The Bryson Every Day Project

10:32pm, March 12th, 2024, Desk, UT I went and got a tour for a townhome I have been looking at to move in to this coming July. The tour went great and much better than expected. The keep it short, this place is a steal for what I need. It’s 200 feet away from a gym, 2000 feet away from a grocery store, 20 minutes closer to my job, and has many features that will be game changing (such as a garage in the state of Utah). I was anticipating and planning for a July move-in. But now, it’s June 1st. Rather than going home to think about it and try to make something happen, I committed right then and there and promised myself I would figure it out. And so I will. And it will happen.

2:27pm, March 11th, 2024, Car, Work, UT Before all of this, I was sad as shit and very discouraged. I was living a very depressing life. No wonder I felt the way I did. My escape from that all is hard work, discipline, and fortitude – daily. Burnout is impossible to attain in this scenario because that would ultimately result in going back to where I desperately fled from. I do not want that ever again. The alternative to my grind is that, so it’s an easy one to pass up on. I will not ever quit. I will remain on this path until I die. I don’t know what else to say. This is the true genuine path to real & raw happiness and fulfillment.

9:16am, March 10th, 2024, Car, Magna UT I talk a bit about the “Do what others won’t so you can do what others can’t” quote in the context of my life. Feels good. Life is easier because of it. Because I am willing to work 3 jobs, I have more opportunity, options, and overall freedom. “If you’re working so much you have less freedom!!” I don’t see it from that perspective. I see it as accelerating the “shitty” times so I can get to the glorious ones faster. I’m very proud of myself. I am stoked about everything in life.

8:14pm, March 9th, 2024, Car & Desk, UT I keep toying around with the idea that taking virtually any and all advice, compliments, criticism, insults, or praise from anyone not on the same path as you is just a losing play. I don’t know how else to clarify this other than the fact that everyone has their own desires, dreams, goals, and perspective on it all. Anything they say to you is from that perspective, not yours. Therefore its skewed by default. The second thought was just taking quitting off the table. I feel sometimes people seek comfort or permission to quit. But if we think that through, and we were really told to quit… would we? P.S. Not proud of this one. I don’t want to upload it. Feels half assed and unorganized.

11:07pm, March 8th, 2024, Desk, UT Big day today. Paid off a $4,000 loan in full. That frees up some monthly income to then be repurposed into other bills to get to $0. Currently on pace to be debt free by late July 2024. Which free’s up a few hundred shy of $1,000 per month. What a relief. Hard work really does pay off huh? Currently working on core values, reading some books, working on the other podcast, working on supplementation development, working on graphic design work, all while working 3 jobs, hitting the gym, and more. I feel so good when I get shit done. I even thought today “there’s no way in hell I live a life that delivers anything less than what I get now.” Meaning the fulfillment I get in myself from the daily battles I face. No way. I’m here for good. Never give up.

6:55pm, March 7th, 2024, Desk, UT Peoples reactions and perceptions of you change drastically when you’re in the process of making something happen Vs. when you actually make that something happen. I believe that this story told today is a very small scale to what actually happens with big things in the real world. You’re weird, dumb, overthinking, you name it – until it’s done and it proves to be a better way (or whatever it is you’re doing). In my case, I improved the way tape was held on our carts by saving us 12 seconds of inconvenience per tape transaction. Not a big deal whatsoever. Yet, the reactions of others were promising of the aforementioned theory in this post. Which leads me to the final comment of this. People often critisize what they do not understand. You can’t even be bothered or offended. They just do not understand, and that’s okay.

8:02pm, March 6th, 2024, Desk, UT I don’t feel lonely. I feel alone. I am on a path that not many other people around me are on. Which sometimes sucks. I am very happy despite everything i said in this podcast, but that doesn’t erase the fact of being objecrtively alone. I am happy with my life and where it’s going because I know with 100% certainty it won’t all be for nothing. I will be able to look back and see that it was all worth it. More than worth it. Like investing $10 and turning it into $10M. Well. Well. Worth it. I have been embracing sucking and failing often lately. It’s gotten me more accustomed to ignoring and blocking out the annoying comments others make. And simply getting okay with messing up. It’s okay, it’s how you learn and grow. And I think the more I mess up and make a fool of myself, the more I am shown that it doesn’t matter, no one cares after a while, and others perceptions bother me less and less. It’s liberating. It makes me want to go try more things and mess up to further this uncomfortable comfort. Die or grow.

8:35pm, March 5th, 2024, Desk, UT - @brquse Yo. Financial Health just got better because I made the choice to work Sundays. Now I only have 2 days off a month, but my financial goals are accelerated. That makes me feel so ecstatic. I am so pumped at there mere thought of that. I’ll be able to pocket about $2,000/mo come Jan of 2025. That is a direct result of me choosing to “work so much” and sacrifice “fun times” with “friends and family.” Shit, I’m happier than I’ve ever been. Why is that? I’m going against social norms fairly heavily right now. And I’m thriving? Guess I’m a weird social outcast with delusional dreams. New apartment/condo/townhome soon. New place, new location, very hyped. Wouldn’t be here if I chose to game all day and not spend my “free time” grinding. You also wouldn’t be hearing about this if I never made the switch to commit to personal excellence. Life is great, and I am so happy.

