCD community that when you do exposures or when you're triggered, you're just supposed to freak out and deal wit

SUMMARY: Welcome to the first week of this 6-part series on Mental Compulsions. This week is an introduction to mental compulsions. Ove the next 6 weeks, we will hear from many of the leaders in our feild on how to manage mental compulsions using many different strategies and CBT techniques. Next week, we will have Jon Hershfield to talk about how he using mindfulness to help with mental compulsions and mental rituals. In This Episode: What is a mental compulsion? Is there a different between a mental compulsion and mental rumination and mental rituals? What is a compulsion? Types of Mental Compulsions Links To Things I Talk About: How to reach Jon https://www.sheppardpratt.org/care-finder/ocd-anxiety-center/ ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 282 and the first part of a six-part series that I am overwhelmed and honored to share with you – all on mental compulsions. I have wanted to provide a free resource on mental compulsions for years, and I don't know why, but I finally got enough energy under my wings and I pulled it off and I could not be more excited. Let me tell you why. This is a six-part series. The next six episodes will be dedicated to managing mental compulsions, mental rituals, mental rumination. I will be presenting today the first part of the training, which is what we call Mental Compulsions 101. It will talk to you about all the different types of mental compulsions, give you a little bit of starter training. And then from there, it gets exciting. We have the most incredible experts in the field, all bringing their own approach to the same topic, which is how do we manage mental compulsions? We don't talk about mental compulsions enough. Often, it's not addressed enough in treatment. It's usually very, very difficult to reduce or stop mental compulsion. I thought I would bring all of the leaders, not all of them, the ones I could get and the ones that I had the time to squeeze into this six-part series, the ones that I have found the most beneficial for my training and my education for me and my stuff. I asked very similar questions, all with the main goal of getting their specific way of managing it, their little take, their little nuance, fairy tale magic because they do work magic. These people are volunteering their time to provide this amazing resource. Welcome to number one of a six-part series on mental compulsions. I hope you get every amazing tool from it. I hope it changes your life. I hope you get out your journal and you write down everything that you think will help you and you put it together and you try it and you experiment with it and you practice and you practice because these amazing humans are so good and they bring such wisdom. I'm going to stop there because I don't want to go on too much. Of course, I will be starting. And then from there, every week for the next five weeks after this one, you will get a new take, a new set of tools, a new way of approaching it. Hopefully, it's enough to really get you moving in managing your mental compulsion so you can go and live the life that you deserve, so that you can go and do the things you want without fear and anxiety and mental compulsions taking over your time. Let's do this. I have not once been more excited, so let's do this together. It is a beautiful day to do hard things and so let's do it together. Welcome, everybody. Welcome to Mental Compulsions 101. This is where I set the scene and teach you everything you need to know to get you started on understanding mental compulsions, understanding what they are, different kinds, what to do, and then we're going to move over and let the experts talk about how they personally manage mental compulsions. But before they shared their amazing knowledge and wisdom, I wanted to make sure you all had a good understanding of what a mental compulsion is and really get to know your own mental compulsions so you can catch little, maybe nuanced ways that maybe you're doing mental compulsions. I'm going to do this in a slideshow format. If you're listening to this audio, there will be a video format that you can access as well here very soon. I will let you know about that. But for right now, let's go straight into the content. Who is Kimberley Quinlan? First of all, who am I? My name is Kimberley Quinlan. A lot of you know who I am already. If you don

SUMMARY: This episode addresses some common questions people have about anxiety and arousal. Oftentimes, we are too afraid to talk about anxiety and arousal, so I thought I would take this opportunity to address some of the questions you may have and take some of the stigma and shame out of discussing anxiety and how it impacts arousal, orgasm, intimacy, and sexual interactions. In This Episode: How anxiety and arousal impact each other (its a cycle) Arousal Non-Concordance and how it impacts people with anxiety and OCD How to take the shame out of arousal struggles Understanding why anxiety impacts orgasms and general intimacy Links To Things I Talk About: Article I wrote about OCD and Arousal Non-Concordance https://www.madeofmillions.com/articles/whats-going-ocd-arousal Come as You are By Emily Nagoski, PhD Come as You Are Workbook By Emily Nagoski, PhD ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 281. Welcome back, everybody. How are you? It is a beautiful sunny day here in California. We're actually in the middle of a heatwave. It is April when I'm recording this and it is crazy how hard it is, but I'm totally here for it. I'm liking it because I love summer. Talking about heat, let's talk about anxiety and arousal today. Shall we? Did you get that little pun? I'm just kidding really. Today, we're talking about anxiety and arousal. I don't know why, but lately, I'm in the mood to talk about things that no one really wants to talk about or that we all want to talk about and we're too afraid to talk about. I'm just going to go there. For some reason, I'm having this strong urge with the podcast to just talk about the things that I feel we're not talking about enough. And several of my clients actually were asking like, "What resources do you have?" And I have a lot of books and things that I can give people. I was like, "All right, I'm going to talk about it more." So, let's do it together. Before we do that, let's quickly do the review of the week. This one is from, let's see, Jessrabon621. They said: "Amazing podcast. I absolutely love everything about this podcast. I could listen to Kimberley talk all day and her advice is absolutely amazing. I highly recommend this podcast to anyone struggling with anxiety or any other mental health professional that wants to learn more." Thank you so much, Jess. This week's "I did a hard thing" is from Anonymous and they say: "I learned it's okay to fulfill my emotions and just allow my thoughts and it gave me a sense of peace. Learning self-compassion is my hard thing and I'm learning to face OCD and realize that it's not my fault. I'm learning to manage and live my life for me like I deserve, and I refuse to let this take away my happiness." This is just so good. I talk about heat. This is seriously on fire right here. I love it so much. The truth is self-compassion practice is probably my hard thing too. I think that me really learning how to stand up for myself, be there for myself, be tender with myself was just as hard as my eating disorder recovery and my anxiety recovery. I really appreciate Anonymous and how they've used self-compassion as their hard thing. Let's get into the episode. Let me preface the episode by we're talking about anxiety and arousal. If I could have one person on the podcast, it would be Emily Nagoski. I have been trying to get her on the podcast for a while. We will get her on eventually. However, she's off doing amazing things. Amazing things. Netflix specials, podcasts, documentaries. She's doing amazing things. So, hopefully, one day. But until then, I want to really highlight her as the genius behind a lot of these concepts. Emily Nagoski is a doctor, a psychology doctor. She is a sex educator. She has written two amazing books. Well, actually, three or four. But the one I'm referring to today is Come as You Are. It's an amazing book. But I'm actually in my hand holding the Come as You Are Workbook. I strongly encourage you after you listen to this podcast episode to go and order that book. It is amazing. It's got tons of activities. It might feel weird to have the book. You can get it on Kindle if you want to have it be hidden, but it's so filled with amazing information. I'm going to try and give you the pieces that I really want you to take away. If you want more, by all means, go and get the workbook. Th

SUMMARY: This episode addresses some common questions people have about anxiety and arousal. Oftentimes, we are too afraid to talk about anxiety and arousal, so I thought I would take this opportunity to address some of the questions you may have and take some of the stigma and shame out of discussing anxiety and how it impacts arousal, orgasm, intimacy, and sexual interactions. In This Episode: How anxiety and arousal impact each other (its a cycle) Arousal Non-Concordance and how it impacts people with anxiety and OCD How to take the shame out of arousal struggles Understanding why anxiety impacts orgasms and general intimacy Links To Things I Talk About: Article I wrote about OCD and Arousal Non-Concordance https://www.madeofmillions.com/articles/whats-going-ocd-arousal Come as You are By Emily Nagoski, PhD Come as You Are Workbook By Emily Nagoski, PhD ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to CBTschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 281. Welcome back, everybody. How are you? It is a beautiful sunny day here in California. We're actually in the middle of a heatwave. It is April when I'm recording this and it is crazy how hard it is, but I'm totally here for it. I'm liking it because I love summer. Talking about heat, let's talk about anxiety and arousal today. Shall we? Did you get that little pun? I'm just kidding really. Today, we're talking about anxiety and arousal. I don't know why, but lately, I'm in the mood to talk about things that no one really wants to talk about or that we all want to talk about and we're too afraid to talk about. I'm just going to go there. For some reason, I'm having this strong urge with the podcast to just talk about the things that I feel we're not talking about enough. And several of my clients actually were asking like, "What resources do you have?" And I have a lot of books and things that I can give people. I was like, "All right, I'm going to talk about it more." So, let's do it together. Before we do that, let's quickly do the review of the week. This one is from, let's see, Jessrabon621. They said: "Amazing podcast. I absolutely love everything about this podcast. I could listen to Kimberley talk all day and her advice is absolutely amazing. I highly recommend this podcast to anyone struggling with anxiety or any other mental health professional that wants to learn more." Thank you so much, Jess. This week's "I did a hard thing" is from Anonymous and they say: "I learned it's okay to fulfill my emotions and just allow my thoughts and it gave me a sense of peace. Learning self-compassion is my hard thing and I'm learning to face OCD and realize that it's not my fault. I'm learning to manage and live my life for me like I deserve, and I refuse to let this take away my happiness." This is just so good. I talk about heat. This is seriously on fire right here. I love it so much. The truth is self-compassion practice is probably my hard thing too. I think that me really learning how to stand up for myself, be there for myself, be tender with myself was just as hard as my eating disorder recovery and my anxiety recovery. I really appreciate Anonymous and how they've used self-compassion as their hard thing. Let's get into the episode. Let me preface the episode by we're talking about anxiety and arousal. If I could have one person on the podcast, it would be Emily Nagoski. I have been trying to get her on the podcast for a while. We will get her on eventually. However, she's off doing amazing things. Amazing things. Netflix specials, podcasts, documentaries. She's doing amazing things. So, hopefully, one day. But until then, I want to really highlight her as the genius behind a lot of these concepts. Emily Nagoski is a doctor, a psychology doctor. She is a sex educator. She has written two amazing books. Well, actually, three or four. But the one I'm referring to today is Come as You Are. It's an amazing book. But I'm actually in my hand holding the Come as You Are Workbook. I strongly encourage you after you listen to this podcast episode to go and order that book. It is amazing. It's got tons of activities. It might feel weird to have the book. You can get it on Kindle if you want to have it be hidden, but it's so filled with amazing information. I'm going to try and give you the pieces that I really want you to take away. If you want more, by all means, go and get the workbook. Th

SUMMARY: This episode addresses some common questions people have about anxiety and arousal. Oftentimes, we are too afraid to talk about anxiety and arousal, so I thought I would take this opportunity to address some of the questions you may have and take some of the stigma and shame out of discussing anxiety and how it impacts arousal, orgasm, intimacy, and sexual interactions. In This Episode: How anxiety and arousal impact each other (its a cycle) Arousal Non-Concordance and how it impacts people with anxiety and OCD How to take the shame out of arousal struggles Understanding why anxiety impacts orgasms and general intimacy Links To Things I Talk About: Article I wrote about OCD and Arousal Non-Concordance https://www.madeofmillions.com/articles/whats-going-ocd-arousal Come as You are By Emily Nagoski, PhD Come as You Are Workbook By Emily Nagoski, PhD ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 281. Welcome back, everybody. How are you? It is a beautiful sunny day here in California. We're actually in the middle of a heatwave. It is April when I'm recording this and it is crazy how hard it is, but I'm totally here for it. I'm liking it because I love summer. Talking about heat, let's talk about anxiety and arousal today. Shall we? Did you get that little pun? I'm just kidding really. Today, we're talking about anxiety and arousal. I don't know why, but lately, I'm in the mood to talk about things that no one really wants to talk about or that we all want to talk about and we're too afraid to talk about. I'm just going to go there. For some reason, I'm having this strong urge with the podcast to just talk about the things that I feel we're not talking about enough. And several of my clients actually were asking like, "What resources do you have?" And I have a lot of books and things that I can give people. I was like, "All right, I'm going to talk about it more." So, let's do it together. Before we do that, let's quickly do the review of the week. This one is from, let's see, Jessrabon621. They said: "Amazing podcast. I absolutely love everything about this podcast. I could listen to Kimberley talk all day and her advice is absolutely amazing. I highly recommend this podcast to anyone struggling with anxiety or any other mental health professional that wants to learn more." Thank you so much, Jess. This week's "I did a hard thing" is from Anonymous and they say: "I learned it's okay to fulfill my emotions and just allow my thoughts and it gave me a sense of peace. Learning self-compassion is my hard thing and I'm learning to face OCD and realize that it's not my fault. I'm learning to manage and live my life for me like I deserve, and I refuse to let this take away my happiness." This is just so good. I talk about heat. This is seriously on fire right here. I love it so much. The truth is self-compassion practice is probably my hard thing too. I think that me really learning how to stand up for myself, be there for myself, be tender with myself was just as hard as my eating disorder recovery and my anxiety recovery. I really appreciate Anonymous and how they've used self-compassion as their hard thing. Let's get into the episode. Let me preface the episode by we're talking about anxiety and arousal. If I could have one person on the podcast, it would be Emily Nagoski. I have been trying to get her on the podcast for a while. We will get her on eventually. However, she's off doing amazing things. Amazing things. Netflix specials, podcasts, documentaries. She's doing amazing things. So, hopefully, one day. But until then, I want to really highlight her as the genius behind a lot of these concepts. Emily Nagoski is a doctor, a psychology doctor. She is a sex educator. She has written two amazing books. Well, actually, three or four. But the one I'm referring to today is Come as You Are. It's an amazing book. But I'm actually in my hand holding the Come as You Are Workbook. I strongly encourage you after you listen to this podcast episode to go and order that book. It is amazing. It's got tons of activities. It might feel weird to have the book. You can get it on Kindle if you want to have it be hidden, but it's so filled with amazing information. I'm going to try and give you the pieces that I really want you to take away. If you want more, by all means, go and get the workbook. Th

In this week's podcast episode, we are reflecting on the question, "Does anxiety make you need to pee or poop? Yes, you read that right! Today, we are talking ALL about how anxiety can cause frequent urination and the fear of peeing your pants. Have you found yourself getting anxious you might need to pee or poop in public which, in turn, makes you need to pee or poop in public? Bathroom emergencies are way more common than you think. I even share a story of how I, myself, had to handle the urgency to 🏃🏼‍♀️🏃🏿‍♂️ to the restroom. In This Episode: Why do we need to pee and poop when we are anxious? What causes the psychological need to urinate or defecate when anxious? How to stop anxiety Urination How to manage a fear of peeing your pants or pooping your pants How to use mindfulness and self-compassion when experiencing nervous pee syndrome Links To Things I Talk About: Overcoming Anxiety and Panic https://www.cbtschool.com/overcominganxiety ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 280. Welcome back, everybody. I am so thrilled to have you here with me again today. Today's format is going to be a little different. I have fused the "I did the hard thing" with the question that we're going to address today. Usually, I sit down to the microphone and I look at my screen and I think about what I want to talk about, and I just start talking about it. To be honest, that is how this show goes. It has always been how this show has gone. But a follower on Instagram reached out to me this week and posed a really great question. So, with her permission, I will anonymously invite you to listen to the question, and then we're going to talk about some solutions. The reason I wanted to go word for word is I think you're probably going to get what she's saying, because I've been in this position. I know most of my clients have been in this position. It's not the funniest thing to talk about. I mean, I love talking about it, but it's not the funniest thing for you to talk about, or often people have a lot of shame and embarrassment around this topic. So, I wanted to just, let's just talk about it. Now, the reason I say I love to talk about it is, you know probably from previous episodes, I commonly ask my clients pretty personal questions. And often questions are like, are you prioritizing time to pee and poop? Are you holding your pee and poop? My job is to ask the questions that people are often too afraid to bring up. I often ask some personal questions about sexual arousal and things like that, again, because I have been trained to understand there's a lot of stigma and shame, and embarrassment around these topics. And so I try to de-stigmatize them and take the shame out of them by just addressing them because they're normal human struggles that we have. As you may imagine, today, we're talking about anxiety and pee and poop, and how anxiety can often make us feel like we urgently need to pee or/and poop. That's the topic of today. I'm going to read you this. It's a two-part question. I'm going to address them separately, but all from the same situation. It said: "Kim, I hope you are well. I was reading your post yesterday about the hardest part of facing your fear." To give you some backstory, I did a post on what the hardest things about facing fears are. I posed this question to Instagram and everyone wrote in. And using the results of what everyone wrote in, I created a post. And number seven was physical symptoms, especially bowel issues, and it really resonated with me. Why do we need to pee and poop when we are anxious? "You have said before that when you get feelings of discomfort, to just sit with it and do nothing." That's a common theme I talk about, is if you have discomfort, do nothing at all. You just sit with it. "But when it comes to bowel issues or needing to urinate due to anxiety, I get confused at what to do. Should I be sitting with it or going to the loo because that's what my body needs? There are sort of two parts to my anxiety. With this, I'll give you an example." She said, "This weekend, I'm going to a christening and I get anxious for these types of events, like christenings, weddings, theater, anywhere where there is lots of people and they sit together in a certain way. I feel anxious about needing to go to the bathroom. It's almost like I'm anxious of the sym

In todays podcast episode, together we do a self-compassion check in. First, we address what is self-compassion and then, we check in on our needs. Mindful Self-Compassion involves first, being aware of what we need and what needs tending to. In this episode, we also walk through a self-compassion meditation together. In This Episode: What is Self-Compassion? What do I need? How can I give myself self-compassion right now? Self-compassion meditation. Links To Things I Talk About: https://read.amazon.com/kp/embed?asin=B08WGW9XCZ&preview=newtab&linkCode=kpe&ref_=cm_sw_r_kb_dp_XSDYJ2MCRJBYEFCPS5NF&tag=cbtschool-20 ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 279. Welcome back, everybody. Today on Your Anxiety Toolkit podcast, we are talking about self-compassion. We're doing a self-compassion check-in. It's been a little while since we've checked in on how are you doing with your self-compassion practice. Now, today, we have added a little meditation for you just to supercharge your self-compassion practice. That is my agenda for today. We haven't done a ton of check-ins lately because life just seems to get away from us. For those of you who do not know, in 2020, I wrote a book called The Self-Compassion Workbook For OCD. It was the joy of life and the biggest challenge of my life business-wise. It was such a huge agenda to have on my plate just as 2020 and COVID breakthrough, but I'm so grateful it's out. When it was released, I had a lot of stuff out about self-compassion. And then I haven't checked in with you guys on how you're doing. So that's what today is about. Now, before we get into the episode, let's do the "I did a hard thing" for the week. We always check-in and someone submits the thing that they've done that is hard, because what we like to say is "It's a beautiful day to do hard things." And today's is from Anonymous. They said: "I've recently been diagnosed with OCD and struggled my whole life with anxiety. Unfortunately, until now I was never properly diagnosed until I was 45. I have started working with a new therapist and we are focusing on ERP. At first, I couldn't even tell her about my fears and intrusive thoughts. I have harm OCD among other various categories. Now, we are doing imaginals around some of the things I never thought I could even address, and I'm so proud of myself." I'm proud of you too. "It is changing my life. I cannot tell you how important it is to get a proper diagnosis and never give up. You will get better. You just have to get the right help and be willing to do the hard things." Anonymous, you are giving me the chills. Now, for those of you who don't have access – anonymous has access to a therapist – if you don't have access to a therapist, we do have an online course called ERP School. An ERP School is an online course that will teach you how to practice ERP at home, in your pajamas, all the skills that you need to get you started. Now, it does require you to be self-motivated. But if you are self-motivated and you are ready to learn, head on over to CBTSchool.com and you can get all the information there. All right, let's go over to the show. It's self-compassion check-in time. WHAT IS SELF-COMPASSION? What is Self-Compassion? It means how have you been treating yourself? Remember, self-compassion is ultimately treating yourself with the same that you would treat somebody else. So, if somebody else came to you and said, "I'm struggling with A, B, and C," what would you say to them? How would you treat them? How would you respond to them? How would your body language change? Would your voice lower? Would your voice soften? Would you give them a hug if that was appropriate? Would you soften your eyes and let them know that everything was going to be okay, and that you had their back unconditionally? That is how you would treat yourself. So my question is, how are you doing with this? I want you to check in regularly, way more regularly than we are here today. But I want you to check in with yourself preferably every day or multiple times a day and ask yourself, how am I doing? And then we're going to move into, and I know a lot of you remember this from previous episodes, but I want you to ask yourself the golden self-compassion question, which is, what do I need right now? What do I need? Let's do this together. I want you to find a comf

