Your Anxiety Toolkit - Practical Skills for Anxiety, Panic & Depression

Kimberley: My tummy already hurts from laughing too much. I'm so excited to have you guys on. Today, we are talking about thriving in relationships with OCD and we have Rev. Katie O'Dunne and Ethan Smith. I'd love for you both to do a quick intro. Katie, will you go first? Katie: Yeah, absolutely. My name is Reverend Katie O'Dunne. I always like to tell folks that I always have Reverend in my title because I want individuals to know that ordained ministers and chaplains can in fact have OCD. But I am super informal and really just go by Katie. I am an individual who works at the intersection between faith and OCD, helping folks navigate what's religious scrupulosity versus what is true authentic faith. I'm also an OCD advocate on my own journey, helping individuals try to figure out what it looks like for them to move towards their values when things are really, really tough. Outside of being a chaplain and faith in OCD specialist and advocate, I'm also an ultramarathon runner, tackling 50 ultramarathons in 50 states for OCD. As we get into stuff with Ethan today, Ethan is my biggest cheerleader throughout all of those races. I'm sure we'll talk all about that too, running towards our values together. Ethan: My name is Ethan Smith. Katie is my fiancé. I'm a national advocate for the International OCD Foundation, a filmmaker by trade, and a staunch advocate of all things OCD-related disorders. Definitely, my most important role is loving Katie and being her biggest cheerleader. Katie: Since you said that, one of my things too, I am the fiancé of Ethan Smith. Sorry. Ethan: Please note that this is an afterthought. It's totally fine. Kimberley: No, she knew you were coming in with it. She knew. Ethan: Yeah, I was coming in hot. Yup, all good. WHAT IS IT LIKE BEING IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH SOMEONE WITH OCD? Kimberley: Thank you both for being on. I think that you are going to offer an opportunity for people to, number one, thriving in Relationships with OCD, but you may also bring some insight on how we can help educate our partners even if they don't have OCD and how they may be able to manage and navigate having a partner with OCD. I'm so excited to have you guys here. Thank you for being on. Can you first share, is it easier or harder to be in a relationship with someone with OCD? For you having OCD? Ethan: I'll let Katie start and then I'll end. Katie: Yes. No, I think it's both. I think there are pros and cons where I think for so long being in relationships with individuals who didn't have OCD, I desperately wanted someone to understand the things that I was going through, the things that I was experiencing, the intensity of my intrusive thoughts. I was in so many relationships where individuals felt like, well, you can just stop thinking about this, or you can just stop engaging in compulsions. That's not how it works. It has been so helpful to have a partner through my journey who understands what I'm going through that can really say, "I actually get it and I'm here with you in the midst of that." But I always like to be honest that that can also be really, really challenging where there are sometimes points, at least for me, having OCD with a partner with OCD, where if we are having a tough point at the same time, that can be really tough. It can also be really tough on a different level when I see Ethan struggling, not reassuring him even more so because I know how painful it is and I want so badly to take that away. There are times that that can feed into my own journey with OCD when I see him struggling, that my OCD latches onto his content, vice versa. There's this amazing supportive aspect, but then there's also this piece I think that we have to really be mindful of OCD feeding off of each other. Ethan: I was just making notes as you were-- no, go ahead. Kimberley: No, go ahead, Ethan. I'm curious to know your thoughts. Ethan: Katie made all great points, and I agree. I mean, on the surface, it makes a lot of sense and it seems like it's fantastic that we both can understand each other and support each other in really meaningful and value-driven ways. I always like to say that we met because of OCD, but it by no means defines our relationship or is at the heart of our relationship. It's not why we work. It's not what holds us together. I think Katie brings up two good points. First of all, when I would speak and advocate with parents and significant others and things like that, and they would say, "I'm having a really hard time not reassuring and not enabling," I'd be like, "Just don't, you're making them sicker. Just say what you got to say and be tough about it." Then I got in a serious relationship with Katie and she was suffering and hurting, and I was like, "Oh my God, I can't say hard things to her." I became that person. I suddenly understood how hard it is to not engage OCD and to say things that aren't going to make her comfortable. I struggle with that. I struggle with standing my ground

Welcome back, everybody. Alright, alright, alright. You may already notice the sound of my voice has shifted, the tone has shifted, and that is on purpose. Actually, I've never thought of this, but it's true. I often show up when I'm ready to do a podcast. I sit in front of my microphone, I'm in front of my desk, I take a deep breath and I just talk to you from a place of centeredness and calm, gathering as much wisdom as I can. That is a part of what I'm bringing today. But my other hope is I want to shift the tone a little bit because that's what you have to do when you're addressing this particular topic, which is motivation during depression. We're talking about how to get things done during depression. That's what we're here for today. Thank you for being here. My name is Kimberley Quinlan. I'm a marriage and family therapist. I'm an OCD and anxiety specialist, and a lot of what I do is manage depression. That is because nearly 85% of cases of an anxiety disorder also have depression. That's because anxiety is hard and it creates these feelings of depression inside us. Today, I wanted to talk about how to cultivate motivation during depression because so often when we're talking about either just managing depression or managing another mental health condition, you're usually required to do a lot of homework, use a lot of skills, and also go about daily functioning. That is really hard when you're experiencing depression. DEPRESSION MOTIVATION CYCLE One thing I wanted to talk about first is just to get you guys familiar with what we call the depression motivation cycle. This is something that I talk to my clients about. I wouldn't say it's a science-based theory, but definitely, I think a lot of us will resonate with this. What I mean by the depression motivation cycle is when you have depression, you experience symptoms of depression, which I'll share here in just a few minutes. But you experience these symptoms that cause you to then have lower motivation. But when you have lower motivation, you tend to not get to your daily functioning activities and you tend to maybe avoid some of the hard things in your life, which then causes more depression. And then once you have more depression, that often ends up leading you back into the cycle of having even less motivation because you're feeling so hopeless, and the cycle continues and continues and widens and widens and spreads throughout your life. My hope today is that we can work towards breaking that cycle. I'm not going to overpromise that we will break it today because I'm always going to be as honest and realistic as I can with you guys. I don't want to oversell that this is going to be a simple snap of the fingers, I have the solution for you. No, there's a slow, gradual breaking of this cycle. Number one, do I believe you can do this work? Absolutely. I want to heavy-load you with confidence at the front end, but also very much validating that it's a process, it's a practice. I want you to be as gentle with yourself as you can as we talk about this today. Let's take a breath, but let's also stay in our mindset. COMMON DEPRESSION SYMPTOMS & HOW TO GET MOTIVATED In understanding motivation during depression, we must consider, like I just said, common depression symptoms. We must understand them. One of the common depressive symptoms is hopelessness. Hopelessness is feeling like there is no hope for you. You might be having a lot of depressive thoughts such as, "What's the point? There's no hope. It's not getting better." These are symptoms of hopelessness. In addition to hopelessness, or maybe instead of hopelessness, if you have depression, you may experience the depression symptom of helplessness. Helplessness is where you feel like no one can help you. That your problem is different or separate to other people's or too big than everybody else's, and that there's no one out there that can help you. That's important to notice because one of the lies depression tells us is you are the only one that has this particular type of depression and you are the only one that can't be helped, and that that means something about you. There's some innate flaw about you that makes your life hopeless. It's all lies. I just want you to know that. Another common depression symptom is worthlessness—feeling like you're not enough, you're not worthy. You don't deserve to be here, to be loved, to be in connection with. Maybe you feel like you don't deserve kind, wonderful, loving things or even pleasure. Worthlessness isn't a very common piece of depression. As you can imagine, just hearing these words that I'm saying, it's a horrible feeling. It's a very deep, dark, gray place to be, and it's not your fault. Another common depression symptom is sleepless nights. You're unable to sleep or oversleeping, sleeping day and night, hitting the alarm over and over again, turning it off, going back to bed, not getting to your daily functioning. Another huge one is exhaustion. P

Welcome back, everybody. Today we are talking about a topic that I commonly get asked as a clinician, I commonly get asked as an advocate for anxiety online and so forth, which is how to let go of intrusive thoughts. I think that this is such an interesting question because words matter. For those of you who know me, you're going to know that words really do matter when it comes to managing anxiety and we have to get it "right." When I say "right," what I'm really saying is our mindset about anxiety and intrusive thoughts and any emotion really that is uncomfortable, we have to approach it with a degree of skill, effectiveness, and wisdom. My hope is to help you move in that direction. I know you're already in that direction, but hopefully, this episode will be really powerful. I'm going to give you a metaphor that I hope really, really helps you. It really helps me. I've talked about it on the podcast before, but I feel like it's important so I have to talk about it again. When we talk about this idea of how to let go of intrusive thoughts, we have to ask, what do we mean by that? Often when people first start seeing me as a clinician or they start seeing my therapist—we have a private practice in Calabasas, California—we commonly will get, "Okay, just I'm here. I'm ready to do the work. Teach me how to let go of intrusive thoughts." A lot of the beginning stages of treatment is educating on how letting go, meaning not having them anymore or quickly avoiding them or distracting against that, could actually be what's making your anxiety worse. For those of you who've taken ERP School, which is our online course for OCD. If you're interested, you can go to CBTSchool.com to learn more about that course. That's where you can learn how to manage your own OCD. It's an on-demand course. But we talk a lot about understanding that trying to push thoughts away or suppress thoughts, not having them actually reinforces the problem. I also want to mention, it makes total sense that your goal is to be able to have the thoughts and have no discomfort related. Like I just want to have the thoughts and I don't want them to bother me, and I just want them to create no suffering at all. I get that. That is a very normal desire to have. But what we want to do here is, when we're talking about how to "let go" of intrusive thoughts, what we are really talking about is how we can be skillful in how we respond to them, because we know, based on science, that we can't control our intrusive thoughts. Often there are mechanisms in the brain that's making it very difficult for you to pump the brakes on thoughts, which is why you're struggling with so many of them, and they're happening so repetitively. We know this. When I first learned about mindfulness, one of the most important metaphors that just shook me to the core—it really changed the way that I learned to deal with thoughts, feelings, sensations, emotions, urges, and all the things—was to think of my thoughts like water in a stream, and that my mind is this stream of water. As you're thinking like these beautiful green banks, and there's the river in the stream, and it's flowing in one direction. What happens for us when we're experiencing our mind is we hit a rock in the stream. When we hit that rock, we want to imagine that that rock is a metaphor for an intrusive thought. Here you are, you're the water. You're just rolling over all of the banks and commandeering back and forth, and then all of a sudden you hit this very sharp, jagged rock. Of course, your reaction is to get jolted and go, "Oh my goodness, what is this? Why is this here? I'm just trying to get from A to B." Often what we do is when we hit the rock, we make a huge splash. The splash goes everywhere. We're like, "Wait, what happened?" When we do this, we actually create a lot of pandemonium for ourselves. Now, that's what we do. But if we were to think about a stream, what does the stream water normally do when it hits a rock? It hits the rock, it notices the shape of the rock, and then it gently goes around them. It doesn't stop to go, "Is this a good rock or a bad rock? How do I feel about this rock? What does this rock mean about me? Why is there a rock here? There shouldn't be a rock here." The water just notices the rock, observes that the rock's here. It doesn't make a huge splash. It doesn't try to go under it. It doesn't try to stay on the left side of the bank and avoid it. It just notices the rock and it goes around it and it moves on. Mindfulness is just that. Mindfulness is observing what shows up from a place of non-judgment, from a place of non-attachment. What I mean by that is that the water's not attached to what this rock means about them. It doesn't assign value to the rock. It doesn't say the river is bad now because we have a jagged rock, or it doesn't say the river is good because it's a small rock. It just says "rock" and it goes around it. Mindfulness is also very present. It notices

TALKING BACK TO ANXIETY Welcome back, everybody. Today we're talking about talking back to anxiety, and we're really talking about the power of positive self-talk. Now I know when it comes to this idea of talking back to anxiety, it can get somewhat controversial. In fact, even talking about this idea of positive self-talk can be controversial, and I will be the first to say there is nothing worse than when you're struggling with something that's really painful. People say, "Oh, just be positive." That is not what we're talking about here today. In fact, I have a personal twist on how I like to consider a positive self-talk. You probably have heard me talk about it before, but I felt like it was time for me to revisit these concepts that I find so incredibly powerful when it comes to talking back to anxiety, or being positive, staying positive, engaging in some form of positive self-talk. WHAT DOES TALKING BACK TO ANXIETY LOOK LIKE? Let's talk about it. When we consider what we mean, when we say "talking back to anxiety," what do I really mean by that? First of all, I want to get to one of the controversies. What I'm not saying is that when you have anxiety, you tell it to go away or stop, because we know that when we do that, when we try and suppress anxiety or we try to suppress our intrusive thoughts, it usually means we have more of them. Let's just get that scientific fact out in the eye. We know that is true. But when we are talking about talking back to anxiety, when I'm talking about it, what I mean is, when you experience anxiety, whether that be in the form of sensations or in thoughts or feelings or images, how do you respond? How do you converse with your anxiety? I always make a metaphor with my clients, and I've done it here on the podcast before, that I always think of anxiety as this little short Lorax-looking guy that sits on my shoulder. For you, it might look different. But he sits on my shoulder and he's in a beach chair and he is really lazy and he is wearing sunglasses, and he just wants to mess with me as much as he can, but in the most effective, lazy way. And how does he do that? He does it by knowing exactly what bothers me and throwing that at me first. He's not going to throw some random thing at me. He's going to go straight for the thing that he knows I value, because that's where my anxiety is going to show up the most. And then when he shows up, it's up to me then to be skilled in how I respond. One of the ways we respond is how we talk back to it. The first thing I'm going to ask you is, when your anxiety tells you of the thing that you value, talks to you about the thing that scares you, that hits you right in the gut, how do you respond? Do you yell at him and say, "Get off my lawn, you horrible thing." None of this is bad, I just want you to get to know. How do you respond? You say, "No, no, no, please go away. I don't want you. I'll do whatever you say. I'll do whatever compulsion you tell me to do. I'll avoid whatever you tell me to avoid if you just quiet down." Some of this, instead of doing that, instead of yelling at anxiety, we yell at ourselves. We say, "What is wrong with you? Why are you always anxious? You're a loser. You're bad. What's wrong with you? Something is seriously broken about you. Why have you got to have anxiety all the time?" You engage in a ton of self-criticism and self-punishment. The ones I just gave you are some negative self-talk examples like, "What's wrong with you? You're a loser. You're such an idiot for having this anxiety. You're stupid." I want to remind you that you're not. This is not about your intelligence; it's not about who you are, what you are. Your anxiety has nothing to do with any of that. Some of us are just genetically prone to having more anxiety. But we use this negative self-talk. We use this criticism, this self-judgment to try and beat out the anxiety, as if we could beat it out of ourselves. But the facts are, this negative self-talk doesn't motivate us to change because we were never in control at the start. We can't control our anxiety and whether it shows up, so that doesn't work. What we do know that does work is positive self-talk. It is one of the most successful ways of motivating ourselves. When anxiety does show up, I want you to explore how you might respond differently to whatever discomfort or whatever form of suffering you're experiencing. It doesn't even have to be anxiety. It might be pain, it might be stress, it might be sadness, any emotion. We can actually use these skills with any of these emotions. WHAT POSITIVE SELF-TALK IS NOT Let's talk about what I mean by this. What does positive self-talk look like in my definition, not what you may have seen online. Number one, in my definition, positive self-talk—let's talk about what it actually isn't—it's not just positive affirmations. While that's great, and if that works for you, by all means, keep it. But for me, it never ever lands. I could say the

Welcome back, everybody. Today we're talking about sleep anxiety relief. We're talking about how to get a good night's rest. Oh, the beauty of a good night's sleep. I can't even tell you and I can't even explain for me personally how much sleep impacts my mental health and my mental health impacts my sleep. Hence why we're doing this episode today. For those of you who are new, my name is Kimberley Quinlan. I'm a marriage and family therapist in the State of California. I have a private practice. I am the developer of an online program called CBTSchool.com. I'm an author and I am the host of this podcast. A few weeks ago, a psychiatrist reached out and said, "I have been listening to you for years, not realizing that I work literally down the street from you." It made me realize that I never introduced myself on the podcast. I just talk and talk and talk and I actually don't tell people where I am and what I do and what I offer. So that was a really big lesson. Let's talk about sleep anxiety relief. I'm going to tell you a bit of a story first. For years, my daughter has been telling us that she can't sleep, that she has terrible sleep. She lays awake, staring at the roof. She said she always feels tired during the day and that she "can't get to sleep" when she tries. We have taken her to the pediatrician and we've talked to her about it and checked in, "Are you worrying about anything in particular?" She says, "No, I just worry about getting enough sleep." Again, she's saying, "When will I go back to sleep? Will I go back to sleep? Will I wake up at night?" She says she struggles to get comfortable as she settles into bed. We took the plunge and took her to a sleep specialist and we were expecting either a sleep disorder diagnosis or a sleep anxiety diagnosis. He did this thorough assessment and asked her all these questions and he was incredible. At the end, he said, "I'm going to tell you, it sounds like you're getting good sleep. You sound like you sleep very normally for a kid your age and we address some issues that may be happening." But he said, "A lot of this is about managing anxiety about sleep," because he tracked like, "You're getting enough. We will track it during the night. Everything looked good. This is actually about you managing your mind around sleep." Now I understand that may not be your experience, but this blew me off my feet. I was expecting serious bad news. I have this conversation with my patients so often and it made me feel like, let's talk about sleep anxiety relief. SLEEP ANXIETY SYMPTOMS Now, before we talk about sleep anxiety relief, let's talk about sleep anxiety symptoms because some people who don't experience this or aren't sure if they're experiencing this, I wanted to make sure you feel like you're in the right place. For those who have sleep anxiety, they experience a lot of anxiety around going to bed or when going to bed. They may report racing thoughts in bed, inability to concentrate when they're preparing to go to sleep or they're laying in bed. They might experience a lot of irritability, whether that's emotional or physical sensations in the body. A lot of jitteriness. There may be also an experience of nervousness or restlessness. They may have feelings of being overwhelmed. Some people report this impending danger or doom as they approach the bed or as they approach bedtime. They may experience a lot of anticipatory anxiety about it. There are also some physical sensations or effects of anxiety before bed and that might include some tummy troubles. Kids in particular will report before bed, "My tummy hurts," and often their tummy hurts is a sign of anxiety. This is true for adults too. They may have an increase in heart rate, which may make them feel like something bad is about to happen. They may have rapid breathing. They may experience sweating. They may experience tense muscles. They may experience trembling, even nausea. These are symptoms that could be your regular day-to-day anxiety, or it could be that you're specifically managing anxiety related to sleep. IS THERE A CURE FOR SLEEP ANXIETY? When talking about sleep anxiety relief, often people talk about this idea of a sleep anxiety cure. Now, I'm not going to give you any specific "cure" today because I don't know your exact case and you would need to be assessed by a doctor. I encourage you to go and see your doctor if you're struggling with sleep because it is so important. If you need, go and get a referral for a sleep specialist or do some research. There are some amazing books on sleep as well. Now, do I consider that we can overcome sleep anxiety? Yes, 100%. I do believe you can get to a place where you have healthy sleep. Again, I'm always very cautious about talking about the word "cure," but if we were to really address sleep anxiety relief in terms of what you need to practice, I'm going to first always do a ton of psychoeducation with my patients and with you today about sleep hygiene. W

Welcome back, everybody. Today we are talking about Acceptance Scripts with Dr Jon Grayson. So happy to be here with you as we tie together our series on imaginals and scripts. Today, we have the amazing Dr. Jon Grayson and he is going to talk about acceptance scripts and the real importance of making sure we use acceptance when we're talking about scripts and imaginals. I'm so excited to share this episode with you. I think it really does, again, tie together the two other guests that we've had on the show in this series. For those of you who are listening to this and haven't listened to the other two episodes of the series, go back two weeks. We've got the first one with Krista Reed and she's talking about scripts and the way she uses them. Then we have Shala Nicely and she talks about her own specific way of using scripts. Again, the reason that I didn't just have one person and leave it at that is I do think for each person, we have to find specific ways in which we do these skills and tools so we can make it specific to your obsessions and your intrusive thoughts. One explanation or one version or variety of this is probably not enough. I want to really deep dive in this series so that you feel, number one, you have a good understanding of what an imaginal and a script is. Number two, you know how to use them, you know the little nuanced pieces of information that you need to help make sure OCD and your OCD-related disorder doesn't make it a compulsion because it can. I really wanted to get some groundwork so that you feel confident using imaginal and scripts in your own treatment and your own recovery. Again, for those of you who are a little lost and feel like you need a better understanding of OCD, of how OCD works, how it keeps you stuck, the cycle of OCD and you want to make your own individual OCD and ERP plan, you can go to CBTSchool.com. We have a full seven-hour course that will walk you through exactly how I do it with my patients, and you can do that at your own pace. It's an on-demand course. It is not therapy, but it will help you if you don't have access to therapy or if you're really just wanting to understand and do a deep dive and understand what ERP is and how you can use it. That is there for you. But if you are someone who is just wanting to get to the good stuff, let's go over to the episode with Dr. Jon Grayson. Thank you, Dr. Jon Grayson, for coming on the show again. Always a pleasure to have such amazing people who really know their stuff. I'll enjoy this episode with you. Let's go. Kimberley: Welcome, Dr. Jon Grayson. I'm so happy to have you back. Jon: It is always fun to be with you. Kimberley: Okay. It's funny that you are number three, because I probably need you to be number one. Almost all of the scripting I ever learned was from your book. I think that even Shala Nicely came on and spoke about how a lot of what she does is through your book as well. Let's just talk about the way in which you walk people through an imaginal or a script. Now do you call it imaginal or script? Do you think they're synonymous? Do you have a different way of explaining it? Jon: I think jargon-wise, they're synonymous. I think by definition-- I feel weird saying that by definition because we made it up. I came up with the name "script" because originally, imaginal exposure suggested I'm just dealing with all the horrors and person's just going to think about it. I changed the name to "script" because I was including both. What are you being exposed to? What might happen and why would you take this risk? Because I feel like the script is not only to get used to the material, but we remind the person, why am I doing this? What am I getting out of taking this horrible risk? Why would I want to live with that? WHAT IS AN ACCEPTANCE SCRIPTS/IMAGINALS? Integral to the Acceptance Script is the whole idea of learning acceptance. Because too often, I think the biggest problem I see in most therapists is they just jump into doing exposure without making sure the person has done level 1 acceptance, which is "I want to live with uncertainty," because to say "I want to live with uncertainty" is to say, "I am willing to cope if the worst things happen." It's not just this general idea, it's like going to the extreme. "I'm willing to live, even if this happens. I'm willing to drive a car knowing that I might get paralyzed and disfigured in a car crash." I think that's acceptance because if you're telling me you're never going to crash in a car and you know that's true, I guess that's a nice comforting thought that you might be in for a shock. We're willing to take that risk. I think across the board, it's always willing to live with the worst possible. Scripts try to encapsulate that. They're trying to help bring the person not only to confront their fear but remind them of all the ways they want to cope with it. It is not a reassurance thing because let's face it, the worst thing happening, saying "I'll co

