WISE WOMEN DIARIES

Kassie is now an authentic midwife but reflects on her four births, beginning at the age of 19. Throughout her 20's, she discovered her passion of homebirth, becoming a doula, then a midwife, and she even got fired from a midwife practice for "trusting birth too much." Hence, she now practices as a traditional midwife, attracting clients that do not want an authority figure in birth, just the simple presence of a wise woman.

Niecia Nelson (@iamaltar on instagram) shares her beautiful, radical homebirth on a little island in Canada..... from 17 years ago. It is an incredible story that brought me to tears and left me speechless in so many moments. Niecia is a mother, teacher + steward of the feminine frequency that rests in the female physiology. She chaperones women back to their true nature using a psycho-biological approach that is grounded in the wisdom of their own bodies. Niecia believes that robust fertility, abundant energy, and embracing of motherhood are all birth rights for every woman. That belief shepherded her through her own dance with burnout, diet culture, and complex PTSD, and landed her in her body for the first time in her adult life. Since then, she has dedicated her time to understanding how our relationships with nature, nutrition and minerals influence and direct our psychology and perception of the world around us. Niecia’s offerings are a rare pairing of psychology and bioenergetics, drawing on both her diverse professional background and her eternal studies at the feet of the universe. Niecia's offering: "Every woman is born into a body which becomes their physical house for the rest of their lives. If we want to ground down into our potential, we must tend to our house at the roots. Eat To Go Deep is a rich nutrition and physiology program that guides you to prepare your body and mind to receive deeper threads of expansion - whether that is spiritual work, nervous system re-patterning, womb work, unwinding of complex trauma, or even receiving abundance . We touch on everything from minerals, to eating for your latitude, to what nervous system practices are appropriate for what bioenergetic patterns (hormonal imbalances etc), to how food changes your psychology, and so much more. Eat To Go Deep is the course I needed during my biggest transformations, but couldn't find, and it ties together the most important aspects of my work: food, energy, nature, psychology, bioenergetics." Find more here: www.eattogodeep.com Listeners can receive $55 off with code: WISEWOMAN

When we don't trust, we want to control. This is the crux of what Katelyn had to learn through a hard miscarriage, a traumatic hospital birth, and a homebirth with her second daughter. Katelyn tells her story from the place of the most power: radical responsibility.

German New Medicine | I have shed the belief that body symptoms are wrong or stupid, or that you can eat perfect and have no body symptoms. I have learned the basics of German New Medicine, which has freed my mind and body from the fear of gluten, sugar, seed oils, germs, and cancer! I discovered how my "seasonal allergies" were an intelligent adaptation of my body, reversing my victim mentality to Peace. Listen to this episode if you want TRUE FREEDOM from Fear! I highly recommend listening to any podcasts with Dr Melissa Sell. Her knowledge on German New Medicine is profound. Email me at [email protected] if you have an amazing German New Medicine healing story you would love to share on the podcast!

The two big topics I am talking about this month: Are a difference of values the cause of friction in relationships? Do we only show up and love people when its convenient for us?

I was introduced to the concept of Existential Kink by Carolyn Elliott and it blew my mind. The truth is, most of us secretly benefit from the pain and suffering in our life, we're just not aware and not willing to be honesty about it. For example: if we are chronically sick, we are probably filling the emotional need of love, attention, and being cared for, so in all honesty, being sick, brings us many benefits. In this episode I discuss the shadow work I have been doing and sharing the insights, like... how could I be benefiting from "infertility?" I discovered that I actually do benefit! I also discuss how what we desire we also fear and that we all have thresholds, "ceilings" on how much money we think is appropriate to make. Please email [email protected] if you have a "kink story" you would love to share on this podcast!

