The Deep by Zoe Marshall

Today we hear from Molly. It’s an intense heart wrenching interview- Molly has her two little girls to her ex partner. She met a man, fell in love and felt like her family was complete. Then one night she was blind sided by the worst thing that could ever happen to your childrenContent warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse. For support please check out the following resources.Act For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.actforkids.com.auBlue Knot Foundation for female adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1300 657380 or www.blueknot.org.auSamsn for male adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1800 472676 or [email protected] For Me by Michelle Derrig www.onlyforme.com.auNames and images have been changed for privacy reasons.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

We’ve all heard of swingers right? What do they actually do? Who are they? My immediate thought is of the cliché - keys in the bowl middle-aged couples now empty nesters, looking for something to enhance the next stage of life. But is this cliché true? What are the rules, what are the boundaries and what’s the reality of being a swinger?Follow Jess and Lawrence on Instagram @oursecretspot and visit their website oursecretspot.com.au.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Endometriosis affects more than 11% of Australian women. I am one of them. Told I could never have children.Today we speak to another endo warrior. You might know her as reality star Erin from Love Island and I'm a Celebrity Get me Out of Here. But what you don't know is that her body is riddled with the disease. She's had her 16th surgery and lives with chronic pain.Follow Erin on Instagram @erin.alysha.For endometriosis support visit:www.endometriosisaustralia.orgwww.qendo.org.auCredits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Today we are going to hear a complex story of a really toxic love triangle that is fuelled by violence and fear. It's a story that belongs in a Hollywood film, a story of manipulation and at its core is brutal domestic violence.Content warning: This episode contains explicit depictions of domestic violence. For assistance please call 1800 Respect.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