7:53pm, March 4th, 2024 Self doubts. I don’t know if my idea is a good idea. But I’m not going to let this self doubt sabotage everything. Who I become in the process is the reward. Even if it is a shit idea and a bad strategy. By pursuing everything, I will gain skills, knowledge, and experience. That is nothing but good. I try to keep this frame of mind with everything now. Even if the reward of my commitments explode and I get nothing, or I feel like it was for nothing, I will be a better person in the end. And that itself is the reward.

6:36pm, March 3rd, 2024, Desk, UT What an Intro. What an Outro. Good lord. Here’s the exact thing I wrote and followed to read and record: Welcome back to the bq.Daily show where I document the day to day of personal growth, building discipline, raising the standard, building a business from the ground up, and sharing my perspective on it all as I go. I’ve committed to doing one of these every single day until episode #7305 which will be the 20-year anniversary of the show. My goal with all of this is to showcase the day to day of a man who desires more out of life who refuses to quit. It is my hope that through documenting the journey it will inspire, help, guide, or serve as proof for anyone looking to get more out of life. If I can do it, so can you. You just have to start. That’s it for today, thanks for listening. And as a daily, reminder this podcast does not focus on sound, quality, or professionalism as much as it does just getting a message out, sharing my wins and losses, and documenting the day to day through it all. So If you want to keep up with me, it would be awesome if you could give this show a follow on the platform you are listening on as well as a rating or review. Support this early on goes such a long way. Thanks again and I’ll see you tomorrow. So ass. But I did it, again, to prove you can just start and figure it out along the way. Now we have a reference point to compare and look back on when it gets better and more improved; whenever that may be. I think insecurities arise (in the context of doing things in front of others) because we speak to the camera, the mic, the listeners, or whatever in a way that is not congruent with how speak to others in real life. Example: I never talk to anyone In real life about self development or bettering myself via doing difficult and uncomfortable things. It makes me feel pretentious. Ergo, talking about that stuff, period, is what triggers the insecurities. It’s not that you are camera shy or are afraid to speak in front of others, it’s that you are speaking from an identity that others don’t recognize. Certain topics create the discomfort. The people listening or watching don’t have context to know that’s not normal of you to be so shy of these topics. They’re seeing or hearing you for the first time. But your friends and family know you. And if you aren’t regularly talking about the thing you’re talking about in your content, it is “novel stimuli” to them. In other words, they’ve been so accustomed to you being one way that being any other way is foreign to them. It’s weird. They don’t understand. And because you feel that and know it’s uncommon, the discomfort and insecurities arise.

9:01pm, March 2nd, 2024, Desk, UT I’ve gotten a bit of financial freedom (because I don’t have to pay rent at the moment lol). And that has given me that “peace of mind” financially. It’s proven to me (very clearly) that finances are great and all but they are not the goal. You can go back and listen to the last 135 episodes and hear me talk about it. I am so much more excited about creating something and sharing it with others. That freedom of creation and building something excites me so much more than any sum of money you could give me. I have reached a point where finances are not a stressor for my lifestyle. I’m sure they will be in the future with my big plans and ideas, but the point of all of this is to document. I don’t spend a lot. I don’t have expensive taste (except a lambo). I don’t need much. And that’s exciting to think I’m partly there. That frees up bandwidth both financially and mentally to allocate more energy and effort into building shit. I won’t have to stress about weekly groceries or paying my internet like in the past. I can go buy dinner for my family or go buy an xbox. I can save a month and go round trip to a new country. Thats cool to me. Now... can I buy a new car outright, down payment on a home, 5 figure flights or investments, invest 4 figures monthly, absolutely not. Trying to write this in a non-flexing way because it’s not a flex at all. It’s my piss-poor way of illustrating that I’m a simple man, and as a result of that simplistic approach, my financial goals have been met at <50k/yr. Liberation.

9:10pm, March 1st, 2024, Desk, UT Hey, would you leave me a review? I’d love some feedback and to see the numbers boost up a bit. I’ve made 134 episodes and this is my first ask of the audience here. I think it would be cool to see this reach some more people. Thank you for any consideration. I’m falling in love with the process here. It’s very rewarding. I can audibly hear myself grow (and visually too after the last episode). So cool.

7:13pm, February 29th, 2024, Desk, UT Hey hey hey, first ever podcast recorded on video in its entirety. Now that it’s over and done with, I can say now that it was so easy once I got going. The care I had as I continued on shrunk. I am now proud and happy I did it. I have actual footage of the podcast now. It’s a start. And from here I’m going to continue to find 1 itty bitty issue to improve upon each episode. And that is how this will get better and better from here on out. A ship in a harbor is safe but that is not what ships are built for.

