New Year Lost Without You

Approaching the new year comes with soo many emotions. Every year, you look forward to a new year and new resolutions. This was the second new years without Alex physically home. I cherish the memories of the new years we did get to spend together. Going into 2024, I never thought my son wouldn't be here. We would talk and laugh about the future on how he was going to be a rapper and I was going to be his momager and we were going to travel the world. He would say, "Mom, when I make it big, I going to buy a big pink mansion and have a house in the back for you too." I would encourage him and say what my dad told me before he passed, "You can do anything you put your mind to. " Even in grief at the weakest, lowest point of your life when you have no energy to get up and go on everyday, you still get up and push through. You learn how to put your pain into purpose. It will be another year lost without him and navigating the milestones he will miss and more painful anniversaries. They say time heals but you learn how to live with the physical and emotional pain that comes with losing your child. Completed Episode uploaded 1/18/24.