Different, Not Broken

I'll just say it: don't send me a video.Not because I'm technologically challenged — I literally make video content for a living — but because if I need information fast, I need it in a format I can actually consume. Scrollable. Skimmable. Mine to move through in the order my brain needs. Send me a video and you have just given me homework, and I am not paying you to give me homework.That's the rant that opens this episode, and I stand by every word of it.But then we get into something that I think matters even more. I'm sitting down with Joanna Strober, the CEO of Midi Health — a women-focused healthcare company doing what the standard system has historically refused to do: actually start with women's biology instead of working around it. Joanna spent years watching herself and women like her get handed SSRIs and sleep studies when what they actually needed was someone to check their hormone levels. So she built the company that does that. Insurance covered. All 50 states. Actually available.We talk about perimenopause, the diagnostic desert most women wander through on their own, what it actually takes to build a healthcare company that investors have no existing pattern for, and why AI might finally be the thing that cuts through the prior authorization bureaucracy that is eating your doctor's time alive.Then Alison is back for Small Talk with a question from Omar in Dearborn, Michigan, about how to ask for help when even the ask feels overwhelming — and why needing help is never the failure it feels like.If this one lands for you, share it with someone who could use it. Leave a review.Different, Not Broken is hosted by Lauren Howard. New episodes drop weekly.

In this episode, I talk about what it actually looks like when you prioritize people-first leadership — not the inspirational poster version, but the version where you're paying someone's salary while they're out sick, covering their workload yourself, and looking at your bank account like it personally offended you.A friend called me — the kind who doesn't call unless there's a thing. He's running a business the right way, the people-first way, and he needed me to tell him he was doing it wrong so he could stop.I couldn't do that for him. Because he wasn't doing it wrong. He was just 'in the suck'.I share two real stories — one from a friend, one from inside my own company — about what happens when you commit to putting humans first, and applying compassionate leadership, even when the business case doesn't make immediate sense.What happens to the employee who needed care she could actually afford.What happens to the friend who finally called back to say... well, you'll have to listen to find out what he said.The suck is temporary. The loyalty isn't. This episode is for anyone building something — a business, a team, a life — who's in the middle of the hard part right now.Plus: Allison brings a question from Becca about replaying conversations at 2am and whether that's anxiety, rumination, or just your brain refusing to behave.⏱ Timestamps00:00 — Intro & the friend who never calls02:31 — What people-first leadership actually costs06:25 — This is temporary. I promise.09:51 — The reward is real. I just can't tell you when.11:03 — He called back. He saw it.13:07 — The employee story. The health insurance bill. The reason.19:52 — Oh. That's why.20:33 — What you get on the other side of the suck23:13 — Small Talk: replaying conversations at 2amMentioned in this episode:Build Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-betterJoin Quirky

My mom was in the hospital. ICU-level hospital. I knew she was going to be fine — but I also hadn't slept, and I was running on that specific kind of fuel that is equal parts functional and completely frayed.I had a lot of feelings. I did not share most of them. Instead, I asked her the question that actually mattered: how charged is your phone?This episode is about what happens when the people who raised us start needing us to show up — and how that experience is mostly logistical problem-solving interrupted by moments of genuine, unhinged absurdity. My mom had three separate envelopes of cash stuffed into various corners of her purse. She also had a small pouch of Equal packets. She let me take all the cash. She did not let me take the Equal. Barely ambulatory. Still ready to fight about artificial sweetener.I also robbed my 9-year-old's piggy bank for a valet tip. Her grandmother paid her back. I stayed out of that transaction entirely.Alison brings a question from Josh and Casey Mo, who feel like they're either all in or completely checked out — no middle gear — and it's starting to affect their relationships. I have thoughts. Mostly: please go talk to a clinician.Also in this episode: my husband's vacuum cleaner obsession, the Oscars, Conan O'Brien with a leaf blower, and the universe conspiring to put that exact sound directly into my AirPods at the worst possible moment."You can take my money. You cannot take my Equal."Timestamps:00:22 — My husband and his four vacuum cleaners01:51 — The Oscars / sensory nightmare of the week02:55 — Where did your parents keep the used twist ties?04:42 — My mom was hospitalized (ICU, kidney transplant, all of it)07:50 — The only question that matters: how charged is your phone?08:53 — Purse archaeology: hard candies, cash pouches, and the Equal situation13:12 — Small Talk: all in or completely checked out, no middle gearDifferent, Not Broken is hosted by Lauren Howard. New episodes drop weekly.Mentioned in this episode:InflowJoin QuirkyGetInflowOur episode sponsor is Inflow. Please support this show and check them out at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenInflow

In this episode which is sponsored by our wonderful partners at Inflow , I have a bone to pick with everyone who has ever bought me a coloring book. I know you meant well. I know you love me. I know you saw "mindless activity" and thought of me. But I need you to understand something: there is nothing in this world more stressful than being handed a mandala and a box of markers and being told to relax. Nothing.Hi, I'm Lauren Howard and my friends call me L2.Over the coming 20 minutes, I'll be walking through exactly why coloring books are a form of psychological warfare for my brain — the wrong colors, the spacing, the seven shades of gray problem, the blank page that is just failure waiting to happen — and what actually works for me instead. (Paint by number. With the paint pots included. Do not hand me a paint by number without the paint pots.)I also tell the story behind why I sign off every single conversation — phone call, Zoom, hallway chat — the same exact way. Every time. Have for a decade. Started in a substance use clinic, where "be good" was less a pleasantry and more a genuinely urgent request. One patient called me out the one time I forgot. I didn't realize how much it had followed me until then.Alison brings us a question from Simone in Oakland, California, who is frustrated by the advice to "listen to your body" because her body keeps sending contradictory signals — tired but wired, hungry but nauseous. I get into why that advice is genuinely incomplete, what those crossed signals actually mean, and when they're a sign something bigger needs attention."A blank coloring page is just a sheet of failure. Everything I do from here on out is going to be wrong. Get that thing away from me."Be good.Again, please do check out our episode sponsors Inflow at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenChapters:CHAPTER MARKERSFor use in podcast players and YouTube.00:00 — Coloring book dread (the visceral reaction)00:44 — Why people keep buying them (they mean well)01:47 — Please stop buying me coloring books02:30 — Mandalas, marker boxes, and wrong color panic04:03 — The Golden Girls color-by-number disaster05:17 — Paint by number: the acceptable alternative05:22 — You're allowed to make ugly art05:58 — Decision fatigue and the two-item menu06:46 — The blank page nightmare (live in my living room)07:53 — Where 'be good' actually came from08:53 — The substance use clinic years09:21 — The patient who called me out10:57 — What 'be good' means now12:38 — Small Talk with Alison12:43 — Simone in Oakland: mixed signals from her body13:05 — When 'listen to your body' is incomplete advice16:42 — Dad's sign-off (and how I apparently inherited this)Mentioned in this episode:Join QuirkyInflowGetInflowOur episode sponsor is Inflow. Please support this show and check them out at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenInflow

In this episode which is sponsored by our wonderful partners at Inflow I'm sharing an update from a couple of weeks ago when my mom was sick and I called an ambulance. She was going to be fine. I knew she was going to be fine. I was calm. I was functional. I was on the phone with my business partner — who is also an ER doctor, which I have decided is a mandatory qualification for that role — while flagging down the paramedics from the front porch.And then I walked outside and completely fell apart.Not because I was scared for her. Because that was the same porch. The same hallway. The same room I'd stood in nine and a half years ago when I called an ambulance for my dad — and he did not come home.My brain knew it was 2026. My body had not received that information.This episode is about the part of grief nobody prepares you for — not the raw early days, but the decade-later ambush that catches you completely off guard on a random Tuesday night with zero warning and zero time to put the armor on. It's also about how two things can be absolutely true at once: you can be fully mid-trauma response and still be making sarcastic remarks at the paramedics. I did both. Simultaneously. I regret nothing.Alison brings a question from Andrew in Eugene, Oregon: "I'm starting to wonder how much of my personality is just coping strategies stacked on top of each other. Is there a real me underneath that, or is that the wrong question entirely?" Andrew, I've been thinking about this all week.And I sit down with Lauren Yerkes, founder of Post Swim, who built a swimwear brand from her own breast cancer diagnosis at 37 — because she wanted to feel like herself again in a bathing suit, and that thing did not exist yet. Lauren's take on coverage vs. hiding is one of the most nuanced things I've heard in a long time."My brain knew it was 2026. My nervous system had entirely different information. Grief is a Mack truck with no warning label and no timeline."Post Swim: postswim.com | @postswimofficialAgain, please do check out our episode sponsors Inflow at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenThey're helping us bring episodes like this one to your ears.Mentioned in this episode:GetInflowOur episode sponsor is Inflow. Please support this show and check them out at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenInflowInflow

In this episode which is sponsored by our wonderful partners at Inflow I'm going on the record about something extremely important: loud music makes food taste bad, and I will not be taking questions or feedback on this. I support your live music. I will not consume it while eating my French fries. These are two separate things.I also have a feelings-based relationship with computer keyboards that started in approximately 1994 in a Radio Shack, has never ended, and apparently runs in the family.We also get into a question from Kayla in Tallahassee that stopped me: when I finally slow down, everything I've been avoiding emotionally shows up at once.Rest feels dangerous. I have thoughts on this — including the uncomfortable truth that you cannot outrun trauma, it is always there, and you are not smarter than it.(Neither am I. Trust me.)Plus I read a listener review that is basically the entire reason this show exists.The sensory case against restaurant live musicKeyboard switches, lifelong fixations, and the difference between that and a hyperfixationWhen your kid inherits the trait you didn't mean to pass onListener Q: why does rest feel like an ambush?You can't outrun what you haven't processedAgain, please do check out our episode sponsors Inflow at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenThey're helping us bring episodes like this one to your ears.Mentioned in this episode:GetInflowOur episode sponsor is Inflow. Please support this show and check them out at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenInflowInflowJoin Quirky

I've been doing the internet antagonizing. I apologize. Not to the people I'm doing it to — they deserve it — but to the universe in general.Last week I got into two arguments with dudes on the internet. It's like a thing I do. These are always cantankerous dude bros, and they always get what they deserve. The argument is almost always the same.I have one question. I ask it every time. It brings their very bullish "I know everything about running a workplace" energy down to a full Porky Pig real fast.I also bring receipts. Because of course I do.Plus: I got mad about the Turning Point USA halftime show in a business group on the internet, which is exactly where that conversation belongs if you ask me.And in Small Talk, I answer a question from Nate in Provo, Utah, who doesn't trust compliments but believes every piece of criticism — and I explain why imposter syndrome might actually be the most arrogant thing you can carry around.Boop.TIMESTAMPS00:37 — I got into two arguments with dudes on the internet last week01:04 — It's almost always the same argument about remote work and micromanagement02:16 — The call center manager who had a lot to say02:45 — The one question I have for them03:57 — I worked at a call center. The best one in the world. It was still awful.07:21 — If you can only run your business by underpaying people, your business is failing08:41 — Don't wrestle with pigs. They enjoy it. (I did it anyway.)09:18 — The Turning Point USA halftime show got me. I tried not to.12:34 — I'm going to find a different plumber13:55 — Small Talk: Nate from Provo, Utah on compliments vs. criticism14:41 — 10,000 compliments: "yeah maybe." Someone says your feet smell: "that HAS to be true."16:36 — Why imposter syndrome is actually a form of arroganceMentioned in this episode:Join QuirkySponsor the showhttps://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not Broken

I didn’t plan to talk about George Carlin.Or mascara.Or why I apparently cannot send a calendar invite without causing structural damage.But here we are.Hi, I’m Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do.In this episode of Different, Not Broken, I talk about why I can speak into a microphone for 100,000 strangers… and feel deeply uncomfortable when someone I actually know tells me they listened.I unpack the idea of the “little extra hug” you can only get from strangers. Why performing publicly can feel easier than being known privately. Why validation from the internet feels different than validation from your neighbour.We also take a very sharp turn into hyperfixation. Makeup hyperfixation, specifically. What it feels like when your brain latches onto something and turns it into a full-blown research project. How dopamine gets mined in drawers full of blush and setting spray. And why sometimes that joy is less frivolous than it looks.Then we talk about the contradiction that lives underneath all of it.Being wildly capable in a crisis.Building businesses in your head in seconds.And being absolutely useless at routine admin.This episode is about uneven capability. The shame that can creep in when you’re brilliant in one arena and chaotic in another. And the possibility that maybe nothing is wrong with you. Maybe you’re just built for different things.For Small Talk, I respond to a listener question about being great in emergencies but struggling with everyday adulting.Once you’ve been inspired to brag, here’s where you can do it!https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailUseful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you’re different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Chapters / Timestamps00:00 – Doomscrolling and documentary spirals01:29 – George Carlin and the “little extra hug”04:20 – Why strangers feel easier than real life07:23 – Makeup hyperfixation and dopamine mining13:30 – The Sephora return that proved my point17:29 – Listener question: crisis queen, admin disaster19:00 – Why I pay people to manage my calendar20:50 – Maybe you’re just built differentlyMentioned in this episode:Sponsor the showhttps://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not BrokenJoin Quirky

We had a hell of a week last week. But let me tell you this one story....