10:06pm, February 28th, 2024, Desk, UT We did it man. Phase 2 of Live Hard completed. This was a very monotonous grind. This was much tougher than 75 hard was and it was less than half the length. I learned a lot more about myself through this phase. One being I have the highest standards I’ve ever had. I expect so much out of myself. And now, a lot of what was so hard for me in the past is so easy now. It is so amazing to see, first hand, real growth. And it is even more amazing to see that that growth is of yourself. I love doing hard shit. It leaves me feeling full of gratitude and fulfillment. I throw that word around so much but it is as accurate as you can get. Do the program. Please. Your life will never be the same. It’s free. Also, first edited clip. Added enhancing effects. Already don’t like the treble increase. You hear everytime I breath in now. Not a fan. But its being uploaded. IG - @brquse

4:42pm, February 27th, 2024, Drive, UT I got fired up today because it was made very clear to me that I had been executing on a particular task at a much higher standard (of this specific task) than virtually everyone else. It’s not about being better than anyone else, it’s about holding that standard high regardless of how silly, extreme, or ridiculous it seems to others that gives me that hype feeling. I also realized how quickly you can get sucked into the feeling of wanting to be on social and consume consume consume what internet strangers are feeding you. I was very aware of this feeling when it happened and I quickly took action to get out of that state. Note to self here, stop concerning yourself with comment sections if there is no positive ROI. Keep your focus on what matters now.

2:51pm, February 26th, 2024, Pre Gym, UT Such an indicator of success hearing giants in the space talk about and verbalize thoughts and ideas you’ve had all along. Alex Hormozi has quickly become one of my favorite businessmen to listen to. He speaks facts with fresh and unique perspectives. I don’t think I’ve heard him say some regurgitated bullshit before. I might start tracking these indicators along the way to see the time between each. For no other reason than to document it all for the guy or gal who listens in 23 years. Guess I’ll start now. First recorded success indicator was today, Feb 26th, 2024, on the Modern Wisdom episode with Chris Williamson & Alex Hormozi. Liquid gold. Document it all, who cares who watches or doesn’t watch. Day 29 of 30 of Phase 2 Live Hard. Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

8:25pm, February 25th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT I listen to my own shows more often than previously. I need to work on speaking skills. I sound like a dumbass sometimes. I do not want to sound that way. I discredit people entirely based on the way they speak. I am no perfect example whatsoever. I am just recognizing the issues and errors with my speech and want to correct them. I wouldn’t recognize these issues if I didn’t embrace the cringey learning experience by critiquing my words. This is one of those episodes that I for sure am feeling uncomfortable posting. But it is what it is. Who cares. Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

8:16pm, February 25th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT If a video gets 30,000,000 views, it might have 3,000,000 likes. It may have 20,000 comments. And of those 20,000 comments, there might be 50 at the top that are all reeking of negativity. Of those 50, they might cumulatively have 12,000 likes, or people who agree with it. That is 12,000 of the 30,000,000 people who are going out of their way to support or comment that negativity. Rough math but you get the point. Yet, we like to say everyone is negative and social media is poison. 12,000 people of 30,000,000 is 0.04%. That’s nothing. So, note to self: don’t let the 0.04% of people ruin your perspective. There’s 99.96% of others who are on your side. Butchered this show with numbers and flow. Live and learn. Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

7:46pm, February 25th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT Absolutely exhausted. I don’t feel like I am overworking myself, but I for sure am not sleeping well. It is easy to stay on top of things, but it becomes more difficult when you slip up and put off to tomorrow what can be done today. It’s a domino effect & a snowball effect combined. I haven’t missed a day of recording, but I have missed days uploading. Just being lazy. Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

10:13pm, February 24th, 2024, Bed, UT I recorded this while 95% asleep. I am so nervous to listen to this because I am SURE I fucked up and said a whole lot of nonsense. The name of this show is what I woke up to. I fell asleep typing the name apparently. Day 27, Pjasd/. Hell yeah. It was a very, very difficult day at FedEx. Top 10 worst days for sure. Murphys law in full effect today. No days off in the next 10 days to look forward to… So sometimes that adds to the mental exhaustion. But it’s only accelerating my speed to achieving my goals. So anyway, day 27 in the books. Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