The birth of your first child is miraculous, its a moment in time that you will never forget.But what happens if you find out 4 weeks before birth that your child is intersex. You may be thinking right now what does that even mean?In hospital and society we are put in to boxes. When we are born the doctors tick girl or boy- but for many people this isn't the case.This is one mothers story of her experience. It will differ to others in the intersex community or other intersex parents. I ask you to listen to this story as one of many - as always with an open heart and mind.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Infertility is one of the most challenging things a woman can go through. I’ve been there. My friend Keira and I have been friends for some time and when I became pregnant recently I was incredibly nervous to tell her. Would it change our friendship? Would she be triggered? I knew how jealous I was as friends fell pregnant around me when I was trying so hard to conceive.Keira has a tremendous story of her own, she is brutally honest about her experiences and I thought it could be helpful for other women.This is more of a conversation between two friends rather than an interview- around infertility, pregnancy loss and miracles.You can follow Keira on Instagram: @krumbleContent warning: The episode discusses infertility and pregnancy loss. Support services are listed belowPink Elephants www.pinkelephants.org.auSANDS www.sands.org.au or 1300 072 637Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Are you a slut? Do you know any? What do you think when I say that word? Dirty, sexy, degrading? Can men be sluts? Would you see them the same way?Nadia Bokody - is ready to reclaim the word. To reframe what slut means to us all. Today we look at female empowerment through our sexuality and Nadia is passionate we change the way we see ourselves, our bodies and our sex. This is the realest sex talk you will hear in a long time.Follow Nadia on Instagram: @NadiaBokodyCredits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Post natal depression - we hear this term a lot. 1 in 5 women will experience it post birth.But what if it was extreme, on the very other end of the spectrum? What if your mental health deteriorated so quickly and dangerously your life and your newborn was at risk of harm or worse? What if you needed to be institutionalized for years, given ECT treatments and every drug imaginable to try and help?This wasn't a "what if" for Taryn, this is her story.Content warning: This episode contains descriptions of post natal depression, self harm and suicide. For assistance, resources are listed below.Gidget Foundation: 1300 851 758 or gidgetfoundation.org.auPANDA: 1300 726 306 or www.panda.org.auLifeline: 13 11 14 or www.lifeline.org.auCredits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Cathy is the epitome of an Aussie battler. She has overcome very difficult odds. She is a survivor. Cathy reached out to me to share her story and how it had been partially covered in a documentary called “Ghost Hunter”. She said there was a lot more to the story and today she shares that with us.Cathy endured sexual trauma as a child, she survived things no one should ever experience.Note: some names have been edited for privacy reasons.Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse, rape, drugs and suicide. For support please check out the following resources:Act For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.actforkids.com.auBlue Knot Foundation for female adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1300 657380 or www.blueknot.org.auSamsn for male adult survivors of child sexual abuse. 1800 472676 or [email protected] rhyming book Zoe mentioned is Only For Me by Michelle Derrig www.onlyforme.com.auLifeline 13 11 14 or www.lifeline.org.auNational Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.I grew up being taught to sing the Australian anthem with pride. To celebrate Australia Day with a bbq and drinks! But only in the past few years have I understood what Australia Day aka Invasion Day really means for our First Nations people. I’m confused how we can ignore how painful this day is for so many. I’m disappointed at how little people know or care. So I needed to dedicate an episode to this day with a brilliant woman by the name of AJ, who is passionate about deconstructing Australia Day.You can follow AJ on Instagram @8983aj and join her course by visiting aliciajohnson.podia.com.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Zoe shares what's really been going on for her the past few months as well as the episodes that left a lasting impact.Content warning: This episode depicts infant loss and grief. For support please contact Bears of Hope on 1300 11 4673 or Lifeline on 13 11 14.Genetic carrier screening is as easy as an at-home saliva test and results can be back within 3-4 weeks. So, if you want to understand your reproductive risks, head to Eugene’s website www.eugenelabs.com. The first 50 requests from The Deep will receive a $50 discount by using the code zoe&thedeep.Season 3 of The Deep launches 27 January 2021.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Have you heard of Only Fans?Of course you have! And if you haven’t - It’s a platform for sex workers to create their own content on their own terms, it’s kind of like an adult version of Instagram.Anyone can do it. And people will pay. A lot. I found out that some people are making millions and millions a year.I needed to speak to one of the top earners. Who is also a newbie. What it’s like to leave a straight laced job to do this work? Are there regrets, do they feel safe, what’s the weirdest things fans request? And how much money can you actually make?Content warning: This episode is very sexually explicit.You can follow Romi on Instagram @romi_chase.