I didn’t plan to talk about sandwiches this much.Or water.Or Sudoku.But here we are.Hi, I’m Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do.In this episode of Different, Not Broken, I talk about the strange, often ridiculous ways our brains create shame out of absolutely nothing. Eating the “wrong” food. Convincing yourself you hate water even though you love it. Feeling mortified because you’re slow at a logic puzzle no one else can see.I unpack why our brains invent rules that don’t exist, why invisible judgement feels so real, and why being seen trying can feel worse than actually failing.This episode is about shame that doesn’t make sense, fear of looking ridiculous, and the quiet pressure to only be visible once you’re already good at something.Later in the episode, for "Small Talk", I respond to a listener question about the fear of being seen trying, and why vulnerability feels so exposing even when no one is actually paying attention.You’ll hear:Why your brain makes up rules it then punishes you forHow harmless things turn into sources of shameWhy being slow doesn’t mean being brokenWhy feeling ridiculous is often a sign you’re doing something newHow to stop letting imagined judgement run your lifeOnce you’ve been inspired to brag, here’s where you can do it!https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailUseful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you’re different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Chapters / Timestamps00:00 – Sudoku shame and the nonsense our brains create01:12 – Sandwich logic and internalised rules03:32 – Why I pretend I hate water06:08 – Invisible judgement and made-up leaderboards09:14 – Listener question: fear of being seen trying12:32 – Getting comfortable feeling ridiculous15:40 – Why most people are not paying attention18:05 – What I actually want you to hear before you goMentioned in this episode:Build Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-betterWanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not BrokenJoin Quirky

Happy Superbowl... to everyone but the New England Patriots because f**K them guys.

I didn’t want to have this rant.I’m tired of needing to have this rant.Hi, I’m Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do.In this episode of Different, Not Broken, I talk about ICE raids, fear, and what it feels like when people are genuinely afraid to exist in their own communities.I tell a personal story about someone I rely on every day being too scared to drive six minutes across her own neighbourhood — despite being a citizen — because ICE was crawling the area. And I unpack why “just comply” is a lie that doesn’t protect people when power isn’t being exercised responsibly.This episode is about fear that makes sense, exhaustion that isn’t a personal failure, and why mental health can’t be separated from the political reality we’re living inside.Later in the episode, I’m joined by Myah Knight for a deeper conversation about queer faith, religious trauma, and the kind of community people need when institutions become unsafe.You’ll hear:Why fear is a rational response to what’s happening right nowWhy “just comply” doesn’t actually keep people safeHow power shifts the goalposts until you’re always in the wrongWhat allostatic load is and why you’re exhausted even when you’re not doing muchHow queer faith and community can exist alongside religious traumaWhy needing support doesn’t mean you’re brokenOnce you’ve been inspired to brag, here’s where you can do it!https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailUseful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you’re different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Chapters / Timestamps00:00 – Why I’m talking about ICE and fear01:06 – Being too scared to drive six minutes03:20 – Why “just comply” doesn’t protect you06:37 – What federal overreach actually looks like10:00 – Fear, abuse dynamics, and moving goalposts15:45 – Why you’re exhausted even when you’re doing nothing19:50 – Why I wanted Myah in this conversation20:30 – Queer faith, religious trauma, and healing37:25 – Small Talk listener question: dissociation or burnout?40:15 – What I want you to hear before you goMentioned in this episode:Wanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not BrokenBrag on yourselfWanna brag on yourself for something you've done which you're proud of? https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailBuild Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-betterJoin Quirky

