Life On Audio

I've curated some of my thoughts of the belief of "If it's meant to be, it'll be" especially in the context of dating as well as some tips on how to pursue organic dating (from what I've learned so far in my quest).

"Diabolical" was the word of the month for April and you'll see why in this episode. Here's the story of the craziest month of my life ft. Christine visiting me in Miami, the story of how I got so played it's embarrassing, and my life in absolute shambles 😃

Welling up in a therapy session made me dig deeper on my desire for love (because why am I crying over not having romantic love?!?). I've chosen to live my life as I enjoy it hoping that doing so will eventually lead me to my person, but I'm definitely open and eager to finding love again :)

Oh what a coincidence...we're both here. Sorry about ghosting you, I had a lot going on. Anyways, here's a little catch up on what happened since we last talked and what I'm up to. See you next week?

I must be honest...I have a phone addiction (TikTok addiction, something of that sort). Now, this might come as no surprise but I've spent years trying to deny it because I'm not exactly proud of it. In this day and age, I know for a fact I'm not the only one so I thought I might as well come out and share this struggle.

So I've been thinking about this question a lot. On one hand, I do miss meeting people and going out with them but on the other, I nowhere near where I'd like to be to consider dating again. So we're talking about this tug of war I'm having in my brain. Plus, the usual job search discussion and wanting to desperately move out!

I am really freaking exhausted and I can't figure out why. But I decided to talk about how I've romanticized the future far too much and recently, my frontal lobe has developed or something like that because I'm starting to be more realistic about what the future may entail.

I’m back from Mexico (and a wee bit sick) and we’re talking about the job search, 2025 expectations, feeling stuck in life, and everything in between! It’s time to get back to work and make things happen, and I’m just hoping the stars align for me sometime soon (I am so ready for change)!

Happy New Year y'all! This was indeed recorded before Christmas but I took some time to look back at 2024, share the job offer story that didn't get shared at the time, and talk about some of my goals and aspirations for 2025. Excited to keep sharing my life on here in 2025!

So, I took another trip to NYC and it was quite the reality check when the trip turned from visiting a friend to essentially just a solo trip. And that's when I started contemplating whether a NYC move is really what I want or whether I had just romanticized the whole thing. Hope everyone had a Merry Christmas! Love you all and see you in the new year (what?!?)

I did not think people missed my weekly episodes but I got multiple comments about it so here is the much anticipated Miami Art Week recap. We go super in-depth on my week of working in the art week and experiencing life in this crazy, busy week! Hoping for something like this again soon.

I am aware that thanksgiving was yesterday but this episode has nothing to do with that. Rather, a couple of weeks ago, life was really coming together nicely and I was feeling awfully grateful for all the chances I’ve been given and the opportunities that have found me! I am feeling so lucky!

The last two weeks have been busy so instead of capturing snippets in different episodes, I thought I'd just recap everything in one episode before returning to my boring life. This episode includes: birthdays, my poll worker stint, boy drama, and my dating preferences. Enjoy!

For my longest episode yet (so sorry about that), I went to NYC for two days and recap my trip (featuring a little taste of NYC romance) before delving into what in the world is going on in my love life (I needed to get it off my chest, thank you for listening!). Now I'm desperately manifesting my move to NYC!

I went to San Diego to visit my friend Christine and the trip resulted in some experiences I couldn't have anticipated happening. We're debriefing every single detail because it's simply too good.

So things are changing drastically in my life and now that I feel like I have a grasp on where these changes are going to take me, I thought I'd share! Major life changes don't come easy and I'm just at the start of changing my life around but I'm also feeling good!

Coming to you with one of my more motivational episodes, I'm talking about handling thoughts of feeling behind in life and not feeling as if you are in the right place to thrive. It's easy to believe the grass is greener on the other side but I've been down that rode and realized that's not always the case.

I’m the least mysterious person on this planet earth…surprise! But I wanted to talk about the concept of moving in silence and how I’ve been thinking about it now more than ever. Although I don’t think I’ll be completely disappearing to work my goals anytime soon, this is the explanation for if I ever do.

I'm back from India and I thought it would be fun to share a bit of what went down while I was there + some of my thoughts on being there! Also Happy (a couple of weeks late) 1 Year of Life On Audio!

I got a modeling contract and then there was an interesting turn of events which left me feeling discouraged and lost about what to do next. I'm starting to feel the need to move on to the next chapter of my post grad experience but I'm not sure what that is.

I'm on the pursuit of happiness (or at least I was)! This episode covers the topic of happiness, where I talk about my own journey with finding it, what I learned along the way, and my "made it" moments.

This episode is quite the rollercoaster ride so strap in as I share what's been going on in my life and in my mind over the past couple of days. This kind of feels like my darkest secret episode but with some fun updates on my modeling journey + post grad social life and an explanation for my Tik Tok break, but also the reflection on a really hard realization I had over the weekend that caused me to uncover a memory/experience I had chosen to ignore for far too long. I love you all so much! Thank you so much for being here!

I've been holding on to this story for a long time but I think it's time I uncover one of the insanely baffling stories that took my first relationship by storm. As you'll be able to tell, I'm quite passionate about this one because I never was able to understand the motive behind it but I am very curious as to whether any one else out there has had a similar experience to this one.

