Redeemed Through His Blood

Most of us don’t avoid looking inward because we don’t care… we avoid it because we’re not sure what we’ll find if we do.In this episode, Scott, Deb, Nick, and Crystal explore what it really means to take an honest look at ourselves—not alone, but with God.Using Step 4 as a framework, they unpack how fear, resentment, and patterns can quietly block us from feeling God’s light—and why avoiding them only keeps us stuck.But this isn’t about shame, and it’s not about fixing everything overnight.It’s about discovering that when we bring God into the process, honesty leads to freedom—not fear.If you’ve ever felt hesitant to look inward… this episode is for you.Simple invitation: Take a few quiet minutes this week and ask: “Heavenly Father, what are You trying to show me about me right now?”Not to shame you… but to free you.

This episode takes us back to where it all began.In the middle of Holy Week, we’re revisiting the very first episode of Redeemed Through His Blood—a conversation that started with one simple truth:Everything begins here.From the Savior’s suffering in Gethsemane to His sacrifice on the cross and ultimate Resurrection, this week isn’t just something we study—it’s something we’re invited to live inside of.As you listen, consider the question that still echoes today:“What will you do with this Jesus?”If you’ve heard this before, you may hear it differently now. If you haven’t—this is the perfect place to begin.

At 51 years old, a single phone call uncovered a truth Carmen never saw coming—and forced her to rethink everything she believed about her life… and about God.In her book, Spaghetti, Lemonade and Finding Joy, Carmen shares the deeper story behind that moment—and the years that led up to it.After a childhood marked by loss, instability, and a constant feeling of being overlooked, she spent years trying to earn her place—at home, in relationships, and even with God.Deep down, she believed something many of us quietly wonder:What if God forgot me?In this episode, we talk about:growing up feeling unseen and unwantedthe exhausting need to earn love and approvalhow God often reaches us through other peopleand the moment everything changedThis isn’t just Carmen’s story.It’s for anyone who has ever questioned their worth… or wondered where God was in their life.You may feel forgotten. But you’re not.

Even the people we love most can hurt us the deepest. In this episode, Scott and Deb explore why relationships are often so complicated—and how the Atonement of Jesus Christ can change the way we seek validation, respond to pain, and show up for the people in our lives. If you’ve ever felt unseen, misunderstood, or stuck in a cycle you can’t fix, this conversation points to the only relationship that can truly heal the rest.

What happens when you’ve done everything you know how to do… and it’s still not enough?Whether it’s your life, your habits, your relationships—or your recovery—there comes a point where trying harder just stops working.In this episode, Scott and Deb walk through what it actually means to let go—not as a concept, but as a lived experience. They talk about control, fear, and the quiet shift that happens when you stop running the show and start trusting God.If you’re exhausted from carrying it all, this conversation might be exactly what you need.

You know you should feel gratitude… but what if you don’t?In this episode, Scott and Deb talk about what it looks like to start where you actually are—not where you think you should be—and how gratitude quietly becomes the beginning of desire and connection with Jesus Christ.If you’ve been feeling distant, numb, or just going through the motions, this conversation will meet you there.

Ever feel like you’re spiritually late—like you should be further along by now? In this episode, Scott and Deb talk candidly about comparison, the “facade of perfection,” and the painful stories we tell ourselves when life doesn’t match the ideal. Using John 21, they explore Jesus’ simple redirect to Peter—“What is that to thee? Follow thou me.” If you’ve been measuring your discipleship by someone else’s timeline, this conversation will help you trade urgency for peace and refocus on the only thing that ultimately matters: your relationship with Jesus Christ.

Have you ever felt like God just… isn’t there?Not gone completely—but distant. Quiet. Easy to miss.In this episode, Scott and Deb talk about what it looks like to notice Jesus in everyday life—especially when life feels ordinary, busy, or even heavy.They share simple but powerful shifts that help you recognize Him again—not in dramatic moments, but in the small, real ones.If you’ve felt spiritually numb or disconnected, this episode will help you see what might already be right in front of you.

Scott and Deb are joined by Nick and Crystal for a powerful conversation on Step Two of recovery: “Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.”Together, they explore why healing doesn’t come from trying harder, but from learning to trust God differently—not as a taskmaster to fear, but as a loving Father who finishes what we cannot. Through scripture, recovery experience, and clinical insight, this episode reframes recovery, faith, and repentance as relational, not transactional.Whether you’re navigating addiction, fear, uncertainty, or the weight of life, this episode invites you to consider a deeper question: Can God be trusted with what’s broken in me?

You’ve made progress. You’ve tried. You’ve even changed some things…So why does it still feel like you’re stuck?In this episode, Scott and Deb explore the difference between behavior change and true transformation. They talk about why effort alone doesn’t always bring freedom—and how misunderstanding grace can keep you cycling in the same patterns.This is a conversation about what Christ actually came to do—and how that changes everything.If you’re tired of taking two steps forward and one step back, don’t skip this one.