In this week's episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, I share what I learned from my 3-day silent meditation retreat. This 3-day silent meditation retreat was rough, I won't lie. I had to ride many highs and lows, so I wanted to share them with you. Links To Things I Talk About: Tara Brach Silent Meditation Retreat home schedule https://www.tarabrach.com/create-home-retreat/ Mindfulness Book https://www.amazon.com/ ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 178. Welcome back, everybody. I am so thrilled to be here with you today. I recently got back from a three-day silent retreat. I was by myself for the entire three days. It was a three-day silent retreat. I have done silent retreats in the past at Buddhist monasteries and Buddhist retreat centers. This is the first time I've done it on my own, and I followed the Tara Brach self-retreat website. I will leave the notes in the show notes so that you can check that out. It was amazing. I can't lie. I had so many mind-blowing moments and I want to share with you each and every single one. I'm going to give you the cliff notes version. Otherwise, I would have you here for days on end. But I am so excited to share that with you. Before we do that, of course, you know we always do the "I did a hard thing." This is a segment where someone can write in, submit the hard thing they've done. This one is by Mgwolfie1992, and they've said: "I have OCD and ASD. Certain shirts do not feel right. Before starting ERP, when I put on a shirt that's uncomfortable, I immediately take it off, which was making me late for work. After starting ERP, I have slowly worked my way up to wearing and keeping that uncomfortable shirt on for 12 minutes." Mgwolfie1992, this is just you doing the work. I'm so, so impressed. This is exactly what it's like for everybody listening or watching today, is it is about just small baby increments and getting yourself higher and higher and a little more difficult, a little more difficult. I'm so impressed with the work that you're doing. This is just so incredibly powerful and rewarding, and I hope that you keep going. Let's talk about what I learned from my three-day silent retreat. Just to give you a setup, I rented through Airbnb a small little cabin in the depths of Topanga, which is very close to where I live in Los Angeles. I was following the Tara Brach home retreat that she created at the beginning of COVID. Now, when COVID hit, I so desperately wanted to do this, but I was in the middle of writing The Self-Compassion Workbook For OCD, and so I did not have time or the bandwidth to really go and really be with myself. I just had so much going on. As you probably remember, the world just felt so scary and no one knew what was happening. So I definitely wasn't ready to do something at that time. After several years or even months at this point where I feel like I've really, really prioritized my mental health and my medical health, I was finally in a place where I just felt like I needed some time to really go and let go of some things. I could be doing this at home. I could do this every day and I have since I returned, but I really felt that I needed these three days to do a deep dive into really some things that I had been working through having a medical illness, a chronic illness. I have postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome, really coming down out of the pandemic and so forth. So, I really felt like I just needed this time to really not have the kids around and just drop down in and do that really hard work. I took with me a journal. I took with me a book called Mindfulness by Joseph Goldstein. I strongly recommend that you try it. It is very heavy on Buddhist philosophy, but it is such an important book about mindfulness. And so to start off, the thing that I learned the most was I needed so desperately to go back to basics. Everything felt so complex – everything I was teaching, everything I was doing in therapy, the practices of my own. It just felt like there were so many spinning parts. When I got there, I just dropped down to like, "Kimberley, let's go back to the basics." So I wanted to share with you what those basics were. Number one, I went right back to the core of mindfulness, which was mostly me. The main agenda was to observe what showed up instead of being in reaction to it. Here, when life i

Common treatment of derealization and depersonalization Kimberley Quinlan SUMMARY: Derealization & depersonalization are common experiences of anxiety. In this episode, we take a look at the definition of derealization and depersonalization. We also explore the common symptoms of derealization and depersonalization and the treatment of derealization and depersonalization. I also explore mindfulness and CBT skills to help you manage your discomfort and anxiety. In This Episode: The definition of derealization The definition of depersonalization Explore the symptoms of derealization Explore the symptoms of depersonalization Comparing derealization vs depersonalization Common treatment of derealization and depersonalization Links To Things I Talk About: ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 227. Welcome back, everybody. I am so grateful to have this time with you. As you know, I promised this year would be the year I doubled down and get really into the nitty-gritty of some of the topics that people don't talk enough about regarding anxiety. Today is so in line with that value Today, we are talking about what is derealization and depersonalization. These are two what I would consider symptoms of anxiety. I see it all the time in my practice. I see it reported and commented all the time on Instagram. If you follow me on Instagram, we put out tons of free information there as well. This is such an important topic. And for some reason, we aren't talking about these two topics enough. My goal today is actually to give you a 101 on derealization and a 101 on depersonalization. We can touch upon derealization disorder and depersonalization disorder as well, but at the end, I want to give you as many tools as I can to point you in the right direction. Before we do that, let's do the "I did a hard thing," because we love that, right? The "I did a hard thing" is a segment where people submit the hard things they're doing. The main reason I do this is because, number one, you're my family. We're all in this together. But number two, often people, many years ago when I started the podcast, people were like, when I started saying it's a beautiful day to do hard things, which I say all the time, a lot of people were saying, "But how hard does it have to be? And how do I handle the hard things? Can you give me an example?" And so, these have been just such a wonderful way to share how other people are doing hard things. This one was submitted anonymously, and they said: "I've struggled with suicidal ideation for a very long time. And after years of therapy, self-discovery, and lots of hard work, I'm finally accepting that I am better off in the world than out of it." Now I just have to take a deep breath and nearly cry because this is seriously the hard work. Sometimes when we're talking about "I did a hard thing," we're talking about facing one small thing or one large thing, but I really want to honor Anonymous here and all of you who are doing this really long-term work and deep, deep work around really acknowledging how important you are and how much the world needs you in it and on it. So anonymous, I love you. You are amazing. I have such respect for the work that you've done and are doing, and thank you. Again. I think we don't talk about suicidal ideation enough either. In fact, I should really do an episode on that as well. I respect you and I'm so grateful you submitted this week. Okay, here we go. I have some notes, which I rarely use notes for episodes, but I didn't want to miss anything. I've got so much I want to share. I will do my best to break this down into, like I said, a 101, small bite-size helpful tools. You will hear me, as I talk, taking little deep breaths and that's because I have to practice slowing down. Just a little off-topic, when I'm doing podcasts, I get so geeked out that my brain races, and I'm all over the place and I'm talking fast and I have to slow down, "Kimberley, pump the breaks, lady." Let's together take a breath... and let's just be together. First let's talk about derealization. The definition of derealization is that derealization is a mental state or a psychological experience, it could also be a physiological experience, where things feel unreal. Not like, "Oh, that's totally unreal, man. Amazing." I'm talking where they don't feel real. When yo

SUMMARY: Overcoming Health Anxiety is possible! Today, we interview Ken Goodman and his client Maria on overcoming hpyochondria using Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. In this episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, you will learn key concepts of health anxiety and how to overcome their health anxiety. In This Episode: What it is like to have health anxiety The key concepts of treating Hypochondria Tips for managing fears of death and cancer. A step-by-step approach to overcoming health anxiety. Links To Things I Talk About: https://www.kengoodmantherapy.com/ Quiet Mind Solutions ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 226. Welcome back, everybody. If you have health anxiety, hypochondria, health anxiety disorder, or you know of somebody who has health anxiety, you are going to love this episode. I mean, love, love, love this episode. Today, we have Ken Goodman, who's on the show. He's a clinician who's here with his patient and they're sharing a success story, a recovery story of health anxiety, and it is so good. I am so honored to have both of them on. It was so fun to actually interview other people and the way they're doing it, and look at the steps that were taken in order to overcome health anxiety. And this is the overcoming health anxiety story of all stories. It is so, so good. I'm not going to waste your time going and telling you how good it is. I'm just going to let you listen to it because I know you're here to get the good stuff. Before we do that, I wanted to do the "I did a hard thing" and this one is from Dave. It says: "I've been trying to get back into meditating regularly. I was sitting at a desk this morning, reviewing my work emails. And I told myself, before I get even further in my day, I need to meditate. I did a guided meditation, even though I felt a strong pull inside to go back to work. I kept getting caught up in my thoughts, but I just kept telling myself it doesn't need to be a perfect meditation. I said the goal today is just to be able to sit without being busy for three minutes. Nothing more. It was hard, but I did it." Dave, thank you so much for the submission of the "I did a hard thing" segment, because I think that meditation is so important. In fact, I keep promising myself I'm going to implement it more into this podcast. And Dave has really looked at some of the struggles people have with meditation. And look at him, go, it's so amazing. Totally did it. So amazing. Dave, thank you so, so, so much. I love it. If you want to submit, you may submit your "I did a hard thing" by going to KimberleyQuinlan-lmft.com. If you go to the podcast page, there is a submission page right on the website. And from there, let's just go straight to the show. I hope you enjoy it. Kimberley: Welcome. I am so excited for this episode. Welcome, Ken and welcome, Maria. Ken: Thank you for having me. Maria: Hi, Kimberley. Kimberley: So, as you guys, we've already chatted, but I really want to hear. This is really quite unique and we get to see the perspective of a client and the therapist. If I could do one of these every single week, I would. I think it's so cool. So, thank you so much for coming on and sharing. We're going to talk about health anxiety. And so, Maria, we're going to go back and forth here, but do you want to share a little bit about your experience with health anxiety? Maria: Yes. I think I've had health anxiety probably for like 15, 20 years and not known about it. Looking back now, everything comes clear when you see the multiple pictures that you've taken of certain lumps and whatever five years ago. I'm like, "Oh my gosh, I have so many pictures that I've taken and so many different things." But yeah, I've been struggling for a while I think, and had multiple doctor's appointments. Until I realized that I had health anxiety, it was an everyday struggle, I think. Ken: Well, you came to me and you were mostly worried at the time about ticks and Lyme disease and skin cancer, but you told me that for the previous 15 years or so, you were worried about other things. What are those things? Maria: Well, I was mostly completely obsessed with moles on my skin and them being cancerous. And I was scared of ticks. I would not be able to walk through any grass or go hiking. I was scared that I would have to check my whole body to make sure that there were n

SUMMARY: Many people ask me, "Why do I have anxiety?" and the truth is, there is no clear-cut answer. However, in this week's episode, I give you nine possible causes of anxiety and what you can do to manage anxiety in your daily life. Some causes are in your control, and some are not. Either way, it is important that you are super gentle with yourself as you explore some of the reasons for anxiety in your life. In This Episode: NINE possible causes of anxiety for you in your life What you can do to manage your anxiety How to overcome anxiety by changing small behaviors Reasons you experience anxiety may include Genetics Caffeine Distorted Thoughts Behaviors Trauma Environment Stress Management Lack of Tools Isolation (lack of community) Links To Things I Talk About: Time Management for Optimum Mental Health https://www.cbtschool.com/timemanagement ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 225. Welcome back, everybody. Today, we are talking about the causes of anxiety, why you are anxious and what you can do about it. This is a topic I feel like keeps coming up with my clients like, "But why? Why is this happening?" And I totally get it. Now, a lot of the times, I encourage my patients the end goal, jump straight to the end goal is we don't want to spend too much time trying to solve why we're anxious. That in and of itself can become a compulsive problematic behavior. But I wanted to just address it because I don't think I have addressed it yet in the podcast. I thought now is a good time to really just look at some of the reasons we humans are anxious. I'm an anxious person, my guess that the fact that you're listening to Your Anxiety Toolkit means you or someone you love is an anxious person. So, let's talk about why we're anxious. What are the causes of anxiety and what are some of the reasons we are anxious. Now before we do that, we want to, of course, do our "I did our hard thing" segment, and this one is for Bradley. Bradley wrote: "I was at a family event and had to see a family member I haven't seen in four years. I said a firm, no contact boundary with her since she was so toxic. And as much as I tried, I knew I could not control whether she came or not. Seeing her was very hard, but I gave myself loads of self-compassion and allowed that moment to be very difficult." Oh, Bradley, this is so good. "I was pleasant to her, but I did not engage beyond what was necessary. I took multiple moments throughout the event to check in with myself and see what my body needed." This is so good and this is such great modeling of how we can regulate and monitor ourselves, giving ourselves kindness as we do hard things. I love this. Thank you so much for sharing it. This is really super inspiring. I think we all need to practice this one a little better, myself included. I hope that that brings you some inspiration before we move on into the episode. Thank you again, Bradley, for submitting that. I love hearing the "I did a hard thing." Let's talk about why you and I, and we might be anxious. 1. Genetics Reason number one is genetics. I think that if I'm with a client and they ask me, this is usually the spiel I would give them, which is, genetically, a lot of us are set up to have anxiety. What that means is somewhere in our lineage, our parent, our grandparent, someone had anxiety and it is quite a genetic trait to have. As we go through these, I'm really wanting you, just as a side note, to think about these things, but we don't want to use these as an opportunity to blame other people. We don't want to blame, of course, our parents or our grandparents. It wasn't their fault. Obviously, they probably had it passed down from somebody else as well. But as we move through some of these, I also don't want you to displace blame onto yourself, and we can talk about that as we go. But genetics is a reason that some of us are anxious. I'll give you a little bit of a piece of my personal experience here, is I often-- I mean, I know every anxiety tool in the book and there's been many times where I've visited doctors or psychiatrists and they ask me about anxiety and I'll say, "Yes, I have anxiety." They'll say, "Well have you had therapy? Have you tried medicine?" "Yeah, I've tried all of those things and I'm highly functioning and I have a wonderful life." But I also have to accept that som

SUMMARY: In today's podcast episode, we have Dean Stott from DLC Anxiety talking about his experience with Panic Disorder and Overcoming Panic Disorder. In his upcoming book, Greater Than Panic, Dean talks about what it was like for him to experience agoraphobia, panic disorder, and other struggles after the death of his father. Dean spread an inspiring story about overcoming panic and how he is Greater than Panic. In This Episode: What it was like for Dean Stott to have Panic Disorder How he overcame panic disorder using CBT and Mindfulness How Dean created DLC Anxiety, an online platform that helps millions with panic, anxiety and other mental illnesses. Tools that he found helpful to manage his Panic Disorder while also grieving the loss of his father. Links To Things I Talk About: DEANS BOOK GREATER THAN PANIC Amazon link Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 224. Welcome back, everybody. We have an amazing guest, a very, very sweet friend of mine. I am so excited to have on with us Dean Stott from DLC Anxiety. He is a true legend. Dean is on the episode today to tell his story about going from having a fairly severe panic disorder to then creating a mental health platform with over 1 million followers. He's now all about creating mental health awareness sharing with people. He's such a cool human being. And I'm so honored to have him on today. We talk about his recovery, which you will get a lot of hope from because, like everyone who comes on the podcast, he really did the work, which is so cool. But then we also talk about the role that social media can play in mental health recovery, things to look out for, how to handle trolls, the benefits of being online, especially social media. If you have a mental illness, we go through it all. And it's such a great episode. So, I'm so excited to have Dean on today. Before we get into the episode, I want to give you the "I did a hard thing" for the week. This is from Nicole, from the Netherlands, and she said: "I did a hard thing and I get very anxious when I have to call my doctor. My heart rate goes up and I get all trembly. So, I tend to avoid calling the doctor. But because I had been feeling dizzy, I had to get my blood checked. Afterwards I would have to call the doctors for the results, except I didn't. I told myself if there was anything serious, surely they would call me. I kept this up for almost two weeks and then I suddenly thought I really should call for the result. So I pushed in the numbers to the doctor's office, feeling all kinds of nervous. I was very tempted to just hang up. While I was waiting, I thought, why did I do this? What if I get bad news? But then I had another thought, if it's bad news, all the more reason to hear it. So I hung on and I faced my fears. Turns out I have a vitamin D deficiency. It's not very worrisome, but important to fix. I'm so glad I phoned the doctor, even though I REALLY DIDN'T WANT TO. Nicole from the Netherlands." Nichole, I love this story. And the thing I love the most, and for those of you who want to submit for this, please do go. I'll leave a link in the show notes. But Nicole, I love that you detailed what got you to do it, how you did it, what thoughts you had to shift up to get yourself to do the hard thing. You walked us through step by step and it makes my heart want to explode with joy. Thank you so much for sharing it. Amazing, amazing, amazing, amazing, amazing work. I am so, so impressed. So, thank you, Nicole. I love it. Let's get over to the show where we can hear all about Dean's recovery. ----- Kimberley: Welcome, Dean. I am so happy to have more-- actually, as much as I'm happy to have you on the podcast, I'm just happy to have chats with you. Welcome. Dean: Thank you so much. Thank you for inviting me, Kim. Kimberley: Yeah. So, I feel like I know you and your story pretty well. But I would love for you to share your story with my listeners because I think you have some really great stuff to share. So, can you share whatever you're comfortable about your recovery? Dean: Yeah, sure. So, basically, once upon a time, I was going through a panic disorder. So, dealing with four panic attacks, maybe four or five panic attacks every single day, where I get the worst period. And yeah, I went through a panic disorder, did my own research, a lot of science research, CBT research, mindfulness meditation, and curated my

SUMMARY: We all know that self-compassion is am important tool for anxiety recovery. In this weeks episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit podcast, I address a common concern; "What if I dont deserve self-compassion?" This is such a common reason people do not provide themselves with compassion. In this episode, review the reasons YOU DO DESERVE SELF-COMPASSION and some key concepts and self-compassion mediations to help you practice self-compassion. In This Episode, we cover: Self-Compassion Definition Reasons people feel they do not deserve self-compassion Ways to manage feeling unworthy of self-compassion How to practice Mindful Self-Compassion Links To Things I Talk About: Self-compassion Mediation: Here is a link to several self-compassion meditations from previous episodes. https://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/episode-2-lovingkindness-meditation/ https://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/ep-134-giving-and-receiving-meditation/ https://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/ep-110-this-compassion-practice-tonglen-meditation-for-anxiety-will-change-your-life/ Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 223. Welcome back, everybody. It is a joy to be with you again. Thank you so much for being here with me. Thank you so much for putting aside your valuable time to spend it with me. I feel so honored. Today, we are talking about a question. And in effort for us to respond to this question, we're actually going to ask ourselves some questions and I'm going to have some questions for you, and you're going to think about them, hopefully, and then make some changes if you think that is what you need. The big question of the week is: What if I do not deserve self-compassion? Now, one of the most common questions I get is this question, particularly when I'm with patients and we're discussing the idea of practicing self-compassion or kindness towards themselves. Often, that is a question they ask, what if I don't deserve it, or they may even make a statement like, "I don't deserve self-compassion." Now, this is particularly true for those who are very self-critical and blame themselves for certain things that have happened either to them or that they have done. Like I'm saying, it's like things that were accidental, things that they didn't have control over, or maybe some things and mistakes that they did make. This is a really important question for us to explore. I'm going to hopefully get to explore it with you. Before we do that, I would like to do the "I did a hard thing" for the week. This one is from Sophia. Thank you, Sophia, for writing in and telling us your hard thing. Sophia said: "I suffered from OCD starting when I was 19. My hard thing I did was I reported my stepfather in for sexual abuse that occurred when I was nine when I found out I wasn't the last victim. It took me 28 years to get to this place. And let me tell you, OCD really played into my intrusive thoughts. It made the process so much harder. But I did it and I feel like I'm out of the web of manipulation from my stepdad. This podcast helps so much and the book for self-compassion and fear workbook my OCD therapist recommended to me. I saw your podcast listed in the first few pages. Thank you for being a part of my support system without even knowing." Wow, that was an amazing "I did a hard thing." Thank you so much, Sophia, for sharing that amazing hard thing. You are showing up and facing fear and pulling your shoulders back and living your life according to your values. That is impressive. I'm so honored to have you share that with us and really do wish you the best. You are doing amazing things. Okay. So, let's move into the bulk of the podcast in terms of let's talk about what if I don't deserve self-compassion. This is so important. I'm going to first pose to you the first question I have for you, which is, who actually deserves self-compassion? If someone says to me, "Well, I don't deserve it." I'll say, "Well, who does? What do you have to do to be warranted of compassion? Who does deserve it?" I really pose this question. I really hope you answer it. I would like actually you to sit down and ask yourself, "Well, then who does?" And you will begin to see very quickly, I'm guessing, the rules in which you have for yourself that keep you stuck. Oh, the people who don't have these thoughts, the people who don't make mistakes, the people who are perfect, the people who look like they're ha