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Could you imagine being imprisoned for 12 years for a crime you didn't commit? How would you survive that, how would you survive solitary confinement, survive the other prisoners, survive the injustice? Today I get to speak to Raphael Rowe who did survive. In fact he has gone on to be a great journalist and the host of "Inside the worlds toughest prisons" on Netflix.Content warning: this episode references violence and suicide. If you feel triggered or need someone to talk to contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.Follow Raphael below:Website - www.raphael-rowe.comPodcast - www.facebook.com/RaphaelRowePodcastBook - www.facebook.com/NotoriousbyRaphaelRoweInstagram - @areporterTwitter - twitter.com/areporterCredits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Rachael Casella is a mother, a wife, and a friend. She’s also a pioneer for parents when it comes to genetic testing for their unborn children. Rachael has lived through every parents worst nightmare. Somehow through her grief she’s managed to find purpose and fight, and has created incredible opportunity for Australians through Mackenzie's mission.Learn more about MacKenzie's Mission and follow Rachael's journey at mylifeoflove.com.Content warning: This episode depicts infant loss and grief. For support please contact Bears of Hope on 1300 11 4673 or Lifeline on 13 11 14.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Everyone has heard of the 2010 cult horror film "The Human Centipede" and if you haven't, I’m sure you are googling it now.I remember hearing how it had been banned in some countries and that people were passing out in the cinemas watching it!I was fascinated, over the years I had watched the trailer, too scared to watch the film. It’s plotline- three tourists are sewn together mouth to… end, by a mad surgeon to form one gastric system. And the tagline for the film is… "100% medically accurate!!"What would make a young woman want to star in a story like this… let’s find out!Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Jess named her episode when she reached out to me in an email - that was the subject line. The Overnight Parent.And its true. After Jess found out her mother had suicided she is left to raise her two step siblings. At 23, grieving her mother, Jess was living in another city, in a share house and decides she must take on an overwhelming responsibility and become a parent. How does she do it? And who does she become in the process?Content warning: this episode contains a description of suicide. If you feel triggered or need someone to talk to contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Are you a feminist? What about an intersectional feminist? Do you know what it really means? It’s not just hairy armpits and burning bras. Fighting for equal pay. In fact currently we are seeing more and more “white feminism” you may be one of them And not even know it. Today we dive into a deep topic, “intersectional feminism”. Don’t let the big words turn you off. This is a passionate conversation, insightful and one full of shame- especially from me. Be wide awake for this one, it’s going to change everything.Follow Tigist on Instagram and Twitter.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Siri Dahl has been in porn since before it was super easy to access online. She has done it all, worked everywhere from Gonzo sets to full blown production. She even left the industry for a while, but her love for sex and making content couldn’t be denied. Her family all know and her boyfriend is sometimes also a co-star. This is an explicit episode, which may get your heart racing.Content warning: The episode is extremely explicit. It contains graphic descriptions of sexual acts.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Heroin as we know is one of the most addictive substances- it generally chews up and spits out its users taking away any chance of living a purposeful life. Kelly reached out to me, she is ready to share her story. She is a high functioning addict, with children, a big corporate job and a house. Kelly's addiction has dominated her life for over 20 years. The secrets, the betrayals, the loneliness- why does she do it? And will she ever stop? Please note her name has been changed for privacy reasons.Content warning: This episode deals with drug addiction. For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.Mikele is young, beautiful and smart. She is also a bulimic and has been since her early teens. In today's episode, Mikele shares her experience as a First Nations and Maltese woman and the impact her disease has on every area of her life. How it's seen as privileged and a choice, often misunderstood and harshly judged. Mikele had been trying to outsmart her bulimia until Covid hit and it got out of control.Content warning: this episode discusses eating disorders. For assistance please contact The Butterfly Foundation on 1800 33 4673.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.Cleonie Quayle is a survivor of “the stolen generation”. She was taken as a 4 year old but the government took her away from her family and community and placed in a group home with other children that had been stolen. This is a part of our culture as Australians and it happened not that long ago.This is a story that needs to be heard.Content warning. This episode contains descriptions of child abuse, sexual abuse and neglect. It also contains course language. Support services include:1800RESPECT is the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling serviceLifeline 13 11 14Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800.See more of Cleonie's story on the documentary Stolen Generations.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