The successes of IVF are common stories, but no one talks about the possibility of constant heartbreak in the journey of IVF, the consequences of the hormone drugs, and the dark side of the fertility business. Andrea shares with us her fertility journey- how she faced her victimhood and blossomed into a more trusting, heart-centered woman through it all. She credits working with Patty Markham Peterson (my mom!) to shift out of victim mindset and into a grander, spiritual perspective that helped her anchor into Peace. (instagram @pattymarkhampeterson) Please email [email protected] if you want to share your own story of the dark realities of the medical fertility business or if you experienced fertility issues and were able to shed a victim mindset.

Holly is a pharmacist in the System but has so much awareness and wisdom. She shares her story of a repressed childhood memory of a doctor touching her without consent, her two unmedicated hospital birth stories and an unassisted birth at home. After her homebirth, she chose to bring her baby to the hospital because of a medical need and details the harrowing experience of fighting for the respect of her baby and navigating intuition in a place where everything is fear mongered. She learned how to fully advocate for herself and her baby while health professionals were bullying and disrespecting her. Holly is on instagram at @womensinstincts

Cynthia shares her story of the postpartum underworld after the birth of her first child, which includes a unique experience with postpartum psychosis... her spiritual awakening. A "bipolar diagnosis" in her 20's set her on a quest of becoming a student to health and fitness with the goal of not taking medication, but then the surprise pregnancy with her daughter was the catalyst for her accelerated spiritual growth. Cynthia could have become a victim to a "diagnosis" and could have stayed on meds for her entire life..... but she didn't. Instead she took responsibility for her health, her life, and motherhood, and now she thrives as a wise, mature mother... and I am lucky enough to have her in my life. Cynthia has offerings for women (especially mother's), in person, or online. Her instagram is @cynthiaspenla, her website is www.cynthiaspenla.com Note: We mention Dr Kelly Brogan a few times in this podcast. Cynthia and I both love to learn from Kelly (her podcast is Reclamation Radio). Dr Kelly Brogan was a normal psychiatrist that prescribed anti-depressants to pregnant women until she learned the truth of science literature. She wrote a few books about the myths of big pharma meds and now dedicates her life to helping people NOT take these meds and take responsibility for their lives through a holistic lens of health.

Sarah is my hilarious, dear friend, who is a doctor (veterinarian) and a first time mom. She shares with us her story of homebirth with her first daughter, contemplating freebirth, lessons in the first year as a new mom, miscarrying at home, and the hard mental complexities of pregnancy after a loss. I love Sarah's raw honesty so so so much.

Natasha (@empoweredmamamovement on instagram) and I discuss many topics surrounding parenting: respectful parenting is not about compliance, feeling guilt as a parent serves a very important purpose for growth, chemicals in food and technology can hijack children (and adults) brains inhibiting natural instincts and intuition, how to talk to children about nutrition, and asking yourself the very important question of, "Am I being the adult I want my child to grow up to become?" because children model behavior they are shown.

Natasha (@empoweredmamamovement on instagram) shares her personal journey through fertility issues, multiple miscarriages, a straight-forward, drug-free hospital birth, then most recently, a homebirth with her second son that rocked her and created a lot of emotional turmoil from mind expectations. We discuss how an important aspect to hospital birth outcomes (good and bad) is the hospital staff working that day. Natasha also shares that one of the most unexpected mind issues with her homebirth was her desire to host and take care of her midwives while she was in labor (now she realizes that this is a common theme among women who homebirth). Part 2 of this conversation is a discussion with Natasha about conscious/respectful parenting.

Part 2 of Rebecca's story (@theradiantmission on instagram) covers her unique journey with addressing tongue ties with her children, then her experience of miscarrying at home without medical intervention. She is now pregnant for the fourth time and we discuss her mental state with being pregnant after a miscarriage and how trying to control a baby's positioning in the womb stems from our need for control and lack of surrender.

Rebecca (@theradiantmission on instagram) shares the detrimental effects birth control had on her body and the injuries and trauma she sustained from her unnecessary c-section with her first birth. This led her to wake up and start learning the truth about the medical system and the truth about how birth is suppose to be, the way God designed, which led her to freebirth her son at home! Part 2 of this story discusses her journey of lip and tongue ties with her children and miscarrying her third baby at home without medical intervention.