SUMMARY: This week's episode is incredibly inspiring, with Lora Dudek talking all about getting real about OCD recovery. Lora shares her experience of having harm obsessions and harm OCD and how she managed being a mom during ERP. Lora also shared some wonderful ERP activities she did to help her keep track of her exposures. In This Episode: What OCD Recovery looks like for Lora Her experience with Harm OCD What kind of Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP) Lora used for harm OCD How she used ERP and recovery to decide what her values were (starting a career in ERP) Links To Things I Talk About: ​​Lora Dudek OCD Contact info: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists/lora-dudek-lockport-il/935049 https://www.graceandgratitudecounseling.com/ourtherapists ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 222. Welcome back, everybody. I am so happy to be with you today. Oh my goodness, I'm going to tell you a story, totally off-topic. But today's episode is number 222, and coincidentally, it's coming out just by coincidence the week of February 22, 2022. The reason that that is special for me isn't because I have any kind of affiliation with numbers, it's that I have this amazing memory of when I was very young. It was the 9th of the 9th, 1999. My mom, who is the most amazing human being in the whole world, had a 9/9/99 party, and everyone had to bring nine of something, nine flowers, nine chocolates. You could bring whatever you wanted. Nine of... We had nine of everything – nine shrimp on the plate, nine prawns. In Australia, we call them prawns. It was such an amazing memory. I told my children that we were going to do something similar because I just feel like that was such a beautiful memory. And so, I feel like I'm beginning that whole celebration with you because coincidentally, it's episode 222 on the week of 2/22/2022. Oh my goodness. I'm sorry. I know that has nothing to do with the episode, but it is a story that is so near and dear to my heart and I just wanted to share it. It isn't actually an off-talk topic because I really do want to bring some more joy to this episode and I really do want to slow down and enjoy with you all. It is a huge part of my goal for this year. So, thank you for sitting in that joyful story with me. If you would like, I hope you do something with twos, if you can, on that day, something fun. Buy yourself 22 flowers, say 22 nice things to yourself, whatever it may be, because these are very much once in a lifetime experiences and memories. Today, we have Lora Dudek with us on the podcast. Now, to say that I am a Lora Dudek fan is an understatement. I love this human being. She is such a shining light, especially for people who have OCD and want to feel like there is hope. She has such a beautiful story, such a hard, but beautiful story, and a real authentic, genuine story to share. I am honored to have her on the show like I am to have so many people come on who have a recovery story to tell. I particularly love when I can be a part of it and I was a part of their story, or CBT School was a part of their story or ERP School was a part of their story. And so, it is just such an honor to have Lora on here. She's talking about what recovery looks like for her. The reason I love this idea is, recovery is different for everybody. I really wanted you to get an experience of what it looks like for someone who has really done the work. Like I said, so many of our podcast guests have done the work and Lora is no exception. So, I'm going to head over and let you guys listen to that. Before we do that, I first want to do the "I did a hard thing." This week's "I did a hard thing" is from Fabian, and they said: "Hi, Kimberley. First of all, thanks for creating the room to write about my anxiety. I am recovering from OCD, and today I was at the dentist for a tooth filling. I don't like it because my mouth is blocked and I'm scared of getting enough air. And moreover, I do not like to get injections." Oh my goodness, Fabian, I feel you on this one. "I was able to face both and stay very present with the body sensations like cold hands, many, many thoughts, high heartbeats. It was a hard thing to finish the week and I'm happy that I did it. I will have to face it again in February 🙂. All the best to you and your team." Amazing, Fabian. I feel you on so many level

SUMMARY: Today, we are going to talk with you about the 7 common struggle you have with time management. Do you find yourself constantly looking at the clock? Or, wishing time would go faster? Do you feel like your to-do list is so long that you will never get them done? Or, do you feel like you never have time to prioritize yourself? In today's, podcast, we talk all about your relationship with time and why it is a HUGE part of managing anxiety, depression, and stress. In This Episode, we address the 7 common struggles you have with time management. "I don't have enough time" "I have so much to do" "I have so much I want to do" "I struggle to start and stop activities" "I don't a good understanding of how long things take" "I don't like structure" "I hate being told what to do with my time" Links To Things I Talk About: ONLINE COURSE Time Management for Optimum Mental Health https://www.cbtschool.com/timemanagement Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 221. Welcome back, everybody. I am so thrilled to have you here with me today for Episode 221. Oh my, how is that possible? We are getting so much feedback, such amazing feedback from last week's episode. I wanted to additionally offer you one more bonus piece of content from our new course, which is called Time Management for Optimum Mental Health. You can check it out at CBTSchool.com/TimeManagement. It is a course. We have it for $27. It's a mini-course, so it shouldn't take up a ton of your time, and it's me showing you exactly how I manage time. Now, the reason I created that course was because so many people were reporting to me – clients, followers, listeners – that COVID has destroyed the rhythm and the routines that they had, and that they really want to find a way to implement during their day time to do their therapy homework, do get exercise, maybe have more pleasure in your life, maybe reduce overwhelm, a lot of overwhelm because the to-do list is always so long. Am I right? The to-do lists are always so long. There seems to be a never-ending list of things to do. So, I added all that in, showed you exactly how I did that. Again, you can go and check that, or you can click the link below in the show notes. But as a bonus to that course, I did a Q and A where people submitted their questions. I have addressed that in that bonus, and I'm today giving it to you free in today's podcast episode. If you want to get a feel for what we're covering, you will have some reference to the course throughout, but you don't need to purchase the course to get benefit out of this episode today. However, together they would be really beneficial, I'm sure. Today, we're going to cover a couple of main topics. Here I'm going to give you some overview. Some of the questions people or the concerns or roadblocks they had around time management were things like, "I don't have enough time. I have so much to do on my to-do list." Another question we will cover in today's episode is, "I have so much I want to do. I just can't, again, find time." Someone brought up-- multiple people, forgive me, brought up that they struggle to start and stop activities. They struggle to get the motivation to get going. And then once they're going, they have a hard time transitioning into other activities. We address that as well. Someone posted in that they struggle with having a good understanding of how long things take. This is one of the reasons I have myself had to use a lot of time management, is I was underestimating how long things were taking and I was leading to a lot of anxiety and overwhelm. We also address people who don't like a lot of structure in their life and we also address people who don't like scheduling and don't like time management because they don't like being told what to do with their time. We're going to address all of that today, but we also go much deeper into that in the time management course. You can run over there if you want to take a look at that. Before we get into the show, let's do today's review of the week. This one is from Sheffie, and they said: "Wonderful resource! You can't help but love Kimberley." Oh, that's so kind. Thank you, Sheffie. "She has such warmth and sincerity, is positive and funny, and spreads so much good into the world. On top of all that, she's a gifted clinician who does a great job sharing her knowledge with others. And she does all this with a lo

SUMMARY: In this episode, we review how important it is to address procrastination, as it impacts so many people in so many ways. We also will review how procrastination is the same thing as avoidance and how people can work towards implementing time management skills to help them build a routine that helps them get the things they want to get done. In This Episode: We outline procrastination definition and procrastination pros and cons. How procrastination is simply an avoidance safety behavior. How to manage procrastination in , Anxiety, OCD and OCD recovery Our new course called Time Management for Optimum Mental Health Links To Things I Talk About: ONLINE COURSE Time Management for Optimum Mental Health https://www.cbtschool.com/timemanagement Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 220. Welcome back, everybody. How are you? Really, really, how are you? How is your heart? How is your mind? What's showing up for you? How are you? I really want you to check in, in case you haven't checked in for a while. How are you doing? It's important. Let's make sure we check in. Today, we're talking about procrastination. It's one of the most common questions I get when I'm doing live calls on Instagram and Facebook, like how do I manage procrastination? A lot of you are also managing perfectionism and it's getting in the way of you doing the things you want to do or doing the things you have to do. Because I get asked this so much, I actually wanted to show people how I do it. So what I did is I created a whole mini-course, it's called Time Management For Optimum Mental Health. You can get it if you go to CBTSchool.com/TimeManagement, or you can click the link in the show notes below. It's a full course of showing you how I manage time and why I manage my time to help manage my mental health and my medical health. A lot of you know I have struggled with a chronic illness. Time management has been huge in me staying functioning and managing mental overwhelm and a lot of procrastination. In the course, it's only $27, it's a mini-course and it shows you exactly-- I have recorded the screen as I'm showing you exactly how I do it. If you're interested, go over and check it out. I'd love to have you take the course and put it into practice. Now, one of the things about this episode is this is actually me giving you a sneak peek into the course because it's one of the bonuses of the course to talk about procrastination. So I wanted to share it with you here on the podcast as well. You will hear me refer to the other parts of the course as you listen. That doesn't matter. You'll still get everything you need to know about procrastination and how to manage it today. But yes, if you've already taken the course, you probably have already listened to this bonus. But for today, let's talk about procrastination. Before we head over into the episode, I wanted to do the review of the week. This is a review from Sadbing, and they've said: "Desperately needed. I am an LICSW that has searched high & low for a podcast that delivers quality content. I felt relieved to finally find one! This podcast provides an honest depiction of how anxiety shows up in people's lives & gives you effective feedback on how to live with it. Thank you!" Thank you, Sadbing. Thank you so much for that amazing review. I do ask that anyone who's listening, please, the one thing you can do, this is what I offer freely to you all. If you get a second, just click below, in whatever app you're listening to, and leave a review. It helps me so much reach all the people. The more reviews we have, the more people will trust the podcast and continue listening to this free resource. So, yay. All right. Let's get over to this episode about managing procrastination. I hope you find it helpful. If you want to learn more about time management, head on over to CBTSchool.com/TimeManagement, and you can get a mini-course for 27 bucks. It's amazing value for a short period of time and a short amount of money. So, yeah. All right. So happy to have you here with me today. Thank you for giving your time to me and trusting me with your precious time. I will see you after the show. Welcome. You wouldn't have a time management course without really addressing procrastination. Procrastination is, number one, the biggest question I get, which is another reason why I wanted to make this course, is because it'

SUMMARY: Today we have Amanda White, an amazing therapist who treats anxiety, eating disorders and substance use. Amanda is coming onto the podcast today to talk about her book, Not Drinking Tonight and how we can all have a healthy relationship with alcohol. Amanda White talks about ways you can address your relationship with alcohol, in addition to drugs, social media and other vices. Amanda White also shares her own experience with alcohol use and abuse and her lived-experience with sobriety. In This Episode: Do you have a healthy relationship with alcohol Why we use alcohol and substances to manage anxiety and other strong emotions How to build a healthy relationship with alcohol. How to manage substance abuse, anxiety and substance use in recovery. Tools and tips to manage alcohol use and abuse Links To Things I Talk About: Easiest place to get Amanda's book with all links amandaewhite.com/book Instagram @therapyforwomen My therapy practice therapyforwomencenter.com ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). Episode Transcription This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 219. Welcome back, everybody. I am thrilled to have you here with me today. You may notice that the podcast looks a little different. That is on purpose. We have decided to update the cover of the podcast. It now has my face on it. There were a lot of people who had reached out and said that the old podcast cover art looked like a gardening podcast. And I thought it was probably time I updated it. So, that was something that I had created years and years and years ago. And I'm so thrilled to have now a very beautiful new cover art. Okay. This episode is so, so important. I cannot stress to you how overjoyed I was to have the amazing Amanda White on the podcast. She's a psychotherapist. She's on Instagram, under the handle Therapy For Women. She's so empowering. And she talks a lot about your relationship with substance use, particularly alcohol. But in this episode, we talk about many substances. And this is a conversation I feel we need to have more of because there are a lot of people who are trying to manage their anxiety and they end up using alcohol to cope. Now, this is a complete shame-free episode. In fact, one of the things I love about Amanda is she really does not subscribe to having to do a 100% sobriety method. She really talks about how you can create a relationship with alcohol based on whatever you think is right. And she has a new book out, which I am so excited that she's going to share with you all about. Before we get into the episode, I'd first like to do the review of the week. Here we go. We have this one from Epic 5000 Cloud 9, and they said: "This podcast has absolutely changed my life and made my recovery journey feel possible. After completing ERP, I felt lost and confused as to why I did not feel 'better'. Kimberley has given me so many tools to build my self-compassion, grow my mindfulness skills, manage OCD, and do all the hard things." So amazing. I'm so grateful to have you in our community. Epic 5000 Cloud 9. So happy to have you be a part of our little wonderful group of badass human beings. I love it. Let's go right over to the show and so you can learn all about Amanda and this beautiful, beautiful conversation. Have a wonderful day, everybody. Kimberley: Okay. Well, thank you, Amanda, for being here. I'm actually so grateful for you because you've actually brought to my attention a topic I've never talked about. And so, I'm so happy to have you here. Welcome. Amanda: Thank you so much for having me, Kimberley. I'm excited to chat with you. Kimberley: Okay. So, tell me a little bit about you first. Like, who are you? What do you do? What's your mission? Amanda: Yeah. So, my name is Amanda White. I am a licensed therapist. You might know me on Instagram from Therapy For Women as my handle. I'm also sober and I'm really on a mission to destigmatize sobriety and destigmatize the idea that you can question your relationship with alcohol. And it's really why my Instagram page and everything I do isn't sober only focused because I want it to be something where people who maybe aren't necessarily sober or haven't thought about it can, in a safe unstigmatized, unpressured way, also explore their relationship with alcohol. And that is what led me to write a book. And my book is called Not Drink Tonight. Kimberley: So good. So, I already have so m

In today's episode, Kimberley Quinlan talks about the importance of identifying catastrophic thinking. The reason this is so important is that this type of cognitive distortion or cognitive error can increase one's experience of anxiety and panic, making it harder to manage it at the moment. Kimberley talks about the importance of mindfulness and self-compassion when responding to catastrophization also. In This Episode: What is Catastrophization? Why is it important that we catch how we catastrophize? How to manage Catastrophization? How correcting our thoughts can help, sometimes..but not always. Links To Things I Talk About: ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 218. Welcome back, everybody. How are you doing? How are you really? Just wanted to check in with you first, see how you're doing. We're friends, so it's my job to check in on you and see how you are. Thank you for being here with me again. I do know how important your time is, and I am so grateful that you spend it with me. Thank you. That is such a joy and it's such a wonderful experience to know that I am spending time with you each week. This week, we are talking about the danger of catastrophization. Now, I'll talk with you a little bit more about what that means here in a second, but basically what I want to do in this episode is really to take off from the very first episode of this year, which was the things I'd learned in 2021. One of the points that I made there was to really take responsibility for your thought errors, right? And I wanted to pick one of the thought errors that I see the most in my clients. In fact, in the last couple of weeks, it's been an ongoing piece of the work we do. It's not all of the work, but it's a piece of the work, is for me just to be, I'm still doing teletherapy. So, we're sitting across from the screen and just reflecting and modeling back to them some of the ways in which they speak to themselves and really looking at how helpful that is and how that impacts them. So, before we get into that episode, I want to offer to you guys to submit your "I did a hard thing." Today, as I went to prepare for this episode, I checked the link and we'd actually used up all of the ones that were submitted probably in August of 2021. And so I'm going to encourage you guys to submit your "I did a hard thing" so I can feature you on the podcast. When we first submitted, we had like 70 submissions, and I've used all of them up. And I would love to get new ones to share with you and have you be featured on the show. So, if you want to go over, you can click on the show notes for the link, or if you want, you can go to kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com. So, that's Kimberley Quinlan - L for License, M for Marriage, F for Family, T for Therapy.com. Click on the podcast link, which is where we hold all of our podcasts, and you could submit your "I did a hard thing." And I'd love to have you on the show. It actually is probably my favorite part. I could easily just have a whole show called "I did a hard thing" and it could be just that. All right. So, let's get into the episode. Today, I want to talk with you about the danger of catastrophization, and let me share with you how this shows up. So, I want to be clear that you cannot control your thoughts, your intrusive thoughts that repetitively show up, and you can't show your fear up. You cannot change your feelings. So, you can't tell yourself not to be sad if you're sad and you can't tell yourself not to be anxious if you're anxious and you can't not panic if you're panicking. But you can change how you react and how you behave. That is a common CBT rule. Now often, when you have an intrusive thought, a lot of my patients or clients will report having anxiety or having a thought or having a feeling or having an urge or having an image that shows up in your head – because that's what I do, right? People come to me with a problem. The problem is usually a thought, feeling, sensation, urge, or image. That's what I do. And what I try to do is change the way they respond. That is my job, right? Now, what often happens is, there is a thought or a feeling or a sensation or urge, impulse, whatever it may be that shows up, and they often will respond to that by framing it in a way that is catastrophic. I'll give you some examples. So, when they have the presence o

SUMMARY: Today we have Windsor Flynn talking about how she realized the benefits of meditation for anxiety and OCD in her recovery. Winsdor brought her lived experience and training to the conversation and addressed how meditation has helped her in many ways, not just with her OCD and mental health. In This Episode: The benefits of meditation for general anxiety The benefits of meditation for OCD The roadblocks to practicing meditation How Mindfulness and mediation help with daily stress (especially through COVID-19) Links To Things I Talk About: Instagram: @windsormeditates Instagram: @Windsor.Flynn Website: www.windsorflynn.com (Windsor is certified to teach the 1 Giant Mind 3 Day Learn Meditation course). ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 217. You guys, 217. That's a lot of episodes. I'm very excited about that. Today, we have with us the amazing Windsor Flynn. I cannot tell you how incredibly by inspired I am with Windsor. She is very cool and has so much wisdom and so much kindness to share. Today, we have her on to talk about having anxiety and learning the importance of meditation. Now, Windsor speaks specifically about having OCD and how much it has helped her to take up a meditation practice. She goes over the couple of main key points, which is number one, anyone can meditate. And that meditation can be user-friendly for people, even with OCD. And she said, "Especially for people with OCD." And she actually gives us the amazing gift of a guided meditation at the end, that just helps you bring your attention to the present and learn to drop down into your compassion and your body. And then the third point she makes is that meditation can be integrated into your life, even if you feel like you don't have time, or even if it's really uncomfortable. And she shares some amazing experiences and examples of where she really struggled and how she got through those difficulties. So, I'm going to quickly first do the "I did a hard thing" and then I'm going to let you guys get right into the amazing conversation with Windsor Flynn. So, today's "I did a hard thing" is from Anonymous, and they said: "I wear a dress that has been sitting in my closet for months. I was always scared to show my skin since breaking out in hives over my social anxiety. I felt proud for the first time in a long time." This is so cool. You guys, I love this so much. They're really talking about showing up imperfect and all, or letting people judge them and going and doing what you want to do anyway. And that is what this podcast is about. It's about living the life that you want, not the life that anxiety wants you to have. And often, anxiety will keep your life very small if you only listen to it and only follow its rules. And so, anonymous is doing this work, walking the walk, not just talking the talk. So, yes, I'm so, so in love with this. Now you guys, you can go over to my private practice website, which is where the podcast lives. It's Kimberley Quinlan - L for License, M for Marriage, F for Family, and T for Therapist – I had to think there – .com. So, KimberleyQuinlan-lmft.com. And then you can click on the podcast and right there is a link for you to submit your "I did a hard thing" and you can be featured on the show. So, go do that, but not right away. First, I want you to listen to this amazing, amazing episode. Kimberley: Welcome. I am so excited for this episode. I have a reason for being so excited, which I'll share with you in a second, but first, I want to introduce to you Windsor Flynn. She is incredible. I have watched you grow over the last what? A year or two years since I've known you. It is so wonderful to have you on, so thank you for coming. Windsor: Yeah. Thank you for inviting me. This is so cool because I've spent a lot of time listening to your podcast and, I don't know, just hoping to be on Monday, but I didn't know for what. So, this is really cool for me. Kimberley: Yeah, this is so cool. So, you're coming on to talk about meditation. And the reason that this is so exciting for me is that is actually what this podcast was originally for – was to bring mindfulness and meditation practice to people who have anxiety. And I did a lot of meditations at the beginning and then I lost my way. So, I feel like you coming here is full circle. We're going back to the roots of th