?:??pm, February 23rd, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT When you set a new standard for yourself; from that point forward, anything less than that standard is you choosing to be less than you could be. If you run a mile every day and then run 6 miles one day, but continue running at one mile after that 6 mile day, you are operating with the knowledge that you are capable to run 6 miles, without dying, and not. Meaning, you’re leaving results and your potential on the table. You are indirectly lowering your standard. You set the bar, yet refuse to operate at the new bar. Obviously this doesn’t apply to extreme instances such as a 1 rep max on bench. I’m assuming there’s some common sense here. If you write 5 pages one night but have previously only written 3, you now know you are able to write 5. If you ice bath at 50 and then go to 40, you now know you are capable of doing 40. Etc. Unpolished thoughts. Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. 9:34pm, February 22nd, 2024, Desk, UT You never know who is watching. Hold the standard, set the example, keep pushing forward. Don’t let yourself down and don’t let those whom you inspire down either. There are silent believers and fans all over. I’m on of them. Chances you are too. When was the last time you reached out to your favorite band, author, podcaster, teacher, whoever, and told them what their work has done for you? When was the last time you sent a simple DM to one of these groups or professionals and expressed gratitude for their content? We all have silent fans and believers who watch our every move. Keep them believing. Keep them cheering for you. You’ll hear about it one day. And you’ll be thankful you never quit. I promise.

Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. 7:07pm, February 21st, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT New podcast is in the works and is in the pre-pre-pre developmental stages (AKA setting goals and getting clear on my intentions). Maybe 3-4 more months until it’s live? Who knows. I had an incredible day today and I have no logical reasoning as to why that is. I track so much of my life and nothing was out of the ordinary for today to be so good. Interesting. I even slept less than normal. Weird how the human body works. Also, I have been putting the phone between my chest and the weighted vest. I think the voice clarity is better and it sounds better. So we’ll roll with that. Also smacked day 90 in a row of ice baths at 39º for 5 minutes. Wins on wins around here because that’s what I’ve been focusing on.

7:28pm, February 20th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT Simple: It’ll be so interesting, insightful, fun, and valuable to have these podcasts in the distant future. Documenting everything has been fun so far, and I haven’t even done shit yet. Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG.

Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. 9:16pm, February 20th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT I am so over these outdoor rucks man. Holy shit. Maybe I am just annoyed today, but I really get irritated when the inconveniences of life appear in my life. Note to self, this is life. Life happens and will forever happen. There is no getting rid of it. Acceptance would be helpful at this point. Kept the podcast flow running in front of 2 couples of people today. It feels good to conquer this silly fear. I say it’s silly because I have 192 downloads, meaning 192 times someone has listened to my show. That’s a room full of people. But I can’t speak in front of 1 person on the sidewalk? Fun dichotomy to laugh at me for. But it is what it is.

Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. 9:16pm, February 19th, 2024, Bedroom, UT All-time PR on bench today. Hell. Yes. It feels so good to know my best has yet to come, when, for a while, I thought I had peaked. All the sudden, that original goal of the glorious 3 plates doesn’t seem too far out of the realm of possibility anymore. Interesting realization today when I saw my behavior toward my job change depending on the quality of the load. When it’s perfect, I expect things one way. But when it’s not perfect, my expectations dwindle and I am more open to the possibility of more errors. I really don't know where I was headed with this, but it is a behavior and psychological thing I noticed. It makes me wonder where else in my life these patterns take place. Is it almost more in my best interest to have a shitty load than a good one? Because then the expectation is much lower, thus indirectly liberating myself to more possibilities? I dunno.

Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. 10:53am, February 18th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT Self discovery – It is impossible to read with the intent to learn and develop if I do it too close to bed. It is a WAR trying to keep my eyes open to read those pages. I had to, again, take 2 power naps mid-reading session. How silly is that? But, again, we got it done and we keep the momentum building and the progress coming. For that, I am proud of myself. Quitting will only make the entire situation worse. It is no longer an option. I cannot fail if I do not quit.

Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. ?:??pm, February 17th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT I am actually so bummed at the thought that in the near future, my ice bath days may come to a temporary pause. Option 1 - Get an apartment that is $1200/mo with no space or ability or allowance for an ice bath freezer. Option 2 - Get an apartment/townhome that is $1800-2200 with space for an ice bath. The dilemma: Most places won’t allow a giant ice chest on their patios or balconies. The second idea is to get a place with a garage and put it in there. Obviously. But the issue there is – as i’ve come to find out – not a lot of places around here 1) have garages, and 2) have garages with outlets in them. From there, the one place that has gotten back to me on the issue has said that they’d have to double check if it’s “okay” to store something like that in my garage. Furthermore, the dilemma continues. How do I practically fill it up? How do I realistically drain and clean it? Where is the spigot? Where is the drain? Seems extremely silly to be making such a massive fuss over all this when the reality is I just need an ice bath to sit in for 35 minutes per week. That’s all. And it’s changing the entire dynamic of my move-out situation, which, by the way, isn't going to happen for another 4-6 months. Reminder to self: It’s 4-6-month-away’s problem. Stop stressing about it now. You’ll figure it out when the time comes. Stop overthinking good lord.

Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. 10:42pm February 16th, 2024, Bedroom, UT Day 19 of Phase 2 of Live Hard. What a tough one. These types of days really put me to the test. It’s hard sometimes to want to get the shit done you know needs to get done. It’s mentally taxing and it adds up really quickly if you don’t manage it well. There’s only so much you can do. But like I've said in the past, bad plays can still score points. And in the context of today, today was a poorly drawn out play. But we still made it happen and still got everything done. And we move on. I cannot fail if I do not quit.

Instagram - @brquse Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. 2:47pm & 8:??pm, February 15th, 2024, Work & Outdoor Workout, UT Great guy. Very helpful. Odd way to do it. I need the ability to exercise creativity in the workplace and to experiment with new ways of doing things. Regardless if I fail, mess up, or find out that the way it’s been done is in fact the best way. Curiosity killed the cat but satisfaction brought it back. I am looking forward to running my very own-something and running it my way with my thinking behind it. It’ll be fun to get in the game and learn the game. It is so difficult for me to tolerate people who cant expand their thinking past what they’ve always done. There is always a better way. I wanna find those and share them with others to make their lives easier. BTS: Tired as shit, eating a homemade high fiber pork and rice burrito, fresh out the shower, dozing off as I type this, not wanting to do it, but doing it anyway. Feels good to get shit done especially when I dont want to. And to think I am still on time for bed right now. Insane. Let’s go baby.

Instagram - @brquse // Let’s get the social media ball rolling a bit. Goal 1 - 100 followers on IG. ?:??pm, February 14th, 2024, Outdoor Workout, UT Not doing something with the excuse being “I’m too busy” means that in order for you to do the thing, you need to be in a phase of life where you are not busy. Chances are, life is going to happen to you every week. You’re always going to have something going on. Do you want to meal prep, hit the gym, read regularly, or work on your business for the rest of your life? Yes. Do you think you’re never going to be busy ever again after this next project of yours is done? No. Therefore, start now. Because putting it off any longer is hindering the long term results. If you can do things when they are most inopportune, hard, or inconvenient, you sure as shit will be able to do them when you don’t have anything going on, which is what you assume needs to be the circumstances in order for you to do the thing you’re putting off. You’re not too busy. Your priorities are fucked and so is your ability to effectively manage your time. If you want the non-butchered version of this invaluable perspective, go check out Alex Hormozi's page. He said it best.

2:48pm, February 14th, 2024, Clinton, UT, Car To someone who doesn’t have any desire to improve in life in minuscule ways, this may sound obsessive and crazy. “I missed the part where that’s my problem.” — Peter Parker I have this form that I’ve made for myself to answer every night. For no other reason than to track my productivity, mood, behavior, efficiency, and find patterns. I want to see the data of my life and analyze it. I want to find the common denominator in my successful, productive, and smooth days so I can recreate them as much as I can. The best part of it all… it’s free and takes me less than 180 seconds per day to complete. Weigh that investment of time with the result it brings. Statistical analysis of my everyday behavior and results? Free? 3 minutes? Easy. Obsessive, crazy, weirdo, sign me up. I want to get better. BTS: I’m getting my oil changed. I’m sitting in the auto shop lobby typing all this. Feels good getting shit done when I could easily be sitting here scrolling social.

7:12pm, February 13th, 2024, West Haven, UT, Outdoor Workout A day full of stress: good or bad? It depends on the light that it is viewed in. I’m gonna keep this one short and sweet. There was a lot of problems today. There were many situations where I was extremely irritable and annoyed. There were many moments where I would’ve quit in the past. I had a mountain of inconveniences (in the context of the day) that I had to tend to. Rather than seeing all this as frustrating and quitting, I swapped my thought process into growth mode and accepted these situations as tests for me to either pass or fail. By gamifying the whole day, I was able to handle each issue with a new goal in mind: grow and develop. And so I did. And I’m proud of that.

?:??pm, February 12th, 2024, West Haven, UT, Outdoor Workout Came across a video on social where a dude is breaking a thick layer of ice with a sledgehammer. It’s his outdoor ice bath, and it happens to be 33°. My first impression was “that’s so bad ass. This guy is a legend. This is real ass discipline.” Let’s be real here. If you take away every benefits from the ice bath, every single one, you’re left with freezing water and that’s it. To get yourself into that water for no other reason than to exercise discipline; that takes a large amount of willpower. And that’s what it’s about. Peep the comments and you’ll see every other mother fucker talking about how it’s so unhealthy, how it’s so bad for you, how it must suck to be this guys neighbor. Making jokes about how he’s doing it for attention or likes. Not one comment was anything close to “Damn, I don’t have the discipline for this. This is nuts!” Or “I’m not brave enough to get into water that cold.” Or “wow this guy is tough! I could never!” Or anything to that extent. At all. The comments were all the aforementioned shit saying how it’s so bad for you. Chances are, none of these people making these comments have done jack shit to improve their mental game. Or, maybe they have. But they haven’t come across the ice bath routine. So they bash it immediately. To be honest I have no idea where I’m going with this caption. So I’ll stop here lol. #documenteverything