A fresh perspective on why it seems like everyone is healing trauma and their inner child and why conscious/ respectful parenting is popular right now too.

This episode is for the young women, the maidens, seeking maturity. Emily (@leorisingbirthkeeping on instagram) and I talk about how we are stepping into mother energy before having children. Emily and I surround ourselves with mothers that are aligned with our values and trust us to help mother their children. Maidens having deep relationships with mothers is a sacred step on the path to feminine maturation / motherhood. We discuss how birth control is stunting women from having an intimate relationship with their own body and is also effecting women’s lack of desire to have children. Emily hosts a monthly Maiden to Mother virtual circle for maidens, pregnant women, and mothers to all learn from each other.

Samantha (@hellomama.nutrition on instagram) shares her first conventional hospital birth story, with postpartum anxiety that followed and lasted for two years. Doctors weren’t interested in helping her so she took her health into her own hands, healing her anxiety, igniting a new passion for nutrition, health, and helping educate mothers about true nourishment. Then after multiple miscarriages, she looked even deeper into her health again, healing her body on her own, without the help of western medicine. Her next birth was a home birth, but she had complex emotions that surfaced when the birth was so much harder and darker than she expected. Lastly, she speaks on not being a parent on auto-pilot. Years into parenting her first daughter, she realized she was parenting in fear, using intimidation and discipline, and it didn't feel good for herself or her daughter, so she changed her ways.

Jordan had a common first birth: an induction in the medical system. She desired a natural birth but with the induction, all her plans and dreams went out the window. She still walked away from it thinking she had a good first birth.... until she learned the REAL truth about birth on podcasts and the magic of homebirth. Coming from a medical family and knowing no one in her life that homebirthed, she forged ahead and knew she had to experience a homebirth with her second baby.... and it was everything she could have dreamed and more! So easy and simple. Right after her daughter was born in the water, Jordan exclaimed, "Thats it? That was easy! I want another baby, I have to do this again!"

The presence and intention Tay brings to her mothering is unlike anything I have ever witnessed. We discuss her mothering journey with her son, which includes, elimination communication (offering the toilet to her son in infancy), breastfeeding, waiting a year to leave her son for the first time, and why she doesn’t own any baby accessories (no bottles, pacifiers, breast pumps, crib, etc.). We talk deeply about many topics surrounding motherhood, like when mother's betray themselves or their babies, their body tells them through heartbreak, anxiety, or depression. There is so much wisdom from Tay in this episode I highly recommend re-listening a second or third time.

Tay is one of the most unique humans I have ever met. Her story encapsulates what is possible for all women in birth and postpartum. She stepped into Mother energy before conception, releasing her Maidenhood and the maiden's need for external validation and an authority figure. Tay was her own authority throughout each step: pregnancy, birth, and motherhood. She had a simple, wild pregnancy, without any prenatal care or appointments or tests, a freebirth in her home with just her husband and parents, and an unbelievable, "psychedelic" postpartum where she describes falling in love with her husband again, and her new son, and receiving spiritual downloads from God. Her story is incredibly unique and perhaps unrelatable to many, but the ease and bliss she experienced in pregnancy, birth, and postpartum, is indeed available to all women, not just her.

Taylor, a mother of three, discusses her journey as a young, naive mother, to an embodied, mature mother who fully trusts herself. As a professional athlete's wife, she explains how hard her first postpartum was while her husband's career was taking off, then struggling with eczema with her middle 'sensitive child' and feeling deeply victim to the eczema. But then her life changed dramatically after experiencing a twin miscarriage... It broke her open and changed her mothering journey. She learned that her sensitive child is her biggest gift and she is not a victim. And, after two c-sections, she learned how to speak up for herself and have the VBAC she yearned for.