SUMMARY: Today, I wanted to dedicate an entire episode to the five things that I learned in 2021. I have found 2021 to be one of the harder years, but probably the most transformational for me, and that is one of the things I'll talk about here very, very soon. The 5 Things I learned this Year: Recovery goes smoother when you slow down and act intentionally Life is not supposed to be easy It is my responsibility to manage my mind Catch your thought errors I am not for everyone Links To Things I Talk About: Changed our name on Instagram Lots of exciting information on cbtschool.com ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 216. Hello, my friends. Happy 2022! Oh my goodness, it is crazy to say that. I'm excited for 2022, to be honest. I've had enough with 2021, I'm not going to lie. And I'm guessing that you are in the same boat. I'm grateful for 2021. Absolutely, I'm not going to lie, but I'm really happy to be here in 2022. Today, I wanted to dedicate an entire episode to the things that I learned in 2021. I have found 2021 to be one of the harder years, but probably the most transformational for me, and that is one of the things I'll talk about here very, very soon. Before we do that, you may notice that the show looks a little different. We have new podcast cover art. If you follow me on Instagram, there's a ton of different visual and aesthetic changes there as well, as well as that we have changed the name to Your Anxiety Toolkit instead of being Kimberley Quinlan. I will explain a little bit about why I've made these changes here in a very little moment. Before we get into the good stuff of the show, the bulk of the show, I want to give you the very best stuff, which is the "I did a hard thing" segment. So here we go. For those of you who are new, every week, people submit their "I did a hard thing" and we talk about it, and we share it and we celebrate the big and the small and the medium wins. This one is from Kboil, and it says: "I went to work for the first time in five weeks after a horrendous meltdown where I wanted to take my own life. I am still struggling daily with my anxiety and panic attacks, but I am doing it. XO." This is the work, you guys, that may be triggering for some people. But the truth is we have to talk about how impactful our mental illnesses can be and how important mental health is, because if we don't take out care of our mental health, it can get to the place where people are feeling suicidal. Let me also reframe that. Sometimes we get to those really difficult places and dark places. Not because you're not taking care of yourself, but for multiple reasons, daily stresses, genetics, medical struggles, grief, trauma, high levels of anxiety. Kboil is really bringing the most important piece of mental health discussions, which is, when we're really, really struggling, number one, it's important to celebrate your wins, and number two, nothing is off-limits. We must be willing to talk about these really difficult topics. Thank you, Kboil. I am just so honored that you shared this and so excited that you're taking baby steps, and I really wish you well. I know it says you're still struggling, so I'm sending you every single ounce of my compassion and love to you. Ugh, it's so good. My heart just swells for you all when you write in those "I did a hard thing's." Okay. Let's go over to the five things I learned in 2021. The first one is probably the most important, and it does explain why I've made certain changes in the way that I run my business, the way that I show up on social media and here on the podcast, and why I really want to make some changes in 2022. Be very intentional. First of all, this is proof that people can change their mind. It's okay to change your mind. Actually, that's probably the sixth thing I learned. Number one is, it's okay to change your mind. But really the number one was, it's important to act intentional. I did a whole episode on whacking things together, how it's okay to whack things together. I did that because I found myself becoming very perfectionistic. I am still a massive fan of the whack-it-together model, which is ultimately to practice not being perfect and just getting things done. But what I think I did is I went a little too far in the whack-it-together model and I wasn't being as intentional. I was doing too m

In This Episode: How to identify what your role is in a relationship How to manage a mental illness and set boundaries How boundaries are needed when you are in recovery How to set boundaries with a loved one during the holiday season. Links To Things I Talk About: ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 215. Welcome back, everybody. It is the final episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit for the year 2021. I will not be putting out a podcast next week because it falls right on the holidays, and I really wanted to make sure I give you all time to be with your family instead of listening to my voice. If you are in the holiday season and you want to listen to my voice, there are so many, in fact, there are 214 episodes. You can go back and listen to. I just want to be with my family, and I want you to be with the people you love. Speaking of people you love, today we're talking about setting boundaries with loved ones or managing our relationship during the holidays. However, I did a whole episode about this last week. You can go back. It's episode 214, where we talk about holiday anxiety. We did discuss some of this there as well. So, you can go back and listen there. But for right now, I want us to talk about managing relationships, specifically during the holidays, but this episode can be applied to any old day of the week. Now, before we get started, we always do the "I did a hard thing." This one is from Rachel. We do an "I did a hard thing" to motivate you, to remind you that there are more people out there going through what you're going through. You're not alone. Rachel shared with us today: "I have somatic OCD." For those of you who don't know what that means, it means that you have OCD about specific sensations that show up in your body. You sometimes feel like you can't stop noticing them or you're afraid you will never stop noticing them. Sometimes you're afraid that the feeling will never go away and it can feel really disorienting. So, Rachel says: "I have somatic OCD, and I always need to distract myself not to notice them. I've been able to drive without the radio or calling anyone and it feels so good." Rachel, this is so good. You're doing what we talk about in ERP School. ERP School is our online course that teaches how to expose ourselves to fears, specifically obsessions for people with OCD, health anxiety, and these types of OCD, like somatic OCD, on how to practice facing our fear. In this case, it was her driving, that without using safety behavior or compulsions. So, in this case, the compulsion would be to have the radio on or calling someone to distract her on her somatic obsession or her sensation. So, Rachel, amazing job, you're doing the work. You're doing the exposure and the response prevention. One thing I want to mention to everybody, if you have OCD or an anxiety disorder, is we must do both. We must face our fears and not do the safety behaviors to reduce or remove that discomfort that we feel when we face our fear. So, you've explained this perfectly. Congratulations. I am so proud of you. Love getting the "I did a hard thing's" from you guys. And so, just so thrilled to get that message from you. All right, let's go over to the episode. It's the holidays. You're anticipating the gifts and the food and the time and the travel and all the things, but what's worse than that is anticipation of the interactions that you're going to have with certain family members. Now, if you're listening to this and it's not the holidays, it's the same. You're anticipating going to work, but you're dreading the interactions. You're dreading how messy things get. You're going to school, and you're dreading how messy things get with the people you have in your life – your students, your classmates, your teacher, your friends, whoever it may be. I want you to think about your responsibilities. And I talk a lot with my patients and clients about responsibility because it's a really important part of recovery. When we think about the holidays, we think about a certain event that's coming up. I'll often explain to my patients that really all you need to do is you need to focus on your lane. So, I've talked about this before on the podcast, but I want you to imagine you're driving on the highway, you're in your car, and the only thing you're responsible for is to not run into o

SUMMARY: I had so many people asking questions about how to manage holiday anxiety and stress that I decided to do an entire podcast on this. This is part 1 of a 2-part podcast Q&A. In This Episode: Q&A from this episode include How do I enjoy the holidays? How do I let go of the last Christmas? How do I survive the Holiday blues? How do I survive the holidays? How do I manage social anxiety over the holidays? How do I manage holiday travel anxiety? How to manage the financial stress of the holidays? Mental Health Holiday gift guide? How do I let go of my holiday expectations? Links To Things I Talk About: ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 214. Welcome back, everybody. We are approaching the holiday season. In fact, some of you may already be in the holiday season. And if that is so, I wish you nothing but joy and peace and fulfillment. I really do. I hope you have moments of elated joy. Now, while that is my wish and my intention for you, I also know that the holidays can be pretty dang hard. It is anxiety-provoking for the best of people, let alone if you're already struggling with a mental illness or an anxiety disorder, or you're struggling with anything really. It can be so incredibly difficult. So, what I wanted to do is answer some of your questions. So, what I did is I went on to Instagram and I asked my community: What are your questions? What do you need help with over the holidays? And they've given me a bunch of things to talk about, and I'm going to go through each and every one of them. Now, this is actually a two-part podcast. This week I'm answering general questions about managing anxiety throughout the holiday season, or just general stresses. And next week, we're talking about setting boundaries during the holidays with family and loved ones. Setting boundaries. However, the truth is we don't even need to make this specific to the holidays. This is for everybody at any time. So, if you're listening to this and it's not the holidays, it'd be probably helpful to listen to it at any point in time. Before we do that, I wanted to share with you the "I did a hard thing." The "I did a hard thing" segment is where people write in and they share what hard things that they have been doing. This is a really important part of the podcast. If you're new, or if you're being with us for a while, I really want to stress the purpose of this podcast is to inspire you, is to help you feel like you're on the right track, that you're not alarmed, that people are doing the hard thing and I want you to know how they're doing the hard thing. So, I'm going to share, this one is from Marilee and she says: "I'm facing the fear right now. We moved two weeks ago. Today when I was getting dressed and picked up my socks that were laying on the floor in the living room, a silverfish crawled out from where it was laying. I hate them. It's probably a phobia. I compulsively checked and cleaned in the previous place to get rid of them. I feel them all over my body." As you're listening folks, you're probably feeling a little itchy and scratchy, I'm sure. "I imagine them everywhere and anywhere. My hard thing is to feel these feelings. I'm going to give myself permission to feel anxious and freak out about it, to do the reasonable thing and buy lavender scented sachets and place around the house, to not compulsively clean and check to find them. I'm doing it right now. It is hard, but I'm not going to let this fear dictate how I live in my home." Marilee, you're literally walking the walk. This is so good. I love what you said. "I'm going to allow myself to feel the feelings. I'm going to give myself permission to feel anxious." You're doing the hard work, and that is the hard work. Even when I'm meeting with face-to-face clients, they often will say like, "But what do I do?" And this is exactly what you do. Somebody who's doing it in real-time. So, yay. Congratulations, Marilee. You are doing the hard thing. Let's get over to the questions. We've got a ton of them. So, let's go through one by one. I'm going to do my best to address each and every one, but I'm guessing each of these could probably have an episode of their own. So, I'll do my best to manage time here. 1. How do I enjoy the moment? Some of my thoughts may get somewhat repetitive, but that's on purpose. So, here is what I'm go

SUMMARY: Today we have Natasha Daniels, an OCD specialist, talking all about how to help children and teens with OCD and phobias. In this conversation, we talk all about how to motivate our children and teens to manage their OCD, phobias, and anxiety using Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT), Exposure and Response Prevention (ERP), and other treatments such as self-compassion, mindfulness, and ACT. We also address what OCD treatment for children entails and what changes need to be made in OCD treatment for teens. In this episode, Natasha and Kimberley share their experiences of parenting children with phobias and OCD. In This Episode: The difference between the treatment of OCD and phobias for children What OCD therapy for kids looks like compared to OCD therapy for adults How to practice exposure and response prevention for kids and teens How to motivate teens and kids to face their fears (using Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Special tricks and tools to help parents support their children with OCD and phobias. Links To Things I Talk About: Natasha's Parenting Survival Online Program www.ATparentingsurvivalschool.com Natasha's instagram @atparentingsurvival ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 213. Welcome back everybody. Oh, so happy to be here. How are you? How are you doing? I've been thinking about you all so much lately, reflecting a lot after Thanksgiving, being so grateful for you and this community and for your support. So, thank you, thank you, thank you. I am super thrilled to have the amazing Natasha Daniels on. Natasha is an OCD specialist. She is an amazing therapist who is skilled at treating children with OCD and phobias. She does an incredible, incredible job. So please do check the show notes to learn more about Natasha. But today, she came on to talk about managing anxiety in the kiddos. We don't talk enough about managing anxiety with the kiddos. And the cool thing for me was, it was so synchronistic because the day that she recorded and came on, we were prepping in my family from my daughter to do a really, really, really hard thing. So, I needed to hear what she had to say. Even though I knew a lot and I'd been trained a lot on it, I just needed to hear it as a parent. And if you are a parent of someone who has anxiety, you will just love, love, love this episode. So many amazing tips and tools and skills and concepts. I just cannot tell you how grateful I am to have Natasha come on and talk about these things with us today. Before we go over to that episode, I first want to do the "I did a hard thing segment." The first one is from Becks, and Becks is saying: "I have been so anxious that I've been carrying COVID without knowing who I'm infecting." Now I think this is true for a lot of us, myself included. So I think we can all resonate with this story. Becks went on to say, "Recently, I have been doing five to ten lateral flow COVID tests every day to check before leaving the house. I had run out of tests and had planned to eat with a friend with her three-month-old baby. I was so anxious before leaving the house and considered canceling to avoid the doubt of passing COVID unknowingly. But I gave my fear of talking to." I just love that you did that. "I didn't want to get fear to win this time. I wanted to see my friend and her beautiful new baby. I shared my fear with my friend, and without asking for reassurance, I spent the loveliest day with them. I have been ruminating a little since, but I keep reminding myself to return to my values and not let fear win." Becks, amazing work. It sounds like you're waiting through some difficult fear and you totally let values win. So, that makes me so, so happy. Great job. I am so in love with you guys when you share your hard thing with us. ***** Okay, let's go over to the episode. Well, thank you again, Natasha, for being on. Before we finish this episode, I wanted to also make sure we highlighted the review of the week. I so appreciate your reviews. This one is from Paulie Bill and they said: "So helpful. I can't describe in words how much this podcast has helped me. Kimberley is so open and accepting even via headphones." I love that. "She has sent me on the path to recovery in my anxieties. I look forward to do the work." Thank you so much. I do love your reviews. We are on a mission to get a thousand reviews. I

SUMMARY: In today's podcast, we take a deep dive into a common question I get from followers and CBTschool.com members. HOW MUCH ERP SHOULD I BE DOING DAILY? Because ERP is such an important part of OCD treatment and OCD therapy, I wanted to outline how you might set up an ERP plan for yourself and how that can help you with your OCD treatment. In This Episode: What is ERP (exposure and response prevention)? What an Exposure and Response Prevention plan looks like. How to determine how much ERP you should do each day Why it is important to practice ERP for OCD, health anxiety, and other anxiety disorders. How to taper off doing ERP once your obsessions and compulsions have reduced. How to practice self-compassion during ERP Links To Things I Talk About: ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Kimberley's ERP Book: The Self-Compassion Workbook for OCD CBTschool.com Episode Sponsor This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit – Episode 212. Welcome. I am so thrilled today to talk to you about a question I get asked all the time, which is, how long should I be doing exposure and response prevention per day? So we are going to go all the way through that here in just a sec. But before we do that, we always start the show with our "I did a hard thing." Now, each week people submit their "I did a hard thing" and we share it because we want to spread the word on all of the hard things that people are doing to inspire you, to help you realize you're not alone and to help give you that little bit of motivation to face your fears as well. Now, what we usually do after that is we do the review of the week as well, which is where people leave a review on iTunes for this podcast, Your Anxiety Toolkit. But today, somebody left a review that was also the "I did a hard thing." So I thought, no better opportunity than to do both at once. This is from Jayjenpeezy, and they said: "Right on time! I cannot even begin to say how helpful this podcast is and I have incorporated into parts of my daily meditations and/or listen to it on my walks. A few weeks ago I was admitted to the ER and kept overnight for an observation and what the doctors originally thought was tachycardia turned out to be a panic attack which I had never experienced to that degree before. I spent the next few weeks even more anxious at the thought that it would happen again and thought I'd lost my mind and began taking antidepressants as a quick solve which now I know is not the solution I truly needed. (Mind you, I am speaking only for myself and understand that not everyone is able to be off their prescription meds.)" I love that you included that. "After doing some research I learned about this podcast and ERP and am starting to feel much better about a lot of things. I've also changed my diet to be more alkaline, incorporated daily meditation, gratitude journaling and have been able to finally leave my house to take daily walks. The journey is different for everyone but as she continuously reminds me that "it's a beautiful day to do hard things" and that panic attacks are not actually attacking you it's your adrenaline rushing through you and in time comes to pass when you are able to meet it eye to eye. I also learned to look at it as willful tolerance," we have a whole episode on that "and it is not so scary anymore. I am taking it one day at a time and am mindful of being present as possible. Ending up in the emergency room while my children were left at home at night was enough for me to take any and all necessary steps to not allow my anxiety control me. Sending love to all and may the force be with you." I love that. Let's just say that is the perfect marry between "I did a hard thing" and a review. So thank you so much to our reviewer, Jayjenpeezy. I am in such admiration of you. So let's get over to the show. Today, we are talking specifically about how long or how frequent your ERP should be. Now, when I say "should," I'm going to disclose here, it's different for everybody, but I'm going to tell you just briefly what I would tell any of my clients. And then from there, you get to go and decide what is right for you. Okay? So, let's go over to that topic. When someone asks me how long or how frequent and what duration I should do for an exposure, I almost always tell them the same thing. In ERP School, the online course for OCD, and in my new book, The Self-Compassion Workbook For OCD, I

In this week's podcast episode, we have the amazing Shala Nicely, author of Is Fred in the refrigerator? and Everyday Mindfulness for OCD. In this episode, we talked about people-pleasing and how people-pleasing comes from a place of shame, anxiety, and fear of judgment from others. Kimberley and Shala share their own experiences with people-pleasing and how it created more shame, more anxiety, and more distress. In This Episode: The definition of people-pleasing How it is common for people who have OCD and Anxiety disorders. How people-pleasing impacts people's self-esteem and their wellbeing. How people-pleasing anxiety keeps us stuck. How to manage people-pleasing in daily life. How self-compassion can help to manage people-pleasing. Links To Things I Talk About: Shala's Website shalanicely.com Shala's Book "Is Fred In the Refrigerator?" ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). Episode Transcription This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 211. Welcome to Your Anxiety Toolkit. I'm your host, Kimberley Quinlan. This podcast is fueled by three main goals. The first goal is to provide you with some extra tools to help you manage your anxiety. Second goal, to inspire you. Anxiety doesn't get to decide how you live your life. And number three, and I leave the best for last, is to provide you with one big, fat virtual hug, because experiencing anxiety ain't easy. If that sounds good to you, let's go. Welcome back, everybody. This is an episode I am so excited to share with you. Maybe actually "excited" isn't the word. I feel that this is such an important conversation. Today we have my amazing friend and someone I look up to and I consider a mentor, the amazing Shala Nicely. She's been on the podcast before. Everybody loves her, as do I. And interestingly that I say that because today we are talking about people-pleasing—the act of getting people to like you. Shala is very easy to love, but we are talking about how invasive people-pleasing can become, how problematic it can become, our own personal experience with people-pleasing, and what we have done and are continuing to do to manage people-pleasing behaviors. It is such a wonderful, deep, comprehensive conversation, so I cannot wait to share that with you in just a few minutes. Before we do that, I would like to first, of course, share with you the "I did a hard thing" for the week. This is from Jack, and I'm so excited because Jack said: "I haven't been able to drive on the highway since I had a severe panic attack a couple of months ago. I have felt trapped and it has put a strain on my life. I recently drove on the highway for an hour by myself. I felt anxious during it, but I was able to calm myself down. It was a huge step for me." Amazing work, Jack. This is such a hard thing and you totally did it. This is so inspiring. You got through it. You actually stand your fear right in the face. So cool. Just proof that it is always a beautiful day to do hard things. Let's move over to the review of the week. This is from YFWWFH, and this review said: "Life-changing in a meaningful way. I found Kimberley's podcast through another psychology podcast I've been listening to where she was a guest. I started listening to hers and was so happy. I found it. The insight this podcast offers and the expertise she shares are incredible and truly make a difference in the way you think about things and feel when struggling with some of the topics talked about. I truly love this podcast and the effect that it has." Yay, that brings me such joy. Thank you so much for sharing that review. You can leave your reviews on iTunes. Please go over to iTunes to leave a review. The more reviews you leave, the more people we can reach, which means the more people I can help with this free resource. That being said, let's move over to the show, such an important interview. I am so excited and I'm so curious to see what comes up for you as you listen. I hope it's helpful. I hope it gives you food for thought. I hope it gives you direction. And I just can't wait to share it with you. So let's go straight to the episode. I will see you guys next week. Have a wonderful day. It is a beautiful day to do hard things. Kimberley: Okay. So, you guys know that I love Shala Nicely, and today I have the one and only Shala Nicely talking with us about people-pleasing. And this whole conversation came organically out of conversations

