I don't know what I am asking: listener question
Superpowered Mind with Clare Dimond · Clare Dimond
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Show Notes
I am probably someone who keeps things, mysery in place, especially hurtful thinking, living, that I don't recognize it anymore etc.
Or I am just to scared to do something about , acknowledge it. Or don't care.
New or nice things are not allowed, I can't or don't know how to enjoy that anymore. Or if I feel it, it's not important, enough etc. or I numb. (automatically).
For me it almost means 'that's just how I am' , sometimes it feels I am' killing', destroying myself, giving up.
In a way I feel like a lost person. Asking, talking to people but no change. Listening, reading, sometimes a bit of relief. Tired of it. (you will probably say, I am not..)
Maybe I am too defensive, controlling, protecting. That I don't want to change.
When I ask 'what's at stake', nothing is I guess.
The high tone in my head is not helping it's there all the time, never quiet.
Feeling like a robot quite often because of this, probably all thinking.
I don't know what I am asking, I guess I just want to share, vent.
I guess I am scared..