Today we are talking all about ERP Scripting with Shala Nicely. Welcome back, everybody. We are on Week 2 of the Imaginals and Script Series. This week, we have the amazing Shala Nicely on the show. She's been on before. She's one of my closest friends and I'm so honored to have her on. For those of you who are listening to this and haven't listened to any of the previous episodes, I do encourage you to go back to last week's episode because that is where we introduce the incredible Krista Reed and she talks about how to use scripts and imaginals. I give a more detailed intro to what we're here talking about if this is new for you. This will be a little bit of a steep learning curve if you're new to exposure and response prevention. Let me just quickly explain. I myself, I'm an ERP-trained therapist, I am an OCD Specialist, and a part of the treatment of OCD and OCD-related disorders involve exposing yourself to your fear and then practicing response prevention, which is reducing any of the safety behaviors or compulsions you do in effort to reduce or remove whatever discomfort or uncertainty that you feel. Now, often when we go to expose ourselves to certain things, we can't because they're not something we can face on a daily basis or they're often very creative things in our mind. This is where imaginals and scripts can come in and can be incredibly helpful. If you want a more detailed understanding of the steps that we take regarding ERP, you can go to CBTSchool.com, which is where we have all our online courses. There is a course called ERP School that will really do a lot of the back work in you really understanding today's session. You don't have to have taken the course to get the benefits of today's session because a lot of you I know already have had ERP or are in ERP as we speak, or your clinicians learning about ERP and I love that you're here. Honestly, it brings me so much joy. But that is there for you if you're completely lost on what's going on today, and that will help fill you in on the gold standard treatment for OCD and the evidence-based treatment for OCD and OCD-related disorders. That being said, let's get on with the good stuff. We have the amazing Shala Nicely. I am so honored again to have you on. You are going to love how applicable and useful her skills and tools are. Let's just get straight over to Shala. Kimberley: Welcome, Shala. I am so happy to have you back. I know we have a pretty direct agenda today to talk about imaginals versus scripting in your way in which you do it. I'd love to hear a little bit about, first, do you call it imaginals or do you call it scripting? Can you give me an example or a definition of what you consider them to be? SHALA'S STORY OF ERP SCRIPTING Shala: Sure. Well, thank you very much for having me on. Love to be here as always. I'll go back to how I learned about exposure when I first became a therapist. I learned about exposure being two different things. It was either in vivo exposure, so in life. Meaning, you go out and do the thing that your OCD is afraid of that you want to do, or it was imaginals where you imagine doing the thing that you want to do that your OCD is afraid to do. Research shows us that the in vivo is more effective, but sometimes imaginals is necessary because you can't go do the thing for whatever reason. But I don't think about it like that anymore. That's how I learned it, but it's not how I practice it. To help describe what I do, I'll take you back to when I had untreated OCD or when I was just learning how to do ERP for myself because I think that would help it make sense what I do. When I was doing ERP, I would obviously go out and do all the things that I wanted to do and my OCD didn't want me to do. What I found was that I could do those things, but my OCD was still in my head, getting me to have a conversation about what we were doing in my mind. I might go pick up a discarded Coke can on the side of the road because it's "contaminated," and I would then go either put it in the trash, which would be another exposure because that would be not recycling. There are layers of exposures here. But my OCD could be in my head going, "Well, I don't think that one is contaminated. It doesn't look all that contaminated because it's pretty clean and this looks like a clean area so I'm sure it's not contaminated. What do you think, Shala?" "Oh, I agree with you." "Well, we threw it away, but I bet you, these people, they're going to get wherever we threw it. They're actually going to sort it out and it's going to get recycled anyway." There was this carnival in my head of information about what was going on. I determined what I was doing because I was doing the exposure, but I wasn't really getting all that much better. I was getting somewhat better but not all that much better. What I realized I was doing is that I'm having these conversations in my head, which are compulsive. In my recovery journey, what I was doing was I

Welcome back, everybody. Thank you for joining me again this week. I'm actually really excited to dive into another topic that I really felt was important that we address. For those of you who are new, this actually might be a very steep learning curve because we are specifically talking about a treatment skill or a tool that we commonly use in CBT (Cognitive Behavioral Therapy) and even more specifically, Exposure and Response Prevention. And that is the use of imaginals or what we otherwise call scripts. Some people also use flooding. We are going to talk about this because there are a couple of reasons. Number one, for those of you who don't know, I have an online course called ERP School. In ERP School, it's for people with OCD, and we talk about how to really get an ERP plan for yourself. It's not therapy; it's a course that I created for those who don't have access to therapy or are not yet ready to dive into therapy, where they can really learn how to understand the cycle of OCD, how to get themselves out of it, and gives you a bunch of skills that you can go and try. Very commonly, we have questions about how to use imaginals and scripts, when to use them, how often to use them, when to stop using them, when they become compulsive and so forth. In addition to that, as many of you may not know, I have nine highly skilled licensed therapists who work for me in the state of California and Arizona, where we treat face-to-face clients. We're actually in Los Angeles. We treat patients with anxiety disorders. I also notice that during my supervision when I'm with my staff, they have questions about how to use imaginals and scripts with the specific clients. Instead of just teaching them and teaching my students, I thought this was another wonderful opportunity to help teach you as well how to use imaginals and why some people misuse imaginals or how they misuse it. I think even in the OCD community, there has been a little bit of a bad rap on using scripts and imaginals, and I have found using scripts and imaginals to be one of the most helpful tools for clients and give them really great success with their anxiety and uncertainty and their intrusive thoughts. Here we are today, it is again a start of another very short series. This is just a three-week series, talking about different ways we can approach imaginals and scripts and how you can use it to help manage your intrusive thoughts, and how you can use it to reduce your compulsions. It is going to be three weeks, as I said. Today, we are starting off with the amazing Krista Reed. She's been on the show before and she was actually the one who inspired this after we did the last episode together. She said, "I would love to talk more about imaginals and scripts." I was like, "Actually, I would too, and I actually would love to get some different perspectives." Today, we're talking with Krista Reed. Next week, we have the amazing Shala Nicely. You guys already know about Shala Nicely. I'm so happy to have her very individual approach, which I use all the time as well. And then finally, we have Dr. Jon Grayson coming in, talking about acceptance with imaginals and scripts. He does a lot of work with imaginals and scripts using acceptance, and I wanted to make sure we rounded it out with his perspective. One thing I want you to think about as we move into this series or three-part episode of the podcast is these are approaches that you should try and experiment with and take what you need. I have found that some scripts work really well with some clients and others don't work so well with other clients. I have found that some scripts do really well with one specific obsession, and that doesn't do a lot of impact on another obsession that they may have. I want you just to be curious and open and be ready to learn and take what works for you because I think all of these approaches are incredibly powerful. Again, in ERP School, we have specific training on how to do three different types of scripts. One is an uncertainty script, one is a worst-case scenario script, and the last is an acceptance script. If you're really wanting to learn a very structured way of doing these, head on over to CBTSchool.com and you can sign up for ERP School there. But I hope this gets you familiar with it and helps really answer any questions that you may have. Alright, let's get over to the show. Here is Krista Reed. Kimberley: Welcome back, Krista Reed. I am so happy to have you back on the show. Krista: Thank you. I am elated to be able to chat with you again. This is going to be great. Kimberley: Yeah. The cool thing is you are the inspiration for this series. Krista: Which is so flattering. Thank you. IMAGINAL OR SCRIPT? Kimberley: After our last episode, Krista and I were having a whole conversation and you were saying how much you love this topic. I was like, "Light bulb, this is what we need to do," because I think the beautiful piece of this is there are different ways i

Welcome back, everybody. Today, we are going to have a discussion, and yes, I understand that I am here recording on my own in my room by myself, so it's not really a discussion. But I wanted to give you an inside look into a discussion I had, and include you hopefully, on Instagram about a post I made about being busy. Now, let me tell you a little bit of the backstory here. What we're really looking at here is, is being busy a compulsion or an effective behavior? Here's the backstory. I am an anxious person. Nice to meet you. Everybody knows it, I'm an anxious person. That's what my natural default is. I have all the tools and practice using all the tools and continue to work on this as a process in my life. Not an end goal, but just a process that I'm always on, and I do feel like I handle it really, really well. In the grand scheme of things, of course, everyone makes mistakes and recovery is an up-and-down climb. We all know that. But one thing I have found over and over and over and over again is my inclination to rely on busyness to manage my anxiety. The reason I tell you this over and over is it's a default to me. When I'm struggling with anything, I tend to busy myself. Even when I had the beginning of an eating disorder, that quickly became a compulsive exercise activity because trying to manage my eating disorder created a lot of anxiety, and one way I could avoid that anxiety and check the eating disorder box was to exercise, move my body. Even though I fully recovered from that, and even though I consider myself to be doing really well mentally overall, I still catch myself relying on work and busyness as a compulsion, as a safety behavior to reduce or remove or avoid my anxiety. I made a post on this and it had overwhelming positive responses. Meaning, I agree, there was a lot of like, "Oh, I feel called out or hashtag truth." A lot of people were resonating with this idea that being busy can be a very sneaky compulsion that we do to run away from fear or uncertainty or discomfort or sadness and so forth. But then some of my followers, my wonderful followers came in hot—when I say "hot," like really well—with this beautiful perspective on this topic and I really feel like it was valid and important for us to discuss here today. Let's talk about that, because I love a good discussion and I love seeing it from both sides. I love getting into the nitty gritty and determining what is what. Let's talk about me just because it's easy for me to use an example. Let's say I have a thought or a feeling of anxiety. Something is bothering me. I'm having anticipatory anxiety or uncertainty about something. My brain wants to solve it, but because I have all these mindfulness tools and CBT tools, I know there's no point in me trying to solve it. I know there's no point in me ruminating on it. I'm not going to change it or figure it out. I have that awareness, so I go, "Okay, now I'm going to get back to life," which is a really wonderful tool. But what I find that I do is I don't just get back to life. I, with a sense of urgency, will start typing, cleaning, folding laundry, whatever it is, even reading. I will notice this shift in me to do it fast, to do it urgently, to try and get the discomfort to be masked, to be reduced. And then, of course, I want to share with you, what I then do is when I catch that is I go, "Okay." I feel the rev inside me and then I ease up on it. I pump the brakes and I try to return back to that activity without that urgency, without that resistance to the anxiety, or without that hustle mentality. But it is a default that I go to that often I don't catch until later on down the track. It's usually until I start to feel a little dizzy, I feel a little lost, a little bit overwhelmed. And then I'm like, "Oh, okay, I'm overusing busyness to manage my anxiety." The perspective that I loved was people saying, and one in particular said, "I want us to be really careful around that message because I think that some people can hear this idea that being busy is a compulsion and then start to question their own normal busyness throughout the day." I'll use the exact terms because I thought it was so beautifully said. They said, "You have to be pretty careful with how you explain this to some people with OCD because we're told to lean into our values or live a 'value-based' life, and that does require us to be busy," and I wholeheartedly agree. I think that's where I'm coming from. I want to offer to you guys that I want you to just check in and see if you're using busyness, this urgent, rushing movement, or frantic experience in your body to avoid discomfort. And if so, that's good to know. Let's not judge that. Let's not beat you up. Let's not be unkind. Let's just acknowledge that that is a normal response to having anxiety. In fact, it's a big part of what's kept us alive for all these years. That's true. And we can return back. Once we catch that we're doing those behaviors, we can re

Hello and welcome back, everybody. We have an amazing guest today. This is actually somebody I have followed, sort of half known for a long time through a very, very close friend, Shala Nicely, who's been on the show quite a few times, and she connected me with Dr. Ashley Smith. Today, we are talking about happiness and what makes a "good life" regardless of anxiety or of challenges you may be going through. Dr. Ashley Smith is a Licensed Clinical Psychologist. She's the co-founder of Peak Mind, which is The Center for Psychological Strength. She's a speaker, author, and entrepreneur. She has her own TED Talk, which I think really shows how epic and skilled she is. Today, we talk about how to be happy. What is happiness? How do you get there? Is it even attainable? What is the definition of happiness? Do we actually want it or is it the goal or is it not the goal? I think that this is an episode I needed to hear so much. In fact, since hearing this episode as we recorded it, I basically changed quite a few things. I will be honest with you, I didn't actually change things related to me, but I changed things in relation to how I parented my children. I realized midway through this episode that I was pushing them into the hamster wheel of life. Ashley really helped me to acknowledge and understand that it's not about success, it's not about winning things, it's not about achievement so much, while they are very important. She talks about these specific things that science and research have shown to actually improve happiness. I'm going to leave it at that. I'm going to go right over to the show. Thank you, Dr. Ashley Smith, for coming on. For those who want to know more about her, click the links in the show notes, and I cannot wait to listen back to this with you all. Have a great day, everybody. Kimberley: Welcome, Dr. Ashley Smith. I'm so happy to have you here. Dr. Ashley: I am excited to be here today. I've wanted to be on your podcast for years, so thank you for this. Kimberley: Same. Actually, we have joint friends and it's so good when you meet people through people that you trust. I have actually followed you for a very long time. I'm very excited to have you on, particularly talking about what we're talking about. It's a topic we probably should visit more regularly here on the show. We had discussed the idea of happiness and what makes a good life. Can you give me a brief understanding of what that means or what your idea about that is? Dr. Ashley: Yeah. Oh, this is a topic that I love to talk about. When I think about it, I have a little bit of a soapbox, which is that I think our approach to mental health is broken. I say that as someone who is a mental health practitioner, and I really love my job and I love working with people and helping. But what I mean by that is our traditional approach has been, "Let's reduce symptoms. Let's correct the stuff that's 'wrong' with someone." When it comes to anxiety or depression, it's how do we reduce that? And that's great. Those are really important skills, but we've got this whole other side that I think we need to be focusing on. And that is the question of how do we get more of the good stuff. More happiness, more well-being. How do we create lives that are worth living? That's not the same as how do we get rid or reduce anxiety and depression. In the field of psychology, there's this branch of it called Positive Psychology. I stumbled on that 20 years ago as a grad student and thought, "This is amazing. People are actually studying happiness. There's a science to this." I looked at happiness and optimism and social anxiety and depression and how those were all connected. Fast forward, 15 years or so, I really hit a point with my professional life and my personal life where I was recognizing, "Wait a minute, I need more. I need more as an individual. The clients I work with need more. How do we get more of this good stuff?" This is the longest preamble to say, I did a deep dive into the science of happiness and learned a lot over the years, and I want to be really clear about a couple of things. When we talk about happiness, a lot of people think pleasure. "I want good experiences, I want to enjoy this." That's a part of it, this positive emotion that we all call happiness or joy. But that's only a piece of it. There's actually this whole backfiring process that can happen when we chase that. If I'm just chasing the next pleasant event, what that actually does is set me up to not have a happy life. Think about it. I mean, I love chocolate, and if I eat that unchecked because it brings me pleasure, at some point, it's going to take a toll on my health. What does that actually do to my well-being and happiness? What was really interesting getting into this area was, it's not just this transient state of pleasure or enjoyment, but they're the other factors that contribute to a good life. It's things like relationships. It's things like meaning and purpose.

Hello and welcome back, everybody. I'm so happy to be here with you. This is not the normal format in which we do Your Anxiety Toolkit podcast, but I wanted to really address a question that came up in ERP School about how to manage 10 out of 10 anxiety. For those of you who don't know, over at CBTSchool.com, we have a whole array of courses—courses for depression, generalized anxiety, panic, OCD, hair pulling, time management, mindfulness. We have a whole vault of courses. In fact, we have a new one coming out in just a couple of weeks, which is a meditation vault. It will have over 30 different meditations. The whole point of this is, often people say to me that the meditations that they listen to online can become very compulsive. It's things like, "Oh, just let go of your fear or make your fear go. Cleanse away and dissolve," and all the things. That's all good. It's just, it's hard for people with severe anxiety to conceptualize that. That whole vault will be coming out very, very soon. But this is actually a question directly from ERP School. Under each video of all the courses, there is always a place you can ask questions, and I do my best to respond to them as soon as I can. But I did say to this student, I will actually do an entire podcast on your question because I think it's so important. Here is what they said: "Hi Kimberley, I love all the information you give us. I get so much more out of this than I do with a therapy session for one hour once a week. That being said, I'm feeling a little bit overwhelmed. There is just so much information and so many tools." Yes guys, I admit to that. I do tend to heavy-dose all of my courses with all the science. I can bring in as many tools as I can with the point being that I want you to feel like you have a tool belt of tools, in which you can then choose which one you want to use, so I totally get what they're saying here. They said: "When I'm at a 10 out of 10, I'm hardly able to function and it all seems to go out the window. It either seems that noticing works as I run through my list of tools or I can't even think straight enough to check in with myself or even think about the tools I could use. So, where do I even start in those terrible moments?" This is a really good question, and I think every single one of my clients in my history of being a therapist has asked this question. I know I have asked this question to my therapist because even as a therapist who has all the tools in those moments, it can feel overwhelming. What I did here is I pulled all of my followers on Instagram and asked them to give me their tools that they find helpful, and then I'm going to weigh in myself, and then I'm going to encourage you to just practice any of them. Now, often what happens—and this is the case for what obviously someone's bought a course from me—is when you have all of these options, we fall into the trap of thinking there is a "right" tool to use, and I want to reframe that. In addition, there's another myth that that one tool will make all your discomfort go away or that will be the tool of all tools for recovery. I want to really normalize that there is no one tool. The whole reason that I do Your Anxiety Toolkit is to remind you that you're going to have to practice multiple different things, you can't put all your eggs in one basket, and it's okay if it's not a 10 out of 10 win. Meaning, it's okay if it's not perfect. Often I'll say to clients, use the tools, even if it's 50% effective. That's still 50% effective more than what it would be in the past, which might be 0% effective or 1% effective. We take any wins we can take and we use it not as a fact that you're a failure if it didn't work, but more as just data on what to use for the next time. At the end of the day, the goals are: Did it give me a 1 or 2% improvement on how I handled it the last time? 1 or 2%, folks. That's all I'm goaling for here. Was I kind as I practiced it? And, did it move me towards the five-year you, or the three-year you, or the one-month you? The you who's in one month, does it move you towards that person that you're trying to be? I often will think about me through the terms of, what would the five-year me do in this situation? What would the three-year me do? What would the three-month me do? It might be different, and then I just pick one. Knowing it's probably not perfect, but that's okay. I have polled a whole bunch of people on Instagram because I honestly feel like folks who were in the thick of it actually are better at giving tools than even I am as a trained clinician who's been through it. Of all of the different responses we got, I've actually broken it down into two separate sections per se. We've got mindset shifts and tools and actions. Again, these may actually feel again like, "Oh my gosh, now I have even more tools," which is not a bad problem. TAKE ONE MOMENT AT A TIME But I want you in the moment that you're at a 10 out of 10 to just pick one and

Welcome back, everyone. I am so happy to do the final episode of our Sexual Health and Anxiety Series. It has been so rewarding. Not only has it been so rewarding, I actually have learned more in these last five weeks than I have learned in a long time. I have found that this series has opened me up to really understanding the depth of the struggles that happen for people with anxiety and how it does impact our sexual health, our reproductive health, our overall well-being. I just have so much gratitude for everyone who came on as guests and for you guys, how amazing you've been at giving me feedback on what was helpful, how it was helpful, what you learn, and so forth. Today, we are talking about PMS and anxiety, and it is so hopeful to know that there are people out there who are specifically researching PMS and anxiety and depression, and really taking into consideration how it's impacting us, how it's affecting treatment, how it's changing treatment, how we need to consider it in regards to how we look at the whole person. Today, we have the amazing Crystal Edler Schiller on. She is a Psychologist, Assistant Professor, and Associate Director of Behavioral Health for the University of North Carolina Center for Women's Mood Disorders. She provides therapy for women who experience mood and anxiety symptoms across the lifespan. She talks about her specific research and expertise in reproductive-related mood disorders. She was literally the perfect person for the show, so I'm so excited. In today's episode, we talked about PMS, PMDD, the treatments for these two struggles. We also just talked about those who tend to have an increase in symptoms of their own anxiety disorder or mood disorder when at different stages of their menstrual cycle. I found this to be so interesting and I didn't realize there were so many treatment options. We talked about how we can implement them and how we may adjust that depending on where you are in terms of your own recovery already. I'm going to leave it there and get straight over to the show. Thank you again to Crystal Schiller for coming on, and I hope you guys enjoy it just as much as I did. Kimberley: Thank you so much for being here, Crystal. This is a delight. Can you just share quickly anything about you that you want to share and what you do? Crystal: Sure. I'm a clinical psychologist at UNC Chapel Hill. I'm an Associate Director of the UNC Center for Women's Mood Disorders, where we provide treatment to people with reproductive hormones across the lifespan—starting in adolescence, going through pregnancy, postpartum, and all the way up through the transition to menopause. We also do research. My research focuses on how hormones trigger depression and anxiety symptoms in women. I do that by administering hormones, so actually giving women hormones and looking at the impact on their brain using brain imaging and then also studying specific symptoms that they have with that treatment. We've given hormones that mimic pregnancy and postpartum, and we also use hormones to treat symptoms as women transition through menopause and look at, like I said, how that impacts how their brain is responding to certain kinds of things in the environment and also how they report that changes their mood. WHAT IS PMS? AND WHAT IS THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN PMS AND PMDD? Kimberley: Wow. You couldn't be more perfect for this episode. You've just confirmed it right there. Thank you for being here. Before we get started, mostly we're talking about what we call PMS, but I know that's actually maybe not even a very good clinical term and so forth. Can you share with us what is PMS and What is the difference btween PMS and PMDD? Crystal: Yeah. PMS stands for premenstrual syndrome. It actually is a medical diagnosis and it includes a host or a range of physical symptoms as well as some mild psychological symptoms. It can be things like breast tenderness or swelling, bloating, cramps, menstrual pain, as well as some anxiety, low mood, mood fluctuations. But those tend to be mild in a PMS diagnosis. PMS is really common in the general population. Some studies estimate 30, 40, 50% of women experience these symptoms. Very, very common. On the other hand, premenstrual dysphoric disorder is a condition that is associated with more severe depression and anxiety symptoms. The mood symptoms are more at the forefront, although those physiologic symptoms like the breast tenderness, swelling, pain, cramps can certainly be a part of it. HOW CAN WOMEN DISTINGUISH BETWEEN NORMAL PREMENSTRUAL SYMPTOMS AND THOSE ASSOCIATED WITH PMS OR PMDD? Most women with PMDD do have those physical symptoms as well. Pain is a commonly reported symptom in folks with PMDD, but the mood fluctuations are more severe. People spend about half their menstrual cycle usually with pretty severe symptoms. And then once the period starts, those symptoms go away in PMDD. That's actually part of the criteria for the disorder that the symptoms ha