SUMMARY: Quite often, my clients forget to recognize avoidance as a compulsion. While you might be spending a lot of time in your recovery reducing compulsions such as reassurance-seeking compulsions, behavioral compulsions, and mental compulsions, it is important to recognize that avoidance is also a compulsion. In this episode, we address why it is important to address the things you are avoiding and find a way to incorporate this into your OCD treatment. In This Episode: Why Avoiding your fear keeps you stuck in the obsessive-compulsive cycle What is an avoidant compulsions? How to manage avoidant compulsions? Links To Things I Talk About: ERP SCHOOL Other podcast episodes about avoidance Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 210. Welcome back, everybody. I am so thrilled to have you here. How are you doing? How is your anxiety? How is your depression? How is your heart? How is your grief? How is your anger? How is your joy? How are you? How is your family? All things that I hope are okay and tender, and there's a safe place for all of those things to be. Today's episode is in inspiration of a session I recently had with a client—a client I've seen for some time. We are constantly talking about safety behaviors, ways that we respond to fear. I had mentioned to him that of course, one of the safety behaviors we do are from fear, and in response to fear is avoidance. We avoid things. And he had said, "Oh, I completely forgot about avoidance. I completely forgot that was one of my safety behaviors." Sometimes we put so much attention on the physical behaviors and the mental compulsions that we forget to check in on what are you avoiding and how avoiding things and fear keep us stuck. So, that's what we're talking about today. Before we do that, let's first do the review of the week. This is from Ks Steven, and they said: "Short and sweet. This podcast is one of my highlights of the week. It is short, sweet and so helpful. I look forward to each new episode. Episode 99 on self-compassion has transformed my relationship with myself. As I start each day to face my obsessions, I remind myself it is a beautiful day to do hard things." I love that review. Thank you so much. I love that. It basically is exactly what I want this podcast to be. I want it to be short, I want it to be sweet, I want it to be helpful, and I want it to remind you that it is always a beautiful day to do hard things. Before we get into the episode, we have one more part of the episode that we want to do, which is the "I did a hard thing," and this is from Anonymous. They said: "My husband and I have been going through infertility treatments for years. This year, we did IVF and it was triggering, maybe because it felt more "real." I was panicking that I didn't feel perfect enough since I struggled with some mental health issues earlier this year. I had the false narrative in my mind and major intrusive thoughts about not being a good mom, ruining my children, fearing postpartum mental health issues. I wanted to cancel our embryo transfer because of all of these intrusive thoughts and fears. But on Monday, I did it afraid and we transferred our embryo. We'll find out next week if I'm pregnant and I'm so glad I did it." Oh my goodness, I cannot tell you how impressed I am. I wish nothing but joy for you. You did that hard thing, and I hope that however that turned out that you are standing by yourself and you are gentle and kind and reminding yourself that you never have to be perfect. Never, never, never. We are not meant to be perfect. Okay, here we go. Let's talk about avoidance. I mean, listen, that "I did a hard thing" is exactly what we're talking about, so we'll even use that as a reference today. Fear is scary. Nobody wants to feel it. It's not fun at all, and instinctually, we go into fight or flight, and flight is a normal human response to fear that has us avoid danger. Now, this instinctual response is what keeps us safe. If a bus is coming for you, you run off the street. That's what we do. It's the right thing to do. However, if you are using avoidance on repeat, and if you're using avoidance to avoid the sensation of fear, not an actual current, real imminent danger, well then chances are you're going to get stuck. So I want to be really clear, if you are actually in physical danger, avoidance is not a compulsion. It's not a safety behavior. But if

SUMMARY: There is nothing I love more than sharing the success stories of people who are using ERP to manage their OCD and intrusive thoughts. In this week's podcast, I interview Taylor Stadtlander about her OCD recovery and how she used ERP School to help her manage her intrusive thoughts, compulsive behaviors. Taylor is incredibly inspiring and I am so thrilled to hear her amazing ERP Success story. In This Episode: Taylor shares how she learned she had OCD Taylor shares how she created her own ERP recovery plan and the challenges and successes of her plan Taylor shares how she used ERP School to help her put her ERP recovery plan together and how she now uses her skills in her own private practice. Links To Things I Talk About: Taylor's Private Practice: https://www.embracinguncertaintytherapy.com/ Taylor's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/acupofmindfultea/ ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION Kimberley: Welcome. I am so excited to have here with me Taylor Stadtlander. Taylor: Yes. Thanks. I'm so excited to be here. Kimberley: Oh, thank you for being here. I am so excited about this interview. You're someone I have watched on social media, and it's really cool because out of there, I realized you were someone who had been through CBT School and I just love hearing the story of how you things get to me. I love that story. So, thank you for being on the show. Taylor: Of course. Thank you so much for having me. Kimberley: Tell me a little bit about you and your mental health and mental wellness journey, as much as you want to share. Tell us about that. Taylor: I'll start with, I am an OCD therapist right now. And I start by saying that because, honestly, if you were to tell me when I was in high school, that I would have become an OCD therapist, I would have laughed at you because I, at that time, was really when my OCD started in high school. Of course, now, knowing what OCD is, I can look back and I can see definitely symptoms back as young as eight or nine years old. But when I was in high school, it was really when I had my sophomore year, pretty intense onset of compulsions. And then, of course, the intrusive thoughts, and it really was all-consuming. But the interesting part, and I'm sure a lot of people can relate to this, is it was something I kept very hidden, or I at least tried to. So, a lot of the earliest compulsions I had were checking compulsions. So, it was these intense, long rituals before I would go to bed, checking that the door is locked, the stove was off, all safety things. I felt this immense amount of responsibility. And I remember thinking like, where did this come from? One day I was just so concerned with safety and all these different things. But no one would have known other than, of course, my family, who I lived with, and my sister, who I shared a room with, who of course saw me getting up multiple times at night to recheck things. But from the outside, it looked like I had everything together. I was the A student, honors classes, volleyball captain, lacrosse captain, and just kept that façade of that picture-perfect high schooler. I did end up going to a therapist and she wasn't an OCD specialist, but I have to say I got very lucky because I actually have some of the worksheets that she used with me back when I was 15. And it is in a sense ERP. So, I was very lucky in that sense that even though I wasn't seeing a specialist, because I don't think any of us knew what was going on, to even see an OCD specialist, I did get to-- and it helped. And that's where I was like, "Okay, you know what, I'm going to go to college and become at least major in Social Work." So, I went to college, majored in Social Work, got my Master's in Social Work, and my OCD pretty much went away and I thought I was cured or whatever that means. And I thought that, "Okay, that was a chapter of my life. And now for whatever reason, I had to go through that. Now I'll become a therapist and help other people." I say that because I had no idea what was coming. My first year out of grad school, I began working and I had the most intense relapse of OCD ever. It came back stronger than ever this time. We call it "pure O." So like mainly intrusive thoughts. And I had no idea what ERP was. It's sad because I went through grad school for Social Work and we never talked about that. I remember this one day, and this i

The Self-compassion Workbook for OCD is here! Click HERE to learn more. This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 208. Welcome back, everybody. We are on the final week of the 30-day Self-Compassion Challenge. You guys, the growth has been profound to watch you guys, to hear from you guys, sharing what's working, what you're struggling with, the major strides you've made. I have loved every single second of it. I will be doing my best to compile all the audio. I think about 27 of the 30 days we did a live or the 31 days. We'll be doing lives and I will compile them into one whole little mini-course that will be free for everybody on the cbtschool.com. That is yet to come. I cannot wait to hand that over to you guys. We are on the final week and I wanted to address the elephant in the room, which is exhaustion. Today, I want to talk to you about managing exhaustion because the one thing I know for sure is you're exhausted. I'm exhausted. We're all exhausted. It's so hard to get motivation. It's so hard to keep going. So we are going to talk about it today. Here we go. Before we go, I wanted to do the "I did a hard thing." We do it every weekend. This is from A Life With Uncertainty. They said: "The last two years have been FULL of hard things. The hardest was telling my husband in therapy that our marriage was the main obsession during my worst OCD spike. I was scared and anxious. He wouldn't understand. It was such a huge exposure, and I pushed through without seeking reassurance. I CRIED A LOT, but so did he. The hard thing brought a softness to our marriage that I will always have, no matter what OCD tells me." This is beautiful. This is the work. Because what does anxiety take the most from us? The people we love. It impacts the people we love. It impacts the relationships and the things we get so much joy from. Holy smokes, A Life With Uncertainty, you are doing such brave, such courageous work. I'm so happy you put that into the "I did a hard thing." How incredibly inspiring. I just love this stuff so much. I really do. Before we get into the episode, let's do a quick review of the week. This is from Nervous Nelly saying: "I'm so grateful I found this podcast a couple of months ago. It has changed my whole approach to my own and my loved one's anxiety. This podcast provided so many tools that I practice using and learning to look at my anxiety differently. The biggest change is recognizing that when I'm having anxious thoughts more quickly before they go too far and the automatic responses that I wasn't even aware of, or should I say that I wasn't aware, were so counterproductive to my mental well-being. Thank you from the bottom of my heart and please keep doing what you're doing." Yay, I'm so happy to hear that. Nervous Nelly, welcome. I'm so happy you're here and let's keep going together, which brings me perfectly into this episode. As you know, we've been doing the 31-day challenge. I think I've been calling it a 30-day challenge, and I'm just looking at my calendar and seeing that there's 31 days in the month. We'll just be imperfect. We will move on. We are celebrating the launch of my first and only book called The Self-Compassion Workbook for OCD. One of the things I talk about most in that book and talk about most on this podcast and in CBT School resources is how to stay motivated because it takes so much to stay motivated. But what's interesting is, so many people in the comments this week said, sometimes it's not even about motivation. It's just about getting through the day. How do I get through the day? I wanted to share with you a self-compassionate concept that I use. It may or may not be helpful for you, but this is something I have dedicated my self-compassion practice to and I have really received some amazing benefits from it. I'll tell you guys a little bit of a story. As you all know, I have postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome with a nice side of generalized anxiety disorder in which I manage really well most of the time. But when I am unwell and I'm having a flare-up, which recently I've been doing really well, but I recently went through a horrific flare-up to the point where most days I couldn't get out of bed. I was doing all my sessions from an upright chair where I had my legs elevated. I would go to bed at 7:00 or 6:15 in the evening. It was just rotten, rotten, rotten, rotten. I was exposed to a concept called "the spoons concept." This was written by a person who suffered with Lyme. I'll put it in the show notes, the original article. What she did was she was saying, "Someone wants to ask me, what is it like to have Lyme disease?" Well, she assumed they knew because this person went to all of the doctor appointments and was with her when she was sick. She wasn't quite sure what they were asking until she realized they were saying, "What is it actually like to leave in your body?" And she said, "Well, think of it this way." She got all of these spoons out. I think she

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 207. Welcome to Your Anxiety Toolkit. I'm your host, Kimberley Quinlan. This podcast is fueled by three main goals. The first goal is to provide you with some extra tools to help you manage your anxiety. Second goal, to inspire you. Anxiety doesn't get to decide how you live your life. And number three, and I leave the best for last, is to provide you with one big, fat virtual hug, because experiencing anxiety ain't easy. If that sounds good to you, let's go. Welcome back, everybody. This is a really exciting podcast today. We have back on the show the amazing Kristin Neff. Now, as you all know, we're doing a 30-day Self-Compassion Challenge and it is the perfect time to bring on Kristin Neff, who has written a new book called Fierce Self-Compassion: How Women Can Harness Kindness to Speak Up, Claim Their Power, and Thrive. Now, while the book is directed towards women, it actually is for everybody. So, we're speaking today in this interview about fear self-compassion and it's for everybody. It's particularly valid to those of us who are struggling with anxiety and have to really work hard at facing fears every day. I am so grateful we got to have Kristin on. She had so many beautiful things to say. If you like the episode, please go over and purchase her book. She too has a book out and again, it's called Fierce Self-Compassion, and it might help you really deep dive into this practice of fierce self-compassion. Before we get over to the show, let's talk about the "I did a hard thing" segment. This one we have is from Eric, and he has said: "I've been working on my anxiety about the heat by spending every day I can in the sauna of my gym. I work up a good full-body sweat, and it feels so uncomfortable, but I stick with it knowing it will pay off." Eric, this is so amazing. What an amazing way for you to stare your fear in the face, practice being uncomfortable. I love it. In addition to that, let's move right over to the review of the week. This one is from Emily. Emily says: "Kimberley consistently shares a genuine compassion across all of her podcast episodes. She's been a source of encouragement on my journey with OCD, anxiety, and depression because her message remains one of the consistent self-compassion while sharing a realistic perspective and the reality of mental health struggles." Thank you so much. You're so welcome, Emily. I am just so honored to be on this amazing path with you all doing such amazing hard things and really doing the hard work. It's really an honor to hear these stories and hear the hard things you guys are doing. That being said, let's move over to the show again. Thank you so much, Kristin Neff, for coming on. I just found this episode to be so deeply helpful with some profound concepts and I can't wait to share them with you. Kimberley: Welcome. This is an honor to have with us again the amazing Kristin Neff. Welcome. Kristin: Thank you for having me. Happy to be here with you again. Kimberley: Yeah. You have a new book out, which is by far my favorite. I am so in love with this book—Fierce Compassion. Yes. I actually have mine on my Kindle, so I was holding it up, going, "Look, it's right here." Kristin: Thank you. Kimberley: I loved this book. Thank you for writing it. This is so important for our community because you're talking about how to use compassion in I think ways that we haven't talked about before and is so important for those people who are suffering with anxiety or just any kind of severe mental illness or struggle. Can you tell me exactly what fierce compassion or fear self-compassion is? Kristin: Yeah. Well, self-compassion, in general, or compassion in general is concerned with the alleviation of suffering. It's a desire to help. It's the desire for well-being of others, and then self-compassion is of yourself. There are really two main faces that it has, the two main ways that it can express itself. There's tender self-compassion, which is really important, which is about self-acceptance. It's about being gentle, more nurturing, warm with yourself, soothing yourself when you're upset, really offering support, being with yourself and all your pain and all your imperfection, and really accepting a kind way. This is a hugely important aspect of self-compassion because most of us don't do this. Most of us think we aren't good enough or we criticize ourselves. We're really harsh with ourselves. This is huge. But it's actually not the only aspect of self-compassion. Sometimes compassion is more of a gentle, nurturing energy, almost like you might say a mother. Metaphorically, a mother or a father, but a parent. Fear self-compassion is more like mama bear, like fierce mama bear. In other words, sometimes in order to alleviate our suffering, we need to take action. Acceptance isn't always the right response when we're suffering. For instance, if you're in a situation that's harmful, maybe someone is crossing your boundaries,

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 206. Welcome back, everybody. How are we doing? We are on week 3 of the Self-Compassion Challenge. So welcome if you are new and you haven't caught up with our Self-Compassion Challenge. We are doing a 30-day Self-Compassion Challenge for everybody, so everyone can dabble in their self-compassion practice, maybe strengthen their self-compassion practice, and hopefully thrive with their self-compassion practice. Today, we're going to talk about the roadblocks to self-compassion. Now, this is coming directly from my new book called The Self-Compassion Workbook For OCD. However, even if you don't have OCD, this will apply to you. I did a poll on Instagram with almost a thousand people who wrote in and polled on the biggest roadblocks that they're having, and I've compiled it. Thankfully, I used it in the book. The cool news is there were so many people who agreed on those top eight roadblocks. So I wanted to share them with you today. We're going to go through each and every single one. But before we do that, I would like to first do the "I did a hard thing" segment. Now, for those of you who are new, welcome. The "I did a hard thing" segment is where you write in and you tell me the hard thing that you have done. Today's is from anonymous, and they have said: "I just got on a ship for a daily trip and I forgot to take with me my medication. I don't use the medication that much, but I do feel safe when I have them with me. This makes me anxious, but I am choosing to manage my anxiety." How cool is that? Sometimes things don't go as we plan, and we have to rely on all of our tools and it sounds like Anonymous is doing that in an amazing way. All right. I have been doing a review of the week for people who submit a review for the podcast. However, as I'm recording this, the reviews have started to come in for the book and I couldn't help myself but share the very first review for the book. It made my heart explode. I was taking a walk. My friend called me to tell me there was a review, and I basically burst into tears. So here we go: "I've read a number of books on OCD in the past, but Kimberley's emphasis on self-compassion and its place in the ERP process is so, so refreshing and so very important. This is a must-read for anyone with OCD or anyone helping a loved one through OCD. It is a beautiful day to do hard things." Thank you so much for that amazing review. The reviews literally are changing my life. Oh my goodness, I can't tell you, when you write a book, there is so much anxiety involved, at least there was for me. And so to have people enjoy the book is just literally the most amazing thing. The most amazing thing. I had no idea. Number one, total massive respect to any author of any kind. Writing a book is very, very hard. And so, I'm just honored to be able to help people in that format as well as this format, and in addition to CBT School and in my practice. What a joy. All right. Let's get to the show. Let's talk about the Common Roadblocks to Self-Compassion. Now, the first one is related to OCD. Like I said, if you don't have OCD, stay with me because the rest are really going to maybe resonate with you, but this one is very much hands down, was the number one roadblock people reported who have OCD to have a roadblock with self-compassion. 1. "I do not deserve self-compassion because of the content of my obsessions." In the book, we go through each and every one of these in detail, but today I'm just gonna quickly knock each one of them out. So here we go. Your obsessions do not determine whether you are worthy or deserving of self-compassion. The minute you say that, you're giving too much importance to your thoughts, feelings, sensations, and urges. So the big thing to remember here is, your job is to have these obsessions and not respond to them as if they're important, and to practice taking care of yourself, whether you have them or not, that this idea that you're not deserving of them is completely false. In fact, we talk a lot about calculations in the workbook. Some people like we have these weird algebraic calculations where we go, me + obsessions = undeserving, or me + intrusive thoughts = I'm a bad person. I want you to keep an eye out for these little nuanced calculations that you have in your mind because they are dead wrong. Your thoughts are thoughts. Your feelings are feelings. Your sensations are sensations. You are not disqualified from being treated with respect and kindness because of them. 2. "I am not worthy of self-compassion because I have a mental illness." Now in the book, we use a case study where we talk about this idea of stigma around mental illness. I really want to urge you, as I do in the book, to start to break this belief that there is anything wrong with you for struggling with a mental illness. We have to be the change here. We have to lead by example. If you have a mental illness and someone has shamed you, or you've ex