I recognised him instantly.I’d never met him before.Hi, I’m Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do.In this episode of Different, Not Broken, I tell the story of going to a startup funding event in Miami and unexpectedly sitting down next to someone I knew far too much about… despite never having spoken to him in my life.It turns out reality TV, social conditioning, and a neurodivergent brain make for a very specific kind of social experience.This episode is about what it’s like to hold a straight face while your brain is doing cartwheels, why masking often looks like politeness, and how much effort goes into pretending you don’t know what you know.You’ll hear:Why recognition doesn’t always come from real relationshipsWhat masking actually looks like in everyday social situationsWhy being “polite” is often a survival skillHow neurodivergent brains process people and patterns differentlyWhy explaining yourself gets exhausting fastOnce you’ve been inspired to brag, here’s where you can do it!https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailUseful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you’re different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Chapters / Timestamps00:00 – I recognized him instantly01:12 – Reality TV, hate watching, and accidental expertise04:06 – Going to an event alone (never again)06:48 – Sitting down next to someone I shouldn’t know09:02 – Knowing too much and saying nothing12:31 – Masking as politeness15:18 – Why pretending not to know is exhausting18:44 – Listener brag: feeling hopeful about 202620:02 – A very important question for sleep scientists23:10 – Small Talk Listener Question: communicating needs without feeling difficultMentioned in this episode:Brag on yourselfWanna brag on yourself for something you've done which you're proud of? https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailJoin QuirkyWanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not BrokenBuild Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-better

I have a habit of saying the obvious things most workplaces avoid.Hi, I’m Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do.In this episode of Different, Not Broken, I break down why basic human standards at work get treated like radical ideas, why return to office policies are deeply ableist, and why so much “innovative leadership” is really just common sense wrapped in better language.This episode is about simplifying what’s been overcomplicated for years.You’ll hear:Why psychological safety isn’t a perkHow bad management hides behind complexityThe real reason companies are pushing return to officeWhy clarity often gets mistaken for controversyWhat actually changes when you treat people like humansOnce you’ve been inspired to brag, here’s where you can do it!https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailUseful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you’re different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Chapters / Timestamps00:00 – Why saying the obvious sounds “radical”02:08 – The bare minimum we’ve stopped expecting at work03:47 – Psychological safety isn’t a perk04:38 – Why return to office is deeply ableist06:36 – The real reason companies want people back in offices07:46 – Bad management disguised as productivity09:05 – Treat people like humans and they quit less10:36 – Listener brag: feeling on top of life11:15 – Why I hate “love languages”11:49 – The science and art of a crispy Coke13:49 – Big bubbles, bad Coke, and betrayal15:31 – Freestyle machines are not acceptable17:59 – Small Talk Listener Question: grieving a late neurodivergent diagnosisMentioned in this episode:Join QuirkyBrag on yourselfWanna brag on yourself for something you've done which you're proud of? https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailWanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not Broken

You’re not broken.But a lot of us were taught to believe we were.Hi, I’m Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do. And in this episode of Different, Not Broken, I’m talking with Libby Alders, a pastoral chaplain who works at the intersection of faith, trauma, and identity, about what happens when religion stops being a source of comfort and starts quietly doing damage.We get into how harmful theology gets lodged in your nervous system, why so many neurodivergent and LGBTQIA people grow up feeling fundamentally wrong, and how community can heal or harm depending on who’s allowed to show up fully.This isn’t a debate about belief. It’s a conversation about safety. About moral injury. About certainty being weaponised. And about finding ways to make meaning without being told who you’re allowed to be.There’s swearing. There’s honesty. There’s a surprising amount of warmth for a conversation that doesn’t pull its punches.Once you’ve been inspired to brag, here’s where you can do it!https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailUseful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you’re different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary00:00 “You’re Not Broken. You Were Taught Harmful Theology”04:18 Certainty, faith, and why curiosity matters09:32 Religion, trauma, and moral injury14:41 Neurodivergence, queerness, and conditional belonging20:06 Losing faith without losing yourself26:55 Finding safer community and meaningMentioned in this episode:Build Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-betterWanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not Broken

Can somebody please explain this timeline to me?Because I have a confession.Last week — not even sure which day, definitely one of the days ending in “y” — something happened.And I have no idea how.

Flying makes me anxious. Not the mild kind. The walls-closing-in, I-need-control kind.Hi, I'm Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do. And in this episode of "Different, Not Broken" I talk about what it was like flying with someone who supported me without making a thing of it. No fuss. No questions. No spotlight. Just quiet, steady presence.We get into why that kind of support works so well, especially for anxious and neurodivergent people, and why “are you okay?” is often the least helpful thing you can say.Once you've been inspired to brag, here's where you can do it! - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailUseful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you're different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary00:00 "Therapist as Emotional Support"05:49 "Calm Support During Turbulence"07:26 "Weird Ears and Airplanes"12:32 Toilet Paper Holder Frustrations16:49 "Outgrowing Expectations and Tolerance"18:46 Sibling Conflict and ResolutionMentioned in this episode:Build Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-betterWanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not BrokenBrag on yourselfWanna brag on yourself for something you've done which you're proud of? https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemail

Nobody tells you this part about being a parent.That every boundary you set comes with a quiet, gnawing guilt.Needing space. Wanting quiet. Asking not to be touched for five minutes.And immediately wondering if you’ll regret it forever.Hi, I'm Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do.And in this episode of Different, Not Broken, I talk about the constant tug-of-war between your needs as a human and your guilt as a parent.Because even when your kids are healthy, safe, loved, and thriving, it can still feel like you’re failing someone all the time.Usually yourself. Sometimes them.Often both.I get into overstimulation, sensory overload, and why tiny, almost invisible things can feel completely unbearable when your fuse is already short.And I talk about that thought parents torture themselves with over and over again.What if this is the last time?This is a conversation for parents who love their kids deeply and still sometimes need room to breathe.Useful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you’re different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary00:00 The chaos nobody prepares you for01:00 When your fuse feels dangerously short03:03 Overstimulation and sensory overload06:20 The tiny thing that breaks you10:45 “What if this is the last time?”14:50 The moment I knew I’d done something right27:30 Recording while being a parentMentioned in this episode:Wanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not Broken

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Nobody really explains this part of relationships either.That a lot of the friction isn’t about love, or communication, or effort.It’s about order.And chaos.And which one of you is quietly losing your mind because the other one will not, under any circumstances, make a plan.Hi, I’m Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do.And in this episode of Different, Not Broken, I introduce you to the single most accurate relationship framework I’ve ever found.It comes from the greatest relationship philosopher of our time.Jim Henson.I’m talking Order Muppets and Chaos Muppets.Who they are.Why they keep finding each other.And why once you see it, you genuinely can’t unsee it.We get into partners, kids, siblings, colleagues, and the moment when an Order Muppet finally snaps and goes full feral Kermit.We talk about why chaos isn’t a flaw.Why order isn’t control.And why most conflict is really just two nervous systems speaking completely different languages.There’s also a listener question about masking.What it costs.Why it’s exhausting.And how to start noticing who you actually are underneath all the coping.It’s funny.It’s unreasonably accurate.And it will absolutely ruin the way you look at the people in your life, in the best possible way.If you’ve ever thought “why am I the only one holding this together?”Or “why does this person make everything harder?”Congratulations. You’re probably a Muppet.Let’s figure out which kind.Useful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you’re different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary00:00 Are You an Order Muppet or a Chaos Muppet?02:18 Jim Henson’s accidental relationship genius05:04 Why opposites don’t just attract, they survive08:41 Families, kids, and chaos tolerance11:22 When Order Muppets finally lose their shit13:09 Listener question: masking and exhaustion14:05 How to start unmasking without blowing up your lifeMentioned in this episode:Build Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-betterBrag on yourselfWanna brag on yourself for something you've done which you're proud of? https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailWanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not Broken

Nobody tells you this part about being an adult.That most of your energy gets burned on decisions. Small ones. Constant ones. What to eat. What to say. How to say it nicely. Who not to upset. When to apologise. Again.Hi, I'm Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do. And in this episode of "Different, Not Broken" I talk about the real gift overwhelmed people actually want. Not stuff. Not experiences. Not another thing you’re supposed to be grateful for. Just nothing. Relax, there's logic in here if you listen.I also get into something we’ve been quietly taught for years: that staying modest, keeping your head down, and not bragging will somehow pay off. To be honest, it usually hasn’t. And pretending otherwise hasn’t helped anyone.This is a conversation about decision fatigue, invisible labour, and why being good at things isn’t something you should apologise for. It’s funny, sharp, honest, and probably a bit too relatable if you’re the person everyone relies on.If you’re tired, capable, and done pretending you’re not — this one’s for you.Once you've been inspired to brag, here's where you can do it! - https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailUseful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you're different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary00:00 "What I Really Want"*05:46 "Craving Decision-Free Solitude"06:18 "Adulting is Meal Planning"10:11 "Garbage Day Struggles"15:44 Boundaries on Personal Questions16:25 "Pets as Family"Mentioned in this episode:Wanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not BrokenWanna learn to write like me?Here's how you can!Writing CourseBuild Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-better

I need to go on the record.The Wet Bandits are NOT the villains in Home Alone.This episode is a full rewatch reckoning. The kind that hits you sideways once you’re an adult and can’t unsee what’s actually happening on screen. And we’re meant to call it festive.This is not a cosy nostalgia episode.It’s time to get a little uncomfortable and understand what's really going on with this movie and why I think it's more of a horror movie than a Christmas film.Merry Christmas, you filthy animals.

