'Shame at my life' Listener question
Superpowered Mind with Clare Dimond · Clare Dimond
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Show Notes
I wanted to ask you or maybe just see your thoughts around something that happened for me yesterday.
They were a job rejection and a strong angry reaction to a FB post that was about repeating days over and over not being a life. I see that reaction speaks directly to my own shame and embarrassment that my life seems to be just that - repeated, wasted days.
Later that night I woke with thoughts of shame and disappointment of how my life seems to have turned out, that I am wasting my life and embarrassed of the perceived barriers that lay heavy on any creativity or potential. I compare myself to the collective "them" who are so much more worthy, useful and successful and the old me who could do the things I can't. So separate and lacking.
I felt anger rise up and in my mind I am smashing against the walls that surround me and screaming as loud as I can. This was in my mind as my husband would have a start, but I silently screamed. I was reminded of something you had said about hitting at walls made of nothing but thin air.
Today I don't feel different about my situation. I think I know what has to happen, VOICE was so brilliant and started me down that path. I just don't know who I am, I feel a bit lost.