In this week's podcast episode, we talked with Dr. Katherine Unverferth on Menopause, anxiety, and mental health. We covered the below topics: How do we define peri-menopause and menopause? What causes menopause? Why do some have more menopausal symptoms than others? Why do some people report rapid rises in anxiety (and even panic disorder) during menopause. Is the increase in anxiety with menopause biological, physiological, or psychological? Why do some people experience mood differences or report the onset of depression during menopause? What treatments are avaialble to help those who are suffering from menopause (or perimenopause) and anxiety and depression? Welcome back, everybody. I am so happy to have you here. We are doing another deep dive into sexual health and anxiety as a part of our Sexual Health and Anxiety Series. We first did an episode on sexual anxiety or sexual performance anxiety. Then we did an episode on arousal and anxiety. That was by me. Then we did an amazing episode on sexual side effects of antidepressants with Dr. Aziz. And then last week, we did another episode by me basically going through all of the sexual intrusive thoughts that often people will have, particularly those who have OCD. This week, we are deep diving into menopause and anxiety. This is an incredibly important episode specifically for those who are going through menopause or want to be trained to understand what it is like to go through menopause and how menopause impacts our mental health in terms of sometimes people will have an increase in anxiety or depression. This week, we have an amazing guest coming on because this is not my specialty. I try not to speak on things that I don't feel confident talking about. This week, we have the amazing Dr. Katherine Unverferth. She is an Assistant Clinical Professor at The David Geffen School of Medicine and she also serves as the Director of the Women's Life Center and Medical Director of the Maternal Mental Health Program. She is an expert in reproductive psychiatry, which is why we got her on the show. She specializes in treating women during periods of hormonal transitions in her private practice in Santa Monica. She lectures and researches and studies areas on postpartum depression, antenatal depression, postpartum psychosis, premenstrual dysphoric disorder—which we will cover next week, I promise; we have an amazing guest talking about that—and perimenopausal mood and anxiety disorders. I am so excited to have Dr. Unverferth on the show to talk about menopause and the collision between menopause and anxiety. You are going to get so much amazing information on this show, so I'm just going to head straight over there. Again, thank you so much to our guest. Let's get over to the show. Kimberley: Welcome. I am so honored to have Dr. Katherine Unverferth with us talking today about menopause and anxiety. Thank you for coming on the show. Dr. Katie: Of course. Thanks for having me. HOW DO WE DEFINE PERI-MENOPAUSE AND MENOPAUSE? Kimberley: Okay. I have a ton of questions for you. A lot of these questions were asked from the community, from our crew of people who are really wanting more information about this. We've titled it Menopause and Anxiety, but I want to get really clear, first of all, in terms of the terms and whether we're using them correctly. Can you first define what is menopause, and then we can go from there? Dr. Katie: Definitely. I think when you're talking about menopause, you also have to think about perimenopause. Menopause is defined as the time after the final menstrual period. Meaning, the last menstrual period somebody has. It can only be defined retrospectively, so you typically only know you're in menopause a year after you've had your final menstrual period. But that's the technical definition—after the final menstrual period, it's usually defined one year after. Perimenopause is the time leading up to that where people have hormonal changes. Sometimes they have vasomotor symptoms, they can have mood changes, and that period typically lasts about four years but varies. I think that people often know that they're getting close to menopause because of the perimenopausal symptoms they might be experiencing. Kimberley: Okay. How might somebody know they're going into perimenopause? I think that's how you would say you go into it. Is that right? Dr. Katie: Yeah. You start experiencing it there. I don't know if there's a specific term. Kimberley: Sure. How would one know they're moving in that direction? Dr. Katie: Typically, we look for a few different things. One of the earliest signs is menstrual cycle changes. As someone enters perimenopause, their menstrual cycle starts to lengthen, whereas before, it might have been a normal 28-day cycle. Once it lengthens to greater than seven days, over 35 days, we would start to think of someone might be in perimenopause because it's lengthened significantly from their baseline before. Other symptoms that are

Welcome. This is Week 4 of the Sexual Health and Anxiety Series. I have loved your feedback about this so far. I have loved hearing what is right for you, what is not right for you, getting your perspective on what can be so helpful. A lot of people are saying that they really are grateful that we are covering sexual health and anxiety because it's a topic that we really don't talk enough about. I think there's so much shame in it, and I think that that's something we hopefully can break through today by bringing it into the sunlight and bringing it out into the open and just talking about it as it is, which is just all good and all neutral, and we don't need to judge. Let's go through the series so far. In Episode 1 of the series, we did sexual anxiety or sexual performance anxiety with Lauren Fogel Mersy. Number two, we did understanding arousal and anxiety. A lot of you loved that episode, talking a lot about understanding arousal and anxiety. Then last week, we talked about the sexual side effects of anxiety and depression medication or antidepressants with Dr. Sepehr Aziz. That was such a great episode. This week, we're talking about sexual intrusive thoughts. The way that I structured this is I wanted to first address the common concerns people have about sexual health and intimacy and so forth. Now I want to talk about some of the medical pieces and the human pieces that can really complicate things. In this case, it's your thoughts. The thoughts we have can make a huge impact on how we see ourselves, how we judge ourselves, the meaning we make of it, the identity we give it, and it can be incredibly distressing. My hope today is just to go through and normalize all of these experiences and thoughts and presentations and give you some direction on where you can go from there. Because we do know that your thoughts, as we discussed in the second episode, can impact arousal and your thoughts can impact your sexual anxiety. SEXUAL OCD OBSESSIONS Let's talk a little bit today about specific sexual intrusive thoughts. Now, sexual intrusive thoughts is also known as sexual obsessions. A sexual obsession is like any other obsession, which is, it is a repetitive, UNWANTED—and let's emphasize the unwanted piece—sexual thought. There are all different kinds of sexual intrusive thoughts that you can have. For many of you listening, you may have sexual intrusive thoughts and OCD that get together and make a really big mess in your mind and confuse you and bring on doubt and uncertainty, and like I said before, make you question your identity and all of those things. In addition to these intrusive thoughts, they often can feel very real. Often when people have these sexual intrusive thoughts, again, we all have intrusive thoughts, but if they're sexual in nature, when they're accompanied by anxiety, they can sometimes feel incredibly real, so much so that you start to question everything. SEXUAL SENSATIONS Now, in addition to having sexual intrusive thoughts, some of you have sexual sensations, and we talked a little bit about this in previous episodes. But what I'm really speaking about there is sensations that you would often feel upon arousal. The most common is what we call in the OCD field a groinal response. Some people call it the groinal in and of itself, which is, we know again from previous episodes that when we have sexual thoughts or thoughts that are sexual in nature, we often will feel certain sensations of arousal, whether that be lubrication, swelling, tingling, throbbing. You might simply call it arousal or being turned on. And that is where a lot of people, again, get really confused because they're having these thoughts that they hate, they're unwanted, they're repetitive, they're impacting their life, they're associated with a lot of anxiety and uncertainty, and doubt. And then, now you're having this reaction in your body too, and that groinal response can create a heightened need to engage in compulsions. As we know—we talk about this in ERP School, our online course for OCD; we go through this extensively—when someone has an obsession, a thought, an intrusive thought, it creates uncertainty and anxiety. And then naturally what we do is we engage in a compulsion to reduce or remove that discomfort to give them a short-term sense of relief. But then what ends up happening is that short-term relief ends up reinforcing the original obsession, which means you have it more, and then you go back through the cycle. You cycle on that cycle over and over again. It gets so big. It ends up impacting your life so, so much. INTRUSIVE SEXUAL URGES Now, let's also address while we're here that a lot of you may have intrusive sexual urges. These are also obsessions that we have when you have OCD or OCD-related disorders where you feel like your body is pulling you towards an action to harm someone, to do a sexual act, to some fantasy. You're having this urge that feels like your body is pulling you like a ma

Hello and welcome back everybody. We are on Week 3 of the Sexual Health and Anxiety Series. At first, we talked with the amazing Lauren Fogel Mersy about sexual anxiety or sexual performance anxiety. And then last week, I went into depth about really understanding arousal and anxiety, how certain things will increase arousal, certain things will decrease it, and teaching you how to get to know what is what so that you can have a rich, intimate, fulfilling life. We are now on Week 3. I have to admit, this is an episode that I so have wanted to do for quite a while, mainly because I get asked these questions so often and I actually don't know the answers. It's actually out of my scope. In clinical terms, we call it "out of my scope of practice," meaning the topic we're talking about today is out of my skill set. It's out of my pay grade. It's out of my level of training. What we're talking about this week is the sexual side effects of antidepressants or anxiety medications, the common ones that people have when they are anxious or depressed. Now, as I said to you, this is a medical topic, one in which I am not trained to talk about, so I invited Dr. Sepehr Aziz onto the episode, and he does such a beautiful job, a respectful, kind, compassionate approach to addressing sexual side effects of anxiety medication, sexual side effects of depression medication. It's just beautiful. It's just so beautiful. I feel like I want to almost hand this episode off to every patient when I first start treating them, because I think so often when we're either on medication or we're considering medication, this is a really common concern, one in which people often aren't game to discuss. So, here we are. I'm actually going to leave it right to the doctor, leave it to the pro to talk all about sexual side effects and what you can do, and how you may discuss this with your medical provider. Let's do it. Kimberley: Welcome. I have been wanting to do this interview for so long. I am so excited to have with us Dr. Sepehr Aziz. Thank you so much for being here with us today. Dr. Aziz: Thanks for having me. Kimberley: Okay. I have so many questions we're going to get through as much as we can. Before we get started, just tell us a little about you and your background, and tell us what you want to tell us. Dr. Aziz: Sure. Again, I'm Dr. Sepehr Aziz. I go by "Shepherd," so you can go ahead and call me Shep if you'd like. I'm a psychiatrist. I'm board certified in general adult psychiatry as well as child and adolescent psychiatry by the American Board of Psychiatry and Neurology. I completed medical school and did my residency in UMass where they originally developed mindfulness-based CBT and MBSR. And then I completed my Child and Adolescent training at UCSF. I've been working since then at USC as a Clinical Assistant Professor of Psychiatry there. I see a lot of OCD patients. I do specialize in anxiety disorders and ADHD as well. Kimberley: Which is why you're the perfect person for this job today. Dr. Aziz: Thank you. WHAT ARE THE BEST MEDICATIONS FOR PEOPLE WITH ANXIETY & OCD (IN GENERAL)? Kimberley: I thank you so much for being here. I want to get straight into the big questions that I get asked so regularly and I don't feel qualified to answer myself. What are the best medications for people with anxiety and OCD? Is there a general go-to? Can you give me some explanation on that? Dr. Aziz: As part of my practice, I first and foremost always try to let patients know that the best treatment is always a combination of therapy as well as medications. It's really important to pursue therapy because medications can treat things and they can make it easier to tolerate your anxiety, but ultimately, in order to have sustained change, you really want to have therapy as well. Now, the first-line medications for anxiety and OCD are the same, and that's SSRIs or selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors. SNRIs, which are selective norepinephrine reuptake inhibitors, also work generally, but the best research that we have in the literature is on SSRIs, and that's why they're usually preferred first. There are other medications that also might work, but these are usually first-line, as we call it. There are no specific SSRIs that might work better. We've tried some head-to-head trials sometimes, but there's no one medication that works better than others. It's just tailored depending on the patient and the different side effects of the medication. SSRI'S VS ANTIDEPRESSANTS DEFINITION Kimberley: Right. Just so people are clear in SSRI, a lot of people, and I notice, use the term antidepressant. Are they synonymous or are they different? Dr. Aziz: Originally, they were called antidepressants when they first were released because that was the indication. There was an epidemic of depression and we were really badly looking for medications that would work. Started out with tricyclic antidepressants and then we had MAOIs, and then eventually, we develo

Welcome back, everybody. We are on Episode 2 of the Sexual Health and Anxiety Series. Today, I will be the main host and main speaker for the episode, talking about arousal and anxiety. This is a topic that goes widely misunderstood, particularly in the OCD and anxiety field where people are having arousal that they can't make sense of. It's also very true of people with PTSD. They're having arousal that makes no sense to them, that confuses them, that increases anxiety, increases shame, increases guilt, and from there, it all becomes like a huge mess to them. It becomes incredibly painful, and it's just so messy they can't make sense of it. My hope with this episode is to help you understand the science behind arousal and the science behind arousal and anxiety so that you can move forward and manage your anxiety around arousal and manage your shame and guilt and sadness and grief around arousal, and have a better relationship with your body and with yourself and your soul. Now, these are more difficult conversations. I have talked about them in the past, and so I want you just to go into this really, really gentle, really open with con compassion and kindness, and curiosity. Your curiosity is going to help you immensely as you move through this series, as you move through some of the difficult conversations we're going to have, maybe a little bit embarrassing, humiliating, and so forth. Even me telling my kids that I'm so excited, I'm doing a series on sexual health, they're like, "Mom, you can't talk about that to other people." I'm like, "Yes, I can. We're going to talk about it. Hopefully, when you're old enough, you'll be able to listen to this and you'll be so glad that we're having conversations around this and taking the shame and stigma, and misinformation out of it." I'm going to go straight into the episode. This is our episode on understanding arousal and anxiety. We are going to come on next week talking about an entirely different subject about sexual health and intimacy, sex and anxiety, and arousal and anxiety. I am so excited. Stick around. Enjoy every bit of it. Take as many notes as you can, but please, please be kind to yourself. Let's get to the show. ANXIETY AND AROUSAL Let's get into the episode. Let me preface the episode by, we're talking about anxiety and arousal. If I could have one person on the podcast, it would be Emily Nagoski. I have been trying to get her on the podcast for a while. We will get her on eventually. However, she's off doing amazing things—Netflix specials, podcasts, vet documentaries. She's doing amazing things. Hopefully one day. But until then, I want to really highlight her as the genius behind a lot of these concepts. Emily Nagoski is a doctor, a psychology doctor. She is a sex educator. She's written two amazing books. Well, actually three or four, but the ones I'm referring to today is Come As You Are. It's an amazing book, but I'm actually in my hand holding The Come As You Are Workbook. I strongly encourage you after you listen to this podcast episode to go and order that book. It is amazing. It's got tons of activities. It might feel weird to have the book. You can get it on Kindle if you want to have it be hidden, but it's so filled with amazing information and I'm going to try and give you the pieces that I really want you to take away. If you want more, by all means, go and get the workbook. The workbook is called The Come As You Are Workbook: A Practical Guide to The Science of Sex. The reason I love it is because it's so helpful for those who have anxiety. It's like she's speaking directly to us. She's like, "It's so helpful to have this context." Here's the thing I want you to consider starting off. A lot of people who have anxiety report struggles with arousal. We're going to talk about two different struggles that are the highlight of today. Either you have no arousal because of your anxiety, or you're having arousal at particular times that concern you and confuse you, and alarm you. You could be one or both of those camps. Let's first talk about those who are struggling with arousal in terms of getting aroused. The thing I want you to think about is, commonly, this is true for any mental health issue too. It's true for depression, anxiety disorders, eating disorders, dissociative disorders—all of them really. But the thing I want you to remember, no matter who you are and what your experience is, even if you have a really healthy experience of your own sexual arousal and you're feeling fine about it, we all have what's called inhibitors and exciters. Here is an example: An inhibitor is something that inhibits your arousal. An exciter is something that excites your arousal. Now, you're probably already feeling a ton of judgment here like, "I shouldn't be aroused by this, and I should be aroused by this. What if I'm aroused by this and I shouldn't be," and so forth. I want us to take all the judgment out of this and just look at the content of

You guys, I am literally giggling with excitement over what we are about to do together. Last year, we did a series, the first series on Your Anxiety Toolkit where we talked about mental compulsions. It was a six-part series. We had some of the best therapists and best doctors in the world talking about mental compulsions. It was such a hit. So many people got so much benefit out of it. I loved it so much, and I thought that was fun, let's get back to regular programming. But for the entire of last year after that series, it kept bugging me that I needed to do a series on sexual health and anxiety. It seems like we're not talking about it enough. It seems like everyone has questions, even people on social media. The algorithm actually works against those who are trying to educate people around sex and sexual side effects and arousal and how anxiety impacts it. And so here I am. No one can stop us. Let's do it. This is going to be a six-part sexual health and anxiety series, and today we have a return guest, the amazing Lauren Fogel Mersy. She is the best. She is a sex therapist. She talks all about amazing stuff around sexual desire, sexual arousal, sexual anxiety. She's going to share with you, she has a book coming out, but she is going to kick this series off talking about sexual anxiety, or we actually also compare and contrast sexual performance anxiety because that tends to better explain what some of the people's symptoms are. Once we go through this episode, we're then going to meet me next week where I'm going to go back over. I've done an episode on it before, but we're going to go back over understanding arousal and anxiety. And then we're going to have some amazing doctors talking about medications and sexual side effects. We have an episode on sexual intrusive thoughts. We have an episode on premenstrual anxiety. We also have an episode on menopause and anxiety. My hope is that we can drop down into the topics that aren't being covered enough so that you feel like you've got one series, a place to go that will help you with the many ways in which anxiety can impact us when it comes to our sexual health, our sexual arousal, our sexual intimacy. I am so, so, so excited. Let's get straight to it. This is Episode 1 of the Sexual Health and Anxiety Series with Dr. Lauren Fogel Mersy. Lauren is a licensed psychologist. She's a certified sex therapist, she's an author, and she is going to share with us and we're going to talk in-depth about sexual anxiety. I hope you enjoy the show. I hope you enjoy all of the episodes in this series. I cannot wait to listen to these amazing speakers—Lauren, being the first one. Thank you, Lauren. What Is Sexual Anxiety Or Sexual Performance Anxiety? Are They The Same Thing? Kimberley: Welcome. I am so happy to have you back, Dr. Lauren Fogel Mersy. Welcome. Dr. Lauren: Thank you so much for having me back. I'm glad to be here. Kimberley: I really wanted to deep dive with you. We've already done an episode together. I'm such a joy to have you on. For those of you who want to go back, it's Episode 140 and we really talked there about how anxiety impacts sex. I think that that is really the big conversation. Today, I wanted to deep dive a little deeper into talking specifically about sexual anxiety, or as I did a little bit of research, what some people call sexual performance anxiety. My first question for you is, what is sexual anxiety or what is sexual performance anxiety? Are they the same thing or are they a little different? Dr. Lauren: I think people will use those words interchangeably. It's funny, as you say that, I think that performance anxiety, that word 'performance' in particular, I hear that more among men than I do among women. I think that that might be attributed to so many people's definition of sex is penetration. In order for penetration to be possible, if there's a partner who has a penis involved that that requires an erection. I often hear that word 'performance' attributed to essentially erection anxiety or something to do with, will the erection stay? Will it last? Basically, will penetration be possible and work out? I think I often hear it attributed to that. And then sexual anxiety is a maybe broader term for a whole host of things, I would say, beyond just erection anxiety, which can involve anxiety about being penetrated. It could be anxiety about certain sexual acts like oral sex giving, receiving. It could be about whether your body will respond in the way that you want and hope it to. I think that word, sexual anxiety, that phrasing can encompass a lot of different things. WHAT ARE SOME SEXUAL ANXIETY SYMPTOMS? Kimberley: Yeah. I always think of it as, for me, when I talk with my patients about the anticipatory anxiety of sex as well. Like you said, what's going to happen? Will I orgasm? Will I not? Will they like my body? Will they not? I think that it can be so broad. I love how you define that, how they can be different. That perform

