Different, Not Broken

I'll just say it: don't send me a video.Not because I'm technologically challenged — I literally make video content for a living — but because if I need information fast, I need it in a format I can actually consume. Scrollable. Skimmable. Mine to move through in the order my brain needs. Send me a video and you have just given me homework, and I am not paying you to give me homework.That's the rant that opens this episode, and I stand by every word of it.But then we get into something that I think matters even more. I'm sitting down with Joanna Strober, the CEO of Midi Health — a women-focused healthcare company doing what the standard system has historically refused to do: actually start with women's biology instead of working around it. Joanna spent years watching herself and women like her get handed SSRIs and sleep studies when what they actually needed was someone to check their hormone levels. So she built the company that does that. Insurance covered. All 50 states. Actually available.We talk about perimenopause, the diagnostic desert most women wander through on their own, what it actually takes to build a healthcare company that investors have no existing pattern for, and why AI might finally be the thing that cuts through the prior authorization bureaucracy that is eating your doctor's time alive.Then Alison is back for Small Talk with a question from Omar in Dearborn, Michigan, about how to ask for help when even the ask feels overwhelming — and why needing help is never the failure it feels like.If this one lands for you, share it with someone who could use it. Leave a review.Different, Not Broken is hosted by Lauren Howard. New episodes drop weekly.

In this episode, I talk about what it actually looks like when you prioritize people-first leadership — not the inspirational poster version, but the version where you're paying someone's salary while they're out sick, covering their workload yourself, and looking at your bank account like it personally offended you.A friend called me — the kind who doesn't call unless there's a thing. He's running a business the right way, the people-first way, and he needed me to tell him he was doing it wrong so he could stop.I couldn't do that for him. Because he wasn't doing it wrong. He was just 'in the suck'.I share two real stories — one from a friend, one from inside my own company — about what happens when you commit to putting humans first, and applying compassionate leadership, even when the business case doesn't make immediate sense.What happens to the employee who needed care she could actually afford.What happens to the friend who finally called back to say... well, you'll have to listen to find out what he said.The suck is temporary. The loyalty isn't. This episode is for anyone building something — a business, a team, a life — who's in the middle of the hard part right now.Plus: Allison brings a question from Becca about replaying conversations at 2am and whether that's anxiety, rumination, or just your brain refusing to behave.⏱ Timestamps00:00 — Intro & the friend who never calls02:31 — What people-first leadership actually costs06:25 — This is temporary. I promise.09:51 — The reward is real. I just can't tell you when.11:03 — He called back. He saw it.13:07 — The employee story. The health insurance bill. The reason.19:52 — Oh. That's why.20:33 — What you get on the other side of the suck23:13 — Small Talk: replaying conversations at 2amMentioned in this episode:Build Your Better courseBuild your better course - https://stan.store/elletwo/p/build-your-betterJoin Quirky

My mom was in the hospital. ICU-level hospital. I knew she was going to be fine — but I also hadn't slept, and I was running on that specific kind of fuel that is equal parts functional and completely frayed.I had a lot of feelings. I did not share most of them. Instead, I asked her the question that actually mattered: how charged is your phone?This episode is about what happens when the people who raised us start needing us to show up — and how that experience is mostly logistical problem-solving interrupted by moments of genuine, unhinged absurdity. My mom had three separate envelopes of cash stuffed into various corners of her purse. She also had a small pouch of Equal packets. She let me take all the cash. She did not let me take the Equal. Barely ambulatory. Still ready to fight about artificial sweetener.I also robbed my 9-year-old's piggy bank for a valet tip. Her grandmother paid her back. I stayed out of that transaction entirely.Alison brings a question from Josh and Casey Mo, who feel like they're either all in or completely checked out — no middle gear — and it's starting to affect their relationships. I have thoughts. Mostly: please go talk to a clinician.Also in this episode: my husband's vacuum cleaner obsession, the Oscars, Conan O'Brien with a leaf blower, and the universe conspiring to put that exact sound directly into my AirPods at the worst possible moment."You can take my money. You cannot take my Equal."Timestamps:00:22 — My husband and his four vacuum cleaners01:51 — The Oscars / sensory nightmare of the week02:55 — Where did your parents keep the used twist ties?04:42 — My mom was hospitalized (ICU, kidney transplant, all of it)07:50 — The only question that matters: how charged is your phone?08:53 — Purse archaeology: hard candies, cash pouches, and the Equal situation13:12 — Small Talk: all in or completely checked out, no middle gearDifferent, Not Broken is hosted by Lauren Howard. New episodes drop weekly.Mentioned in this episode:InflowJoin QuirkyGetInflowOur episode sponsor is Inflow. Please support this show and check them out at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenInflow

In this episode which is sponsored by our wonderful partners at Inflow , I have a bone to pick with everyone who has ever bought me a coloring book. I know you meant well. I know you love me. I know you saw "mindless activity" and thought of me. But I need you to understand something: there is nothing in this world more stressful than being handed a mandala and a box of markers and being told to relax. Nothing.Hi, I'm Lauren Howard and my friends call me L2.Over the coming 20 minutes, I'll be walking through exactly why coloring books are a form of psychological warfare for my brain — the wrong colors, the spacing, the seven shades of gray problem, the blank page that is just failure waiting to happen — and what actually works for me instead. (Paint by number. With the paint pots included. Do not hand me a paint by number without the paint pots.)I also tell the story behind why I sign off every single conversation — phone call, Zoom, hallway chat — the same exact way. Every time. Have for a decade. Started in a substance use clinic, where "be good" was less a pleasantry and more a genuinely urgent request. One patient called me out the one time I forgot. I didn't realize how much it had followed me until then.Alison brings us a question from Simone in Oakland, California, who is frustrated by the advice to "listen to your body" because her body keeps sending contradictory signals — tired but wired, hungry but nauseous. I get into why that advice is genuinely incomplete, what those crossed signals actually mean, and when they're a sign something bigger needs attention."A blank coloring page is just a sheet of failure. Everything I do from here on out is going to be wrong. Get that thing away from me."Be good.Again, please do check out our episode sponsors Inflow at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenChapters:CHAPTER MARKERSFor use in podcast players and YouTube.00:00 — Coloring book dread (the visceral reaction)00:44 — Why people keep buying them (they mean well)01:47 — Please stop buying me coloring books02:30 — Mandalas, marker boxes, and wrong color panic04:03 — The Golden Girls color-by-number disaster05:17 — Paint by number: the acceptable alternative05:22 — You're allowed to make ugly art05:58 — Decision fatigue and the two-item menu06:46 — The blank page nightmare (live in my living room)07:53 — Where 'be good' actually came from08:53 — The substance use clinic years09:21 — The patient who called me out10:57 — What 'be good' means now12:38 — Small Talk with Alison12:43 — Simone in Oakland: mixed signals from her body13:05 — When 'listen to your body' is incomplete advice16:42 — Dad's sign-off (and how I apparently inherited this)Mentioned in this episode:Join QuirkyInflowGetInflowOur episode sponsor is Inflow. Please support this show and check them out at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenInflow

In this episode which is sponsored by our wonderful partners at Inflow I'm sharing an update from a couple of weeks ago when my mom was sick and I called an ambulance. She was going to be fine. I knew she was going to be fine. I was calm. I was functional. I was on the phone with my business partner — who is also an ER doctor, which I have decided is a mandatory qualification for that role — while flagging down the paramedics from the front porch.And then I walked outside and completely fell apart.Not because I was scared for her. Because that was the same porch. The same hallway. The same room I'd stood in nine and a half years ago when I called an ambulance for my dad — and he did not come home.My brain knew it was 2026. My body had not received that information.This episode is about the part of grief nobody prepares you for — not the raw early days, but the decade-later ambush that catches you completely off guard on a random Tuesday night with zero warning and zero time to put the armor on. It's also about how two things can be absolutely true at once: you can be fully mid-trauma response and still be making sarcastic remarks at the paramedics. I did both. Simultaneously. I regret nothing.Alison brings a question from Andrew in Eugene, Oregon: "I'm starting to wonder how much of my personality is just coping strategies stacked on top of each other. Is there a real me underneath that, or is that the wrong question entirely?" Andrew, I've been thinking about this all week.And I sit down with Lauren Yerkes, founder of Post Swim, who built a swimwear brand from her own breast cancer diagnosis at 37 — because she wanted to feel like herself again in a bathing suit, and that thing did not exist yet. Lauren's take on coverage vs. hiding is one of the most nuanced things I've heard in a long time."My brain knew it was 2026. My nervous system had entirely different information. Grief is a Mack truck with no warning label and no timeline."Post Swim: postswim.com | @postswimofficialAgain, please do check out our episode sponsors Inflow at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenThey're helping us bring episodes like this one to your ears.Mentioned in this episode:GetInflowOur episode sponsor is Inflow. Please support this show and check them out at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenInflowInflow

In this episode which is sponsored by our wonderful partners at Inflow I'm going on the record about something extremely important: loud music makes food taste bad, and I will not be taking questions or feedback on this. I support your live music. I will not consume it while eating my French fries. These are two separate things.I also have a feelings-based relationship with computer keyboards that started in approximately 1994 in a Radio Shack, has never ended, and apparently runs in the family.We also get into a question from Kayla in Tallahassee that stopped me: when I finally slow down, everything I've been avoiding emotionally shows up at once.Rest feels dangerous. I have thoughts on this — including the uncomfortable truth that you cannot outrun trauma, it is always there, and you are not smarter than it.(Neither am I. Trust me.)Plus I read a listener review that is basically the entire reason this show exists.The sensory case against restaurant live musicKeyboard switches, lifelong fixations, and the difference between that and a hyperfixationWhen your kid inherits the trait you didn't mean to pass onListener Q: why does rest feel like an ambush?You can't outrun what you haven't processedAgain, please do check out our episode sponsors Inflow at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenThey're helping us bring episodes like this one to your ears.Mentioned in this episode:GetInflowOur episode sponsor is Inflow. Please support this show and check them out at http://getinflow.io/notbrokenInflowInflowJoin Quirky

I've been doing the internet antagonizing. I apologize. Not to the people I'm doing it to — they deserve it — but to the universe in general.Last week I got into two arguments with dudes on the internet. It's like a thing I do. These are always cantankerous dude bros, and they always get what they deserve. The argument is almost always the same.I have one question. I ask it every time. It brings their very bullish "I know everything about running a workplace" energy down to a full Porky Pig real fast.I also bring receipts. Because of course I do.Plus: I got mad about the Turning Point USA halftime show in a business group on the internet, which is exactly where that conversation belongs if you ask me.And in Small Talk, I answer a question from Nate in Provo, Utah, who doesn't trust compliments but believes every piece of criticism — and I explain why imposter syndrome might actually be the most arrogant thing you can carry around.Boop.TIMESTAMPS00:37 — I got into two arguments with dudes on the internet last week01:04 — It's almost always the same argument about remote work and micromanagement02:16 — The call center manager who had a lot to say02:45 — The one question I have for them03:57 — I worked at a call center. The best one in the world. It was still awful.07:21 — If you can only run your business by underpaying people, your business is failing08:41 — Don't wrestle with pigs. They enjoy it. (I did it anyway.)09:18 — The Turning Point USA halftime show got me. I tried not to.12:34 — I'm going to find a different plumber13:55 — Small Talk: Nate from Provo, Utah on compliments vs. criticism14:41 — 10,000 compliments: "yeah maybe." Someone says your feet smell: "that HAS to be true."16:36 — Why imposter syndrome is actually a form of arroganceMentioned in this episode:Join QuirkySponsor the showhttps://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not Broken

I didn’t plan to talk about George Carlin.Or mascara.Or why I apparently cannot send a calendar invite without causing structural damage.But here we are.Hi, I’m Lauren Howard. You can call me L2. Like other people do.In this episode of Different, Not Broken, I talk about why I can speak into a microphone for 100,000 strangers… and feel deeply uncomfortable when someone I actually know tells me they listened.I unpack the idea of the “little extra hug” you can only get from strangers. Why performing publicly can feel easier than being known privately. Why validation from the internet feels different than validation from your neighbour.We also take a very sharp turn into hyperfixation. Makeup hyperfixation, specifically. What it feels like when your brain latches onto something and turns it into a full-blown research project. How dopamine gets mined in drawers full of blush and setting spray. And why sometimes that joy is less frivolous than it looks.Then we talk about the contradiction that lives underneath all of it.Being wildly capable in a crisis.Building businesses in your head in seconds.And being absolutely useless at routine admin.This episode is about uneven capability. The shame that can creep in when you’re brilliant in one arena and chaotic in another. And the possibility that maybe nothing is wrong with you. Maybe you’re just built for different things.For Small Talk, I respond to a listener question about being great in emergencies but struggling with everyday adulting.Once you’ve been inspired to brag, here’s where you can do it!https://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/voicemailUseful stuffStuff that helps you become awesome even if you’re different: https://stan.store/elletwoMy grown up job: https://lbeehealth.com/Chapters / Timestamps00:00 – Doomscrolling and documentary spirals01:29 – George Carlin and the “little extra hug”04:20 – Why strangers feel easier than real life07:23 – Makeup hyperfixation and dopamine mining13:30 – The Sephora return that proved my point17:29 – Listener question: crisis queen, admin disaster19:00 – Why I pay people to manage my calendar20:50 – Maybe you’re just built differentlyMentioned in this episode:Sponsor the showhttps://differentnotbrokenpodcast.com/sponsorsSponsor Different Not BrokenJoin Quirky

We had a hell of a week last week. But let me tell you this one story....