The *first ever* Wise Women Diaries interview is with, Sue Ellen, a first time mom. She details the journey of having no medical prenatal care throughout her 'wild pregnancy' and how she was able to relax into Trust within her own body, without receiving tests or ultrasounds to externally validate any fears that surfaced. She explains some of the anxieties that presented when she reached 43 weeks in pregnancy, but ultimately how it stretched and deepened her Trust for her baby and God to surrender and have a blissful, primal freebirth.

My body is leading me to true Trust of my body, something Western Medicine AND Holistic Medicine does not embody or teach. Our body doesn't start healing when we start taking a pill or supplement or see a chiropractor. It's always healing, but it doesn't always heal in a way that is pleasing to our mind! Doctors mentioned that inspire me: Dr Cassie Huckaby, Dr Melissa Sell, and Dr Kelly Brogan

We have two selves within us: the short term self (ego) AND the long term self (soul). The short term self always wants us to do the fast, easy, lazy, instant gratification choice! We never FEEL like working out, or eating healthy, or forgiving someone. It takes wisdom to know whether what we FEEL is our short term self or our long term self.

Do we try to control God with our prayers- praying for specific outcomes, specific miracles? What if our view of miracles is so extremely limited? What if a miracle is a change of perspective? What if a miracle is a change from anger to peace? What if "bad" events like infertility IS the miracle that can allow someone to fully become an ally with their body and learn to fully trust it?

Everything we want or desire is because of a perceived lack in our mind because we want a specific FEELING. We are always seeking and searching to get rid of feelings or to gain certain feelings. That's what rules our life!

Most of us live with a victim mentality towards our BODY: cancer, viruses, candida, or toxic food "attack" our body, making us the victim. Then we need a savior, a rescuer: a healer, doctor, supplements, or pills. Are you ready to break free from this cycle?!

-What is the difference between a hope vs expectation? -Can we still Trust God if we don't get anything we WANT and only what we NEED?!?!?

After 11 years of not eating animal products..... my mind shifted. Changing your mind about something is a humbling process.

Some examples of daily ego stories: "I am failing as a parent because of XYZ," "Who am I to help people if I can't even figure out my own life," "I was so worthless because I got nothing done today," "My child is manipulating me," or "I can't wear this outfit on my date because my date will think XYZ of me......." We cannot stop the constant flow of false ego stories, but we can CHOOSE to believe them or not, and act from them, or not! THAT'S where our power is!

The truth of life is that its constant change. Highs and lows. We ebb and flow from feeling our Light to experiencing our Darkness. I was faced with my Shadow Self recently.......here are my thoughts on that experience.

A real and honest talk about what I notice about myself in my marriage. I quote my favorite book A Return To Love by Marriane Williamson: “The special love relationship is the ego's chief weapon for keeping you from Heaven on Earth." **Special note: As I listened to the episode, I definitely laughed at HOW narcissistic the ego is when I said: "when people only post their happiness and gratitude on Instagram, it doesnt help me. It brings me no value." Of course the ego takes the situation of someone posting on Instagram, to make it personal!!!! Oh man! haha! People do NOT have to post on Instagram to help me or my ego. BUT, there is an undeniable truth that when an Instagram influencer uses their platform to share their struggles and not just their pretty hair and outfits, our suffering seems to lessen a bit, or we simply don't feel alone<3

I have a new theory....... and it might be radical.... but it's new, so it may not be perfect, but, it has helped me gain greater clarity in my body with what my intuition REALLY is, versus my fear!

Many mothers outsource their power to doctors..... but also to Instagram influencer moms! This is a disempowered energy state. This is a Mother operating from Maiden energy, the energy of not trusting inner intuition and instead wanting permission and validation from anywhere else, besides yourself. Mothers, its time to take your power back! This begins with learning your Inner Voice and Intuition! Edited to add: I do believe our real life friends and community serve a beautiful purpose and its natural to want wisdom from wise women to help our situation, but its important to have self-awareness of when we are seeking opinions and advice from a disempowered state vs empowered state. Its important to learn when we crave a "savior" to save us from our situation, when that is an illusion.