If I told you there was a man, who said since having his "real dolls" aka sex robots- his life has never been more fulfilled would you believe me?Brick Dollbanger has been living with real dolls for 12 years. He in fact is so deeply immersed in the community that the creators of real doll have asked him to be the sex robot test driver. This episode is mind blowing but you may want to listen to it with earphones in.Content warning. This episode is extremely sexually explicit.Check out Brick's website brickdollbanger.com and follow him on Instagram @brickdollbanger.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

There have been many questions from you all about my own story/traumas and if I will ever share it. At this point I won’t. The deep isn’t about me. But today I will share a glimpse and that’s because it was a huge gift that The Deep gave me. I am forever changed by this podcast and by this moment you will hear right now.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Imagine falling in love with your soul mate, having a child together and living blissfully ever after. Then in one moment life as you know it is decimated. Over. What happens the moments after you live through the worst moment of your life? How do you recover? How do you go on? How do you grieve?For help processing grief, Jo has published Grief - a guided journal.You can also follow Jo on Instagram @jo.betz and at her website jobetz.com.au.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Charlie has survived extreme neglect, abuse and cruelty at the hands of his mother. At the age of 12 she dropped him off at a care home and never returned.Charlie was thrown into the foster system like 1000's of other children. Moved 10 times in 8 years. This is his story.Content warning: This episode deals with child abuse and neglect. For help, children can contact Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800. Adults can contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.If you feel moved to donate to children in foster care, please visit Create - an organisation that aims to create a better life while in care.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Parenthood is hard. Of course there are great parts, rewarding, exciting, loving parts. But a lot of it is terrifying and confronting. What if you knew your child was heavily depressed and was giving suicidal hints? What if you found out the reason for that was because they were incredibly unhappy with the gender they were assigned at birth?What if on the edge of puberty you found out it was no longer possible for them to pretend any longer. They wanted to be the opposite sex. They wanted to transition.Content warning: this episode addresses childhood mental illness and suicide. For help, children can contact Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800. Adults can contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.Read more in Lyndsay's book What Would Love Do?Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Sarah Kearns is a cop -you can imagine she’s seen some bad stuff, lots that would shake you to the core. But she took it all in her stride, she loved her job and had been privileged not to have had to deal with anything like she’d seen at work.Until one day whilst 28 weeks pregnant she was faced with the worst news possible. The baby inside her had died. Sarah’s world stopped.This is a story of love, grief and courage and what happens after you find out the worst news ever.Content warning: This episode deals with pregnancy loss and stillbirth. For support please contact Bears of Hope on 1300 11 4673.To support Cuddle Cots donate here.Follow Sarah on Instagram @sarahkearnsofficial or Facebook and visit her website.Credits:Joanne Helder - ProducerCaleb Jacobs - MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

When I think of the stereotypical psychic I think of a middle aged woman with a crystal ball and flowing clothes, lots of candles and crystals. But David is the opposite, youthful, super intellectual, his last job was working in criminal prosecution. He wears designer labels and hangs out with the cool kids. It's almost jolting to see his gifts in action. Before he worked as a medium psychic he was a sceptic.You can follow David and his predictions on Instagram @davidthemedium or Facebook.Credits:Joanne Helder - Audio ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Sound and MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What do you know about BDSM? Is it what you have seen in Bollywood films, read about in 50 shades of grey or have you experienced it first hand? Mistress Eva takes us deep inside her dungeon and shares the intimate world of being a mistress. We talk about who these people are that seek her services, how much it costs to worship her and how far she is willing to go to take someone to the edge of their desires. The most shocking part - this isn't "just" Eva's work, she doesn't clock off after a shift, this is her full time way of life.Content warning: The episode is extremely explicit. It contains graphic descriptions of sexual acts.You can check out Eva's website and follow her on Instagram @youwillplease_me.Credits:Joanne Helder - Audio ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Sound and MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Do you recycle? Turn off the tap when you brush your teeth? Maybe you even stopped eating meat to save the planet. What if I said someone is dumpster diving, eating road kill and only has 44 possessions to help save the world? Would it inspire you or freak you out. Rob Greenfield was just like us, but now he is the environmental guru. Rob has dedicated his life to extreme activism and to teach humans how to be better.Find out more about Rob on his website robgreenfield.org.Follow Rob on Youtube, Facebook, Instagram and Twitter.Credits:Joanne Helder - Audio ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Sound and MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging.Chloe Quayle is a proud Malyangapa, Barkindji woman, a talented artist and rapper and a respected member in her community. But 3 years ago things were wildly different. Chloe had been in and out of the system since she was 14 but this time Chloe turned herself in. She was pregnant and she was going to give birth in prison. This is a brutal story of a mother's love, the day that changed it all and how she is now thriving by overcoming the hardest moments of her life.Content warning: this episode deals with drug and alcohol abuse. For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.Please support Sisters Inside.Follow Chloe on Instagram: @barkaa__ and listen to her music on Spotify.Credits:Joanne Helder - Audio ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Sound and MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Ginger Gorman is a journalist and author. After being horrifically trolled she decided to look into who, what and where are these trolls? She didn't realise it would consume 5 years of her life, that she would suffer PTSD and be actively seeking to change the law or that she would end up with a troll husband.Read more from Ginger by purchasing her book Troll Hunting.This episode deals with cyber bullying. Resources can be found at www.esafety.gov.au. Children can also contact Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800. Adults can contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.Credits:Joanne Helder - Audio ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Sound and MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Ice, Crank, Tina- Whatever you want to call it "Crystal Meth" is one of the most addictive and life destroying substances.Ed opens up to us about his innocent introduction to this deadly drug and how it took hold over every part of his life. His love affair with Ice was deep and he had no intentions of getting clean until something happened. Something so shocking and traumatic it saved his life.Please note Ed's name has been changed for privacy reasons.Trigger warning: This episode deals with drug addiction. For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015.Credits:Joanne Helder - Audio ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Sound and MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

