Wild Thing

In this episode I talk about my thoughts on our experiences within society. It’s always felt as though there exists undertones of competition in what we share with others. I find this to be a struggle. Is it a reality or just my perspective? Let’s dive in.

I’m at my wits end these days with how society promotes self-hate and body image issues. Let’s venture into the inner workings of my thoughts as I pondered the root cause of our problems and just how blatantly obvious and apparent they’ve become, in my eyes at least. Food for thought.Content Warning: Weight loss & Ozempic, Vaccine Controversy

A moment of self-awareness causes self-awakening. I explore my thoughts and feelings about my behaviours, what it has taught me and the ways in which it continues to do so. This a mid-journey episode and is a type of formal update without being written in the name.

I recalled a memory, an interaction I had with a patient that stuck with me over the years. In this episode I dive into that specific memory and shed some light on what it means with where I’m currently at in life. I also provide a bit of an update, though cryptic in nature. It felt good to get it out creatively I will say.

It’s interesting how inspiration for episodes pops up suddenly during everyday conversations in my life. This is one of those episodes. Stigma surrounding mental health that is anything less than ‘perfect’ holds a lot of weight and shame. In this episode I discuss some of the factors that I recently recognized as being disturbing to acknowledge. Perhaps it can help shed some perspective in your mind as to how you interact with the world in the future as a result.

It’s the new year! What does that even mean though? It means I’m exhausted with all this societal nonsense of feeling pressured to leave the old behind and pretend we can suddenly be different because of an arbitrary number on a calendar that was (let me remind you) created by a person. Let’s dive into my resolutions then, shall we?

I wouldn't be being honest if I skipped ahead now could I?Let me fill you in with an update on what happened prior to the gap in episodes. In this episode, I dive into feeling really tired, burned out and barely hanging in there. I explore a few topics in a superficial light to offer some insight as to what's been gnawing at me lately.

I skipped a few weeks here of content and figured I’d take the opportunity to apologize and let you know I haven’t given up!

In this episode I provide a re-cap of the less glamorous side of things things I learned about living on the road and full time travel. There are little things I hadn’t been aware of prior to, and I share in hopes of providing more insight and information on these aspects for those who might be considering a trip of their own!

I open up honestly about my current thoughts and feelings as I try to battle the emotional hangover of one chapter closing, and not being able to turn the pages to start the next. I begin working towards enacting self-compassion and kindness- which feels like the hardest thing in the world.

I provide updates while on the road, heading back home. A time crunch exists as I hammer out days and days of driving in attempts to beat the first snowfall back home. I open up rather vulnerably about some insecurities I’ve been experiencing lately, in hopes that others may be able to relate and find some comfort in not being alone in their experiences.

A mini-update on the state of affairs within my mind and emotions while in Arizona. In essence, I am experiencing an emotional hangover after having sent Tanner on his way back home without me.

In this episode I peel back the layers of progress towards the healing of my burn out. I look back on if and how my strategies to manage it have been effective since quitting my job, travelling down south and since the release of the first episode titled “The Burn Out Special”. I openly discussed the realizations I’ve had and what it might mean in looking forward towards the future. Hint: There’s still a lot of work to be done.

In this Update episode, I explore where I’m at, how I’m feeling in the current day with my journey and reflections. Noting how I am more comfortable within myself, feeling more settled and excitedly awaiting a visit from my boyfriend in the upcoming days.

I provide another update while I’m on the road. I bring up my currently status with my mental health, my physical health and some of the thoughts and feelings that are floating around in my head. In short, I miss my boyfriend.

A very vulnerable episode. These are genuine thoughts and feelings I had in a moment where I felt small, scared and vulnerable. Where I feel I had lost my footing. It occurred before a really perspective changing therapy session the following day. These are thoughts and feelings that I have that cause me shame to admit, and are very difficult to open up about. This means, it’s extremely important that I share this openly. In case you also struggle the same on some days.

I share some of the tips and tricks that I use when I find myself dysregulated, threatening to head down spiral lane. It can be tough and takes time to establish a good routine and I still find myself needing to remind myself of what’s right in front of me. I try not to beat myself up, and these are some of the ways I gently remind myself to care for myself in my times of need.

I decide to explore objectively my feelings and behaviours when it comes to how I respond in the world regarding my situation. Simply recognizing that I am not treating myself in a way that is consistent with how I treat my loved ones, I learn this needs to change to hopefully allow myself to work towards self compassion, self love and breaking patterns.

I dive into a discussion about how I feel when I get overwhelmed with the expectations of socializing in the world in which we live today. I also explore how I feel conflicted in what the expectation is for those in the world, in the public when it comes to generalized socializations and my perceptions of it all..:The first few seconds has terrible audio- I"m sorry about that. I wanted to re-record but then came down with a cold. This will have to do. It quickly resumes with the previous audio quality you've come to expect from this pod!

In this episode I provide an update with how I’m feeling currently, touching a bit on what I’ve been up to. I admit something that I realize about myself within this context, the travel. I also begin exploring the feelings that are cropping up as I start to dive into the depts of writing my first novel- my memoir.