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 205. Welcome back, everybody. We are on week 2 of this Self-Compassion Challenge. For those of you who are new to the podcast, or didn't hear last week's episode, go back and listen to that. We are on week 2 of a 30-days Self-Compassion Challenge. My whole goal is that you learn how to treat yourself kindly and compassionately as you move through difficult times. We are doing this to celebrate the launch of my very first book (The Self-Compassion Workbook for OCD), which I am so proud of and so excited about. Thank you to everybody who has purchased the book, supported me on social media, shouted me out to their friends and fellow followers. I cannot tell you how grateful I am. If you have got the book and you're enjoying the book, please do go and leave a review over on Amazon, share your honest opinion or share your thoughts on social media or with anybody you can, because the more people I can help, the happier. I am. We are moving on today in this episode onto the second most important part of self-compassion in my mind. Now, this is taken directly from the book, even though the workbook is called The Self-Compassion Workbook For OCD. This is a concept I talk to all my clients about. It's something I constantly check in with myself about, and it has been probably one of the most important parts of my recovery in mental health in many, many ways. So I am so excited to share this with you. Before we do that, I do want to go over and share the review of the week. For those of you who are new to the podcast or are old to the podcast, I love your reviews on iTunes. It helps me reach more people. So this week is from Looney Lovey. It says: "A gift of a podcast. I am so incredibly thankful I found this podcast. I have experienced OCD since I was 10, and this has been one of the most amazing tools. I seriously thank God for leading me to this podcast every day. It is like having a therapist in your pocket. Kimberley is so sweet, and her openness and kindness make the listener feel so welcome." Thank you, Loony Lovey. The next thing I wanted to share is the "I did a hard thing." Now, let's take a step back here and really look at self-compassion as really being a hard thing. And so, a lot of you have actually written in and said, self-compassion was one of the hard things that they've been practicing. However, this week we have a hard thing from anonymous and they've said: "I have a fear of disease. I recently had two close friends get a diagnosis where this would make me feel fear for myself and my family. I chose to show up for my friends and continue on a daily basis, working on my mental boundaries, not making their illness about me, and my fear is about that stopping me from supporting them. I struggle with feeling everyday body sensations in myself and wonder if I am next. But this is so amazing, this whole 'I did a hard thing.'" Anonymous, amazing work. It sounds like you're really showing up and letting your values make your decisions, not your fear. This is so cool. This is just so cool that you've done that. Look at you go. Doesn't that just show that fear doesn't win, right? That love and connection and values win every single time. I just love this one so much. Thank you so much for sharing. I have a ton of submissions, but I will share again very soon where you could put those submissions in if you're wanting to put your name in. Okay? All right. Let's get over to the meat and cheese of the whole episode today. So we're talking about a concept. Now, this is not scientifically proven, I have to disclose. This is my conceptualization of one of the main things that get in the way of self-compassion. I'm going to tell you a quick story. When my son was in kindergarten, the teacher had this system called the clip chart. I want you to imagine the clip chart is just a piece of cardboard, and in the middle of the piece of cardboard, it's like a long narrow rectangle. In the middle is a peg. And the peg is put right in the middle and there is just a normal neutral face. Above the peg are these different ladder rungs. There's a smiley face, there's "You did well," then there's a bigger smiley face. And then at the very top, there's this huge smiley face saying, "You get a treat." Now under the peg is a sad face. And then under the peg is an even sadder face. And then under that sadder face is a really, really sad, but almost mad face. And next to it, it says, "Call your parents." This is a ladder system that if a kid isn't listening, they get clipped down. If a kid is doing really well, they get clipped up. At the top, if they get clipped up enough times, they get a special treat, some toy from the toy box. If they get clipped down enough times, the teacher calls the parents. This is what we would call a behavioral modification tool to help encourage kids and motivate children, usually five-year-olds, on how to act and how to behave. It's incredibly efficient. As long as

Hello everyone! Today is the day that my very first book is out in the world for you to get. I could just die of excitement. So, for those of you who don't know, I spent a large part of 2020 writing my first book. It is called the Self-Compassion Workbook For OCD: Lean into Your Fear, Manage Difficult Emotions and Focus on Recovery. I could cry. I am so excited that it is finally here. It was such a huge project in my life. Now I'm just thrilled to share it with you guys. Now, what does that mean for you? You can go and purchase the book wherever you buy books. You may order it on Amazon if you don't have a bookstore near you. But in addition to getting the book, which is literally like, ah, I put my whole soul into this project – what you can do in addition to that is this month, for the month of October, we are going to do a self-compassion challenge. Now, before you turn the stereo or your iPhone or your iPod off, stay with me because I really strongly believe that this challenge could change your life, whether you have OCD or not. I really want to focus this month on improving your relationship with yourself, improving your relationship with self-compassion, working through the roadblocks that you have. I'm going to be doing a lot of live instruction on Instagram and hopefully on Facebook as well, depending on technology. But if you don't follow me on Instagram, head over there, if you're not signed up for the newsletter, head over there, because my goal is to really nurture you through this process and get you having a self-compassion practice that is rich and fulfilling and healing. So, so, so important. Today, we're going to kick it off right away. We're going to talk about the first main point I want you to do. Before we do that, let's do a couple of important pieces. So first thing, we're going to do the "I did a hard thing" segment. This one is from Elle and she has said: "I sat outside in 92-degree weather to eat my croissant. Even though being in overly hot places makes me anxious, I just wanted to be outside." Thank you so much, Elle, for that submission. Really what I hear you saying is you were willing to tolerate heat, which is often a really big trigger for people with anxiety, but you did it because it's what your soul was asking for, which is a huge piece of what today's podcast is all about. Now we'll move on to the review of the week. This is from Cynthia. She said: "I'm so excited to share these podcasts with my clients. I was first introduced to Kimberley's clear and compassionate teaching style when I took ERP School for therapists, which is the CEU course. In the past three weeks since taking the course, I recommended both the course and podcast to my clients. So helpful. Thank you, Kimberley." Yay, I'm so happy to hear that, Cynthia. All I have to say, it's all coming together. I feel like years of hard work of the podcast and courses and the book, and I feel like so many people are getting on board and they're starting to face their fears and they're learning these skills and it makes me so overjoyed. So, thank you so much, Cynthia. Thank you, Elle. I'm just feeling such gratitude right now. Okay. Here we go. We are on Day 1 of the 30-day challenge to self-compassion. Now, I know I've done a lot of work on self-compassion before in the podcast. You can go back and listen. I've interviewed the most impressive people on self-compassion. You can go back and listen to those episodes. But for today, I want to go straight to the most important piece. We'll work through some other things later through the month and some roadblocks, but here is the main tool for this week. Are you ready? I want you to take a couple of breaths. I want you to check in with yourself. You can do this in the form of meditation. If you're driving, please keep your eyes open on the road. But if not, you may close your eyes and check in with yourself. Where is the discomfort and the pain in your body? Where is the suffering in your body? Is it in your chest? Is it in your shoulders? Is it in your head? Is it in your heart? Is it in your stomach? Is it in your fingertips? Is it in your legs? Where is the suffering? It could be all over your body, and that's okay. But just check in on where it's at. And then I want you to ask yourself this one question: What do I need right now? I don't want you to argue with yourself. I just want you to honor what first comes up. What do I need right now? Sometimes our instincts are to say, "I want this pain to go away." But a huge part of self-compassion is honoring what's really happening. It's really this truth-telling practice where you have to accept, okay, that's not an option right now. Otherwise, you would've done it, right? You would've done the thing to remove the discomfort. If there's an itch, you probably would've scratched it by now. Often the pains that we feel, the ones that cause us the most suffering are the ones that we can't simply get rid of the anxiety. We fe

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 203. Welcome back, everybody. Today's episode is all about why it is so important that we expose ourselves to our fears. It's one of the most common questions I get asked from my clients, right? Which is, why do I have to do this hard work? Why? Why of all the treatments is mine the one where I have to face my fears. Because my clients ask this all the time, I wondered whether you needed a quick pep talk just to get you back on track, to remind you why and to motivate you towards facing your fears, because it is probably the most valuable change of behavior that you will do. Welcome back. I am so happy to have you here with me today to talk about that specific topic. Before we get started, I would like to quickly dive in to really set the scene today. We're going to talk about the hard thing, the "I did a hard thing" segment. Today's hard thing is from anonymous, and they have submitted saying: "I haven't drank coffee for over two years since my OCD breakdown because I was too scared. But today, I went to Costa and I had a caramel latte. I got heart palpitations for a few hours, but I sat with it. This is exactly what I'm talking about. So, Anonymous, this is so good. I am so proud of you. This is the work that we do. And I'm going to use Anonymous' example here throughout the podcast to really tie this together. All right, one more thing before we get moving, I want to do a shoutout to the review of the week. This one is from Hahajack, and they said: "This is the best short therapy lesson. This podcast is amazing! I love that episodes are short and succinct. You can't say that you don't have time when episodes are as short as 10 to 30 minutes. If you are struggling with OCD or anxiety, this is a great podcast to listen to for extra therapeutic support in addition to therapy. I treat OCD and I learn so much every time I listen to Kimberley's podcast." Thank you Hahajack for that amazing review. We are still doing the drive for reviews. So if you can go over to Apple podcast, leave us a review or wherever you listen. Once we hit a thousand reviews, we're giving a free pair of Beats headphones. I cannot tell you how much I love, love, love, love your reviews. Thank you. It helps me help more people reach more people. And that's what I'm here to do. All right, so let's get to the meat of this episode, right? I, in the past – I think it's Episode 86 – did a whole episode called the Science of Exposure and Response Prevention. You can go back and listen to that episode once this is done. We talked about the science behind ERP, and I'm going to be using a lot of that reference to talk about why. Why do we stare fear in the face? Instinctually, when we have fear – I'm just going to give you a quick education here – when we experience fear and our brain sets the signal off to say, "There might be danger, there might be trouble, please be alarmed," – when the anxiety hits our body and our cognitions, our natural instinct is to remove ourselves from the perceived danger. And that has kept us alive. It is an important process that we humans have and other animals have. It's an important piece that keeps us alive, like I said. The problem is, that behavior, the removal of anxiety, the avoidance of the thing that created the anxiety is only effective if the danger is imminent, not just a thought about a possible danger, right? And so, if, like I said, there was a real thing that was happening in your life that is dangerous, yeah, you may want to remove yourself from it. But if you have a brain that's anxious like mine, where your brain sets off alarms quite often telling you, "Ring, ring, ring, something bad might happen. Ring, ring, ring, the future may have some problems. Ring, ring, ring, you're a bad person," and so forth – when we instinctually try to remove that, we actually reinforce the fear, the faulty fear. We reinforce the thought, right? And then what we are in a cycle of is thought, reinforcement of thought, thought, reinforcement of thought, thought, reinforcement of thought. The whole reason we choose to face our fear is to break that cycle, right? If you have a thought about imminent danger or threat, and you respond to it as if it's important, your brain will continue to perceive it as an important and an imminent threat. If you have a thought about something that is imminent and dangerous, and you don't respond to it as if it's imminent and dangerous, your brain starts to learn not to set that alarm every time you have that thought. Your brain learns not to ring the alarm bell and send out all those anxiety hormones throughout your body. Right? And that's how you break the cycle. And we do that by – if you just happen to have the thought, you could do that by being aware that you're having the thought, observing the thought, and then not engaging in the avoidant or reactive behavior, right? That's hard, right? It's doable, but it's hard, right? Because you have to

This week we interview Drew Linsalata, an amazing friend who has written an amazing book called, "Seven Percent Slower" Click the link below to hear more about his book! https://theanxioustruth.com/seven-percent-slower/ Kimberley: Welcome, everybody. This episode is for you, the listener, but it's actually for me, the podcaster, more than anything. Today, we have the amazing Drew Linsalata. I've talked about Drew before. We've done giveaways. We've done a bunch of stuff together on social media. I am a massive Drew fan. So, thank you, Drew, for being here today. Drew: Oh, you're so sweet. Thank you, Kim. It's my pleasure to be here. Kimberley: Okay. So, you, you are amazing, and I would love if you would share in a minute to people a little bit about your lived experience with anxiety. Drew is just the coolest human being on the planet. So, I'm so excited to share with everybody you, because I think everybody needs Drew in their life. Drew: Wow. Kimberley: But in addition to that, we are today going to talk about something. I'm actually going to try and drop down into my own vulnerability, and not just be the host, but also be the listener today because you are talking about one particular topic that I need to work on. So, first of all, tell me a little bit about your background, your story, and we'll go from there. Drew: Sure. So, unfortunately, I lived in experience with panic disorder, agoraphobia, and intrusive thoughts and things of that nature, clinical depression, on and off, from the time I was 19 years old – 1986 all the way to around 2008, in varying degrees. So, it was a very long time. I was in and out of those problems. They came, they went. I did all the wrong things for a lot of time, trying to fix those problems, even though I knew what the right things were, because I've always been a bit of a behaviorism and cognition geek. And it took me a long time to come around to actually solving those problems. I did the medication thing that didn't work out for me. And then I really just took the time to learn what I needed to do behaviorally, cognitively, using those evidence-based things that I know you talk about all the time. And I just used them on myself and I learned as much as I could from very smart people like you. And I went and did the work and managed to get myself through the recovery from panic disorder and agoraphobia and depression and all of those things. And along the way, the things that I learned, I just started sharing with other people, which is nothing that I invented. I never claimed that I invented any of this stuff. I just became a really good messenger, I guess, in terms of explaining. Well, I learned this and then I used it this way. And that led to just helping people online back in 2008, 2009 as I was going through it. And that led to continuing to do it. And that led to starting my own podcast back in 2014, like talking to nobody with a $4 app on my phone. But it just seemed like the right thing to do to try and pay the help forward, because I had a lot of supportive people who rallied around me. And that just one thing led to another. And here we are, and the podcast is just kept going and it has led to writing two books about this stuff. One is my story, and one is the recovery guide that I wrote. And here I am, still educating about this topic and advocating and supporting where I can and just trying to contribute to the community because I felt like the community, in its form that it was in 10, 15 years ago, was so helpful to me. And I just feel like I want to give as much of that back as I can. So, yeah. Kimberley: So you've written-- I'm giggling. So, for everyone listening, if you hear me giggling, it's not because it's particularly funny. It's just so ironic to me. You wrote a book called Seven Percent Slower. Drew: Yes. Kimberley: Now I probably tell my clients every single day they need to slow down. I have done a podcast on slowing down, but it is probably the safety behavior I fall into the most. And I don't do a ton of safety behaviors anymore that this one is just so ingrained in me. So, I read your book. Thank you so much. Not only is it an amazing read, but you're hilarious. I was texting Drew yesterday, just cracking out at some of the things that he says because it's my type of humor. I just love it. So, can you share with me why this one topic? Of all the things you could have written, why is this one topic? Why was it so important to you and why is it so important? Drew: It's a good question. Up until three, four months ago. I would have not thought that I would write this book. There was no plan to write a book about learning to slow down. But what I discovered was, Seven Percent Slower is the thing that I just came up with as a little silly mental device for me when I was struggling in a big way. I knew that part of what would happen when I would get really anxious and I would begin to panic, and I would just associate that with all those nasty t

In this week's podcast, we talk with Allyson Ford about her journey with OCD and an Eating Disorder. Allyson shares how her journey with OCD began when she watched ERP SCHOOL, our online course for people with OCD. Allyson quickly realized that she had not only been working through an Eating Disorder but had also struggled with OCD. Allyson Ford shares these 3 main points on OCD Recovery: In recovery, don't wait for the fear to be gone. You must take the action while scared/anxious for real growth to happen. It will feel counterintuitive but that doesn't mean you are doing it wrong. ERP is terrifying and it's worth it in the end. It's so empowering to realize you can have anxiety and do the things you love anyways. Because it is so scary, you need a therapist that you can really trust- who is both skilled in ERP and compassionate/warm. Shame and myths about OCD keep us suffering for much longer than we need to. Two major turning points for me were learning about what real OCD is- I quickly identified signs and symptoms within myself since 8 years old. The next game-changer was finding a community of other therapists who live with OCD. I felt so embarrassed to be a therapist struggling with these issues- I felt broken and ashamed. It made work really anxiety-provoking. I attended Pure O Chrissie's Gamechangers retreat and that changed everything for me. I suddenly felt empowered and hopeful; this propelled my ERP treatment forward. Learning and applying skills for intrusive thoughts was also a game-changer. Learning that everyone gets intrusive thoughts and that they don't mean anything, learning mindfulness skills (bookshelf metaphor) for rumination and one-upping my thoughts/power stance were the most helpful. Knowing that the theme of my thoughts only points to what I value most was also helpful- it always boils back down to my work. I care so deeply about making a meaningful impact on my clients, and that seems to be what my OCD attacks the most! Allyson Ford, MA, LPCC is an Eating Disorder, OCD, and anxiety therapist with lived experience. Allyson graduated with her Master's degree from New Mexico State University and has since worked in a variety of settings including hospitals, schools, residential programs, and now private practice. Allyson provides virtual services throughout California and also does part-time work at The Eating Disorder Center with Jennifer Rollin. Allyson has a passion for integrating social justice throughout her practice and has a podcast available on Apple and Spotify called Body Justice. Allyson utilizes ERP, DBT, CBT, ACT, and IFS in her practice. You can find her on Instagram at @bodyjustice.therapist and her website: www.allysonfordcounselingservices.com This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 201. Welcome to Your Anxiety Toolkit. I'm your host, Kimberley Quinlan. This podcast is fueled by three main goals. The first goal is to provide you with some extra tools to help you manage your anxiety. Second goal, to inspire you. Anxiety doesn't get to decide how you live your life. And number three, and I leave the best for last, is to provide you with one big, fat virtual hug, because experiencing anxiety ain't easy. If that sounds good to you, let's go. Welcome back, friends. I am so happy to have this special time with you. Thank you so much for giving me your very valuable time. How are you all doing? Just checking in. I know it's been a really hard year. I know we talked a lot last week about suffering and how to manage that. If you didn't hear that episode and you're struggling, please go back and listen. Hopefully, it will connect with you and land up with you in a way that is validating and kind and builds some space for you and some safety for you. This is going to be a wonderful episode. It's actually an interview I have done with somebody who I met through ERP School, interestingly enough. I am so honored to have this week Allyson Ford. Now Allyson is an LPCC. She is an eating disorder specialist and OCD specialist and anxiety specialist. She has lived experience, which she shared, in those areas, and she shares her experience of finding out that she has OCD, talking about her eating disorder recovery. And the cool thing is, like I said, she will reflect a lot on how ERP School, one of our online courses that teaches you how to practice ERP all on your own and learn about ERP – she shares how that was a big game-changer for her. So I'm so excited to share with you this amazing interview. We talk a lot about the overlap between eating disorders and OCD. Even if you don't have one or both of the disorders, I encourage you to listen because I think that there is some amazing story and I think it's really cool to see stories of clinicians who have actually walked the walk. They don't just talk the talk. So I'm so, so excited to share that interview with you. Before we do that, let's go ahead and do the review of the week, this week's review. If you want to ever leave a revie