Welcome back, everybody. I had a whole other topic planned to talk with you about today and I've had to basically bench it because I feel so compelled to talk to you about this topic, which is the topic of having fun. Now, you might be having a strong reaction to this and maybe there's a bunch of people who didn't listen because the idea of having fun feels so silly when you are anxious and depressed. It feels like a stupid idea, a ridiculous idea. But the last few weeks have taught me such valuable lessons about mental health. I talk about mental health all the time. That's what I live and breathe pretty much. Sometimes when you have an experience—I keep saying it changes your DNA—I feel to a degree my DNA has been changed these last few weeks and let me share with you why. For those of you who follow me on social media, you will know that in the last couple of weeks, I made a very last-minute trip to the United Kingdom. What happened was pre-COVID, I had booked tickets to visit London for a work event, and COVID happened. I had a certain amount of time to use these tickets, and I actually had thought that those tickets had expired on December 30th of last year. And then one Friday morning, I woke up and checked my email and it said, "You have 18 days until you depart." I'm thinking, 18 days to depart, where? I haven't booked any tickets. Only to find out that my tickets were put on what's called an "open hold," which meant they had just put a date to a trip knowing that I would log in and reschedule it when I was ready. It turned out to be three years later. And then I logged on and saw I have 19 days to use my ticket. I went upstairs, I talked to my husband, and I said, "I have this ticket to the United Kingdom I've never been to. I would really love to go." He said, "You should go. I think it would be really good for you. I'll stay home with the kids. You go." That was the plan. I was going to go, I was going to keep working, I was going to see my clients, but when I wasn't working, I would go out and have British food and maybe go walk around London and maybe visit a castle or two. That was the plan. I was so excited. I happened to mention it to my sister-in-law who I love, and I said, "Ha-ha, you should come." She said, "Oh! No, there's no way I could come and I didn't think anything of it." And then the next morning I woke up, she had messaged me and said, "I've changed my mind. I'm coming." Now, there is a point to this story, which is, my first thought was, "Oh my gosh, that's so exciting." My second thought was, "Oh my gosh, that is scary," because my sister-in-law is the most wonderful human being and she loves to have fun. What was shocking to me is I started to notice I was going to pump the brakes on fun. No, no, no, no, no, no. Oh my gosh. Now quickly, of course, I said, "Come, I'm so excited." We went, but that response was so interesting to me. What it was, was my anxiety did not like the idea that we were going to go and let loose. My anxiety did not like that inhibitory piece, that amygdala deep in my brain was like, "Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa, pump the brakes. This is going way too fast for me." The reason I'm doing today's episode is I bet you that's what your brain does too. It wants to pump the brakes on fun and pleasure because it creates uncertainty and it creates vulnerability and it creates where things aren't in control anymore. Letting go and having fun is hard when you have anxiety. Letting go and having fun is hard when you have depression. "Yes" Week We went and we called the week "YES week." Actually, I called it "YES week" because I knew this was an exposure I needed to do. We made an agreement that if one person wanted to do something, both of us had to say yes. If someone wanted to try a food, and my sister-in-law loves to try all the different foods, we both had to say yes. It was such a deep exposure experience for me. A deep, oh my gosh, pleasurable. I don't want you to think it was all hard because the truth is, it was all pleasurable and I was so surprised at how my brain kept making problems out of having fun. I'll give you another example. We're sitting at this Indian restaurant. We kept saying to the maitre d' or the people at the front desk, "Tell us the best Indian restaurant. Tell us the best high tea. Tell us the best place to go and have drinks. Tell us the best place to get scotch eggs. Tell us the best place to have Scottish pie. Tell us the best." We kept saying that. We were sitting at this Indian restaurant and my sister-in-law was like, "We'll have one of those and one of those and one of those and one of those." She's a foodie. I could even feel my body going like, "No, no, no, no, that's too much fun." It's so interesting to me how my brain was pumping the breaks on fun and how when you have fun, again, after doing this for one week, I felt like my DNA was changed. I realized how-- I don't want to use the word controlling because I don't consider myself

Today, we're going to talk about the 15 depression symptoms you may not know about. My hope is that it will help you, number one, understand your symptoms, and number two, get help faster. Let's do this. Let's get started. I hope you are well. I hope you are kind and gentle to yourself today. I hope you are taking moments to notice that the trees are changing, the leaves are changing, and spring is here. If you're in the Northern Hemisphere, maybe the weather is changing. Also, if you're in the southern hemisphere, my lovely friends in Australia, I just want to remind you to stop and take note of the weather. It can be one of the most mindful activities we engage in, and it can help us be grounded in the present instead of thinking forward, thinking backward, and ruminating on the past and the future. I hope you can take a minute. We can take a breath right here... and you can actually take in this present moment before we get started. Today, we're talking about 15 depression symptoms you may not know about. As I said in the intro, my hope is that these symptoms help you understand what's going on for you if you're depressed or help you get help faster. Mnemonic For Depression Symptoms Now, some of you may really have a good understanding of depression symptoms. Some of you may know the common ways that it shows up, so I will first address those just to make sure you've got a basic understanding of common depression symptoms. I'm going to actually give you a mnemonic for depression symptoms. I find it's very helpful to have this on hand when I'm assessing my clients and my patients. It's a really good check-in even for myself like, what's going on? Could this be depression? Let's go through this mnemonic for depression. D is for depressed mood. I think we all know about that one. That's a very common Hollywood way of understanding people who are sad, feeling very down, and so forth. We mostly all know the D for depression. E is for energy loss and fatigue. In fact, I did a poll on Instagram. For those of you who don't follow me, go ahead and follow me @youranxietytoolkit. I did a poll and I asked, what are the most painful parts of depression, and the most common response was complete fatigue, complete exhaustion, just overwhelming tiredness and energy loss. I think that that's a really common one. It can be confusing because you're like, "What's going on?" It makes you feel like maybe there's a medical condition going on, but often it is depression. The P is for pleasure loss. Now, this is an important one that we look for in clinical work as we're looking for. Is the person with depression completely at a loss and they're not enjoying the things they used to? Are they struggling to get joy out of even the most joyful things that they used to find joyful? That's a very common one. The R is for retardation or excitation. What we're talking about there is moving very slowly, like a sloth pace or even just sitting there and staring and unable to move your body completely, inability to get motivated to move. Excitation is the other one, which is like you feel very jittery and you feel very on edge and so forth. The E is for eating changes such as appetite increase or decrease, or weight increase or decrease. Again, common symptoms for depression. The S is for sleep changes. It is very common for people with depression to either want to sleep or need to sleep all day, again, because of that energy loss. Or they lay awake for hours at night staring at the roof, unable to sleep, experiencing sleep anxiety, which can often then impact their sleep rhythm. They're sleeping all day, staying awake all night, or vice versa, but in a very lethargic way. The next S is for suicidal thoughts or what we call suicidal ideation. These are thoughts of death, thoughts of dying, and sometimes plans to die. If that is you, please do go and see a mental health professional immediately or go to your ER or call the emergency in whatever country you are. For America, it's 911. Suicidal thoughts are very, very common with depression. We have two types of suicidal thoughts in depression, and that's usually passive suicidal thoughts and then active suicidal thoughts. Passive is thoughts of death, but you just want to crawl under a rock and just go to sleep and never wake up. Active suicidal thoughts is where you're actually wishing to die. It's important to differentiate, and clinically, we do make some changes depending on which is which. The I for depression is "I am a failure." This has a lot to do with shame or loss of confidence and self-esteem issues. "I am a failure" is a big one that often doesn't get disclosed until the person is in therapy. We even did an episode a couple of weeks ago. Depression Is A Liar was the title. Depression tells you all these lies. It tells you you're a failure and you start to believe it. It tells you there's something wrong with you and you start to believe it. That is a very common part of having d

In this episode, we are talking about the emotional toll of OCD. Kim: Welcome back, everybody. This week is going to include three of some of my most favorite people on this entire planet. We have the amazing Chris Trondsen, Alegra Kastens, and Jessica Serber—all dear friends of mine—on the podcast. This is the first time I've done an episode with more than one guest. Now, this was actually a presentation that the four of us did at multiple IOCDF conferences. It was a highly requested topic. We were talking a lot about trauma and OCD, shame and OCD, the stigma of OCD, guilt and OCD, and the depression and grief that goes with OCD. After we presented it, it actually got accepted to multiple different conferences, so we all agreed, after doing it multiple times and having such an amazing turnout, that we should re-record the entire conversation and have it on the podcast. I'm so grateful for the three of them. They all actually join me on Super Bowl Sunday—I might add—to record this episode. I am going to really encourage you to drop down into your vulnerable self and listen to what they have to say, and note the validation and acknowledgment that they give throughout the episode. It is a deep breath. That's what this episode is. Before we get into this show, let me just remind you again that we are recording live the Overcoming Depression course this weekend. On March 11th, March 18th, and March 25th, at 9:00 AM Pacific Standard Time, I will be recording the Overcoming Depression course. I am doing it live this time. If you're interested in coming on live as I record it, you can ask your questions, you can work along with me. There'll be workbooks. I'll be giving you a lot of strategies and a lot of tools to help you overcome depression. If you're interested, go to CBTSchool.com/depression. We will be meeting again, three dates in March, starting tomorrow, the 11th of March, at 9:00 AM Pacific Time. You will need to sign up ahead of time. But if for any reason you miss one of them, you can watch the replay. The replays will be uploaded. You'll have unlimited on-demand access to any of them. You'll get to hear me answering people's questions. This is the first time I've ever recorded a course live. I really felt it was so important to do it live because I knew people would have questions and I wanted to address them step by step in a manageable, bite-sized way. Again, CBTSchool.com/depression, and I will see you there. Let's get over to this incredible episode. Again, thank you, Chris Trondsen. Thank you, Alegra Kastens. Thank you, Jessica Serber. It is an honor to call you my friend and my colleague. Enjoy everybody. Kim: Welcome. This has been long, long. I've been waiting so long to do this and I'm so thrilled. This is my first time having multiple guests at once. I have three amazing guests. I'm going to let them introduce themselves. Jessica, would you like to go first? Jessica: I'm Jessica Serber. I'm a licensed marriage and family therapist, and I have a practice specializing in the treatment of OCD and related anxiety and obsessive-compulsive spectrum disorders in Los Angeles. I'm super passionate about working with OCD because my sister has OCD and I saw her get her life back through treatment. So, I have so much hope for everyone in this treatment process. Kim: Fantastic. So happy to have you. Chris? Chris: Hi everyone. My name is Chris Trondsen. I am also a licensed marriage family therapist here in Orange County, California at a private group practice. Besides being a therapist, I also have OCD myself and body dysmorphic disorder, both of which I specialize in treatment. Because of that, I'm passionate about advocacy. I am one of the lead advocates for the International OCD Foundation, as well as on their board and the board of OCD Southern California, as well as some leadership on some of their special interest groups. Kind of full circle for me, have OCD and now treat it. Kim: Amazing. Alegra? Alegra: My name is Alegra Kastens and I am a licensed therapist in the states of California and New York. I'm the founder of the Center for OCD, Anxiety and Eating Disorders. Like Chris, I have lived experience with OCD, anxiety, eating disorders, and basically everything, so I'm very passionate. We got a lot going on up here. I'm really passionate about treating OCD, educating, advocating for the disorder, and that is what propelled me to pursue a career as a therapist and then also to build my online platform, @obsessivelyeverafter on Instagram. GRIEF AND OCD Kim: Amazing. We have done this presentation before, actually, multiple times over the years. I feel like an area that I want to drop into as deeply as we can today to really look at the emotional toll of having and experiencing and recovering from OCD. We're going to have a real conversation style here. But first, we'll follow the format that we've used in the past. Let's first talk about grief and OCD because I think that that seems to be a lot of

I can barely hold in my excitement! We have a three-day live event where I will teach a new course called Overcoming Depression. I have had all of this passion show up in my body after seeing loved ones and clients struggle and after you guys repeatedly asking for a course on depression. Our new online course called Overcoming Depression is finally here. I will record it live on March 11th, 18th and 25th from 9:00 a.m. to 10:30 a.m. If you are interested, please join me, and I will teach you LIVE, and you can ask all your questions. NOTE: This course will not be considered therapy. Just like all of our courses, it will be educational. Overcoming Depression will be me teaching you the skills I teach my clients when it comes to Psychoeducation and strategies and tools to overcome depression. Head over to CBTSCHOOLcom/depression to sign up! I am so excited to have you guys join me live. Ask your questions in the question box. We will tackle not only your negative thinking but also your behaviors your motivation Self-compassion Long-term recovery techniques I'm so excited and hope to see you there. SIGN UP at CBTschool.com/depression

OCD TREATMENT OPTIONS Today, we have Elizabeth McIngvale and we are talking all about different OCD treatment options. Elizabeth (Liz) McIngvale is the Director of the McLean OCDI Houston. She has an active clinical and research and leadership role there. McLean OCDI is a treatment center for people with OCD and she talks extensively about different OCD treatment options in this episode. She's the perfect one to talk to in this episode about knowing when you need a higher level of care, particularly related to OCD. In this episode, we walk through the different levels of care from self-help all the way through to inpatient facilities. Elizabeth spoke so beautifully about how to know when you're ready for the next step of care, what to look out for, what you should be interested in, and questions you should ask. This is such an important episode. I'm actually blown away that I haven't addressed it yet, but I'm so grateful we got to talk about it today. Elizabeth McIngvale is also a lecturer at Harvard Medical School. She treats obsessive-compulsive disorders, anxiety disorders. She's got a special interest in mental health stigma and access to mental health care. It was actually such an educational episode and I felt like it actually made me a better supervisor to my staff and a better educator as well. You're going to love this episode if you're really wanting to understand and take the stigma out of increasing your care if that's something that you need. That being said, I'm going to let you listen to Elizabeth's amazing words, and I hope you enjoy this episode just as much as I did. Have a great day, everybody. Kimberley Quinlan: Well, welcome, Liz McIngvale. I'm so excited to have you on for two reasons. Number one, I really want to talk about giving people information about OCD treatment options, but I also understand that you can also bring in a personal experience here. Anytime, someone can share their personal experience, just lights me up. So thank you for being here. Elizabeth McIngvale: Thank you for having me. I'm so excited to be here and yeah, I hope that both my personal but also professional kind of background in this arena might help guide. Some individuals who are kind of wondering what treatment do they need right now and and what does treatment for them look like Kimberley Quinlan: Wonderful. Do you want to share a little bit about your history with OCD and your story as much as you want to share? Elizabeth McIngvale: For sure. Yeah, I'll try to not take up too much time but you know, basically, I grew up here in Houston, Texas, where I'm from, and was diagnosed with OCD right around 12. I started showing lots of different symptoms prior on and off, but nothing that was disruptive nothing. That really would have warranted a diagnosis. I would do things like track the weather, or every time I read a book, I would start at page one because I didn't like the feeling if I picked up in between and things like that… Elizabeth McIngvale: but nothing was really out of the norm normal in the sense that I was still doing okay. And academically you know, Relationship-wise and I was functioning well until I wasn't, you know, until my intrusive thoughts, got louder and the disruption became more and more severe. Here in Houston, we have the largest medical center in the world and we are known for our healthcare and so you would think access to good care would be really accessible, but unfortunately, it just wasn't and granted, this was a long time ago, almost 20 years ago but we really started searching for treatment here in Houston and, you know, I was lucky enough that pretty early on I got a diagnosis and for most of us in the OCD world, we know that that's rare for it to happen that soon. So that was great. That was a huge blessing for me, however we couldn't find good treatment. Every provider would say things like we've never seen a case like this. We don't know how to treat this and there's not help available. You guys should assume that Liz live in a mental health hospital, the rest of her life. And so my parents were just really struggling with What do I do and How do I help my child. And so they kept researching and kept trying to figure it out and actually they got lucky enough that they stumbled across the newspaper article and in that newspaper article talked about an inpatient treatment center at the time which was called the Meninger Clinic and how they had an OCD program. There was a little bitty excerpt and immediately my dad, called my mom, they ended up calling Meninger and learning more and I ended up going to the Meninger clinic when I was 15. I went three days after my 15th birthday, I'll never forget and I talk about this a lot because my treatment stay at Meninger was the first step to my life being changed. It was the first step to me getting appropriate treatment. It didn't cure me, you know, I want to be honest about that. I think sometimes we think, okay, we go do that. We

Depression is a liar. If you have depression, the chances are, it's lying to you too. Depression is a very, very common mental health disorder, and it tends to be a very effective liar. My hope today is to get you to see the ways that it lies to you—the ways in which depression lies to you, and gets you to believe things that are not true. I believe that this part of depression, this component of managing depression is so important because the way in which depression lies to us, impacts how we see ourselves in the world, how we see the future, how we see other people, how we see our lives playing out. And that in and of itself can be devastating. Today, I want to talk about, number one, the ways in which depression lies to us and what we can do to manage that. Let's get going. THEMES OF DEPRESSION Before we start, let's talk about the themes of depression. Now, the way it was trained to me is that there are three core themes of depression. The first one being hopelessness, the second one being helplessness, and the third being worthlessness. It will often target one, some, or all of these themes. Let's go through those here and break it down. DEPRESSION LIES ABOUT THE FUTURE This is where it can really make us feel very hopeless. Depression says your future won't be good. You won't amount to anything. You won't be successful. You won't have a relationship if that's important to you. You won't have kids if that's important to you. It often will target the things that we deeply value and it'll tell us you won't get those things or you'll be doing those things wrong. Or in some ways, something bad will happen. When it targets the future, that is often when we begin to feel very hopeless. When we think about the way the human brain works, our brain does things right now, even things it doesn't want to do, knowing that it'll get a benefit or a payoff or a wonderful, joyful result. But if your brain is telling you that the result is always going to be bad, that's going to create an experience where you feel like there's no point. What's the point of doing this hard thing if my depression is telling me the future is going to be crummy anyway? What we want to do is get very skilled at catching it in its lies about the future. DEPRESSION LIES ABOUT THE PAST Depression will tell you, you did something wrong. You're terrible. That thing you did really ruined your life or ruined somebody else's life, or is proof that you're a bad person. Depression loves to ruminate on that specific event or an array of events. What we end up doing is cycling and gathering evidence. This is what depression does. It gathers evidence to back its point. What we end up doing is instead of seeing the event for what it is, which is both probably positive and negative, depression likes to magnify all of the things that you did wrong or that didn't go well. And then it wants to disqualify the positive. Often patients of mine with depression will say, "Oh, I'm a terrible person. I did this terrible thing," or "I made this terrible mistake or accident." I'll look and say, "Okay, but what about the other times where maybe you didn't make a mistake and so forth?" They will disqualify that as if it means nothing to them. It does mean something to them, but often the way in fact depression functions is it keeps you looking at the negative. And that's how you get stuck in that cycle of rumination on the negative—feeling worse and worse, feeling more shame, feeling more guilt, feeling more dread, feeling often numb because the depression is so, so strong. Now, this is where I'm going to offer to you to reframe things a little bit and look at helplessness. Depression will also tell us: "There is no one who can help you. There is no amount of support that can help you. You're helpless." Often when people come to me for their first time in session, they will say, "I'm here. I understand you can help me. But at the end of the day, I don't even think you can help me." Maybe they've read one of my articles on the internet or they've listened to a podcast and they go, "You're speaking to exactly what I'm going through, but I still don't even believe you can help me." This is where I can give them all the science and show them that I can help them and that there's treatment for depression, and it's very science-based. The depression will still lie to them and say, "There's no point. You're helpless." Now, the last piece here is about worth, and I'll touch on that here in just a little bit. Before we move into that, I want to share with you that the reason I was so excited to talk about this with you today is I'm in the process of creating a course for OCD. I'm contributing this to a bigger company and I will be creating it. You guys can have access to it too here very soon. As I was creating it, I was really starting to see and talk to a lot of people with depression and talk to people on social media. The biggest message people were saying is, "OCD lies to m

Transcript Kimberley Quinlan: Well welcome, I cannot believe this is so exciting. I've been looking forward to this episode all week. We have the amazing. Reverend Katie O'Dunne with us to talk all about scrupulosity and religious obsessions. So welcome, Katie. Katie O'Dunne: Thank you. I'm so excited to be here and to chat about all things Faith and OCD. So thanks for having me. Kimberley Quinlan: Yeah, so let me just quickly share in ERP school we have these underneath every training, every video. There's a little question and answer and I'm very confident in answering them, but when it comes to the specifics of religion, I always try to refer to someone who is, like an expert. And so this is so timely because I feel like you are perfect to answer some of these questions. Some of the questions we have here are from, ERP school. A lot of them are from social media and so I'm so excited to chat with you. Katie O'Dunne: Thank you. Kimberley Quinlan: So tell us before we get into the questions, a little about your story and you know why you are here today? Katie O'Dunne: Yeah. So I've navigated OCD since before I can remember, but just like maybe a lot of folks listening. I was very private about that for a very long time. I had a lot of shame around, intrusive thoughts. I had a lot of shame around religious obsessions that I had, moral related obsessions, harm obsessions. And this shame particularly came because I was pursuing ministry and OCD really spiked in the midst of me going to graduate school, going to seminary. And when I was in seminary and I started really struggling, I wanted to seek treatment for the first time and was told really by a mentor that it would not help me to do that. In my ministry that I wouldn't pass my psych evaluations and that I shouldn't pursue treatment that I needed to keep that on the down low. So as many of us know, that might not get that effective evidence-based treatment I continued to get sicker Katie O'Dunne: And had a really pretty full-blown OCD episode in my first role in ministry. Katie O'Dunne: So I ended up in school chaplaincy working, with lots of students from different faith backgrounds, some of what we'll be talking about today, through an OCD lens. And I was trying to keep my OCD a secret, but in the midst of navigating, some difficult tragedies and traumas with students, my OCD latched on to every aspect of what I was navigating. And particularly in the midst of that, I was experiencing losses and mental health crises with students from different faith backgrounds. And when I came out of my own treatment, where exposure and response prevention, very much saved my life. I felt like, I had an obligation to those students that I worked with to let them know that their chaplain, that their faith leader had gone through mental health treatment and that there was no shame around doing that. And I went from the space, in seminary of being told that I shouldn't seek treatment to a space of having families call me for the first time and say, Oh now we can actually talk to you about what's going on in our life. Can you help us talk with our rabbi or our imam, or our priest about my child's diagnosis? How can we reconcile faith with treatment and that opened the door for me to continue this work in a full-time way. Where moving from those students that I love so much and now work in the area of faith and OCD full-time helping folks, navigate religious scrupulosity and very much lean into evidence-based treatment while also reconnecting with their faith in ways that are value driven to them and not dictated by OCD. Kimberley Quinlan: Hmm, it makes me teary. Just to hear you say that folks were saying, Well, now, I can share with you. That is so interesting to me. You know, I think of a reverend, as like, you can go to them with anything, you know, and for them to say that you're disclosing has open some doors, that's incredible. Katie O'Dunne: And particularly, I worked really heavily with my Hindu and Muslim students. And we had the chance to do some really awesome mental health initiatives for the South Asian community, where students started then doing projects actually in their own faith communities, and opening up about their own journeys, and then giving other space to do the same. And I really, I think about the work I do now, which is very much across faith traditions around OCD. And every person I work with, I think of those awesomely brave students, who started to come to me after my disclosure and say, Okay, we want help and also we want to share our stories and continues to inspire me. DOES RELIGIOUS OCD/SCRUPULOSITY SHOW UP BEYOND THE CHRISTIAN RELIGION? Kimberley Quinlan: Yeah, so cool! It leads me to my first question which is, does this for OCD religious scrupulosity, have you found, and I definitely have, that It goes outside of just the Christian religion. I know we hear a lot about just the Christian religion, but can you kind of give me your exper