Being an Enneagram Eight, I use my voice to defend the innocent: children. I truly believe they are Masters in so many ways, yet our culture is so conditioned to view children as "less than" or on a lower pedestal, simply because are new to Earth so they don't have a fully developed adult brain and are not yet conditioned into robots!

FAM: Fertility Awareness Method is a method of birth control that does not involve hormones or devices! Its all about learning the signs of ovulation from your wise, beautiful body to detect when ovulation is happening, to either prevent or achieve pregnancy (using basal body temperature, cervical fluid and/or cervical position). Learning about FAM this year has been the MOST empowering experience for me!!!

We try to control situations/people to try to prevent our worst fears from happening. Example: people pleasing is the attempt to control someone's perception of you, with the fear of someone thinking badly about you! Control is Fear.

The body whispers before it tantrums. Most humans ignore their body's signals until they are in their mid-60's diagnosed with cancer or a disease.... THEN they may start supporting, loving, or listening to their body. But our free will allows to to learn from others and not wait until a diagnosis to take our body's signals seriously! Our body sends us messages every single day in the form of feelings, body discomfort, or pain, but are we pausing and listening to what our body may be trying to tell us?

Continuing with the Trust vs Fear series, western medicine birth is rooted in FEAR. So what would pregnancy and birth look like if you truly trusted your body and baby!?!? And trusted the Supreme Wisdom (God) that intelligently created your body and baby!?

The sequel to “If You Trusted the Universe, How Would You Act or Think Today?” which talked about how fear rules us in marriage and parenthood. Every choice we have, we are faced with choosing from TRUST in God or FEAR, concocted from our human mind. This episode covers the fear in the early stages of romantic dating.

We are always choosing between Fear or Trust, whether we realize it or not. This podcast explains how romantic relationships and parenthood is usually ruled by.......... FEAR.

Why does the ego mind love victimhood?!? When we are triggered, we often blame someone else for making us feel triggered, THIS is victimhood. Also discussed: how our society is steeped in victim-savior dynamic and that the victimhood of infertility is not the ONLY choice available!! ***This podcast episode does not support, condone, or justify emotional or physical abuse.

An explanation of the many voices in our head: the ego, the inner child… and the soul!

Dysregulated nervous system = fight or flight = sympathetic nervous system = survival mode - Regulated nervous system = rest and digest = parasympathetic nervous system = healing mode - Cortisol and adrenaline= stress hormones the body outputs when in fight or flight - YOU have control of your nervous system from your mind/thoughts and your daily habits!

Conscious Parenting & Marriage isn't common for a reason: it takes radical responsibility. It is a shift from blaming your child or your partner for your unhappiness and resentment, to full responsibility for your actions, reactions, habits, communication, wounds, etc. Children and partners are our teachers: they shine a light onto ALL OF OUR SH*T. Being conscious means that you are aware of your ego, how you act and react, and how it all stems from your past experiences, fears, programming, and childhood.

We all worry and we all are fearful but you CAN control and manage fear! Take responsibility for your mind and start learning how to become its Master!

Our ego constantly worries… it tells us to make decisions so that we feel safe… so that the fear can lessen…. Until, the next fear shows up. If fear rules our life, we are not truly FREE. We are shackled. The only way out is FACING the uncomfortable truths of life!

A real life story of how uncomfortable I was with my husband's big emotions and what I learned from that moment! Also discussed: you are not your judgements!! Our judgements are the proof that our brain is programmed by society! Thats it!

Why do people lie? How creating a safe space is the most important factor in helping people be transparent and lying is a normal and natural brain development stage in children!

I have been studying manifestation for about 17 years, so here’s a recap of everything I have learned and discovered about attracting your dream life! What do you have control over? Or not? I believe we are here on Earth to be co-creators WITH God!