I have always been fascinated with sex workers. I just hadn't been exposed to many like Indie. Indie isn't your stereotype. She is natural, freckled, curvy with no shame in showing her body hair, self harm scars, cellulite and stretch marks.She is in the industry as a business woman. Indie takes her work seriously and even further, she really wants to impact her clients for the better- she meets them without judgement and holds space for them to explore whatever tickles their fancy.Indie is wise, open and will challenge the way you see the sex industry.Please note her name has been changed for privacy reasons.Credits:Joanne Helder - Audio ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Sound and MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

We continue talking to Sandra Pankhurst but now we move into her current work as a trauma cleaner.What is that?Its the work no one wants to do, 3 week old decaying body- call the trauma cleaner, double suicide- call the trauma cleaner, meth lab explosion- call the trauma cleaner, 45 years worth of hoarding you call Sandra.Sandra works within the worst conditions but brings the most dignity to her clients. She takes us through some of her toughest jobs and shares what its like doing the job no one else knew existed and how to do it with heart.Content warning: This episode contains a graphic description of self harm and suicide. You may chose to skip this section (5.04-6.54). If this episode triggers you please contact Lifeline on 13 11 14.If you want more Sandra you can:Buy her book: The Trauma CleanerVisit her websiteFollow her on InstagramCredits:Joanne Helder - Audio ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Sound and MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

Sandra is like a cat that has nine lives. There are so many chapters of this story we had to share it over two episodes.Sandra grew up as Peter and through his life he was many things: He became a father, a husband, a woman, a drag artist, a prostitute, a drug addict, a law abiding citizen, a married woman, one of Melbourne's high society, a business owner, a widow and a trauma cleaner.As you can imagine this is a hell of a ride. It is a story that has a lot of explicit and adult content.It is almost unbelievable that one person can fit so much into one lifetime but she did and it's fascinating.Content warning: this episode deals with prostitution, drugs and abuse. If you are suffering or are triggered by the themes of this podcast, help services are available.For free and confidential advice about alcohol and other drugs, call the National Alcohol and Other Drug Hotline 1800 250 015Lifeline 13 11 141800RESPECT is the national sexual assault, domestic and family violence counselling serviceIf you want more Sandra you can:Buy her book: The Trauma CleanerVisit her websiteFollow her on InstagramCredits:Joanne Helder - Audio ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Sound and MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

What would you do if you found out your life partner was doing meth, what if the lies didn't stop? What if after all that trauma and becoming a solo parent you get a terminal cancer diagnosis? No family around to help. No options. What would you do?Kate is heroic, some may even say a little mad, because Kate thinks she can beat this death sentence and she even put a timeline on it. 365 days. Is this possible?What does it entail?This is a conversation that covers trauma, how to deal with betrayal, fighting disease and the power of a mothers love.Disclaimer: this podcast is intended for entertainment purposes and to share Kate's story, not to be taken as medical advice. For medical advice consult your doctor.Find Kate: @its_not_kates_timeIf you want to support Kate head to @maisonandmaison and purchase a lovely item. This is how she raises money rather than a gofundme page.Credits:Joanne Helder - Audio ProducerCaleb Jacobs - Sound and MusicAJ Davis - Comms ManagerPlease DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thedeep.The Deep is a place for you. If you love it please subscribe and leave us a rating or comment if that tickles your fancy.The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

From terminal parents to sex workers, extremists and drug addicts, The Deep is a place for thought-provoking conversations that help us explore who we are, when no one is looking. Cracked wide open by her past trauma, grief and abuse host Zoe Marshall holds the space for others to share their fascinating stories and perspectives through these deep conversations. Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.