5 TIPS FOR HEALTH ANXIETY DURING A DRS VISIT If you want my five tips for health anxiety during a Drs visit, especially if you have a medical condition that concerns you, this is the episode for you. Hello and welcome back everybody. Today, I'm going to share some updates about a recent medical issue I have had, and I'm going to share specific tips for dealing with health anxiety (also known as hypochondria). A lot of you who have been here with me before know I have postural orthostatic tachycardic syndrome. I also have a lesion on my left cerebellum and many other ups and downs in my medical history where I've had to get really good at managing my health anxiety. I wanted to share with you some real-time tips that I am practicing as I deal with another medical illness or another medical concern that I wanted to share with you. Here I'm going to share with you five specific tips, but I think in total, there's 20-something tips all woven in here. I've done my best to put them into just five. But do make sure you listen to the end of the podcast episode because I'm also going to give some health anxiety journal prompts or questions that you can ask yourself so that you can know how to deal with health anxiety if you're experiencing that at this time. Before we get into it, let me give you a little bit of a backstory. Several months ago, I did share that I've been having these what I call surges. They're like adrenaline surges. They wake me up. My heart isn't racing. It's not like it's racing fast, but the only way I can explain it is I feel like I have like a racehorse's heart in my chest, like this huge heart that's beating really heavily. Of course, that creates anxiety. And so then I would question like, is it the heartbeat or is it just my anxiety? You go back and you go forward trying to figure out which is which. But because this was a symptom that was persisting and was also showing up when I wasn't experiencing a lot of stress or anxiety, I thought the right thing to do is to go and see the doctor. WHAT HEALTH ANXIETY FEELS LIKE Before we get started, be sure to make sure you're not avoiding doctors. Make sure you're not dismissing symptoms. We do have to find a very, very wise balance between avoiding doctors but also not overdoing it with doctors. We'll talk about that a little bit here in a minute. But first, I wanted to just share with you what health anxiety feels like for me. Because for me, I'm very, very skilled at identifying what is anxiety and what is not. I've become very good at catching that by experience, folks. It's not something that comes naturally, but by experience, I can identify what is health anxiety and what is a real medical condition or what is something worthy of me getting checked out. For me, for the health anxiety piece, it's really this sort of anxiety that is a sense of catastrophization and it's usually in the form of thoughts like, what if this is cancer? What if this is a stroke? All the worst-case scenarios. What if this is life-threatening? What if I miss this and you are responsible, you should have picked it up. These are very common health anxiety intrusive thoughts or health anxiety thoughts that I think you really need to be able to catch and be aware and mindful of. First of all, that is the biggest symptom for me. The other thing is when you have health anxiety, you do tend to hyper-fixate on the symptom and all of the surrounding symptoms that are going with that. And then you can really catastrophize those like, "Well, my heart's beating really heavily and I feel dizzy. Oh my gosh. And I've been having a headache. Yeah, you're right, I've been having a headache. Oh my gosh." I call it 'gathering.' That's not an actual clinical term, but I do use it with my clients. We gather data that is catastrophic to make it seem like, yeah, we actually have a really big point, and this is actually a catastrophe. Some other health anxiety symptom that I experience is panic. When you notice a symptom, it is very common to start panicking. And then again, you go back to this chicken or the egg or is it the horse or the carriage in terms of I'm panicking, and now the panic has all these symptoms. Are these symptoms an actual medical condition or are they actually just anxiety and panic? You could spend a lot of time stuck in that cycle trying to figure that out. Let's now talk about how to manage these symptoms and some tips and tools that you can use. Tip #1: No Googling Let me tell you what has recently happened to me. I've been having these symptoms. I made an appointment to see my cardiologist. It was two months out and I was like, "It's not a big deal. I can handle these symptoms." I'm feeling super confident about my ability now to just ride out some pretty uncomfortable sensations and not catastrophize. I go in for my checkup, they do an echocardiogram, and it's taking a long time. She's asking me these strange questions like, "Why are you here again," as she's doi

5 TIPS FOR HEALTH ANXIETY DURING A DRS VISIT If you want my five tips for health anxiety during a Drs visit, especially if you have a medical condition that concerns you, this is the episode for you. Hello and welcome back everybody. Today, I'm going to share some updates about a recent medical issue I have had, and I'm going to share specific tips for dealing with health anxiety (also known as hypochondria). A lot of you who have been here with me before know I have postural orthostatic tachycardic syndrome. I also have a lesion on my left cerebellum and many other ups and downs in my medical history where I've had to get really good at managing my health anxiety. I wanted to share with you some real-time tips that I am practicing as I deal with another medical illness or another medical concern that I wanted to share with you. Here I'm going to share with you five specific tips, but I think in total, there's 20-something tips all woven in here. I've done my best to put them into just five. But do make sure you listen to the end of the podcast episode because I'm also going to give some health anxiety journal prompts or questions that you can ask yourself so that you can know how to deal with health anxiety if you're experiencing that at this time. Before we get into it, let me give you a little bit of a backstory. Several months ago, I did share that I've been having these what I call surges. They're like adrenaline surges. They wake me up. My heart isn't racing. It's not like it's racing fast, but the only way I can explain it is I feel like I have like a racehorse's heart in my chest, like this huge heart that's beating really heavily. Of course, that creates anxiety. And so then I would question like, is it the heartbeat or is it just my anxiety? You go back and you go forward trying to figure out which is which. But because this was a symptom that was persisting and was also showing up when I wasn't experiencing a lot of stress or anxiety, I thought the right thing to do is to go and see the doctor. WHAT HEALTH ANXIETY FEELS LIKE Before we get started, be sure to make sure you're not avoiding doctors. Make sure you're not dismissing symptoms. We do have to find a very, very wise balance between avoiding doctors but also not overdoing it with doctors. We'll talk about that a little bit here in a minute. But first, I wanted to just share with you what health anxiety feels like for me. Because for me, I'm very, very skilled at identifying what is anxiety and what is not. I've become very good at catching that by experience, folks. It's not something that comes naturally, but by experience, I can identify what is health anxiety and what is a real medical condition or what is something worthy of me getting checked out. For me, for the health anxiety piece, it's really this sort of anxiety that is a sense of catastrophization and it's usually in the form of thoughts like, what if this is cancer? What if this is a stroke? All the worst-case scenarios. What if this is life-threatening? What if I miss this and you are responsible, you should have picked it up. These are very common health anxiety intrusive thoughts or health anxiety thoughts that I think you really need to be able to catch and be aware and mindful of. First of all, that is the biggest symptom for me. The other thing is when you have health anxiety, you do tend to hyper-fixate on the symptom and all of the surrounding symptoms that are going with that. And then you can really catastrophize those like, "Well, my heart's beating really heavily and I feel dizzy. Oh my gosh. And I've been having a headache. Yeah, you're right, I've been having a headache. Oh my gosh." I call it 'gathering.' That's not an actual clinical term, but I do use it with my clients. We gather data that is catastrophic to make it seem like, yeah, we actually have a really big point, and this is actually a catastrophe. Some other health anxiety symptom that I experience is panic. When you notice a symptom, it is very common to start panicking. And then again, you go back to this chicken or the egg or is it the horse or the carriage in terms of I'm panicking, and now the panic has all these symptoms. Are these symptoms an actual medical condition or are they actually just anxiety and panic? You could spend a lot of time stuck in that cycle trying to figure that out. Let's now talk about how to manage these symptoms and some tips and tools that you can use. Tip #1: No Googling Let me tell you what has recently happened to me. I've been having these symptoms. I made an appointment to see my cardiologist. It was two months out and I was like, "It's not a big deal. I can handle these symptoms." I'm feeling super confident about my ability now to just ride out some pretty uncomfortable sensations and not catastrophize. I go in for my checkup, they do an echocardiogram, and it's taking a long time. She's asking me these strange questions like, "Why are you here again," as she's doi

5 TIPS FOR HEALTH ANXIETY DURING A DRS VISIT If you want my five tips for health anxiety during a Drs visit, especially if you have a medical condition that concerns you, this is the episode for you. Hello and welcome back everybody. Today, I'm going to share some updates about a recent medical issue I have had, and I'm going to share specific tips for dealing with health anxiety (also known as hypochondria). A lot of you who have been here with me before know I have postural orthostatic tachycardic syndrome. I also have a lesion on my left cerebellum and many other ups and downs in my medical history where I've had to get really good at managing my health anxiety. I wanted to share with you some real-time tips that I am practicing as I deal with another medical illness or another medical concern that I wanted to share with you. Here I'm going to share with you five specific tips, but I think in total, there's 20-something tips all woven in here. I've done my best to put them into just five. But do make sure you listen to the end of the podcast episode because I'm also going to give some health anxiety journal prompts or questions that you can ask yourself so that you can know how to deal with health anxiety if you're experiencing that at this time. Before we get into it, let me give you a little bit of a backstory. Several months ago, I did share that I've been having these what I call surges. They're like adrenaline surges. They wake me up. My heart isn't racing. It's not like it's racing fast, but the only way I can explain it is I feel like I have like a racehorse's heart in my chest, like this huge heart that's beating really heavily. Of course, that creates anxiety. And so then I would question like, is it the heartbeat or is it just my anxiety? You go back and you go forward trying to figure out which is which. But because this was a symptom that was persisting and was also showing up when I wasn't experiencing a lot of stress or anxiety, I thought the right thing to do is to go and see the doctor. WHAT HEALTH ANXIETY FEELS LIKE Before we get started, be sure to make sure you're not avoiding doctors. Make sure you're not dismissing symptoms. We do have to find a very, very wise balance between avoiding doctors but also not overdoing it with doctors. We'll talk about that a little bit here in a minute. But first, I wanted to just share with you what health anxiety feels like for me. Because for me, I'm very, very skilled at identifying what is anxiety and what is not. I've become very good at catching that by experience, folks. It's not something that comes naturally, but by experience, I can identify what is health anxiety and what is a real medical condition or what is something worthy of me getting checked out. For me, for the health anxiety piece, it's really this sort of anxiety that is a sense of catastrophization and it's usually in the form of thoughts like, what if this is cancer? What if this is a stroke? All the worst-case scenarios. What if this is life-threatening? What if I miss this and you are responsible, you should have picked it up. These are very common health anxiety intrusive thoughts or health anxiety thoughts that I think you really need to be able to catch and be aware and mindful of. First of all, that is the biggest symptom for me. The other thing is when you have health anxiety, you do tend to hyper-fixate on the symptom and all of the surrounding symptoms that are going with that. And then you can really catastrophize those like, "Well, my heart's beating really heavily and I feel dizzy. Oh my gosh. And I've been having a headache. Yeah, you're right, I've been having a headache. Oh my gosh." I call it 'gathering.' That's not an actual clinical term, but I do use it with my clients. We gather data that is catastrophic to make it seem like, yeah, we actually have a really big point, and this is actually a catastrophe. Some other health anxiety symptom that I experience is panic. When you notice a symptom, it is very common to start panicking. And then again, you go back to this chicken or the egg or is it the horse or the carriage in terms of I'm panicking, and now the panic has all these symptoms. Are these symptoms an actual medical condition or are they actually just anxiety and panic? You could spend a lot of time stuck in that cycle trying to figure that out. Let's now talk about how to manage these symptoms and some tips and tools that you can use. Tip #1: No Googling Let me tell you what has recently happened to me. I've been having these symptoms. I made an appointment to see my cardiologist. It was two months out and I was like, "It's not a big deal. I can handle these symptoms." I'm feeling super confident about my ability now to just ride out some pretty uncomfortable sensations and not catastrophize. I go in for my checkup, they do an echocardiogram, and it's taking a long time. She's asking me these strange questions like, "Why are you here again," as she's doi

Today, we're talking about the Top 5 Relationship Rules I have that have changed my life. This episode was inspired by a letter I wrote to all of you. For those of you who signed up for my newsletter, I give you tools and tips, and stories, and I tell you funny jokes sometimes. But I was writing the newsletter while I was in Australia just before I left when I was there in December, and I was reflecting on how beautiful my relationships are with my family now. And I was reflecting on why. Why are they so beautiful? Well, number one, they're beautiful people. But number two, more importantly, I have learned these relationship rules, which have allowed me to have the most beautiful relationship with my family and the most beautiful relationship with my husband, my kids, my friends, and you guys. Now, that doesn't mean there are no bumps. That doesn't mean there are no arguments. A few weeks ago, I wrote in the newsletter about how I had an argument with my husband. Of course, I was joking about how wrong he was and how right I was. But it doesn't mean we don't have conflict, but we get to coexist because of these relationship rules, and I want to share them with you. Before we proceed, I want to say, these mightn't work for you. I think they work well, but I don't want you to feel guilty, ashamed, embarrassed, angry, or whatever the feelings are if you feel like these don't match you. So take what you need here. Leave what isn't helpful for you; if it's useful for you, wonderful. If it doesn't sit right, one of them doesn't sit right, that is not a problem. It's totally okay to use what helps you. When I'm talking on this podcast, I'm giving you ideas, so be curious and consider them, but it doesn't mean that I'm always right, I think I'm right, or I know what's right for you. All right, here we go. I'm going to go through them quickly and then elaborate a little later once we get through, okay? But I want to remind you that these relationship rules help me stay solid in my relationships, and they've gotten me through some of the hardest periods and seasons of my life. So, let's see if they're helpful for you. 1. It is not your job or my job to manage our family's emotions. Their emotions are their responsibility, and it is their job to regulate their emotions when they're upset with us. And it's our job to regulate and manage our emotions when we are upset. Now, what does regulate mean? It means you're allowed to have them. We're not saying that no one's allowed to be upset, but we have to communicate and share with them and regulate by not throwing things, lashing out, saying unkind things, saying things that aren't true, saying 'you' statements like, "You're so blah, blah, blah." We want to use 'I' statements like, "I feel this way about that," or "I would like this thing to happen." So, we want to regulate as best as we can. Our job is to regulate what shows up for us, and their job is to regulate what shows up for them. 2. It is not your job to please the people you are in relationship with. Now, they get to have expectations and they get to communicate with you on what their expectations are, and you get to have expectations and you get to communicate their expectations. Now, this is so important, then we can have a respectful conversation. A lot of the time these days, I see people in relationships or even online where somebody disagrees and they're so hurt. They're like, "You've harmed me by saying that. I'm so hurt by what you said." But the person gets to have their thoughts and their feelings. It's not our job to manage it, and it's not our job to please them either. So you get to have your beliefs and thoughts and ideas, and you get to disagree with other people as well. It's as long as we're able to do it respectfully. And when I say respectful, I'm not saying it in a people-pleasing way either. It is not our job to please people. It's just not. Here's a deeper one. Let me just jump into this a little: I'm still working on this and I get therapy. I have a lot of practice and I've read about the idea of my happiness. That's my job. My happiness is my job. And I easily get caught up in, "No, if my partner would just do A, B, and C, then I can be happy," or "If my kids just do A, B, and C, then I can be happy." And that is true to a degree. But the problem with that rule, if you want to keep that rule, is you have no empowerment and no responsibility. It's all up to them. Your life is in their hands. Your happiness is in their hands. And so, I like to think about, yeah, people can't always please me, like I just said, and people are going to upset me. And then it's my job to decide what I want to do with that, and it's my job to determine how I'm going to cope today with the fact that they may not be living up to the way I want them to. So that's really important. 3. They are allowed to have their feelings about our choices. This is a big one for my husband and I. We say this to each other all the t

Today, we're talking about the Top 5 Relationship Rules I have that have changed my life. This episode was inspired by a letter I wrote to all of you. For those of you who signed up for my newsletter, I give you tools and tips, and stories, and I tell you funny jokes sometimes. But I was writing the newsletter while I was in Australia just before I left when I was there in December, and I was reflecting on how beautiful my relationships are with my family now. And I was reflecting on why. Why are they so beautiful? Well, number one, they're beautiful people. But number two, more importantly, I have learned these relationship rules, which have allowed me to have the most beautiful relationship with my family and the most beautiful relationship with my husband, my kids, my friends, and you guys. Now, that doesn't mean there are no bumps. That doesn't mean there are no arguments. A few weeks ago, I wrote in the newsletter about how I had an argument with my husband. Of course, I was joking about how wrong he was and how right I was. But it doesn't mean we don't have conflict, but we get to coexist because of these relationship rules, and I want to share them with you. Before we proceed, I want to say, these mightn't work for you. I think they work well, but I don't want you to feel guilty, ashamed, embarrassed, angry, or whatever the feelings are if you feel like these don't match you. So take what you need here. Leave what isn't helpful for you; if it's useful for you, wonderful. If it doesn't sit right, one of them doesn't sit right, that is not a problem. It's totally okay to use what helps you. When I'm talking on this podcast, I'm giving you ideas, so be curious and consider them, but it doesn't mean that I'm always right, I think I'm right, or I know what's right for you. All right, here we go. I'm going to go through them quickly and then elaborate a little later once we get through, okay? But I want to remind you that these relationship rules help me stay solid in my relationships, and they've gotten me through some of the hardest periods and seasons of my life. So, let's see if they're helpful for you. 1. It is not your job or my job to manage our family's emotions. Their emotions are their responsibility, and it is their job to regulate their emotions when they're upset with us. And it's our job to regulate and manage our emotions when we are upset. Now, what does regulate mean? It means you're allowed to have them. We're not saying that no one's allowed to be upset, but we have to communicate and share with them and regulate by not throwing things, lashing out, saying unkind things, saying things that aren't true, saying 'you' statements like, "You're so blah, blah, blah." We want to use 'I' statements like, "I feel this way about that," or "I would like this thing to happen." So, we want to regulate as best as we can. Our job is to regulate what shows up for us, and their job is to regulate what shows up for them. 2. It is not your job to please the people you are in relationship with. Now, they get to have expectations and they get to communicate with you on what their expectations are, and you get to have expectations and you get to communicate their expectations. Now, this is so important, then we can have a respectful conversation. A lot of the time these days, I see people in relationships or even online where somebody disagrees and they're so hurt. They're like, "You've harmed me by saying that. I'm so hurt by what you said." But the person gets to have their thoughts and their feelings. It's not our job to manage it, and it's not our job to please them either. So you get to have your beliefs and thoughts and ideas, and you get to disagree with other people as well. It's as long as we're able to do it respectfully. And when I say respectful, I'm not saying it in a people-pleasing way either. It is not our job to please people. It's just not. Here's a deeper one. Let me just jump into this a little: I'm still working on this and I get therapy. I have a lot of practice and I've read about the idea of my happiness. That's my job. My happiness is my job. And I easily get caught up in, "No, if my partner would just do A, B, and C, then I can be happy," or "If my kids just do A, B, and C, then I can be happy." And that is true to a degree. But the problem with that rule, if you want to keep that rule, is you have no empowerment and no responsibility. It's all up to them. Your life is in their hands. Your happiness is in their hands. And so, I like to think about, yeah, people can't always please me, like I just said, and people are going to upset me. And then it's my job to decide what I want to do with that, and it's my job to determine how I'm going to cope today with the fact that they may not be living up to the way I want them to. So that's really important. 3. They are allowed to have their feelings about our choices. This is a big one for my husband and I. We say this to each other all the t

Today, we're talking about the Top 5 Relationship Rules I have that have changed my life. This episode was inspired by a letter I wrote to all of you. For those of you who signed up for my newsletter, I give you tools and tips, and stories, and I tell you funny jokes sometimes. But I was writing the newsletter while I was in Australia just before I left when I was there in December, and I was reflecting on how beautiful my relationships are with my family now. And I was reflecting on why. Why are they so beautiful? Well, number one, they're beautiful people. But number two, more importantly, I have learned these relationship rules, which have allowed me to have the most beautiful relationship with my family and the most beautiful relationship with my husband, my kids, my friends, and you guys. Now, that doesn't mean there are no bumps. That doesn't mean there are no arguments. A few weeks ago, I wrote in the newsletter about how I had an argument with my husband. Of course, I was joking about how wrong he was and how right I was. But it doesn't mean we don't have conflict, but we get to coexist because of these relationship rules, and I want to share them with you. Before we proceed, I want to say, these mightn't work for you. I think they work well, but I don't want you to feel guilty, ashamed, embarrassed, angry, or whatever the feelings are if you feel like these don't match you. So take what you need here. Leave what isn't helpful for you; if it's useful for you, wonderful. If it doesn't sit right, one of them doesn't sit right, that is not a problem. It's totally okay to use what helps you. When I'm talking on this podcast, I'm giving you ideas, so be curious and consider them, but it doesn't mean that I'm always right, I think I'm right, or I know what's right for you. All right, here we go. I'm going to go through them quickly and then elaborate a little later once we get through, okay? But I want to remind you that these relationship rules help me stay solid in my relationships, and they've gotten me through some of the hardest periods and seasons of my life. So, let's see if they're helpful for you. 1. It is not your job or my job to manage our family's emotions. Their emotions are their responsibility, and it is their job to regulate their emotions when they're upset with us. And it's our job to regulate and manage our emotions when we are upset. Now, what does regulate mean? It means you're allowed to have them. We're not saying that no one's allowed to be upset, but we have to communicate and share with them and regulate by not throwing things, lashing out, saying unkind things, saying things that aren't true, saying 'you' statements like, "You're so blah, blah, blah." We want to use 'I' statements like, "I feel this way about that," or "I would like this thing to happen." So, we want to regulate as best as we can. Our job is to regulate what shows up for us, and their job is to regulate what shows up for them. 2. It is not your job to please the people you are in relationship with. Now, they get to have expectations and they get to communicate with you on what their expectations are, and you get to have expectations and you get to communicate their expectations. Now, this is so important, then we can have a respectful conversation. A lot of the time these days, I see people in relationships or even online where somebody disagrees and they're so hurt. They're like, "You've harmed me by saying that. I'm so hurt by what you said." But the person gets to have their thoughts and their feelings. It's not our job to manage it, and it's not our job to please them either. So you get to have your beliefs and thoughts and ideas, and you get to disagree with other people as well. It's as long as we're able to do it respectfully. And when I say respectful, I'm not saying it in a people-pleasing way either. It is not our job to please people. It's just not. Here's a deeper one. Let me just jump into this a little: I'm still working on this and I get therapy. I have a lot of practice and I've read about the idea of my happiness. That's my job. My happiness is my job. And I easily get caught up in, "No, if my partner would just do A, B, and C, then I can be happy," or "If my kids just do A, B, and C, then I can be happy." And that is true to a degree. But the problem with that rule, if you want to keep that rule, is you have no empowerment and no responsibility. It's all up to them. Your life is in their hands. Your happiness is in their hands. And so, I like to think about, yeah, people can't always please me, like I just said, and people are going to upset me. And then it's my job to decide what I want to do with that, and it's my job to determine how I'm going to cope today with the fact that they may not be living up to the way I want them to. So that's really important. 3. They are allowed to have their feelings about our choices. This is a big one for my husband and I. We say this to each other all the t