115. 5:01pm, February 11th, 2024, West Haven, UT, Outdoor Workout Mid superbowl, we gettin’ it done. Flexing hard for the haters on one (just kidding, I do not care). Go patriots. I read last night; it was the very last task for my day. It was brutal. I was so exhausted that reading a mere 10 pages became the hardest thing I’ve ever done. It took every ounce of my soul to not fall asleep while reading. A thought crossed my mind, and what was, “imagine if I – in the middle of reading – stopped and went to bed because it was ‘too hard’ for me to finish the pages.” If, in the exact moment I decided to quit and actually did, it probably would have been euphoric. It probably would have felt relieving. I could now go to bed. I could finally shut my eyes and go to sleep. The hard was over with. I could finally end the day and lay in my warm, comfortable bed. But what about tomorrow morning when I wake up and am confronted with the fact that I failed. I bitched out. I did not keep my word I made with myself. I got lazy. I took the easy road; the road that everyone else takes. I forfeited growth, discipline, resilience, perseverance. I quit. What about the days ahead when I look back and think “I really quit over not wanting to read 5 and half more pages…? Am I that weak that I couldn’t muster up the discipline to read 5 lousy pages of a book? Wow.” What about when people come across my page and see that I’m all about working hard, exercising willpower, and building resilience? I’ll be a fraud… I can’t even read 10 pages? Within seconds of this thought, I snapped out of the tired frenzy, corrected my posture, focused on every word, and got it done. And while this may be so microscopic in the grand scheme of things, my momentum lives on and keeps building. Another test passed and another lesson learned. If you’re going to lose a battle, make sure it’s something truly out of your control. If you have control over the outcome, anything less than a win is a conscious decision you made to be less than what you could’ve been. P.S. Made a nightly intake form to track my progress every day. It takes less than 50 seconds to complete and tracks 20+ details of my life so I can reflect and see patterns and predict outcomes. Google forms baby. It’s free. I’ll let ya know how it goes.

5:55pm, February 10th, 2024, West Haven, UT, Grass Field I have had this feeling of “falling off the train” ever since Ep. 106. I feel like I am not as disciplined as I once was. As I talk about in this episode, I think it is actually due to the fact that I’ve been doing this for half a year now very consistently. It is molding into an entirely new lifestyle for me. I draw comparisons back to Colorado & Arizona a lot, but all of them are true. My schedule was loosely 7am-4pm deliver 300 packages. 4:30-midnight play runescape/minecraft/cod. That’s really it. Going from that to now, (when not on Live Hard) I’m: working out, following a nutritional plan, eating 225g+ protein, taking a 39º ice bath for 5 minutes, reading 10 full pages of a self development book (sometimes 30+ because the pages are halfsies), drinking a gallon of plain water, recording a podcast, uploading a podcast, and developing the core of a business I am working on. And when I am on Live Hard, throw in a second workout in the mix that’s outdoors. That’s my life now, and yet I still feel like I am being a lazy bum. Objectively, I am fully aware that I am not and that I am getting a lot of things done. But subjectively, I’m not doing shit. It is hard to even remind myself of the reality of the situation because the feeling of being a bum still lingers. All in all, I guess I need to add more to the mix and get more done, especially since I have extra time in the day I’m not doing shit with.

?:??pm, February 9th, 2024, Clinton, UT I struggle personally with trying to deviate from a set schedule of tasks that need to get done. I need to clean my ice bath out, and that’s no short task given the circumstances I have. I also would like to sit down and revisit my goals, my why, and what I’m doing. I’d like to get back in line with those. I tend to overcomplicate things in my head. Something I need to work on getting better at. Working backward in goal setting is an easy way to figure out your next move. Figure out what the goal is, then what is required just before that, and then just before that, and so and and so forth until you arrive at present time

7:47pm, February 8th, 2024, West Haven, UT, Church Parking Lot, Outdoor Workout After that first podcast earlier today, it got me thinking about something else. Despite being back with friends and family here in UT (after moving around for 3 years), I still feel lonely in regards to the path I’m on. I would love to find like-minded individuals, but they are so rare in the realm of personal development and challenging ones self to become better. People would rather go out, spend loads of money on food and drinks, party with friends, watch multiple series Netflix, stay out of shape, stay broke, stay in their 9-5 jobs. Not a lot of people desire growth in their lives, for either them or their families, and it is evident by their priorities. Nothing wrong with any of this, but I'm trying to find the people who want bigger, better, more. Who have giant ambition and are acting on it relentlessly everyday. This is why I am so embarrassed to talk about any of this to people in casual conversation. To the average guy, the dynamic of this conversation might be that I think I'm better, holier than thou, superior, or extremely arrogant. I just don't want to be a fat, mediocre, depressed, sad sack of shit. I want to own super cars, run companies, and change lives. I want to challenge myself, overcome hardships, and seek my personal limits. I don't want to scroll social media all day, watch porn, drink every weekend, watch TV all the time, or waste my life away not being fulfilled. But fuck me right? Arrogant prick. It sucks. But it’s the path I chose.