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 200. Oh my stars, you guys, Episode 200. So exciting. Welcome back to Your Anxiety Toolkit. I am so thrilled to have you here for Episode 200. Oh my stars, you guys, this is a huge deal for me. In fact, let me set you up for today's episode. So, in Episode 100. We actually invited all the guests that we had previously had on the podcast and we had a celebration. If you want some fun, you should go over there and listen. It is such a wonderful episode. I was thinking about what I wanted to do for Episode 200, and I'm not going to lie, nothing landed. Nothing. I just couldn't bring myself to throw a huge party for it. And I think that's what I wanted to talk with you guys about today in this episode, which is, who's suffering? Who's struggling? Who is having a hard time? Because I know I am, and I'm guessing you are in some way or another. I wanted to use this episode as just a time where we can talk about suffering and we can talk about what that looks like and what that means and what we can do when we're struggling. And so, let's talk about that today. Before we do that, let's first do two new segments. In fact, one is new and one is a return of an old segment we used to do. And the first one is where I would like to read you a review of the week for the podcast. This week's review is from Katie. Thank you so much for your review, and for all of you for writing a review. You guys do know that I'm giving away a pair of free Beats headphones once we hit a thousand reviews. We have a long way to go, but I am committed to getting there. And so, in the meantime, let's celebrate each of you as we go. Today's review is from Katie and she wrote: "This podcast is a great resource that has helped me before I was brave enough to seek treatment. It's nice to know that I am not alone. The tools and conversation are authentic, helpful, and hopeful. Grateful for Kimberley's generosity in sharing." Thank you, Katie, for leaving a review, and thank you to all of you for leaving a review on the podcast. It helps me to get reach ultimately, and that helps me to help more people with this free resource. Alright, so the second part of the podcast is a return to the "I did a hard thing" segment. Now, we have actually upgraded this segment. And what we're going to do from now on is I have a form on my private practice website, where we launched the podcast. It's called KimberleyQuinlan-lmft.com. If you go over there and you click on Podcast, right there is a way to submit your hard thing. And so, we used to do it on social media and we used to do it via email and it was very, very messy. And so now, you get to submit your "I did a hard thing." We will take a look at them and we will do one per week. I am so excited. I really believe that the "I did a hard thing" segment is literally the basis of this podcast. When people tell me or they DM me or they message me, or they tell me in person that they did a hard thing, they tell me as if this is a new concept to them that they've never, ever been encouraged to do. They tell me as if it's life-changing. And that's why I really feel like this is the core of this whole podcast, which is to come together as a group to do hard things. And maybe the hard thing isn't something that's hard for other people. That's totally okay. That's the whole point. If it's hard for you, it's hard for you. And I love celebrating that because sometimes, out in the world, we don't have people to celebrate with. And I think that needs to be such a huge piece of the work that we do, and it is such a part of the work that we do here. So, to get us started, I'm actually going to do the first one. Now, I want to encourage you to think of your hard thing as just something that's hard for you. And then we can talk about here in a second what that may mean. So, my hard thing for this episode is this, and I'm so excited to tell you this, is that Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast hit 1 million listens. 1 million downloads, 1 million times people listen to this podcast and I could not be more excited. And this is why I think this is so important, is because as I went and I learned of this wonderful achievement, immediately, I heard a voice that says, "Yeah, but such and such got there in way quicker time," or "Yeah, but I know that some people who have way more successful podcasts than you do, they're going to look at that and they're going to be like, 'Oh wow, just a million?'" And immediately, that voice came in. And so, what I want to encourage you to do is catch that voice when you recognize that you've done a hard thing. Because when you can catch the voice, you don't have to then engage with the voice and go, "Yeah, you're right. No point really celebrating that because other people got there easier and faster and better and all the things." So, here today, I am going to celebrate this milestone. Thank you so much for you guys for supporting me because I never would have gotten

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 199. Welcome to Your Anxiety Toolkit. I'm your host, Kimberley Quinlan. This podcast is fueled by three main goals. The first goal is to provide you with some extra tools to help you manage your anxiety. Second goal, to inspire you. Anxiety doesn't get to decide how you live your life. And number three, and I leave the best for last, is to provide you with one big, fat virtual hug, because experiencing anxiety ain't easy. If that sounds good to you, let's go. Welcome back, everybody. Oh my goodness, I am so excited about this episode and so deeply honored. So, for those of you who know me, you know how completely-- oh my gosh, I get so excited about meeting my mentors – people who have taught me so much as a clinician, who have taught me so much as a human being. Today's one of those days, you guys, I am so excited and so grateful to be able to have, like I said to you, my biggest mentors on the podcast. Today, we have on the podcast talking about shame, Dr. Christopher Germer. So, if you guys may remember, I did interview Kristin Neff before COVID about self-compassion, and Christopher Germer, who we have today, has co-founded the mindfulness self-compassion concepts and tools. They have workbooks, they have trainings, a website, and the work they're doing is so important. I strongly encourage you to go over and check out the work that they're doing, because it is life-changing. But today, what I'm so excited about is sharing with you a conversation I had with Christopher Germer about shame, and he really breaks down all of the things we need to know about shame. We talk about some things that I myself have still got a lot to learn. Some of the things he said today – I had to do everything in my power, not to be like, wait, stop, I need to be able to think about that for a second. I need you to say that again, because he just drops so many truth bombs, and he is so amazing. So, I'm going to stop going on about how excited I am because I have a total fangirl experience right now. I literally just got off the phone with Dr. Germer, and I'm going to share this with you. So, I hope you enjoy it. If you are somebody who has struggled with shame, you are going to love this episode and take a lot away because it is such an important part of all of our recovery and all of our well-being. So, enjoy the episode, everybody, and I will see you all next week. ----- Kimberley: Welcome. I am so honored, and I have such deep respect for today's interview guest. We have today Dr. Christopher Germer. Thank you so much for being here. Christopher: Thanks, Kimberley. Great to be here. Kimberley: So, I've actually been dreaming of having you on for some time. I really wanted to hear your thoughts about shame. I was at a presentation or a training you did in December, right before COVID started, and I loved what you had to say. So, this is the topic of today. Can you share with us, just give us a brief description of what shame is? Christopher: Well, shame is probably the most difficult human emotion. Shame is probably the most hidden human emotion, which is also why it's so difficult, because if we can't see it, we can't work with it. But shame is primarily-- it has two main aspects. One is it's a self-conscious emotion, which means we're kind of seeing ourselves in the minds of others, and there's also negative self-evaluation. So, what we're seeing in the minds of others, it's usually some scorn, something negative. So, those are the two main characteristics of shame. Shame also has a kind of-- there's kind of a global negative evaluation involved. In other words, we don't just think a part of me is kind of needing to be tweaked a bit. It's like, I am fundamentally bad or unworthy or incompetent or helpless. So, there's a kind of a global evaluation. So, that's shame. But at the end of the day, what shame really is an attack on the sense of self. So, guilt is a criticism of one's behavior. In other words, I did something wrong. Shame is "I am wrong." So whenever there is a self-attack, there's usually an element of shame involved. Kimberley: Right. And I think that's so interesting that you say, because it's such a huge component of someone who's struggling with a mental illness, or even just emotions, in general, is a lot of us when we're having a hard time, we move immediately to like, "There's something wrong with me." Christopher: Yeah. So, shame can either be the cause of different forms of mental distress or the consequence. So, when we think badly of ourselves because we're struggling, say with an anxiety disorder or depression, then that's an element of shame – thinking badly about ourselves, right? The self-attack. Or if we get negative messages from the culture, like if what we're struggling with, it's stigmatized or if it's a burden on somebody in our lives and they start to criticize us for what we're going through. So, in that way, shame is a consequence of some internal di

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 198. Welcome to Your Anxiety Toolkit. I'm your host, Kimberley Quinlan. This podcast is fueled by three main goals. The first goal is to provide you with some extra tools to help you manage your anxiety. Second goal, to inspire you. Anxiety doesn't get to decide how you live your life. And number three, and I leave the best for last, is to provide you with one big, fat virtual hug, because experiencing anxiety ain't easy. If that sounds good to you, let's go. Okay, friends, how are you doing really? How are you doing? It's summertime, you guys. Oh my goodness. We're here. How did this happen? Just to let you know, I will be taking a break as I have done for the last several years over the summer. So I will probably take a few weeks off in July so I can have some time with my kids to really rest and repair and play and be human. It's such a weird year. And so as I'm recording this, it's not summer yet, but it's crazy to think that we've landed in summer already of 2021. Am I right? Holy smokes. Okay, before we get started, as I always say, please do go and leave a review. I will be giving away Beats headphones to one lucky winner when we get a thousand reviews. We're on our way, guys. So please do go and leave a review. I would so be grateful. It just really helps me strengthen the podcast, and it's one of my big goals for 2021, is just to really help people with this amazing platform. All right. So here we go. Today, I am talking about how I am protecting my daughter from an eating disorder. But what I'm really going to be talking about is how we, me and my husband, are protecting my daughter and my son from an eating disorder. The reason I preface that is because, number one, yes, while women are more likely to develop an eating disorder, there is an increase of prevalence of young men and young boys getting and experiencing an eating disorder. There are many different types of eating disorder. It doesn't have to be anorexia. They can be binge eating. There's also types of eating disorders, such as bigorexia, which is around developing muscle. There's orthorexia. There's so many kinds of, again, bulimia anorexia, of course, we've discussed. There's so many types and it's so important that we recognize that this is not just a problem for women and girls. So let's talk about it. How myself and my husband are protecting my daughter and my son from an eating disorder. So there are two main things I want to discuss today. Number one is how we talk and number two, how we model. And so I'm going to give you much more detail into how we are doing that and how we're choosing to do that and the struggles that we're having. I, myself, had an eating disorder. So I'm really, really protective of this topic with my children. It's something I really want to try and protect them from while I know that I can't entirely protect them. I can do a lot of education to give them everything they need to hopefully not have to go through what I have gone through and what so many people have gone through with eating disorders. So, first of all, let's talk about what we talk about. Let's talk about what we talk about, shall we? All right. So the first thing, and you guys have heard me say this probably before, the first thing we talk about is diet culture. This is where we identify how our society is teaching us to believe that we should be a certain way. Our bodies should be a certain way. Our skin should be a certain way. Our hair should be a certain way. We should look a certain way. And we want to be able to identify this so we can call the BS on it. So the reason that I call BS on it is, just because society tells us our body should be a certain way doesn't mean it's true. In fact, it's entirely BS. Your body, my body, my daughter's body, my son's body, and my husband's body – doesn't have to be any particular way. Society and diet culture is going to tell us that it should be thin. It's going to give us all of these messages. "We should be thin. We should be strong. We should be tall. We should be short. We should be eating this certain thing. This product will help us with our metabolism. This product is bad. These foods are good. These foods are bad." And there's so many messages that are faulty and proven to be wrong. So, so important. So we talk a lot about this with my children. When my daughter and I go shopping, which we haven't done in a long time, but when we see advertisements, when we watch TV shows, when we look in magazines or pitches of books in books, when we look at Barbie dolls, we talk about diet culture. I might say, "What about her body? Let's talk about Bobby." And we look at Bobby and I'll say, "What do you think about her body?" And she'll be like, "It's kind of weird. It looks kind of strange." And I'll say, "Yeah, why do you think that is?" And she says, "Well her waist is really small." And I'll have a conversation with her. We talked to her about, "Do you feel li

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 197. Welcome to Your Anxiety Toolkit. I'm your host, Kimberley Quinlan. This podcast is fueled by three main goals. The first goal is to provide you with some extra tools to help you manage your anxiety. Second goal, to inspire you. Anxiety doesn't get to decide how you live your life. And number three, and I leave the best for last, is to provide you with one big, fat virtual hug, because experiencing anxiety ain't easy. If that sounds good to you, let's go. Welcome back, you guys. So grateful to have this precious time with you. Thank you so much for coming and spending your very, very precious time with me. As we do this together, it's exciting, we're almost at 200 episodes. You guys, I cannot believe it. I am pretty, pretty proud of that, I'm not going to lie. Today's episode is with the amazing Jon Hershfield. He's been on the show multiple times and I have been really reflecting and thinking about how important it is for us to practice response prevention and how that is so, so important for everybody who has any type of anxiety, whether that be an anxiety disorder like OCD, social anxiety, specific phobia, generalized anxiety. Even for myself, I've been reflecting on any time I'm responding to fear and responding to discomfort. It's just a topic that I want to continue to address because I think from you guys, I just continue to see how much it's a struggle for you. As I thought about continuing education on tools you can use, I thought, who else can I have none other, but Jon Hershfield to talk about using mindfulness to manage compulsions. Now we talk about compulsions like mental compulsions and rumination. We talk about reassurance-seeking, avoidance, any kind of physical compulsion. We also talk about how to practice mindfulness so that it doesn't become a compulsion. And so I'm just so grateful to have John give us his very valuable time and to talk with you guys about these amazing concepts. I'm not going to spend too much more time doing the introduction. You guys know how amazing Jon Hershfield is. He has some amazing books. He has The Mindfulness Workbook for OCD, and he has Everyday Mindfulness that he co-authored with Shala Nicely, and The Teen OCD Workbook, and Harm OCD book. He's just written amazing books. So please do go out and support him. He does share all that information at the end of the show, and I can't wait for you guys to listen. In the meantime, please do go and leave a review. It helps us to reach more people. I'm going to be quiet now and let you listen to Jon's wisdom. Have a wonderful day. ----- Kimberley: All right, welcome. I am so happy to have the amazing Jon Hershfield with us again today. Jon: Thanks for having me. You make me sound like Spiderman of the OCD world. Kimberley: You are the Spiderman of the OCD world. I love it. Jon: What does that mean? Kimberley: Yeah, it's true. Well, that's a good thing. I know my son is probably jumping up and down at the idea of me meeting the Spiderman of something. Thank you for coming on. I really wanted to invite you on, of course, because I love the work that you're doing regarding mindfulness in OCD. I really wanted to talk about how we can use mindfulness, particularly to address compulsion, because a big part of Exposure and Response Prevention is the response prevention piece. I would really love to pick your mind on how you implement mindfulness as a part of that and also address some of the misunderstandings that happen regarding mindfulness. So, let me first ask you, just for those who don't know or new to the show, how would you give a definition? How would you explain mindfulness, particularly in the respect of treatment? Jon: It's interesting because we all make this same grammatical error. I do it too. We say we use mindfulness as if mindfulness was an act or an action or a thing that you use as opposed to a perspective that you take. So I'm thinking about what mindfulness means. Usually, the definition we hear is "Paying attention to the present moment as it is without judgment and without the desire to change it." And that's a great definition. It's escaping me at the moment who actually coined that exact language, but I think it applies to most mindfulness concepts. But I don't like that it starts with the word "paying" because it still implies that you're doing something. I think mindfulness is actually the perspective that you have when you're paying attention to the present moment. If you want to play around with the words, it's really noticing the fullness of the mind – mindfulness, right? It's a position that you take as opposed to a thing that you do. Right now, I'm sitting here in my desk chair. I'm aware of the sensation of my body in the chair, hearing my voice in the headphones and I have coffee and tasting that coffee. These are all things that I'm noticing and I'm being mindful of. The other part of mindfulness that I think is important to understand is that,

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 196. Welcome to Your Anxiety Toolkit. I'm your host, Kimberley Quinlan. This podcast is fueled by three main goals. The first goal is to provide you with some extra tools to help you manage your anxiety. Second goal, to inspire you. Anxiety doesn't get to decide how you live your life. And number three, and I leave the best for last, is to provide you with one big, fat virtual hug, because experiencing anxiety ain't easy. If that sounds good to you, let's go. Welcome back, you guys. We have had a break. We are back. I'm actually recording this before I was back, so I don't even really know how I feel once this episode will be out, but nonetheless, I have been holding off and wanting to do this episode as the welcome back episode for the new season of Your Anxiety Toolkit. Today we have with us, my Assistant, my Executive Assistant, one of the most important people behind the scenes at CBT School and in my private practice. She is my intake coordinator. She is the doer of all things. She was originally hired as my Chief Copywriter. She does a lot of work behind the scenes for me. Her name is Elle Warren. Her and I have been working together for some time now. It has been such a pleasure to get to know her. She today is going to share with you, just so you know, who it is behind the scenes if you're ever in contact with us or you're reading out Instagram posts or a newsletter or emails. She's doing a lot of this stuff for me and we're working together very closely. I wanted you to feel like you knew her, just like you know me. She also comes with a beautiful recovery story where she shares her experience with mental health and OCD and health anxiety, and grief, and post-traumatic stress disorder and experiencing, and really coming to find a place of peace with her sexual orientation. It is a beautiful, beautiful episode. I'm so, so excited to share it with you. Again, I want you to feel like you know us. I want you to feel like you trust us and you know who's behind the scenes, and that's why this was so important to me. So, I hope you do enjoy the show. Elle really does share her story so vulnerably. If you do notice some background noises, Elle was in a really rural location, a lot of background noise. So, bear with us there. We were doing the best we can. I wanted to make sure we had this episode recorded before we left, so please bear with me. The content is still fabulous. I hope that isn't too difficult on your listening. In addition, welcome back. So thrilled to be back. I've been trying to do episodes through the school year and then take some time off for the summer. This season, we have some big plans, some amazing guests. I am really dialed in with specifically what I want to address this season. So, get excited about that. I hope you're well. I hope you're being kind to yourself and you had a lovely summer and you had some time to rest and recover. I will share here very soon about our trip and what happened and what I learnt and what I experienced. I always like to refer to a couple of reflections later on, but first, I hope you enjoy this episode with Elle. ----- Kimberley: All right. Welcome, everybody. This is a really wonderful start to another season of the podcast because I have here with me one of my core team members, Elle Warren. Thanks so much for coming on, Elle. Elle: I'm so excited to be here. Thank you for having me. Kimberley: All right. Let me share. I know everyone's listened to the intro, but let's just talk about how important you are as a part of helping me. I'm so grateful for all the work that you do to help me, so thank you. Elle: Yes. I love it. Kimberley: Yeah. The reason that you're so special is because you're so special. But in addition to being so special, you're so wonderful as a part of this team because you get it. You get what we're talking about, and that's why I'm so grateful to have you on our team. I'd love to spend some time you sharing that story if you're comfortable and telling us a little bit about your background. Do you want to give us an intro to your story? Elle: Sure. Yeah. It is a long and winding journey, but I will try my best. I have had OCD for as long as I can remember, but I did not know that it was OCD until about two years ago. I was only actually diagnosed in February of 2020, so right before the pandemic, but I had been learning a lot on my own before that and came to that conclusion. Big themes for me growing up were sexual orientation, health anxiety, safety things. I remember I would always ask my mom for reassurance all the time. And then my mom passed away a little over three years ago now when I was 20, and that was the catalyst for my mental health feeling more unmanageable. I started having panic attacks. I was later much more recently diagnosed with PTSD from her illness and death and all of that as well. At the time, I just thought that my brain was broken, that I was broken. I can see now t

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 195. Welcome to Your Anxiety Toolkit. I'm your host, Kimberley Quinlan. This podcast is fueled by three main goals. The first goal is to provide you with some extra tools to help you manage your anxiety. Second goal, to inspire you. Anxiety doesn't get to decide how you live your life. And number three, and I leave the best for last, is to provide you with one big, fat virtual hug, because experiencing anxiety ain't easy. If that sounds good to you, let's go. Kimberley: Hello there. I have with me a very special friend who is going to talk about something so important. So, so important. I am so excited to have with us Shala Nicely. Oh my goodness, thank you for coming back onto the show. Shala: Thank you so much for having me. I love being here. Kimberley: Oh my goodness. Okay. So, probably the reason that I have been so adamant about getting you onto this episode is this topic that we are going to talk about is probably one of the topics that comes up the most with my patients and clients that nobody is talking about. Shala: Yes. Kimberley: Nobody. And I am seeing it more and more and more and more and more, which is why I wanted to have you on. So, thank you. Shala: Yeah. Kimberley: Thank you. Okay. So, you wrote a blog about depression as a compulsion. Can you tell us what does that mean? Shala: Yes. I'll start off by saying that this is one of the many subtleties of OCD. Sometimes OCD takes a long time to figure out. I spent years becoming a therapist. I spent years thinking about my own experience and when I was writing my memoir Is Fred in the Refrigerator?. It wasn't until after Fred was published, that I figured out this particular compulsion that I had been doing. By identifying it, it's been able to help me make a huge difference in my recovery, and that's why I wanted to share it and write the blog. Kimberley: Right. It's so important. I mean, I can't tell you, I've been practicing for many, many years and I only came across this in the last year or two. But the more I get to know it and the more I understand it, I'm just like, I feel like I see it in almost all the cases in some way. So, go ahead. Tell us what it is. Tell us what it looks like. Shala: So, I'll give you an example that I used in Fred, which is, when I was in my twenties, I was convinced I'd given myself HIV aids because I had gotten cut with a broken beer bottle at a party and I had spent all this time in my head arguing with OCD about whether or not that you can transmit HIV aids through that. It went on for months and months and months. While I was doing all this ritualizing in my head, trying to figure this out and prove to myself I didn't have this disease, which this was years and years and years ago, the treatments for HIV aids are much better now, they weren't. This was 25 years ago. I know people with OCD are still frightened of it. I was really frightened of it back then because there weren't very many treatments for it. And so I would spend all day long thinking about how I had given myself a fatal disease and how I was going to die. And then I started acting as though I had a fatal disease that there weren't good treatments for and I was going to get it and die. So I would go into situations and put on a happy face and smile, but in my head, I was thinking, "Oh, this is the last time I'm going to be doing this. Oh, this is so sad. Just wait until people find out what is really going on with me." So I would focus in those situations on how awful this was and how depressed I was and how this was going to be the last time I was going to do it. So, I was actually acting as though what OCD was telling me, which is that I'd given myself fatal disease, was true. And the depression that came from that became the compulsion because I took that emotion and I acted on that emotion. So I started acting depressed, making depressed choices, living in a depressed lifestyle, having a depressed attitude as I went out into the world because I had given in completely to what OCD was saying. When I realized that, again, this was after I'd written the story, after it had been published, and I started seeing this in my clients. I started recognizing I still did some of this. I'm like, "Wait a minute, it's the depression itself, which was really propping all this up." It's really a very subtle form of compulsion that if you don't recognize it can sabotage your ERP work. Kimberley: Yeah. I would admit as a young intern of treating OCD, I think if I saw this, I would have stopped ERP and focused on depression and really worked on that, which is not a bad solution, but without really recognizing it under the lens of OCD, right? So, I would have seen it as separate. I love it. Let me explain how I've seen it a lot. Once I've shown them your article, patients and clients have said, "I recognize in the moment that I'm having uncertainty. I try doing a compulsion to make the uncertainty go away and that doesn'