One of the most common questions I get asked is what do I do during or after an exposure? Number One, it's so scary to do an exposure, and number two, there's so many things that people have brought up as things to do, even me, this being Your Anxiety Toolkit. Maybe you get overwhelmed with the opportunity and options for tools that it gets too complicated. So, I want to make this super easy for you, and I want to go through step by step, like what you're supposed to do during or after an exposure. Now, I think it's important that we first look at, there is no right. You get to choose, and I'm going to say that all the way through here, but I'm going to give you some really definitive goals to be going forward with as you do an exposure, as you face your fear. Now, make sure you stick around to the end because I will also address some of the biggest roadblocks I hear people have with the skills that I'm going to share. Now, a lot of you know, I have ERP School if you have OCD and I have Overcoming Anxiety and Panic if you have panic, and I have BFRB School if you have hair pulling and skin picking. These are all basically courses of me teaching you exactly what I teach my patients. So, if you want a deeper in-depth study of that, you can, by all means, get the steps there of how to build an exposure plan, how to build a response prevention plan. Today, I'm going to complement that work and talk about what to do during and after an exposure. So here we go. Let's say you already know what you're going to face. Like I said, you've already created an exposure plan. You understand the cycle of the disorder or the struggle that you are handling, and you've really identified how you're going to break that cycle and you've identified the fear that you're going to face. Or just by the fact of nature being the nature, you've been spontaneously exposed to your fear. What do you do? Now, let's recap the core concepts that we talk about here all the time on Your Anxiety Toolkit, which is, number one, what we want to do is practice tolerating whatever discomfort you experience. What does that mean? It means being open and compassionate and vulnerable as you experience discomfort in your body. A lot of people will say, "But what am I supposed to do?" And this is where I'm going to say, this is very similar to me trying to teach you how to ride a bike on this podcast. Or I'll tell you a story. My 11-year-old daughter was sassing me the other day and I was telling her I wanted her to unpack the dishwasher, and she said, "How?" She was just giving me sass, joking with me. And I was saying to her, "Well, you raise your hand up and you open your fist and you put your hand over the top of the dishwasher and you pull with your muscles down towards your--" I'm trying giving her like silly-- we're joking with each other, like step by step. Now, it's very hard to learn how to do that by just words. Usually—let's go back to the bike example—you have to get on the bike and feel the sensation of falling to know what to do to counter the fall as you start to lean to the left or lean to the right. And so, when it comes to willingly tolerating your discomfort, it actually just requires you practicing it, and if I'm going to be quite honest with you, sucking at it, because you will suck at it. We all suck at being uncomfortable. But then working at knowing how to counter that discomfort. Again, you're on the bike, you're starting to feel yourself move to the right and learning to lean to the left a little to balance it out. And that's what learning how to be uncomfortable is about too. It's having the discomfort, noticing in your body it's tightening, and learning to do the opposite of that tightening. It is very similar to learning how to ride a bike. And it's very similar in that it's not just a cognitive behavior, it's a physical thing. It's noticing, "Oh, I'm tight." For me, as I get anxious, I always bring my shoulders up and it's learning to counter that by dropping them down. So, it's tolerating discomfort. Now, often beyond that-- I'm going to give you some more strategy here in a second. But beyond that, it's actually quite simple in that you go and do whatever it is that you would be doing if you hadn't faced this hard thing. Here is an example. The other week during the holidays, one of my family members-- I'll tell you the story. My mom and dad took a trip to Antarctica. This is a dream trip for them. They're very well-traveled and they were going through what's called the Drake Passage, which is this very scary passage of water. It took them 36 hours to sail through it and it can be very dangerous. And I noticed that the anxiety I was feeling in my body about the uncertainty of where they are and how far they've got to go and are they safe and all these things is I was sitting on the couch and I wasn't engaging in anything. My kids were trying to talk to me and I was blowing them off. And I was scrolling on my phone instead o

MINDFULLY TENDING TO ANGER & RESENTMENT Welcome back. I am so happy to have you here with me today to talk about mindfully tending to feelings of anger and resentment. Sometimes when we have relentless anxiety and intrusive thoughts, anger can feel like the only emotion we can access. For those of you who don't know me, well, you might be surprised to hear maybe not to know that I actually have quite a hot temper. I get hot really quick emotionally, and I don't know if it's because as a child I didn't really allow myself to feel anger. I think societally, I was told I shouldn't be angry. And so, when it comes up inside me, it heats up really quick to a boiling point. And my goal for this year is not—let me be very clear—is not to say I am going to stop being angry because that is actually the problem. It is not to say I can't feel angry and I shouldn't feel angry. It's actually to tend to my anger and start to listen to what anger is trying to communicate to me. My goal with you today is to walk you through how you can do that. And I'd love if you would stay with me for a short meditation where we mindfully tend to anger and resentment. IS ANGER & RESENTMENT HEALTHY? I think the first thing I want to mention here is that anger and resentment are actually really normal healthy emotions. Nothing to be guilty of, ashamed of, annoyed by, nothing to judge, that the anger and resentment are actually healthy emotions. They come from a place of wishing things could be better or improved, and they usually show up when we experience some kind of injustice in the world or in our daily life. Maybe someone hurt your feelings or they acted in a way that made you feel unsafe. Maybe someone stopped you from succeeding. Maybe somebody judged you and you experienced that as a threat. WHY DO I FEEL SO ANGRY? Anger can show up for many reasons. Maybe it's because you're noticing the injustices in the world and that makes you angry. That political things can really make people show up in anger. And again, that doesn't mean there's anything wrong, but expressing it in a healthy way can be really useful because bottling it up, it usually numbs other feelings, it can wear down your mental health, and it can mean—and I have learnt this the hard way—is that we then explode and end up saying things we don't mean, or doing things we don't want to do that don't align up with our values or showing up the way that we want. And for me, that's a big part of my goal this year. Now, the reason I actually am doing this, this is not a scheduled podcast, is yesterday my husband and I were having a disagreement. And sometimes I have to remind myself like, disagreements aren't a problem. Because in my mind, disagreement is like, "Oh my gosh, terrible things are about to happen and I'm very scared. Please love me forever." You know what I mean? And my husband has to keep gently saying like it's okay that we don't agree on everything. We were having a disagreement and I could feel the anger showing up in my body. And I was trying to really focus on just being mindful of that experience, because when I don't do that, my immediate response is, "Fight. Let's go to war. Let me show you how you are wrong. Let me be very clear in my boundary that you cannot cross," which is all fine. Again, none of that's wrong, but I could feel myself heating to a boiling point in a very, very short amount of time. I've been really trying to instead of acting on anger in certain situations-- again, there's nothing wrong if you need to act on anger. WHEN IS ANGER APPROPRIATE? Sometimes if you're in a dangerous position, you need to act on anger. But I'm really working on allowing anger, befriending and tending to anger. Anger can be our friend. Like, what's the problem? Let's actually have it, Kimberley. Let's actually feel it. Let's actually feel it go through my body. Let's allow it to burn itself off. And let's do that, not because we got to make our point and make sure they know we're right, but because you actually felt it. You allowed it, you rode the wave of it, it burnt off. And it always burns off. That's the thing. That's mindfulness—to recognize that everything is temporary. If you say-- I'm talking to myself here. If you say what you say when you're angry, you mightn't have said it in a way that is effective as if you had said that thing a few moments later when you've let a little bit of that anger burn off. Again, I'm not saying here that there's anything wrong with just saying what you need to say, but for me personally, I'm really trying this year. One of my biggest goals is respect through my words. Respect through my words. Really pausing and being really intentional with my words. And I know that when I'm angry, that is absolutely not happening. So, we know that expressing anger is fine. We know that bottling it in is usually problematic. Pretending you're not mad is also inauthentic. Sometimes my husband's like, "You're so clearly mad." And I'm like,

In this week's podcast, I talked with Lynn Lyons about her new book, The Anxiety Audit (7 Sneaky Ways Anxiety Takes Hold and How to Escape Them). We discuss: How repetitive negative thinking disguises itself as problem-solving How catastrophic thinking makes the world a dangerous place and demands you react accordingly How big conclusions and an all-or-nothing approach make the world smaller and harder to navigate. How a fear of judgment isolates and disconnects us from people How being busy and overscheduled both adds and masquerade anxiety and stress How we blame others when we are irritable How self-care becomes not self-care at all Transcript This editable transcript was computer generated and might contain errors. People can also change the text after it is created. Kimberley Quinlan: Okay, good. Well, welcome, Lynn Lyons. I am so thrilled to have you on the show today. Okay, so very exciting. Lynn Lyons: Oh well, thanks for having me. Kimberley Quinlan: You just wrote another book. I will say another book. It's amazing. Please tell me before we get started. Why did you choose that as the title? Lynn Lyons: Well, what happened was we have a podcast called flusterclux. And I do that with my sister-in-law Robin; she's married to my brother. And during the pandemic, one of the courses we created together, she called it the anxiety on it because we wanted to go through the patterns that maybe people were experiencing and they didn't, they didn't have words to them, they didn't know what was going on. And so we did this course, and we put it out there, and then my publisher said, Do you want to write a book? And I said, "Oh, okay". And Robin and I said, Well, why don't you just make the course we did into a book? It'll be easy because she's never written a book before. Um, so that sort of was the genesis of it. So the publisher like the title, the anxiety on it. So the book ended up being much more expanded than the original course, but the title was from Robin. And the course we did for the podcast. Kimberley Quinlan: Right. And I loved it because there is a degree of going through your book. We're going to talk today about the seven sneaky ways anxiety takes hold and how to escape that, but I love how it is. It feels like an audit, right? You're kind of auditing through these sneaky ways anxiety can take hold. So, I love that. So, let's go through today's those seven points, and then we will go deeper if we have time. Can you tell me a little about this first main concept of how repetitive thinking disguises itself as the problem? Lynn Lyons: Yeah, it disguises itself as problem-solving. So when you are doing repetitive negative thinking,… Kimberley Quinlan: Aha. Lynn Lyons is just the lingo we use to describe worrying and ruminating. We generally distinguish between worrying and ruminating in which direction and time they head. So if you are a worrier, you tend to worry about things that haven't happened yet. And if you're a ruminator, you're going back over things, which tends to be both. It can feel pretty obsessive. A ruminator will go back over things and ask those questions. And did I say the right thing? Did I do the right thing? Did I buy the right refrigerator? Did I make the right decision? Lynn Lyons: Repetitive Negative thinking. The problem with it is that the thinking feels like the solution. Remember, anxiety seeks that certainty. If I just go over it, if I just think about it, if I just talk about it, if I just ask people about it, if I just get more information about it, that will lead me to a solution. But what we know is that the thinking is actually the problem because when you overthink, Lynn Lyons: You're caught in that repetitive cycle. You're seeking that certainty. So you don't move forward, and you don't take action. It just feels like you're doing something productive. But unfortunately, you're when people go to therapy, if they have this kind of obsessive thinking and they get caught in it, is that the therapist will unknowingly say, Well, let's think about this, or Let's talk about this, some more. Let's explore this. Or What could that mean and the anxieties? Like, Yeah, I love this lady. Now we get to do our thing. Lynn Lyons: What we know about people that tend to overthink and get into this repetitive negative thinking is that they are less likely to act on a solution if they come across one in their thinking. So they're saying, "Oh, I'm thinking to figure this out," but then they never take the necessary action. Yeah. So it's a way to trick you into thinking you're doing the right thing. When you're just feeding your rumination feeding your worry, Kimberley Quinlan: I love it, and you mentioned in your book Chewing the mental card, which I thought was just classic and… Lynn Lyons: Mmm. M. Kimberley Quinlan: hilarious. I grew up on a farm, so that was very appropriate. I love it. Let's go to number two, how catastrophic thinking makes a world, the world a dangerous place a

This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 318, and welcome 2023. Welcome back, guys. Happy 2023. Happy New Year. I want you to imagine you and I are sitting down at a table and we both have the most wonderful, warm tea or coffee or water or whatever it is that you enjoy, and we are going to have a talk. You're not getting a talking too, I'm not saying that. But I want you to imagine that I'm standing in front of you or sitting in front of you and we've got eyes locked, and I am dead serious in what I'm talking to you about because I believe it to be the most important thing you need for 2023. I really, really do. So, let's talk. Okay, you've got your tea. I've got my tea. Let's do this. Okay. So, I want you to imagine that you have a suffering in your life. We all have suffering. It's a part of being a human. Life is 50/50. It's 50% easy and 50% hard. We all are going to have suffering this year. But I want you to imagine this scenario. It could be something that's hard for you that you're already going through or could be imagined. And I want you to think about that there's a circumstance or a situation that happened that is out of your control and it's causing you suffering. Maybe it's a thought that's intrusive, maybe it's anxiety, maybe it's depression. Maybe you have a hole in your tire, maybe you-- if you hear some people walking, it's because my whole family are upstairs playing. But maybe you have some financial stresses, relationship stresses. Maybe you feel very alone. Whatever you're suffering is, I want you to acknowledge that you're having this suffering. And then I want you to think about, who could I call to help me manage this pain in my life? Is it someone who could support me and nurture me during that suffering? Is it someone who has the solution to that problem? Is it somebody who's been through it before and they can guide you on what to do? So what we do when we have suffering is we gather hopefully a list of people who we can help and we reach out to them. That's good coping, right? But what I want you to do differently, or maybe you're already doing this and I want you to do more of in 2023, is I want you to move you to the top of that list. I want you to be the first person you call to offer yourself the support and wisdom and guidance, right? I'm not here to say there's anything wrong with calling the other people. In fact, I am a huge believer in gathering your peeps when things are hard, calling your speed-dial people, right? That's cool. I want you to be doing that. But I want for this year for you to move yourself to the top of the list and ask yourself, what is it that you need while you suffer? How can I support you while you suffer? What do you need to hear as you suffer? How can I tend to this suffering in a kind, compassionate, non-abandoning way? How can we be that for ourselves? We have to be at the top of the list. And I don't mean that in any preachy way. I mean it because let's look at the problems when we're not, when we don't show up at the top of the list. We build this belief that we need other people and we don't have what it takes to get through it, right? When we put ourselves at the top of the list, we develop and grow muscles in our brain that have us start to see that we can cope really well by ourselves. That we have everything that we need, right? That is so, so beautiful. And the reason I'm sharing this with you in this hopefully not preachy way is I was journaling the other day and I was really asking myself like, what is it that I want to talk about? What is it that I'm so passionate about? What is it that lights a fire inside me? And while, yes, I love talking about anxiety and yes, I love talking about OCD and I love talking about mental health and all the things, this one thing I believe is the biggest game changer above and beyond all the tools that I give you in my toolkit. Oh, PS, I have to tell you, I was looking for-- I was doing a Google search on Your Anxiety Toolkit because I just had to pull up something and it's easier for me just to Google it. And when I wrote it in, this teeny tiny wooden kids toolkit showed up, like this little toolbox. And I couldn't help myself, but I had to buy it because I was like, that's exactly it, right? This is all about me giving you an array of tools and tools that are super effective and tools that you know when to use them. Because imagine if you had a saw but you were using it for the wrong thing, that would be very ineffective. So, that's the whole premise of this podcast. But I was thinking about, of all the tools in the toolkit, this might be the most important one, which is the one that teaches you how strong you are. That you are the most unconditional friend for yourself, the most unconditional friend. You are there non-stop, no matter what. No matter what happens, you have the capacity to sit with yourself in compassion while you suffer. So, that's it, you guys. That's all I have to say. That's the goal

Welcome back, everybody. I am thrilled, thrilled, thrilled to have you here again, finishing out the year so strong. In this episode, we planned perfectly for this week because my guess is that you're starting to make New Year's resolutions or make New Year's goals, and we wanted to talk, myself and the amazing guests that we have this week, about how you can change your habits in the most compassionate and effective way.. We have back this week with us Monica Packer. She's been on the show before. To be honest, she's like a warm hug to me. I just feel like it's just sitting down and having a chat with a dear long friend, like an old friend. I love speaking with Monica. She's just got such deep wisdom to her. And so, today, we got together and talked about how to change your habits compassionately and effectively. Because when people set resolutions or New Year's goals, they're just talking about creating new habits, like how can I create new habits in my life? How can I make a change in my life? And sometimes, we tend to do that in a very aggressive, critical way. And so, we wanted to sit down and talk about how we can do that in a compassionate, effective way. Kimberley: Okay. Welcome, Monica. I'm so happy to have you here. Monica: Oh, it really is a joy. I just love everything you do and who you are, more importantly. So, I'm excited to be here again. HOW TO CHANGE YOUR HABITS Kimberley: Thank you. Thank you. Okay, so you and I were chatting, and I love this idea of preparing for the hard day, but particularly emphasizing how to change your habits that prepare you for your dark day or your hard day. Tell me a little about why that is so important to you or even how you've implemented this in your life. Monica: When I think back on my history with habit formation, it was clouded for a long time with these all-or-nothing models that taught me to have good habits, they needed to look this way, and it needed to be formed in this way. It needed to be consistent in this way. And a big part of that was not only were we supposed to have an ideal, we were supposed to start with the ideal. You just decide what the habit is and then you do it for 28 days, or whatever number we all have in our heads. You get to that magical number and it's a habit. And that never worked for me. And so, for a really long time-- well, it worked for me when I was the type A, very overachieving perfectionist. But that came at a big cost in my life. And we talked about that I think in our past interview we did together. And that cost was not one I was willing to make for a long time. I wasn't willing to sacrifice my mental and physical and spiritual health and my relationships anymore to be so performing. And so, because of that, I thought that was the only way to, one, progress in your life and have goals, but also trickle down to habits. I just thought I can do the habits that are required of me for my work and for my family, home management kind of things. But for myself, that was a different story because I thought, no, these are the habits I want, and they're so beautiful and amazing and would be so helpful in my life. But in order to get there, I can't do what that requires. I can't, so I just didn't. But then when I got back into habit formation a few years ago, which was not a plan of mine, but it just happened naturally as I was really working on identity and fulfillment in my life, I realized those two areas had to be supported with habits to just even give me the time and the energy to carve out what I needed to for those two areas of my life. And as part of that, I had to figure out habits in a new way. I know this is a really long answer to your question, but the nutshell version of this is that a lot of us, if not all of us, are set up to fail with habit formation in the way that we've been taught since we were little kids. I mean, even that number thing I said alone, like how many days does it take to form a habit – we all have a number because we've been taught a number. But that number is not realistic for most people, especially if you're in a caretaking role or in any kind of position or season of life where you have to be more reactive in nature to your responsibilities. Every day is different. Every season is different too. There's that kind of flexibility that makes it so you have to do habits differently. And so, what I've learned over the past few years is that, instead of starting with an ideal version of a habit, and that being "This is my habit," those are only ideal. Those are only possible for those best of days kind of days. When you get really good sleep, your routine is really set. It's more predictable. And that didn't work for me, didn't work for most of the women I work with. I work with primarily women. So, instead, what we want to do is both start with what I call a baseline habit and always have that be the foundational habit we come back to on our worst of days. The baseline habit to me is, the idea