7:10pm, February 8th, 2024 (Kobe & Gigi Day 02/08/24), West Haven, UT, Church Parking Lot, Outdoor Workout Well, looks like business won’t be happening for a lot longer than anticipated. There are many options I have, and it truly boils down to how much patience I am willing to exert in this chapter of my life. The more I openly talked about the issue the more clarity it brought to me. It brought me answers that I didn’t want, but that provide a viable way out of the wait-time. Either way, I can’t give up. I have to reframe and keep moving. I’ll figure it out as I go. You’ll hear about it here 1 episode at a time. Distracted af in this one.

4:07pm, February 7th, 2024, Gym Parking Lot, UT, Car This is a piggyback off of episode 106. My baseline tasks in my life – that I do every day – are to hit my caloric intake requirements and 225g+ protein, drink 1 gallon of plain water, exercise, read 10 pages of a self development book, no alcohol or cheats, take an ice bath, and record a podcast. While on Live Hard you can throw in an additional workout. But that’s the baseline. When I execute properly, I have 2-3 hours left in my day for whatever else I desire. Which lately has been dedicated to developing products and a business. It makes me think that this is the all-so-value key to success that is overlooked. I am doing all of these things daily, and yet I still feel I am not doing enough. Just 7 months ago, I was just working my 9-5 at FedEx and coming home to play games all day. That was it. I didn’t feel any sort of resentment or regret in those days for being a lazy fat fuck. But now that I have a clear vision, I am really disappointed in myself when that is all I do in the day. But maybe that’s it. Maybe that’s the key to it all. My personal baseline is sending me on the right trajectory for ultimate success. It just seems like nothing is happening because there hasn’t been enough compounding going on. I’m 6 or 7 months into this journey. I have not given up. What will the magnification of my daily tasks be for the future of my results if I continue this rate of execution for the next 5 years? It’s a comforting thought to know all I have to do is not throw in the towel. That’s it. I cannot fail if I do not quit.

7:20pm, February 6th, 2024, West Haven, UT, Neighborhood, Outdoor Ruck I’m so sick of dogs not being on their leash, man. I love dogs. I’m a dog person. I want a big dog. But holy shit dude. It’s pitch black outside, it’s raining, and bam a black dog appears from the shadows. This might be the 15th time in the last 6 months. It’s ridiculous. Anyway, here’s some growth. I don’t care about the lack of “love” on my stuff anymore it seems. I hit 100 downloads today. And while that’s very cool, I’m seemingly unphased. Whether it was still 0 or if it was 10,000, I’d still be stoked to get another episode recorded. I guess that’s what falling in love with the process actually is then huh? I like doing it. I’m already on 110. I blinked and here I am. Weird. I think doing this with the rule of “no one can know” forced me to produce with the goal to produce, not with the goal to get likes, comments, and shares. It makes me wonder if I apply this rule to other areas of my life, how could I change the goal associated with that activity. Now that I think about it, that is where my success for 75 hard came about as well. No one knew I was doing it except my immediate family. I was doing it for me. Interesting reflection. Keep going. Do it for the younger you.

9:23pm, February 5th, 2024, West Haven, UT, In Bed Day 8 in the books. Almost forgot to record a show, but got it done anyway whilst laying in bed, moments away from sleeping. I’m getting my own place once again here in the next 4-5 months and I am stoked about that. Big moves in my life and I couldn’t be more thankful. Discipline is simply about getting what needs to get done every day. Poorly designed plays can still score points. Remember that.

7:27pm, February 4th, 2024, West Haven, UT, Desk The new podcast is on its way. The real, professional, value packed, sit down, high quality one. Before embarking on this much more professional journey, I dedicated about 30-40 minutes to brainstorming a name for the show based on the information I’ll be talking about. Spoiler alert, we came up with - Your New Norm - The Pursuit of Personal Excellence We’ll see if it sticks. So far so good. I like this one. P.S. need to go to bed in 18 minutes and still need 50g protein, 500 calories, and drink a quart of water. Because tomorrow I WILL do my outdoor ruck at 2:50am, followed by an ice bath. (I'm embarrassed to share that I did not keep my word to myself on waking up at 2:30am. It makes me feel like a bitch. Not that I didn't do this or that, but because I didn't keep my word)

10:10pm, February 3rd, 2024, West Haven, UT, Bedroom I started listening to the shows I record now to critique myself and get better. I have not listened to any episodes of this show below 105. So, hearing 105 to this one has opened my eyes a bit to the things I’d like to improve on. Phase 2 Day 6 is complete, which means tomorrow will be the end of the first week. It’s been a smooth run so far and I’m proud of my execution. I have been focusing on intent of all things and have been loving the challenge it presents in each area. Intent is the key. For further context and a painted picture, I put my phone down on my bed, near my thick blanket and a pillow, and hit “record” on my voice memos app. I’m kneeling on the floor, elbows dug into my mattress, and my phone placed between the blanket and pillow. The quality is much better and it requires zero setup. Badda bing. Proof you don’t need an elaborate setup for great audio quality. Just start.