You’ve confessed it. You’ve prayed. You’ve tried to move forward…So why does the weight still linger?In this episode, Scott and Deb take on one of the most personal questions we ask: How do I actually feel forgiven?They explore the difference between being forgiven and feeling forgiven, and what might be getting in the way. This is an honest conversation about shame, grace, and what it really means to receive what Christ has already offered.If you’re still carrying something you thought you let go of, this episode matters.

In this episode of Redeemed Through His Blood, Scott and Deb talk honestly about seasons when life doesn’t feel wrong—it just feels unorganized. Moving beyond last week’s conversation about spiritual drift, they explore what happens when change is sudden, clarity is absent, and control slips away. Drawing on the Creation story, lived experience, and the Savior’s invitation to “look unto me in every thought,” they reflect on how God works with chaos rather than discarding it—and how Jesus doesn’t wait for things to make sense before He comes close. This is a conversation for anyone sitting in uncertainty, learning to trust that disorder is not disqualification, and discovering that peace can exist even before resolution does.

You don’t need to feel more to be faithful. You don’t need constant confirmation to be close to Christ. And silence does not mean distance.This week, instead of measuring your discipleship by emotion or progress, notice where your attention is going—and gently bring it back to Jesus Christ. Because what we look at grows. And when we look to Him, even quietly, grace begins to reframe how we experience the weight of mortality.You’re not failing. You’re not behind. And you’re not alone.00:00 — Deb opens: Attention, weariness, and inward driftDeb introduces the idea that when life feels heavy or quiet, our attention naturally turns inward—not because we’re failing, but because we’re human.02:45 — The Fall and spiritual self-monitoringScott introduces the idea that one of the quieter effects of the Fall is constant self-evaluation rather than rebellion.05:30 — “Why don’t I feel the Spirit?”Examples of how self-monitoring shows up in prayer, sacrament meeting, scripture study, and comparison.09:40 — Weariness is not abandonmentA clear return to last week’s message: silence and heaviness are not signs of distance from Christ.12:20 — Symptoms vs relationshipScott contrasts symptom-focused spirituality with relationship-centered discipleship.15:10 — Gethsemane: strength instead of reliefA reframing of Gethsemane—Jesus’ burden was not removed, but strength was added.18:45 — “Am I willing to stay?”Deb speaks to quiet faith, showing up without emotional confirmation, and the courage of staying.22:10 — Gratitude: what it is notScott clearly defines what gratitude is not: forced optimism, minimizing pain, or spiritual cheerleading.25:00 — Gratitude as alignmentGratitude reframed as noticing presence rather than pretending relief.27:30 — Practical reframing in real lifeExamples of gratitude that sound like: “It didn’t spiral today.” “I made it through.” “I felt held, even quietly.”30:30 — What we look at growsThe core thesis repeated and grounded: attention shapes experience.33:00 — Closing invitationA gentle invitation to stop measuring discipleship by emotion and to notice where Christ already is.

What do you do when you believe in Jesus Christ—but don’t feel close to Him? When the doctrine still makes sense, the invitations are familiar, and yet your heart feels heavy or stalled? In this episode, Scott and Deb talk candidly about faithful discouragement, emotional distance, and the quiet struggle of trying to “receive Christ” when it doesn’t feel easy or inspiring. Drawing from Alma 7, the Savior’s experience in Gethsemane, insights on grace from Adam Miller, and Elder Jeffrey R. Holland’s reassurance that we are never too far gone, this conversation reframes grace as Christ staying with us before He changes us. If you’ve ever wondered whether your weariness disqualifies you—or if Christ still comes close in the quiet—this episode is for you.

As Christmas fades and a new year approaches, many of us instinctively turn inward—evaluating, resolving, and quietly pressuring ourselves to do better next time. In this episode, Scott and Deb offer a different invitation. Instead of carrying the weight of change alone, they explore what it means to begin again through Jesus Christ. Drawing on Elder Patrick Kearon’s powerful reminder that the Savior offers real new beginnings—“even you”—they contrast self-improvement with redemption, willpower with grace, and resolutions with relationship. This conversation is for everyone who feels tired, discouraged, or afraid of repeating the past, and for anyone who needs the reminder that new beginnings are not symbolic ideas—they are doctrinal realities, available now, because Jesus Christ lives.

Christmas often feels fragile—like one unmet expectation or imperfect moment can undo it all. But the first Christmas wasn’t ideal, and joy came anyway. In this episode, Scott and Deb reflect on how expectations can quietly steal peace and why Christ didn’t wait for calm, order, or perfect conditions to come. This conversation is an invitation to stop managing outcomes, notice where Jesus already is, and receive Him as He comes—right in the middle of the glorious mess.

What if the most life-changing gift you’ll ever receive isn’t something wrapped—but Someone given? In this Christmas episode of Redeemed Through His Blood, Deb opens our season with a tender reflection sparked while listening to a simple Christmas song—an impression that redirected her heart toward the very first gift God ever offered His children: His Son.Together, we explore why the Father’s gift wasn’t merely an event in Bethlehem, but a relationship offered to each of us right now. We talk about what it means to receive Him—not as an abstract belief, but as the living, present Redeemer who still enters real lives, real wounds, and real stories today.If your December feels busy, heavy, or hollow… this conversation will help you come back to the Gift Himself.