In this podcast: Laura Ryan tells her story of overcoming superstitious Obsessions How to manage Whack-a-mole obsessions How her family helped to support her as she overcame Superstitious OCD How to get through the hard OCD days Perfectionism and Exposure & Response Prevention Links To Things We Talk About: ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety...If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION Kimberley Quinlan: Well, welcome, Laura. I am so excited to hear your story today about Overcoming Superstitious Obsessions. Thank you for coming on the show. Laura Ryan: Thank you so much for having me. I'm so excited to be here. Kimberley Quinlan: Yeah, so it's wonderful. I love the stories when I accidentally meet people online, and then we have this cool story that's together, but we're not like not together at all. So I love hearing your story for the first time today, and I love that. I've been a small small part of that journey for you. Tell me a little about you and your backstory in, you know, the area of recovery. Laura Ryan: Yeah. So I definitely would have had OCD my whole life, but it wasn't until I was about 17 or 18 years old that I just stumbled across something on the Internet where I was like Oh yeah, that sounds like me. I've got OCD, but it didn't. It wasn't stopping me from doing anything at that point. So I just ignored it and went on. I had three Uni degrees under my belt. I was working at a publisher and freelancing as a book editor, and then Laura Ryan: my family had some health issues, and my sister as well, had some relationship issues, and I don't think I knew what to do with the stress. Um, and OCD crept up. So gradually, it was undetectable, and then sudd, I found myself at age 22 with crippling compulsions. OVERCOMING SUPERSTITIOUS OBSESSIONS AND BREATH-HOLDING COMPULSIONS Laura Ryan: It was nothing short of torture. It was horrific. I was so ill with OCD that I would come home from a day at work, and I wouldn't even remember the day because I'd spent the whole day in fight or flight. And I had mental sort of thought replacement and breath-holding compulsions. So it was completely invisible to people around me, but it was able to kind of have control over me for the whole day. Like from the second, I woke up to the second. I went to sleep. When I eventually saw a doctor, the psychiatrist was like, Oh, and how often are you affected by these thoughts? And I just didn't understand the question because I was like, Well, every few seconds, I guess. Laura Ryan: Yeah, so they were weird. Compulsions, like a lot of Shame around them as well because they were all kind of magical thinking superstitious. Like there was no logical link. They were all like, I'm holding my breath because I think I will magically give someone a disease if I breathe out while looking at them, or Yeah, just weird. We had rules that made absolutely no sense. Laura Ryan: which, Also. yeah, it impacted my self-esteem because I've always thought of myself as a Logical person, but these just made no sense. Laura Ryan: yeah, I also became stick thin because if I, and it wasn't even anything to do with the food, it was just if you eat this food, the intrusive thought will come true. And I, it just wasn't worth their Stress of eating. and then, there was a point where Laura Ryan: I would have conflicting compulsions, so OCD would kind of be like if you do this thing or if you don't do this thing, the intrusive thought will come true, and then I would just stand there paralyzed Like unable to do anything. I don't like to think how long I've spent just standing still, like the pervasive slowness, I think it's called was just Yes, stopped me from. Doing anything? Some nights it would have taken more than an hour to get to bed. It was just I had to touch wood or Rearrange things for so long before I was able to get to sleep. yeah, so I'd been a really 00:05:00 Laura Ryan: Pleasant child and teenager big people pleaser perfectionist type person, and then all of a sudden I was this irritable, distracted young adult, and I didn't like who I was, and no one in my family knew what was going on with me. Um, and yeah, I was eventually unable to work, and I quit my job. And I was too anxious to Google things. So I looked up OCD on my podcast app, and that was when I found you were a guest on the mental illness happy hour, I think, and you played this game of one-up together, and it was like, It wa

SUMMARY: How to include family members in ocd treatment Supporting siblings during ocd treatment How to apply the "be seen" model Ocd family therapy: including siblings as "assistant coaches" Developing empathy during ocd treatment Links To Things I Talk About: ERP School https://peaceofmind.com/for-siblings/ OCD Stories (with Jessica Serber) https://theocdstories.com/episode/dr-michelle-witkin-siblings-and-ocd/ https://www.amazon.com/When-Family-Member-Has-Obsessive-Compulsive/dp/1626252467 When a Family Member has OCD https://www.anxioustoddlers.com/psp-050-explaining-ocd/#.Y2Lc2S1h2Tc Krista's webpage Instagram: @anxiouslybalanced Episode Sponsor:This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety...If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION Kimberley Quinlan: Well, welcome Krista Reid. I am so excited to number one connect with you, but to talk about a topic that I don't talk a lot about which is something that I'm excited to really talk about with you today. A Peaceful Balance Wichita: Yes, thank you so much for having me. Kimberley Quinlan: So welcome. A Peaceful Balance Wichita: I'm excited. Kimberley Quinlan: Yeah. Look at you. You're all the people who don't see, you're like everything's bright and it's so happy. It makes me so joyful just to see you. A Peaceful Balance Wichita: Thank you, anybody. That has met me. Will get it. I'm a very colorful person. Thank you. Kimberley Quinlan: I love that that we need more of you in the world. Kimberley Quinlan: I really feel Yeah, good thing. I made children that sort of created more of me, right? That's the best I can do. A Peaceful Balance Wichita: I we need more of you. A Peaceful Balance Wichita: You go. There you go. Kimberley Quinlan: All right, let's talk about supportive siblings. Let's talk about… A Peaceful Balance Wichita: Yeah. SIBLINGS AND OCD Kimberley Quinlan: how the family can play a role in recovery. I kind of want you to take the lead here and tell me everything, you know. So tell me a little bit about why this subject is important to you and how you used it in clinical and in the field of OCD. A Peaceful Balance Wichita: Yeah, absolutely. And so I'll give you just a little bit of background. I always have been interested in sibling dynamics, and in fact, when I was in grad school completing my thesis, I even consulted the director of the program. I said, Are there any theories about siblings? And he's like, well, you know, there's the one by Alf or Alfred Adler on birth order. But really outside of that, no and that has just always been so entirely profound. Because when we think about family work, if you're looking at family theories, if you're looking at different types of family interventions and models, a lot of them really focus on parent child. And when you're dealing specifically with a child who has an, I'll go into the physical medical side as well, because I don't think this is exclusively just OCD or just mental illness. Kimberley Quinlan: Mmm. A Peaceful Balance Wichita: when we're seeing that a lot of times, the model is fixated on the child with the medical issue and the parent And what I was finding was that siblings. They kind of get othered In this. It's full process and the definition of other. It is essentially, you know, being excluded from meetings being excluded from family sessions being excluded in some way, shape or form. Now I could see how potential listeners will say, Well, isn't it that child with the OCD the child with the medical issues othered Yes, I'm not debating that at all, I'm saying, primarily within the family unit, that the sibling themselves can get very other and siblings struggle when their sibling has a disorder. You… Kimberley Quinlan: Mmm. A Peaceful Balance Wichita: they can struggle emotionally, they can struggle behaviorally. You know, just looking at the construct of OCD, they could struggle with the with the grief. Of their sibling having OCD, the moods that may come with the disorder. And oftentimes, this can lead to resentment within the sibling relationship, or even guilt or shame. And I I have siblings, and I think this potentially might be even where a lot of my work is very important because I am very close to my siblings. I am super close. Like I I feel like I'm very fortunate. I have, I have amazing relationships with my siblings and so it absolutely breaks my heart when you see a child. A Peaceful Balance Wichita: Who who has this? Some type of distance within their sibling relationship either because they thems

SUMMARY: In this podcast, Micah Howe addressed his expereince with intensive OCD treatment and the 6 most important turning points of OCD Recovery Compulsions keep OCD going, I can control my reaction to OCD Worrying is a false sense of control and is not productive Anxiety does not mean something needs solving Find an OCD community Self-compassion helps manage uncertainty Micah also addressed how to know you are ready for intensive ocd treatment and how he managed his OCD grief. Links To Things I Talk About: https://www.instagram.com/mentalhealthmhe/ ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online courses and resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety… If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 314. Welcome back, everybody. Today, we are talking about the major turning points of OCD recovery. This episode is literally how I want to end the year, although we do have more podcasts coming this year before we finish up 2022. But literally, this is like mic drop after mic drop after mic drop. I thoroughly enjoyed interviewing this week's guest. I'm so honored to share with you this interview with Micah Howe. He's an OCD advocate and is one of the most inspirational people I know. I just have so much respect and adoration for him. And this episode is literally a bomb. I just can't, I can't shout it from the rooftop loud enough. I'm going to keep this intro very short because I really just want you to hear exactly what he's saying. And really what we're talking about here is some ideological shifts that he had, going through intensive treatment and treatment in general, specifically for OCD. But if you don't have OCD, this is still going to be a powerful punch for your recovery because the tools that he shares that he realized on the end of his recovery are ones that anybody could apply to their recovery. So, let's just do it. Before we move on, let's quickly do the review of the week. This one is from Tristramshandy1378, and they said: "I stumbled across your podcast recently. I have been through therapy with Anxiety and panic and I have a high-stress job that I love, but I needed to continue my journey to recovery and be reminded of all the skills that are available to help me along the way. Your online courses for OCD and your amazing podcast reminded me the most important part of the process is to love myself, before, during, and after my episodes of intense anxiety and that every day is a beautiful day to do hard things." Oh my gosh, Tristramshandy, this is just so exactly my mission and my model. And so, I'm so grateful for you for leaving a review. It sounds like actually Tristramshandy's review of the week should actually be the "I did a hard thing," but we have an "I did a hard thing" as well. This one is from Anonymous and they said: "Hello, Kimberley. Very glad to have this resource. I did a hard thing. I started using public transportation much more often. It helps a lot with agoraphobia. I also significantly decreased media consumption, and that helped me learn to live with my thoughts and generally slowing down to process the information." So, thank you so much for Anonymous for sharing that. To be honest with you guys, the review of the week and the "I did a hard thing" and this entire episode is like three different "I did a hard thing" segment, so I've just so overjoyed that we're all here doing the hard thing, bringing in the end of the year. This episode is going to be such an amazing resource for you. So, let's get over to the interview. Introduction To Micah Howe Kimberley: Thank you so much for being here, Micah. I am actually so excited to hear this story. So, welcome. Micah: Yeah, thanks so much. Glad to be here. Kimberley: Yeah. So, you and I had talked before we came on to record about how you are going, wanting to tell the story about your intensive OCD treatment specifically around OCD. And this is the topic that I find so interesting and something that I actually really am so excited to hear your story. So, would you be able to tell us just in brief what the backstory of your recovery looks like and get us up to date in terms of where you were, what you experienced, as much as you're willing to share? Intensive Treatment For Ocd Micah: Yeah. So, what had me in intensive treatment – I grew up in rural Iowa and so resources for OCD, particularly evidence-based treatments like ERP, particularly several years ago when I was first starting to show really debilitating symptoms,

In This Episode: What causes anxiety? Is Anxiety "normal"? Genetic and environmental It is NOT your fault. You didn't ask for this You are doing the best you can with what you have Does that mean there is nothing you can do? No. What causes anxiety disorders? NIH - "Mood and anxiety disorders are characterized by a variety of neuroendocrine, neurotransmitter, and neuroanatomical disruptions. Risk factors- These factors may increase your risk of developing an anxiety disorder: Personality. People with certain personality types are more prone to anxiety disorders than others are. Other mental health disorders. People with other mental health disorders, such as depression, often also have an anxiety disorder. Having blood relatives with an anxiety disorder. Anxiety disorders can run in families. Drugs or alcohol. Drug or alcohol use or misuse or withdrawal can cause or worsen anxiety. Stress due to an illness. Having a health condition or serious illness can cause significant worry about issues such as your treatment and your future. Stress buildup. A big event or a buildup of smaller stressful life situations may trigger excessive anxiety — for example, a death in the family, work stress or ongoing worry about finances. Trauma. Children who endured abuse or trauma or witnessed traumatic events are at higher risk of developing an anxiety disorder at some point in life. Adults who experience a traumatic event also can develop anxiety disorders. What causes anxiety in the brain? a primary alteration in brain structure or function or in neurotransmitter signaling may result from environmental experiences and underlying genetic predisposition; These alterations can increase the risk for developing anxiety disorders. Abnormalities in a brain neurotransmitter called gamma-aminobutyric acid — which are often inherited — may make a person susceptible to GAD, according to NIH Life events, both early life traumas, and current life experiences, are probably necessary to trigger episodes of anxiety. What causes anxiety and panic attacks? Same as above....but consider avoidance reassurance seeing Mental rumination other physical compulsions Self-punishment Links To Things I Talk About: Harvard research:https://www.health.harvard.edu/anxiety/generalized-anxiety-disorder#:~:text=Abnormalities%20in%20a%20brain%20neurotransmitter,trigger%20the%20episodes%20of%20anxiety. https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3684250/ ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 313. Hello friends. We are talking about what causes anxiety and why it is not your fault. So important. Okay, let's say it again. Why it is not your fault. I know you're probably beating yourself up for something related to your anxiety, that you should be handling it better, that there's something wrong with your brain. I want to really knock this concern, this belief, this thought out if I can, and try to replace it with some information that you can use in the moment to reassure yourself, not in a compulsive way, but just to remind yourself it's not your fault. Let's stop beating you up for something that's not your fault. If you saw something happen on the street and had nothing to do with you, you wouldn't probably blame yourself or beat yourself up or shame yourself. And I would like you to do the same for your anxiety. Okay? So, before we do that, let's talk about the "I did a hard thing." This is from anonymous. It's pretty cool, I have to say. Anonymous says: "I was diagnosed with relationship OCD this year after sharing my doubts and rumination patterns with a therapist. My parents have expressed concerns about a boyfriend I have been with for over a year, and I don't think these concerns are valid and my therapist doesn't think they're concerning either. My parents' comments still trigger my relationship OCD doubts big time. However, I have opened up to my parents about how I'm considering marrying my boyfriend and have responded to their criticism calmly without getting mad at them. It's been really hard to establish boundaries, but also be kind. But I feel like I'm on track. I also am trying to see my parents' criticism of him as a gift, at least I know that I can't go to them for reassurance and it's a great exposure opportunity." Anonymous, you are literally winning. The reason I am so thrilled, last week we did a whole epis

In This Episode: Amy Mariaskin, PhD shares her new book, Thriving in relationships when you have ocd What is Family accommodation and how does it apply to ocd Ocd family accommodation vs family support, What is OCD reassurance and how it can creep into one's relationship Relationship ocd, also known as rOCD Relationship issues with ocd and how to manage them Sexual orientation OCD, Gender related OCD, and Harm OCD and the impact this has on relationships Attachment styles in ocd and how to understand them to help you navigate communication. Links To Things I Talk About: Thriving in Relationships When You Have OCD: How to Keep Obsessions and Compulsions from Sabotaging Love, Friendship, and Family Connections Amy's Instagram https://www.instagram.com/ocdnashville/?hl=en ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor:This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety...If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 312. Welcome back, everybody. This is going to be a really important episode for you to listen to. Today, we have the amazing Dr. Amy Mariaskin, who is what I consider to be a very dear friend, someone I very much respect. She has written a book about relationships and OCD, and we talk all about it. We go deep into some of the core skills and discussions she has in her upcoming book. And this is just going to be an episode I really feel like you could take away and put some skills together right away. I'm so thrilled. So, thank you, Amy, for coming on this show. But before we do that, I would like to do the review of the week, and I really hope you listen carefully to this. Not because it's reviewing the podcast, but because I actually think the person who wrote this, who put in this review, is following some key points that I want you to consider. And this is what I encourage a lot of people to do. So, let's go. This is from Detroitreview and they said: "Thank you, I just started listening today after having a few weeks of anxiety and irregular thoughts that I never experienced. I randomly chose your podcast and am thankful for your experience, knowledge and personal and situations. As a 46-year-old father of two boys and loving wife, your podcast gives me a sense of calming. I'm taking notes on each cast." Guys, I encourage you to do this. This is a free resource. It is jam packed full of skills. I encourage you to take notes. So, I love that you're doing that Detroitreview. "While I started with the most recent, I have listened to #301/302/303." And then they went on to say: "And they've already given me strategies that I'm using. I decided to start from your first podcast in 2016." And that is what I encourage you all to do, mainly because those first 11 episodes are core content. I want you to take the content I talk with my patients about all the time. He went on to say, "I have been so impressed. I've listened to 1-2 daily. I'm up to 10 and 11. There's so many things to listen to and I'm so grateful for you. The meditations are amazing. Keep up the great work." Thank you so much for that review, Detroitreview. That is exactly my intention. This is a free resource, you guys. I want you to take advantage of the skills and tools so that you can have a toolkit for yourself. And so, I'm so thrilled for that review. It just makes me feel like, yes, that's exactly what I want you guys to take from this podcast. Okay, before we get over to the show, let's talk about the "I did a hard thing" segment. This one is from Kelly, and they said: "I recently faced one of my biggest fears – general anesthesia." Holy moly, Kelly, I feel you on so many levels with this. "I started struggling with some gallbladder issues and was told I needed to have it removed. I was terrified, and I didn't think I could go through with it. Thoughts were racing out of control. I sought help with therapy and your podcast. Thoughts are thoughts and not facts was huge for me. It was calm the day of the surgery, and I did it. Thank you." That is amazing. You guys, listen, thoughts are thoughts. Just because you have them doesn't mean they're facts. I love that they're bringing in that key concept as well. Alright, let's go over to the show. This is the amazing Dr. Amy Mariaskin. She's an OCD therapist. She's an advocate. She's an author of an upcoming book. You must go and check it out. I'll leave the link in the show notes. I am so, so honored to have you on the show, Amy. Let's get over to the episode. Kimberle

In This Episode: What if people notice I am anxious? How to handle the fear that people ill judge you Tools to manage anxiety Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety...If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 311. Welcome back, everybody. I am so happy to have you with me today. Today, we're talking about what to do if people notice how anxious you are. This is something that I've even thought about myself. When you're having anxiety, it's like, "Are people noticing how anxious I am?" And when you worry about that or you think about that, sometimes it can actually create more anxiety for you. Quite a few of you have asked this question to me in the past, specifically around when doing exposures. As you go to do your exposures, then you have this secondary thought of like, "Oh my goodness, are people actually seeing how anxious I am?" So, I wanted to do a podcast just about this topic. Before we get into the episode, let's quickly run through the "I did a hard thing" for the week. This one is from Anonymous and they said: "My son just started preschool this month. For context, my OCD and anxiety has me housebound for the last two years, and never in a million years did I think I was going to be able to handle this. I still feel discomfort and struggle with intrusive thoughts, but the sparkle in his eye when I pick him up makes it all worth it. This has reinforced the importance of pushing through even when it's hard." Anonymous, this is so good. Look at you go. And I think we can all resonate with being so overwhelmed with anxiety, but we make decisions based on our values, not our fear. And then we get to see people sparkle in people's eyes or our own eyes. And I'm so excited to have you share that with me. So, thank you so much. All right, quickly, review of the week. This is from Sybil Cross and they said: "Compassionate and competent care. My ERP therapist recommended this podcast to me and I love it! It is both educational and supportive. It helps me learn more about my OCD and feel comforted, all while retaining its therapeutic value. Thank you for all your hard work and love, Kimberley!" It is my pleasure. Thank you, Sybil, for sharing that amazing review. Please do go and leave a review. I know I say it every week, but you do not understand how helpful it is to me. I am really doubling down in 2022 and next year on really making sure this podcast reaches as many people and makes a massive impact. So, your reviews mean so much to me. All right, let's get over to the show. Have you ever been out and about doing your thing socially and then all of a sudden, you have anxiety and then you start to worry, what if people start to notice that I'm anxious? If this is you, you're going to want to listen up because today we're going to go through what to do if people do notice or what to do if you're afraid of people noticing that you have anxiety. So, thank you so much for joining me again today. I love spending time with you, talking about all things anxiety. Let's talk about what to do if people do notice that you have anxiety. So, the first thing to ask yourself, and I love asking questions because I think it really helps us to really understand the actual problem, but what I'm going to ask you is, what's your actual fear? If you're afraid of someone noticing that you are anxious, what are you actually saying there? Are you afraid that maybe they're going to judge you for having anxiety? Or are you afraid that there may be some consequence for having anxiety? Sometimes people are afraid in certain work environments or school environments. Or is it that you're afraid that if they notice you have anxiety, that then you'll then have even more anxiety and then that creates a perpetual cycle? Let's take a look at these outcomes depending on which one you struggle with. So, let's talk about first the fear that they might judge you. Now, if this is you, there is a pretty good chance you may have social anxiety. Social anxiety is a specific anxiety disorder around the fear of being judged by others socially or feeling humiliation or embarrassment around others socially. And often what we understand about social anxiety is it's actually not so much an anxiety disorder. Well, yes, you will feel a lot of anxiety, but we actually understand it to also be a shame disorder. Often people go out and then enter the social environment and they're afraid that if someone notices an adequacy o

SUMMARY: What if you don't identify with the concept of an obsession being a FEAR? It's a repetitive thought or feeling, but you're not scared of a specific outcome. What is the UNCERTAINTY when it comes to these obsessions? Guilt Obsessions: WHAT IS OCD GUILT? OCD Guilt over past mistakes "I shouldn't have done that" "That was a mistake" OCD Guilt as a simple intrusive thought- no known mistake "Is it bad that I did that" "Did I make a mistake?" "What could be the consequences" REGRET obsessions. I've heard a lot about how guilt is a common intrusive feeling in OCD but not much about regret. "I wish I didn't do that" "I wish I had done it another way" Guilt and Regret accompanied with sadness?? How to stop OCD guilt? How to treat OCD guilt and regret Links To Things I Talk About: Feeling guilty doesn't mean you have done something wrong https://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/ep-161-feeling-guilty-doesnt-mean-you-have-done-something-wrong/ How to let go of the past https://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/ep-70-how-to-let-go-of-the-past/ I screwed up. Now what? https://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/ep-293-i-screwed-up-what-now/ ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety...If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 310 Welcome back, everybody. We are at Episode 310. I just recorded it as 210 and I'm still in shock that we have hit 310 episodes. I recorded it and I was like, "Hang on a second. That doesn't sound right." And it wasn't, and that still shocks me to this day. All right. Today, we are talking about a very important topic, which is guilt and regret. And I've called this episode Guilt and Regret: The Most Misunderstood Obsession, and I believe that to be true because a whole bunch of you are walking around wondering whether you have OCD or not because a lot of what you hear is that OCD is all about anxiety and uncertainty. But what about the folks who don't have a lot of anxiety and a lot of uncertainty, but they're having obsessive guilt and obsessive regret in the form of OCD guilt and OCD regret? So, I wanted to talk about that today. Before we do so, let's quickly do the "I did a hard thing" segment. For those of you who are new, this is where listeners and followers share the hard thing that they've done. Why do I do this? Because so often, you guys forget that just because your hard thing is hard for you doesn't mean there's anything wrong with that. I want you to see that hard things are hard things and we should celebrate them and we should share them, and this is a platform I want to do that with. So, this one is from Mars, and Mars said: "After many weeks and years of hard work, I finally managed to reach an important stage of my career, and I ended up with two job offers." Amazing. "Both were great really for different reasons, and I couldn't choose. I went back and forth and tortured myself four months trying to get certainty about which one is the right choice. I'd never been so anxious in my life. Finally, today, I sent the final email, even though I wasn't certain about the choice, it was the hardest thing I've ever done, but I finally feel like I can move forward with my life again." Mars, number one, congratulations. Sounds like you've worked really hard. And number two, you're also doing this hard thing where you're allowing the discomfort into your day, into your life, and you're moving forward anyway. Thank you for sharing that. That is such an amazing accomplishment. Interesting, isn't it, how you've shared here too like it was around the certainty, but it sounds like that was similar to what we're talking about today, and let's talk about that. So, let's start from scratch. Start from the beginning. So, often people will come into therapy and say, "I didn't seek treatment for the longest time, because all I'm hearing is OCD is the uncertainty disorder, and I don't feel a ton of uncertainty in the way that I've heard other people do with OCD." What do I do if I don't identify with this concept of the obsession being around fear and uncertainty? What about if you have a repetitive thought or a feeling, but you're not scared of the specific outcome? And this is so important, guys, because we do hyper-focus on uncertainty and I really do believe that uncertainty is the root of lots of OCD obsessions and a lot of our suffering if we don't accept that uncertainty. But what about those who have obsessive guilt and obses