Team Difficult: Can I Get That on a T-Shirt?Hi, I'm Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do. And in this episode of "Different, Not Broken"...You know that word you’ve heard muttered under their breath after a meeting, or the one you’ve seen tossed around as an insult every time you dared to challenge a Not-So-Great Idea™ at work? "Difficult."It’s the golden badge awarded when you stand your ground, ask questions, or refuse to shrink yourself to fit someone else’s comfort zone.Might as well print it on a shirt and wear it as a uniform. (Actually, that’s exactly what happened—and yes, the US trademark is real. Team Difficult is officially in session.)In this episode, I'm sharing my thoughts on the culture of workplace competition, the myth of “just be agreeable and you’ll get ahead,” and how the word “difficult” is actually code for “please be smaller so I can feel bigger.”If you’ve ever felt like you have to play the game—even when being “game” makes you miserable—or you’ve found yourself walking a fine line between champion and challenger, this episode is for you.If you’ve ever been told you’re “too much”—too loud, too opinionated, too different—or found yourself shrinking so someone else didn’t feel threatened, “Different, Not Broken” is here to remind you: You are NOT difficult, even when they say you are.You’re Team Difficult—and that’s something to celebrate.Useful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you're different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary00:00 "Team Difficult Origins Explained"03:24 Gender Bias in Workplace Communication08:13 "Collaboration Over Competition"12:07 "Christmas Trees Have Backs"15:42 Burnout and Starting Over19:02 "Self-Blame in Tough Situations"20:42 Unsustainable Burnout Amid Life Challenges24:10 "This Might Break Him"Mentioned in this episode:Wanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not BrokenBrag on yourselfWanna brag on yourself for something you've done which you're proud of? https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailBuild Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-better

Your emotional energy is not in your job description.There! I said it. Did you feel a little jolt of recognition, a sense of relief—or maybe a stab of rage?Hi, I'm Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do. And in this episode of "Different, Not Broken" I'm asking if you’ve ever slogged through unbearable meetings, survived a boss who’d rather watch you squirm than support you, or felt your job siphoning off bits of your sanity day after day… this episode is your permission slip to stop surrendering your mental health on the altar of toxic work culture.If you’ve ever heard “No job is worth your mental health” and nodded vigorously, only to feel that familiar panic rising when rent is due and quitting might mean eviction, you’re in the right place. This episode won’t hand you Instagram-worthy mantras divorced from the realities of bills, healthcare, and responsibility. Instead, I'm calling bullshit on the “just quit” narrative, sharing the reality, along with some actionable insights, and the kinds of boundary-setting wisdom you wish someone told you before your workplace broke you—not because you were broken, but because you were different in a system built for sameness.You’ll find out:Why the burn-it-all-down mentality works for trust-fund babies but not so much for the rest of us.How your emotional labor is being quietly exploited—and how to reclaim it without burning bridges (or burning out).The single most important thing to do before leaving a toxic workplace (hint: it's not just quitting).How to spot the difference between jobs that are simply tough, and jobs that are actively toxic.What actually leads to burnout (spoiler: it’s almost never the actual work).Most importantly, you'll hear a deeply personal story of what happens when you reach your breaking point—and what you wish you knew before walking away. No job deserves your mental health. Listen now. Your sanity—and future self—will thank you.Useful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you're different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary00:00 "No Job Over Mental Health"06:11 "Choosing Your Emotional Boundaries"08:49 "Leaving to Save My Sanity"12:49 "Questioning Corporate Processes"15:11 Corporate Misfit to Happy Entrepreneur19:46 Weekend Questions I Hate23:10 "Choosing Between Fun or Rest"25:27 Navigating Choices and ConversationsMentioned in this episode:Build Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-betterWanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not Broken

To be honest, I’ve hit my limit with holiday guilt and the weird pressure to act like everything’s cosy and magical just because the calendar says so. Holidays are made up. They only exist if you get paid time off or you genuinely enjoy them… and most people don’t.In this episode, I’m pulling the curtains back on the whole thing. The family expectations. The traditions no one even likes. The so-called “peacekeeping” that’s really just self-abandonment. This one’s a little ranty, a little chaotic, and probably the most comforting thing you’ll hear all season. Let’s talk about ditching guilt, skipping the bullshit, and building holidays that don’t make you want to scream.Mentioned in this episode:Wanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not Broken