6:19pm, February 2nd, 2024, Hill AFB, UT, Car Yes, this is episode 106 and a half. I have so many thoughts I want to capture. Going Off 106; I am doing my thing. I am spending my day how I want. I am doing so while also being proactive toward my goals. I’m doing a lot of what my younger self always wanted. Which was to have freedom of choice to do as I wished. Go play ball, hit the gym, go read, go watch a show if I want, listen to music, enjoy some time with myself, drive around, enjoy life. I’m feeling grateful for these opportunities more and more the more I reflect. Specific memories that come to mind are when I would shoot hoops with my buddies at the Ogden Athletic Club. I'd see the older guys (I was 15, so older guys were 25) coming in with their gear and just ball up. I'd always wonder what it was really like to have the freedom to go wherever, whenever, and do whatever with whoever. I thought that freedom must've been awesome and so empowering. Turns out it is. But as the great Uncle Ben once said...

4:25pm, February 2nd, 2024, West Haven, UT, Bedroom I feel lazy when I do the bare minimum of my tasks now. And as a result, it affects my mental game. I have to remind myself where I was at just 6 short months ago. It is no exaggeration when I say I would go to work, come home, and sit in my room all day and play RuneScape, COD, and Minecraft. I didn’t socialize, work on myself, or hit the gym more than twice a month. I wasn’t doing any form of self development. The ONLY thing I was doing was listening to Dr. Huberman and taking 8 second cold showers. Which might be the start of it all… But now, my new baseline is 1 gallon of water, 1 workout, reading 10 pages, following a bulking diet with 225g+ protein per day, working on building a business, podcasting every day, and all the small things, all while working 2 jobs (and also busting my ass at those, too). So now… for me, when I am doing JUST those things, I feel down and upset with my lack of execution. So I have to remind myself, “Yo, you’re doing just fine. What you’re doing now is going to get you where you want to go. The catch is you can’t ever give up. This is your life.” And I feel better again. And for all of those listening or reading, thinking I might be saying all this to flex… I am being 100% transparent with my thoughts and feelings regarding my early, early, early days of all of this. It is to document every detail. Someone in 3 years from now is going to see my then-success and find comfort and value in listening to this. This is who I’m recording for (aside from myself).

4:11PM, February 1st, 2024, Hill AFB, UT, Gym Parking Lot In life, there will be thousands of moments where you are faced with a test of integrity. You can either choose to do the harder option or the easier option — whatever those may be. No one will know what the outcome of these decisions will be except you. You will know, and you will always know. For me, I want to know that I held the standard I set for myself. I want to know that I did the right thing even when I could’ve gotten away with the alternative. I want to know that I am exactly who I say I am, and I never want to doubt that even for a millisecond. If you can’t nail the small stuff, how will you ever nail the big ones? Take pride in remaining on the path to success even though you may walk it alone with wolves snarling at you at every corner. They’ll only bite if you let them. Work hard, do the right thing, and be proud of yourself for doing so. We are now caught up. Every episode from here on out is within a day of recording. Sick.

Nothing like a deep breath intro for 2 straight minutes from a grown ass man eh? In this show, I record while in the cold plunge, catch a win LIVE on the show, and touch on current conditions with Phase 2. Today is day 3. So far so good. Day 69 of taking a 39º ice bath for 5 minutes. Gunning for another 100 milestone!

Early mornings suck. I have never been a morning person. I have always been a night owl by default. but I have trained myself to be a morning person. There for a while I was waking at 1:45am to run a mile, take an ice bath, read, journal, stretch, pack a lunch, shower, prep for work, and leave by 4:30am to get to work by 5am. That shit sucks. I'd rather not do it if I don't have to. I am looking forward to the day when my hard work pays off and I earn myself the freedom of my schedule to do such as I please. Until then, we keep moving forward. As a reminder to anyone, shitty progress is always better than zero progress. Day 2 of Phase 2.

In this episode, I talk about starting phase 2 of live hard, hurting my foot, creating a new intensity technique for my workouts, and having one of the best workouts I’ve had in quite some time due to proper intent and focus. I touch on a little bit of my diet, my workout, and the entire purpose and focus of phase 2 of live hard. I’m quickly realizing that getting an episode that documents the day in under three minutes or so is very difficult. So it might take a lot longer for somebody to catch up if they choose to. Live and learn, keep on growing, keep on progressing. (this was all typed up by voice chat. I made zero edits to this. I didn't proof read it either. It doesn't have to be perfect. I am simply documenting every move, good or bad)