SUMMARY: What if you don't identify with the concept of an obsession being a FEAR? It's a repetitive thought or feeling, but you're not scared of a specific outcome. What is the UNCERTAINTY when it comes to these obsessions? Guilt Obsessions: WHAT IS OCD GUILT? OCD Guilt over past mistakes "I shouldn't have done that" "That was a mistake" OCD Guilt as a simple intrusive thought- no known mistake "Is it bad that I did that" "Did I make a mistake?" "What could be the consequences" REGRET obsessions. I've heard a lot about how guilt is a common intrusive feeling in OCD but not much about regret. "I wish I didn't do that" "I wish I had done it another way" Guilt and Regret accompanied with sadness?? How to stop OCD guilt? How to treat OCD guilt and regret Links To Things I Talk About: Feeling guilty doesn't mean you have done something wrong https://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/ep-161-feeling-guilty-doesnt-mean-you-have-done-something-wrong/ How to let go of the past https://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/ep-70-how-to-let-go-of-the-past/ I screwed up. Now what? https://kimberleyquinlan-lmft.com/ep-293-i-screwed-up-what-now/ ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety...If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 310 Welcome back, everybody. We are at Episode 310. I just recorded it as 210 and I'm still in shock that we have hit 310 episodes. I recorded it and I was like, "Hang on a second. That doesn't sound right." And it wasn't, and that still shocks me to this day. All right. Today, we are talking about a very important topic, which is guilt and regret. And I've called this episode Guilt and Regret: The Most Misunderstood Obsession, and I believe that to be true because a whole bunch of you are walking around wondering whether you have OCD or not because a lot of what you hear is that OCD is all about anxiety and uncertainty. But what about the folks who don't have a lot of anxiety and a lot of uncertainty, but they're having obsessive guilt and obsessive regret in the form of OCD guilt and OCD regret? So, I wanted to talk about that today. Before we do so, let's quickly do the "I did a hard thing" segment. For those of you who are new, this is where listeners and followers share the hard thing that they've done. Why do I do this? Because so often, you guys forget that just because your hard thing is hard for you doesn't mean there's anything wrong with that. I want you to see that hard things are hard things and we should celebrate them and we should share them, and this is a platform I want to do that with. So, this one is from Mars, and Mars said: "After many weeks and years of hard work, I finally managed to reach an important stage of my career, and I ended up with two job offers." Amazing. "Both were great really for different reasons, and I couldn't choose. I went back and forth and tortured myself four months trying to get certainty about which one is the right choice. I'd never been so anxious in my life. Finally, today, I sent the final email, even though I wasn't certain about the choice, it was the hardest thing I've ever done, but I finally feel like I can move forward with my life again." Mars, number one, congratulations. Sounds like you've worked really hard. And number two, you're also doing this hard thing where you're allowing the discomfort into your day, into your life, and you're moving forward anyway. Thank you for sharing that. That is such an amazing accomplishment. Interesting, isn't it, how you've shared here too like it was around the certainty, but it sounds like that was similar to what we're talking about today, and let's talk about that. So, let's start from scratch. Start from the beginning. So, often people will come into therapy and say, "I didn't seek treatment for the longest time, because all I'm hearing is OCD is the uncertainty disorder, and I don't feel a ton of uncertainty in the way that I've heard other people do with OCD." What do I do if I don't identify with this concept of the obsession being around fear and uncertainty? What about if you have a repetitive thought or a feeling, but you're not scared of the specific outcome? And this is so important, guys, because we do hyper-focus on uncertainty and I really do believe that uncertainty is the root of lots of OCD obsessions and a lot of our suffering if we don't accept that uncertainty. But what about those who have obsessive guilt and obses

SUMMARY: Not having a subtype makes it hard to get diagnosed with OCD Not fitting into a subtype can make you doubt having OCD. When you don't see other examples, you can feel like an outsider in the OCD community. All the subtypes seem to have their "people." The doubt can make you feel that it really is about the content, not OCD. What if I don't fit into a typical OCD Subtype Examples: What if I picked the wrong name for my baby? Obsessions about the weather and whether you will enjoy the weather? This nail color makes me feel strange. What if I don't remember this the way it was? What if my partner cheats on me? What if my child suffers? What if my taxes were not correct? How will I know when it is time to stop therapy? General Anxiety Vs Ocd? Dimensional Obsessive COmpulsive Scale (Jon Abramowitz) Concerns about germs and contamination Concerns about being responsible for the harm. Injury, Bad luck Unacceptable thoughts Concerns about symmetry, completeness, and the need for things to be "Just right." Does ERP work for these obsessions? Does the process of treatment work any differently than it would with a "subtype"? Ideal Treatments for OCD ERP ACT SC MINDFULNESS Links To Things I Talk About: ERP School (An online course for OCD) https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Dimensional Obsessive COmpulsive Scale (Jon Abramowitz) http://www.jabramowitz.com/uploads/1/0/4/8/10489300/docs.pdf Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety...If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION What If I Don't Fit Into The Typical Ocd Subtypes? Welcome back, everybody. Thank you so much for joining me. I know your time is so valuable, and so I am so honored to spend this time with you to talk to you about today common question that I get asked. Well, actually, no, it's not a common question, but it has been a question that I have been asked over the years by clients and followers, and listeners. And I was proposed with this idea as something that we really need to address. And so, here I am. And my goal is to always address the things that maybe aren't getting addressed if possible. And so, today we are going to talk about, what if I don't fit into the typical OCD subtype? So, what if my obsessions don't line up with the typical classifications and categories that we have for OCD? Ocd Subtypes So, for those of you who maybe are new to this idea, we have OCD as a general diagnosis. And then under that umbrella of the diagnosis, we have-- over the years, the clinical and OCD community have created subtypes of OCD to help us, number one, categorize different groups of obsessions so that we can then direct the treatment to being very specific. We also do that to build a sense of community so that you feel less alone. Let's say you have a harm obsession that can be very stigmatizing and feel very, very overwhelming, and you can have a lot of guilt and judgment about that for yourself. So, knowing you're in a category, in a group with other people can actually soften the blow of the stigma and the judgment around that obsession. Same goes for sexual obsessions, pedophilia obsessions, and so forth. Again, as a clinician, as I'm training my therapist, these subtypes are actually helpful so that we can help the newer therapists have a treatment plan specific to that person's obsession. However, what about the group of people who don't line up perfectly in those groups? And so, in today's episode, we're going to talk about what to do if that is you, what to do if you're a therapist and you're dealing with this, some skills that you might use, and maybe a few shifts and reframes here, I'll use some clinical research that may help you shift the way you look at this problem. And maybe we can even stop calling it a problem. We could actually not address it as a problem and actually move through that together. Okay? Before we do that, let's get straight to the "I did a hard thing." I haven't even read this hard thing you guys, so I'm as excited as can be. This one is from Hannah, and this is what Hannah had to say: "Earlier this year, I suffered a debilitating OCD episode that focused on harm OCD," so, there we are, we have a subtype already explained, "Specifically the fear of sleepwalking or going crazy and harming my family. At the time, I had no idea I had OCD as I had always been told I was just an anxious person. So, this well and truly threw me to the point that I couldn't get off the couch, take my daughter to and from school or be alone. I

In This Episode: Andrew GottWorth shares his story of having Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and how ERP allowed him to function again. addresses the benefits of ERP and how ERP is for Everyone How Exposure & response prevention can help people with OCD and for those with everyday stress and anxiety Links To Things I Talk About: Andrew's Instagram @justrught ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 308. Welcome, everybody. I am really pumped for this episode. We have the amazing Andrew Gottworth on for an interview where he just shared so many nuggets of wisdom and hope and motivation. I think you're going to love it. But the main point we're making today is that ERP is for everyone. Everyone can benefit from facing their fears. Everyone can benefit by reducing their compulsive behaviors. Even if you don't technically call them compulsions, you too can benefit by this practice. Andrew reached out to me and he was really passionate about this. And of course, I was so on board that we jumped on a call right away and we got it in, and I'm so excited to share it with you. Thank you, Andrew, for sharing all your amazing wisdom. Before we head into the show, let's quickly do the "I did a hard thing" for the week. This one is from Christina, and they went on to say: "Thought of you today, and you're saying, 'It's a beautiful day to do hard things,' as I went down a water slide, terrified, as I'm well out of my comfort zone." This is such great. They're saying that's on their holiday, the first time they've taken a holiday in quite a while. "It's difficult, but I'm doing it. I'm trying to lean into the discomfort." This is so good. I love when people share their "I did a hard thing," mainly, as I say before, because it doesn't have to be what's hard for everybody. It can be what's hard for you. Isn't it interesting, Christina is sharing a water slide is so terrifying? Christina, PS, I'm totally with you on that. But some of the people find it thrill-seeking. And then I'm sure the things that Christina does, she might not have anxiety, but other people who love to thrill seek find incredibly terrifying. So, please don't miss that point, guys. It is such an important thing that we don't compare. If it's terrifying, it's terrifying, and you deserve a massive yay. You did a hard thing for it. So, thank you, Christina. Again, quickly, let me just quickly do the review of the week, and then we can set back and relax and listen to Andrew's amazing wisdom. This one is from Anonymous. Actually, this one is from Sydneytenney, and they said: "Incredible resource! What an incredible resource this podcast is! Thank you for sharing all of this information so freely… you're truly making a difference in so many lives, including mine! (I am also reading through your book and I LOVE it. You nailed it in marrying OCD with self-compassion - what a gift!!!)" So, for those of you who don't know, I wrote a book called The Self-Compassion Workbook for OCD. If you have OCD and you want a compassionate approach to ERP by all means, head over to Amazon or wherever you buy books and you can have the resource right there. All right, let's get over to the show. Kimberley: Okay. Welcome, Andrew Gottworth. Thank you so much for being here. Andrew: Yeah. So, happy to be here. Really excited to chat with you for a bit. Kimberley: Yeah. How fun. I'm so happy you reached out and you had a message that I felt was so important to talk about. Actually, you had lots of ideas that I was so excited to talk about. Andrew: I might bring some of them up because I think, anyway, it's related to our big topic. Erp Is For Everyone Kimberley: Yeah. But the thing that I love so much was this idea that ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention) is for everyone. And so, tell me, before we get into that, a little bit about your story and where you are right up until today and why that story is important to you. Andrew: Yeah. So, there's a lot, as you work in the OCD field that it takes so long between first experiencing to getting a diagnosis. And so, with the knowledge I have now, I probably started in early childhood, elementary school. I remember racing intrusive thoughts in elementary school and being stuck on things and all that. But definitely, middle school, high school got worse and worse. So, fast forward to freshman year of colle

In This Episode: Andrew GottWorth shares his story of having Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and how ERP allowed him to function again. addresses the benefits of ERP and how ERP is for Everyone How Exposure & response prevention can help people with OCD and for those with everyday stress and anxiety Links To Things I Talk About: Andrew's Instagram @justrught ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 308. Welcome, everybody. I am really pumped for this episode. We have the amazing Andrew Gottworth on for an interview where he just shared so many nuggets of wisdom and hope and motivation. I think you're going to love it. But the main point we're making today is that ERP is for everyone. Everyone can benefit from facing their fears. Everyone can benefit by reducing their compulsive behaviors. Even if you don't technically call them compulsions, you too can benefit by this practice. Andrew reached out to me and he was really passionate about this. And of course, I was so on board that we jumped on a call right away and we got it in, and I'm so excited to share it with you. Thank you, Andrew, for sharing all your amazing wisdom. Before we head into the show, let's quickly do the "I did a hard thing" for the week. This one is from Christina, and they went on to say: "Thought of you today, and you're saying, 'It's a beautiful day to do hard things,' as I went down a water slide, terrified, as I'm well out of my comfort zone." This is such great. They're saying that's on their holiday, the first time they've taken a holiday in quite a while. "It's difficult, but I'm doing it. I'm trying to lean into the discomfort." This is so good. I love when people share their "I did a hard thing," mainly, as I say before, because it doesn't have to be what's hard for everybody. It can be what's hard for you. Isn't it interesting, Christina is sharing a water slide is so terrifying? Christina, PS, I'm totally with you on that. But some of the people find it thrill-seeking. And then I'm sure the things that Christina does, she might not have anxiety, but other people who love to thrill seek find incredibly terrifying. So, please don't miss that point, guys. It is such an important thing that we don't compare. If it's terrifying, it's terrifying, and you deserve a massive yay. You did a hard thing for it. So, thank you, Christina. Again, quickly, let me just quickly do the review of the week, and then we can set back and relax and listen to Andrew's amazing wisdom. This one is from Anonymous. Actually, this one is from Sydneytenney, and they said: "Incredible resource! What an incredible resource this podcast is! Thank you for sharing all of this information so freely… you're truly making a difference in so many lives, including mine! (I am also reading through your book and I LOVE it. You nailed it in marrying OCD with self-compassion - what a gift!!!)" So, for those of you who don't know, I wrote a book called The Self-Compassion Workbook for OCD. If you have OCD and you want a compassionate approach to ERP by all means, head over to Amazon or wherever you buy books and you can have the resource right there. All right, let's get over to the show. Kimberley: Okay. Welcome, Andrew Gottworth. Thank you so much for being here. Andrew: Yeah. So, happy to be here. Really excited to chat with you for a bit. Kimberley: Yeah. How fun. I'm so happy you reached out and you had a message that I felt was so important to talk about. Actually, you had lots of ideas that I was so excited to talk about. Andrew: I might bring some of them up because I think, anyway, it's related to our big topic. Erp Is For Everyone Kimberley: Yeah. But the thing that I love so much was this idea that ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention) is for everyone. And so, tell me, before we get into that, a little bit about your story and where you are right up until today and why that story is important to you. Andrew: Yeah. So, there's a lot, as you work in the OCD field that it takes so long between first experiencing to getting a diagnosis. And so, with the knowledge I have now, I probably started in early childhood, elementary school. I remember racing intrusive thoughts in elementary school and being stuck on things and all that. But definitely, middle school, high school got worse and worse. So, fast forward to freshman year of colle

In This Episode: Andrew GottWorth shares his story of having Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and how ERP allowed him to function again. addresses the benefits of ERP and how ERP is for Everyone How Exposure & response prevention can help people with OCD and for those with everyday stress and anxiety Links To Things I Talk About: Andrew's Instagram @justrught ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 308. Welcome, everybody. I am really pumped for this episode. We have the amazing Andrew Gottworth on for an interview where he just shared so many nuggets of wisdom and hope and motivation. I think you're going to love it. But the main point we're making today is that ERP is for everyone. Everyone can benefit from facing their fears. Everyone can benefit by reducing their compulsive behaviors. Even if you don't technically call them compulsions, you too can benefit by this practice. Andrew reached out to me and he was really passionate about this. And of course, I was so on board that we jumped on a call right away and we got it in, and I'm so excited to share it with you. Thank you, Andrew, for sharing all your amazing wisdom. Before we head into the show, let's quickly do the "I did a hard thing" for the week. This one is from Christina, and they went on to say: "Thought of you today, and you're saying, 'It's a beautiful day to do hard things,' as I went down a water slide, terrified, as I'm well out of my comfort zone." This is such great. They're saying that's on their holiday, the first time they've taken a holiday in quite a while. "It's difficult, but I'm doing it. I'm trying to lean into the discomfort." This is so good. I love when people share their "I did a hard thing," mainly, as I say before, because it doesn't have to be what's hard for everybody. It can be what's hard for you. Isn't it interesting, Christina is sharing a water slide is so terrifying? Christina, PS, I'm totally with you on that. But some of the people find it thrill-seeking. And then I'm sure the things that Christina does, she might not have anxiety, but other people who love to thrill seek find incredibly terrifying. So, please don't miss that point, guys. It is such an important thing that we don't compare. If it's terrifying, it's terrifying, and you deserve a massive yay. You did a hard thing for it. So, thank you, Christina. Again, quickly, let me just quickly do the review of the week, and then we can set back and relax and listen to Andrew's amazing wisdom. This one is from Anonymous. Actually, this one is from Sydneytenney, and they said: "Incredible resource! What an incredible resource this podcast is! Thank you for sharing all of this information so freely… you're truly making a difference in so many lives, including mine! (I am also reading through your book and I LOVE it. You nailed it in marrying OCD with self-compassion - what a gift!!!)" So, for those of you who don't know, I wrote a book called The Self-Compassion Workbook for OCD. If you have OCD and you want a compassionate approach to ERP by all means, head over to Amazon or wherever you buy books and you can have the resource right there. All right, let's get over to the show. Kimberley: Okay. Welcome, Andrew Gottworth. Thank you so much for being here. Andrew: Yeah. So, happy to be here. Really excited to chat with you for a bit. Kimberley: Yeah. How fun. I'm so happy you reached out and you had a message that I felt was so important to talk about. Actually, you had lots of ideas that I was so excited to talk about. Andrew: I might bring some of them up because I think, anyway, it's related to our big topic. Erp Is For Everyone Kimberley: Yeah. But the thing that I love so much was this idea that ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention) is for everyone. And so, tell me, before we get into that, a little bit about your story and where you are right up until today and why that story is important to you. Andrew: Yeah. So, there's a lot, as you work in the OCD field that it takes so long between first experiencing to getting a diagnosis. And so, with the knowledge I have now, I probably started in early childhood, elementary school. I remember racing intrusive thoughts in elementary school and being stuck on things and all that. But definitely, middle school, high school got worse and worse. So, fast forward to freshman year of colle

In This Episode: Andrew GottWorth shares his story of having Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and how ERP allowed him to function again. addresses the benefits of ERP and how ERP is for Everyone How Exposure & response prevention can help people with OCD and for those with everyday stress and anxiety Links To Things I Talk About: Andrew's Instagram @justrught ERP School: https://www.cbtschool.com/erp-school-lp Episode Sponsor: This episode of Your Anxiety Toolkit is brought to you by CBTschool.com. CBTschool.com is a psychoeducation platform that provides courses and other online resources for people with anxiety, OCD, and Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviors. Go to cbtschool.com to learn more. Spread the love! Everyone needs tools for anxiety... If you like Your Anxiety Toolkit Podcast, visit YOUR ANXIETY TOOLKIT PODCAST to subscribe free and you'll never miss an episode. And if you really like Your Anxiety Toolkit, I'd appreciate you telling a friend (maybe even two). EPISODE TRANSCRIPTION This is Your Anxiety Toolkit - Episode 308. Welcome, everybody. I am really pumped for this episode. We have the amazing Andrew Gottworth on for an interview where he just shared so many nuggets of wisdom and hope and motivation. I think you're going to love it. But the main point we're making today is that ERP is for everyone. Everyone can benefit from facing their fears. Everyone can benefit by reducing their compulsive behaviors. Even if you don't technically call them compulsions, you too can benefit by this practice. Andrew reached out to me and he was really passionate about this. And of course, I was so on board that we jumped on a call right away and we got it in, and I'm so excited to share it with you. Thank you, Andrew, for sharing all your amazing wisdom. Before we head into the show, let's quickly do the "I did a hard thing" for the week. This one is from Christina, and they went on to say: "Thought of you today, and you're saying, 'It's a beautiful day to do hard things,' as I went down a water slide, terrified, as I'm well out of my comfort zone." This is such great. They're saying that's on their holiday, the first time they've taken a holiday in quite a while. "It's difficult, but I'm doing it. I'm trying to lean into the discomfort." This is so good. I love when people share their "I did a hard thing," mainly, as I say before, because it doesn't have to be what's hard for everybody. It can be what's hard for you. Isn't it interesting, Christina is sharing a water slide is so terrifying? Christina, PS, I'm totally with you on that. But some of the people find it thrill-seeking. And then I'm sure the things that Christina does, she might not have anxiety, but other people who love to thrill seek find incredibly terrifying. So, please don't miss that point, guys. It is such an important thing that we don't compare. If it's terrifying, it's terrifying, and you deserve a massive yay. You did a hard thing for it. So, thank you, Christina. Again, quickly, let me just quickly do the review of the week, and then we can set back and relax and listen to Andrew's amazing wisdom. This one is from Anonymous. Actually, this one is from Sydneytenney, and they said: "Incredible resource! What an incredible resource this podcast is! Thank you for sharing all of this information so freely… you're truly making a difference in so many lives, including mine! (I am also reading through your book and I LOVE it. You nailed it in marrying OCD with self-compassion - what a gift!!!)" So, for those of you who don't know, I wrote a book called The Self-Compassion Workbook for OCD. If you have OCD and you want a compassionate approach to ERP by all means, head over to Amazon or wherever you buy books and you can have the resource right there. All right, let's get over to the show. Kimberley: Okay. Welcome, Andrew Gottworth. Thank you so much for being here. Andrew: Yeah. So, happy to be here. Really excited to chat with you for a bit. Kimberley: Yeah. How fun. I'm so happy you reached out and you had a message that I felt was so important to talk about. Actually, you had lots of ideas that I was so excited to talk about. Andrew: I might bring some of them up because I think, anyway, it's related to our big topic. Erp Is For Everyone Kimberley: Yeah. But the thing that I love so much was this idea that ERP (Exposure and Response Prevention) is for everyone. And so, tell me, before we get into that, a little bit about your story and where you are right up until today and why that story is important to you. Andrew: Yeah. So, there's a lot, as you work in the OCD field that it takes so long between first experiencing to getting a diagnosis. And so, with the knowledge I have now, I probably started in early childhood, elementary school. I remember racing intrusive thoughts in elementary school and being stuck on things and all that. But definitely, middle school, high school got worse and worse. So, fast forward to freshman year of colle