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 194. In today's episode, I had the most amazing conversation with Hayden Dawes. Now, Hayden Dawes is a therapist, a PhD student. He is what he calls an "aspiring compassion warrior" – we talk about in the interview what that means. Hayden is just doing some really cool work. As I share, and we go into detail in this episode, he's really brought out some stuff for me as I've watched him and learned from him. It's been incredible to see this journey that it's put me on. So, I cannot wait to share this episode with you. We're talking about radical permission, writing compassion slips for ourselves. We're talking about being petty. It'll make sense when we get there. It's just such a beautiful conversation. So I'm so happy to share this with you. If you haven't already, please do go and leave a review. The reviews help us reach more people and gain the trust of more people. So, go ahead and leave a review wherever you listen, and let's get onto the show. Twitter and IG : @hcdawes Website: hcdawes.com FB Group https://www.facebook.com NEWSLETTER: https://www.hcdawes.com/newsletter ----- Kimberley: Okay, welcome. I'm actually so excited to have this conversation. This was a really, really great one to me because I have with me Hayden Dawes. He is an aspiring compassion warrior – which I can't wait to hear more about what that means – a PhD student. He is a social worker and has been practicing for many years. So, thank you so much for coming on, Hayden. Hayden: I am so excited to be here, no one else can see us, but to see your smile, just to see a little of me. That just makes me even feel more welcome and more excited to be here. So, thank you. Kimberley: Yeah. I'm really excited. So, let me fan go on you for a second. For those who don't know, and you'll hear all of Hayden's work, Hayden has these really cool Instagram profile. I love the work you're doing with compassion, but we're also going to share a couple of other things that I love about your work. We'll talk about that here very soon, but tell me about the work you're doing around like an aspiring compassion warrior. Tell me what that means and how you are putting that out into the world. Hayden: Yeah. So, one of the things, I was raised in the Catholic church and Roman Catholic, and I've looked for different faith traditions, things that felt close to me and really fit my experience. So, stumbling upon Buddhism and more contemplative practices like Quakerism and Buddhism, and finding the idea of a Bodhisattva, someone that is willing to just do the tough work of delving deeply into what it means to be human, the suffering piece to it, and learning from that experience and then trying to help others along the way as we're all on this human journey. So, I said, "Bodhisattva is a mouthful. Why don't I call myself a compassion warrior?" And part of that is delving deeply into my own stuff, my own pains, and challenges so that I can learn more about myself and be compassionate with that and I can be compassionate with other people. Kimberley: Yeah, respiring. I actually think you're a warrior. I don't think you're aspiring. You could drop the aspiring. Hayden: It's interesting. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. It's like, I think part of the journey is like, "Am I really aligned with that completely? What does the aspiring mean?" Sometimes taking it out of like, "Let me hold closer to this idea that this is what I am." So, I think that's influx too, but I appreciate that. Kimberley: Yeah, of course. Okay. So, we talk a lot about compassion here on the show, but I love those little twists that you bring into it. So, I'd love if you could share, you're often talking about the permission slip. Can you share it with everyone, for those who don't know what that means? Can you kind of give me a little rundown of what that is? Hayden: Yeah. So, back in 2018, I had a friend of mine share on Instagram, a haiku a day for 100 days. I thought, "I'm not counting out all of those syllables." But what I can do is following up on the work of Brené Brown. I was like, "I can write a permission slip to myself a day." I can slow down and center myself and think, "If I think about the whole day that I'm going to have, what is it that I most need? What is the thing that I might need to give to myself?" I also know from my clinical practice, and I'm sure you can relate to this, people will come in and they'll say, "I'm thinking about doing this," or "I'm thinking about doing that," and like, "Sweetie, let's slow down. You probably know exactly what you need to do." "What do I do?" I'm like, "Yeah, you're looking for me to give you permission to do that." So, I thought, "Well, what if we can just skip through that step?" What would it be like for me to start a practice that I was like, "I'm going to offer myself this permission to do whatever that I might need in the world for myself." Kimberley: Why do you think people need permission from

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 193. Hello, my loves, how are you? So, recently, I've been having lots of conversations with my patients and my clients around one really helpful metaphor around managing mental compulsions. Now, before we go into this, let me just do a quick overview. We have obsessions, which show up in the form of intrusive thoughts, intrusive feelings, like anxiety and uncertainty and doubt and guilt and disgust. There's intrusive thoughts, there's intrusive feelings, there's intrusive sensations, which is whatever physical sensations you experience that are intrusive and repetitive, and then intrusive urges. Urges like this urge – you feel like you're going out of control and you're about to hurt someone or you're about to harm someone or do something that is ineffective or not helpful in your life. We have these intrusive thoughts, feelings, sensations, and urges, and sometimes images as well. It might be a quick flash image of something scary. In effort to either solve that or remove that or lessen the discomfort of that, we engage in a compulsion. Now, the compulsion could be physical, like washing your hands or moving an object or so forth, checking something, or it can be mental. I'm really specifically, in this episode, talking about mental compulsions – the mental compulsion of trying to solve and ruminate on an obsession. A lot of you have said that mental compulsions are one of the most difficult to reduce or prevent or stop, and I think that's very, very, very common. When I'm talking with my patients about this, usually, they report that once they have the obsession, because we know that – let's sort of just preface – trying to prevent the thought or suppress the thought won't work. You're going to have these thoughts. Thoughts suppression usually makes you have the thought even more. We're not talking about thoughts suppression here, but what we are talking about is, once you identify that you've had the thought, how much attention do you give it and how much leash do you give it? This is the metaphor I want you to think of. When you've had this intrusive thought, think of the thought like a really baby puppy, like a really active bouncy baby puppy, and you've got the baby puppy on a leash. You're taking the puppy for a walk. Now often I'll ask my patients, "When you take your puppy for a walk, particularly if you live in a suburban or city area, which I do, do you give the puppy a long leash or do you give it a short leash? As you're walking down the sidewalk, are you letting the puppy walk down the middle of the road with a long leash, and then it jumps over the sidewalk into the garden, it pees on the garden and then wraps its leash around your legs, and then it takes you off into some at the park that you don't want to go into? Does it walk down a street that you don't want to walk down? Or do you keep the leash shorter? And what you're doing there is you're pulling it back. You're not allowing it to go into areas that you don't want it to go." Now, that's what I want you to think of in regards to mental compulsions. Once you know that you've had an intrusive thought, your job is to keep that thought on a short leash, meaning you don't explore the whole neighborhood and what it means and what it could happen, and this could happen, and that could happen, and let's go down the rabbit hole of trying to figure this out. Instead, you want to keep it on a shorter leash. Again, in this case, you're being really skilled in what road you're letting yourself go down or what rabbit hole you're letting yourself go down. The whole idea here is, keep your intrusive thoughts on a short leash. You still have the dog. You're not trying to get rid of the dog. You're not cutting the leash short and going, "Runaway, I don't want you." You're saying, "I have this thought. It's going to be here. I'm going to be very intentional on where I allow this thought to go. I'm going to be very intentional on how much I let this thought be the focus of the walk I'm taking." As you're walking your dog, you're not only looking at your dog. You're also looking at the path that you're walking on so you don't trip. You're looking at the nature around you. You're waving to the neighbor or however. You're engaging with the outside world. You're not just gripping and holding the leash and fighting it. This is important for you as you manage your mental compulsion. I'm going to say to you, this may be the most important skill you'll learn. The skill of managing mental compulsion is so important if you have generalized anxiety, OCD, social anxiety, health anxiety, depression. It's so important that we are skilled at setting boundaries with our mental compulsions or our rumination and our worry. All of these things are the same. Worry is just a form of mental compulsion. What we want to do is, if you notice that you're going way down the wrong street and you're going in the direction of doing mental compul

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 192. Welcome back, everybody. I am really excited to do this episode with you. It's a little bit different to episodes I've done in the past, which might be why I'm really excited about it, but it is a skill I have been practicing for several months. No, maybe more than that. I would actually say closer to six months to a year, and I was reflecting on, what are the things that... I took a lot about mindfulness skills and a lot about therapy skills and cognitive behavioral therapy skills, but is there something I haven't really talked about in terms of just lifestyle? And I thought this, of all the topics, is probably one of the things that helps me manage my anxiety and depression the most, literally the most. In fact, I would go as far as to say it has been probably one of the most important things that has helped me recover in my recovery, and I'm really excited to share it with you. Today, we're talking about how activity scheduling and managing your schedule can be a really important anxiety management tool. Before you completely sign off and say, "Oh my gosh, this is not for me," please just hear me out because there is so much greatness to being really intentional about your schedule and scheduling. A couple of reasons I say that is because, number one, if you are somebody who has a job or goes to school or has a mental illness, and that's really, really debilitating and taking up a lot of your time, or you have children or all of the above, it's really easy for the day to just come and go. And before you know it, you haven't gotten done what you wanted to get done. You're feeling more and more anxious about tomorrow. You're feeling more and more depressed about yourself and what you've got to do. You're feeling bombed out because you didn't get to prioritize your time. And that was exactly me. Every time I opened my eyes in the morning, I had this sensation of dread because I just was like, "Oh my gosh, today's going to be another huge day. I'm going to run all day. I'm in a rush all day," or "I'm going to feel anxiety all day." Let me tell you a couple of skills that I teach all of my clients because, as I've said before, this is something that they talked to me about, at least once in their treatment, is how to manage their time. Okay. I have learned and I have practiced this, like I said, for almost a year now – the art of scheduling in a way that is in the intention of benefiting my mental health. I don't schedule because I want to be super time efficient. I don't schedule because I want to get a ton done. I schedule for my mental health, literally. Forgive me, if you can hear beeping car alarm, it's been going all day. So I'm sorry if you hear that in the background. I literally schedule for my mental health. And what I have learned, I took a whole course on this, is one of the biggest mistakes we make with scheduling is we schedule what we have to do first, and that basically means we're prioritizing work and school and to-do's, instead of scheduling pleasure first. So that is what I want you to practice first. That already might be mind-blowing to you. You might be like, "Wait, what? Like pleasure? That's important?" Yes. Schedule your pleasure time first. Look at your schedule, even write it on a piece of scrap paper. What do you love to do? Make sure you schedule that something. Even if it's for 10 minutes, you schedule it every single day. Once you've done that, then you schedule what you need to do for your recovery. It may be different for every person. Some of you may need to schedule exposures, and again, be very intentional. Let's say you have a driving exposure. You have to go driving for your exposure and practice having intrusive thoughts, or you have to practice going and doing a certain thing that concerns you or scares you. You're going to schedule that time first. If you're not someone who's doing exposures, maybe you have to schedule time to correct your thinking or schedule your time to meditate. Schedule your time to read your mindfulness book. I have almost all of my patients read some kind of book that will complement their treatment all the time, meaning throughout treatment. Once they finish one book, I send them a book to read after that, and I tell them, "You don't need to read all day every day." I might ask you to read a page a day or a chapter a week, or whatever works for you, but schedule that in because really literally, I'll give you an example. I have a private practice and an online business, two complete businesses. I'm managing up to 15 to 20 people a week. If I worked at scheduling my to-do list first, I would never take care of myself. Never. I would only work for other people. I would only be doing a million to-do's. I would never get any exercise. I would never meditate. I would never have any time because I would have just clogged up my schedule with that. Reverse it. First, schedule your pleasure and then schedule

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 191. Well, welcome friends. How are you? How are you doing really? I want you to reflect for a second on just that... on just that question. How are you? I have not prepared for this episode. I just thought I would sit down and take some time to reflect some of, I'm sure, what I reflect on will be the first time I've reflected on it and not just that for reflecting with you. So what I wanted to talk with you guys about is life with a chronic illness or a disability. This is something that has shaken me a lot over the last, I would say two to three months. A lot of you have the background story with me, but if you're new here, welcome, and I'll tell you a quick background. In 2019, I got very sick. Through that process, I also got very... not just medically, but mentally struggled because of the symptoms that were incredibly debilitating. After pretty much every single medical test under the sun, I was diagnosed with a lesion in my brain, that they still don't know what it is, and a disorder called postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome. It sounds scary and it can be scary, but mostly, it's a disorder to do with your autonomic nervous system and it basically involves lightheadedness and fainting and headaches and overall exhaustion and nausea and very, very big degree of brain fog. It can be mild and it can be very severe and extreme to the point where you can't stand up. For months and months and months, particularly throughout COVID, I have been doing my very best to manage this disorder and this syndrome and have been doing really, really well. I'm not going to lie, I thought I'd mastered this disorder. I really did. I think there was a cocky piece of me that was like, "Oh yeah, look at me." Once again, hard work pays off. And yes, it does. Hard work does pay off. But recently, I have been hit with another... I call it an event, another wave of POTS – POTS is the acronym for postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome – and it has knocked me off my feet literally. Not figuratively. I think both. For those of you who don't know, I was, two weeks ago, taking a tennis lesson, a part of my attempts to take care of myself as I have cut back immensely with work. I've mentioned my kids are gone back to school and my husband's gone back to work. And so I really decided, I made a conscious decision to put my mental health first. I had started taking tennis lessons, and in the middle of my tennis lesson, it was very hot. I collapsed and had to go to the hospital. I'm sorry if this is scary for some of you. It had to be monitored and got IV bags and medications and all the things. Again, once again, I really thought this was a short-term thing. What I am reflecting on today is the realization that I'm not going to manage this. I'm not going to master it. This is something I will probably have to handle for the rest of my life. I was expecting to bounce back and I didn't. I've had many days of not being able to stand. I'm not able to drive. I can drive on certain days, depending on how busy I am, but I have mostly not been able to drive. I am unable to work out. I wear these most fabulous compression socks right now, the compression socks I'm wearing. I have bright colors in stripes. I have ones with spots and reindeers and all of the things. So, that's very fun. But no matter how much I hydrate, I'm struggling to eat and so forth. The reason I wanted to share this isn't just to... of course, I can share. I want to share with you. But the main reason I wanted to share with you is to talk about what it's like to wrap your head around long-term suffering. I'm really interested in this because I've been really mindful and watching my thoughts about this syndrome. I wonder if this resonates with you guys because a lot of you are dealing with either. A lot of you have reached out and said you have a chronic illness too, or chronic mental illness, anxiety, depression, or any of the disorders. What has been really interesting for me is to catch the thoughts I have around disability. now, the first thing – and I'm really open about this, and I'm really happy to share how far I have to go – is I didn't realize I had all this stigma around the word "disability." I have a career in people with disabilities or struggles or long-term chronic stuff. I wouldn't judge anybody else, but interestingly, as soon as I had to recognize, I kept saying, "I don't know why this happened. I don't know why this happened. Why did this happen? This shouldn't have happened." My doctors said, "No, you're going to have really big ups and really big downs. That's going to happen. That is a part of this disability." I really was able to observe how judgmental I was about that in myself. The word "disability" was not okay with me, the word "long-term chronic illness." I was like, "Uh-uh, no way, I will solve this," until I had to be like, "Wait, that's a lot of energy, negative energy on something that does not s

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 190. Welcome back, everybody. Hello, Happy Friday, for those of you who are listening on the release day, and happy day to you who are not. Okay. Well, how are you? How is everybody doing? I am sitting in my bedroom. We've actually had to completely rearrange because our life is changing so much here at the Quinland house. Kids are at school and people are in and out of the house, and it's very, very different. So I'm coming to you from my room, and life just continues to change. Have you guys noticed that? It does continue to change. I cannot keep up with it. We embrace. We adapt. We are flexible. We keep trying. We are gentle with ourselves, and that's the best we can do. Today, I wanted to talk with you guys about questions. I have been sort of... What I would say is 'reflecting,' but I would actually say, a better word is 'studying' the art of asking better questions, and this has been life-changing to me. It has been a practice that I have adopted as per advice of a colleague and a friend in terms of catching the story you tell yourself and asking better questions. Catching the poorly written questions that we now ask ourselves on habit, right? We just habitually ask ourselves not very skilled questions. Let me explain to you more about this. When something happens – and you can even do it here together – when something happens in your life, let's say in the last week or so, something unexpected, unwanted, maybe not so ideal happens, I want you to check in and say, "What is the question I ask?" Some of you may say, it's a really simple what-if thought question. Like, what if such and such happens? What if ABC happens? What if XYZ happens? Not a super-skilled question mainly because it's so open-ended and it's so in the pursuit of removal of that discomfort. We've talked a lot about being uncertain. We've talked a lot about willingly allowing discomfort. Other questions that I have observed my patients asking themselves or reflecting on lately are questions like: What is wrong with me? So they have an uncomfortable, unexpected, not-so-great experience, and their immediate question is: "What's wrong with me?" And that question never ends. Well, rarely would you have the thought "what's wrong with me," and then you respond by going, "Nothing is wrong with me, I am a normal human being responding in the way that any other human being would respond." We don't answer those questions. The question sets us up for a failure, just like what-if. Another one is: "How can I make this go away?" Now, in some cases, this would actually be a really adaptive question. So, let's say you have an ant invasion in your house. It makes sense. Because we're highly functioning human beings and we have adapted over time, it makes sense that our question would be: "How can I make this go away?" That in and of itself could be a good question, a solid, skilled question. But when it comes to our emotions, it's really not. It actually gets us into tons of trouble. Asking ourselves how we can make this go away usually means we're going to probably have more of it and we're going into resistance mode. Another one, which I see a lot of, and I've actually done a whole podcast on this one before, which is: "Why is this happening to me? It's such an innocent question, but yet it gets us into so much trouble because the answer isn't that great. Why is this happening to me? Nobody knows. It's not the answer we are looking for. Or the answer you probably catch giving yourself is, it's because there's something wrong with you. Go back to the first question because you did it wrong or because you shouldn't have, or because you're bad, or because you're weak, or because... The list goes on and on and on. It's rare that you'll go, "Why is this uncomfortable thing happening? Oh, because uncomfortable things happen sometimes." Again, none of these are bad questions. They're just not super effective. Another one, and this is the last one I'll use as an example, is: "What does this mean?" Oh, that's a really bad one. It can get us into so much trouble. "What does this mean?" And before you know it, you're 20 minutes in going around and around, trying to give meaning to something, which probably has no meaning at all. The reason I really want you to first reflect on what questions are you asking yourself is you'll probably find that the questions you're asking yourself are setting you up for self-criticism, self-doubt, punishment, a lot of negativity, maybe for some really unhelpful emotions, and we want to get better at asking better questions. We want to be skilled at asking skilled questions. The questions we ask ourselves can then move us to and into an action that helps us and is beneficial and effective and kind and less work. Less work is good. We don't want questions that, again, can give you more work. Go back to "How can I make this go away?" Oh my goodness. That's a lot of work. Okay. Let me give you s