I survived a healthcare conference in Las Vegas… and honestly, I’m still a little surprised. Hi, I'm Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do. And in this episode of "Different, Not Broken" I'm sharing my story of peopling in sin city.Between the cigarette-tinged air, the giant hotel that somehow has no sunlight, the time-zone confusion, and the very real possibility that I could’ve wandered straight into a meetup hosted by people I’m literally in a legal dispute with, this trip shouldn’t have been fun — but weirdly, it was.In this episode, I talk about:• Why Vegas feels like a desert with no actual sun • How I almost RSVP’d myself straight into the lion’s den (yes, that lion) • My team acting like emotional support humans so I didn’t melt into a puddle in the middle of the crowd • The bizarre networking moments where founders, lawyers, and random strangers kept appearing out of nowhere• Why meeting listeners in real life makes me want to slide between the cracks of a sewer grate and disappear forever • And — shockingly — why I’d actually do this whole thing againAlso, Alison brings us another listener question in Small Talk all about productivity. Useful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you're different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary00:00 "Time, Smoke, and Healthcare Irony"05:30 "Almost Entering the Lion's Den"07:12 "Introvert at the Party"13:12 "Dateline Rule: No Second Location"13:49 "Conference Reflections: Fun & Validation"17:11 "Overcoming Exhaustion and Enjoyment"20:20 Checklist Productivity vs Mental Effort23:55 Redefining Daily ProductivityMentioned in this episode:Build Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-betterWanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not Broken

I hate meetings. I hate them so much.Which is very awkward for someone who runs multiple businesses and technically needs them to function as an adult.In this episode I am unpacking why meetings make me irrationally angry even when they are useful, profitable, and with people I actually like. Why does my brain treat work like an interruption to my other work? Why do I get mad at my calendar for existing? And why do I wake up thinking I can cram 72 hours of tasks into an 8 hour day and then resent anyone who dares to speak to me?Brains are weird. Bodies are weird. Doors are definitely weird.Stuff that helps you become awesome even if you're different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary00:00 "Losing L2: Rediscovering Identity"05:35 Taking Back Power with elletwo.com09:16 Reflecting on Productive Conversations12:36 Doors, Narration, and Love16:02 "Hyper Awareness of Doors"16:53 "Awkward Doors and Thresholds"Mentioned in this episode:Wanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not Broken

Buying a car in Florida shouldn’t feel like psychological warfare, but apparently it does. I’m just trying to replace my family car without losing my mind — or my sense of humour — in the process. Between fake add-ons, hidden dealer fees, and salespeople who can’t stop lying, car shopping in Florida has become a full-time trust exercise. In this episode, I share what it’s really like for someone who barely leaves the house enough to justify owning shoes, to navigate car buying in Florida while trying to stay honest, barefoot, and only mildly unhinged.Stuff that helps you become awesome even if you're different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary00:00 "Car Shopping Misery"05:40 "Frustrations with Car Salesmen"06:59 Car Dealership Troubles11:09 "Shoes, Cars, & Parenting"15:31 "Pinstriping Package Scam"16:24 Therapy, Cars, and Existential Questions19:45 "Patient Isn't Always the Sick"25:25 Evaluating Therapy's Effectiveness26:11 "Therapy Communication and Trust"Thanks for listening, guys.LuvyameanitMentioned in this episode:Wanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not BrokenWanna learn to write like me?Here's how you can!Writing Course

It’s one thing to be a degree removed from a celebrity—it’s another to almost, possibly, maybe know how Bruce Lee died (except for the super weird turn of events that resemble a case for Mulder and Scully!)But that’s exactly where we find ourselves in this episode: one step away from unraveling a mystery that’s tiptoed through dinner parties, rumbled around old Hong Kong restaurants, and left one family with a conversation that’s been categorically “denied” for decades.Stuff that helps you become awesome even if you're different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Timestamped summary (use the chapters if you're on Apple Podcasts)00:00 Seattle's Gloom: Love and Misery03:46 Pathologists, Conferences, and Autopsies06:21 "Suspicion Surrounding Mysterious Death"11:24 "Managing Visible Disdain for Stupidity"13:06 "Bro's Face Speaks Volumes"Mentioned in this episode:Wanna sponsor this podcasthttp://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not BrokenWanna learn to write like me?Here's how you can!Writing Course