Today we're manifest because why not! I share my thoughts on manifestation, my failed attempts with it (or not), and then get into manifesting my dream life before giving you the floor to do the same!

I hit 10k and then I talked about it in this episode! Sharing what 10k means to me, how I'm planning on continuing my content journey, and how I want to be viewed on Tik Tok.

Was going through a bit of an existential crisis recently and recorded this episode to capture how I was feeling in the moment. I've tried to put on this "post grad is great" face because I want to love every aspect of it but sometimes it really does feel like I'm on the struggle bus and fighting misery over it. I promise more happy content coming up next but for now I'm letting myself feel!

This episode takes multiple forms as I deep dive into my recent thoughts and realize some revolutionary things about them! Starting off, I share this recent epiphany I had about finding the one/getting married and how this epiphany has given me a whole new level of peace. I then segway into discussions on conditional love and make sense of how I show love in romantic relationships.

Trying to make sense of what era of life I'm in as I enter post grad has lead me to deeming it the waiting room era. For the first time in four years, my life is still and I feel as if I am merely existing. I find a lot of peace in this era, though, as I see it as a crucial stepping stone to something bigger.

As I close off this era of living alone, I wanted to give my ultimate guide to living alone to curb loneliness, avoid insanity, and love the experience for anyone who may need it now or in the future! On the same beat, I'm share my move out story and how I'm feeling about being back home for good for now!

Well, it's my 22nd birthday and I nearly forgot that it landed on a Friday so I decided to take a moment to reflect on my 21st year around the sun aka this insane year of growth, experience, and accomplishments! And now we're on to a new year, even more daunting but exciting, and I can't wait to see where 22 takes me!

And just like that, I have very officially graduated college, am saying goodbye to the people I knew best in college, and moving away from my college town for good! This episode recaps my graduation weekend and how I'm feeling now that it's over and the future feels very real!

It feels like it's been forever since I last posted an episode on here but I am officially back and ready to keep bringing you weekly episodes! Today we're debriefing (some of) my travel journey and talking about my experience solo traveling for the first time, staying in hostels, and making friends along the journey! I missed you guys and I'm so happy to be back!

Before starting my solo travel journey, I wanted to document my thoughts and how I was feeling so I could look back on the me before. This is going to be the last episode I prerecorded before leaving the US so Life On Audio will be on pause till I'm back, but I'm so excited to share everything I've been up to! (Also, Hi from Australia!)

Feeling defeated about where I am in content creation, I took the mic to talk about what it's really been like being a content creator and sharing my life on the internet. This episode segways into talking about being an overachiever, feeling the need to do it all, and setting boundaries when your life is so public to others. If you've been following me on any of my platforms, thank you for the support!

For the past year I’ve been screaming off the rooftops that I’m going to chase my dreams (aka pursue my passions) after college. Now I’ve graduated and the time has come to start actively pursing my passions! I wanted to do a “before” episode capturing how I’m feeling at the start of this journey, why I decided to do this instead of something more conventional, and what my goals are for this journey! Hoping this inspires those who are questioning whether they should or should not break convention after college!

This episode is about hope, about fighting the battle till the end for better. Today marks a year since my first breakup and the journey (as many of you have followed) was far from easy but the outcome resulted in the happiest ending and I am forever grateful for me a year ago for knowing she deserved better and for me throughout this past year who continued fighting for better until she finally found it! I’ll be celebrating how far I’ve come from Japan and I could not be more excited!

Long before I ever had a podcast I knew that when I would, I would have a very specific person on and today she is dishing the dirt on me while we relive our college experience together. Everyone welcome my freshman year roommate + closest friend at UCLA, Christine, who has gotten me through a large part of my life over the past 3 years! She has all the intel on who I was and who I am.

Potentially closing off this series with an episode on dating in college and my experiences! I share a lot of my unfortunate "dating" stories throughout my college years and the lessons I learned from them.

Confession: I am not the perfect daughter…in fact, I am far from it. In this episode I delve into the journey from striving to be the perfect daughter as a high schooler in hopes that my parents would be proud of me to finally breaking free and choosing what I love while being a very imperfect daughter. This story has a happy ending as my parents have been my biggest supporters as I go on this journey of breaking convention and doing what I love after college (aka talking to my phone). This episode is an appreciation to my parents for loving me for who I am and supporting what I do, even if they may not understand it.

I’m back from small town Germany and I had some life changing epiphanies while I was abroad! Let’s talk about how the switch finally flipped (ignore how I got this wrong in the epi) on being heartbroken over my first relationship and how I came up with a plan B for post grad that I actually love (your girl is looking to move abroad)! This trip is exactly what I needed to start this new chapter of my life and I’m feeling really good for the first time in a really long time!

I recently had an experience (detailed in this episode) with a guy that completely broke me and left me feeling as if I may never find love again. While I know this feeling is temporary and likely untrue, I wanted to talk about how I was feeling in the moment in hopes that anyone else feeling this way doesn't feel as alone. In addition, I share about feeling defeated in the grieving process of my first relationship and how this experience left me with so many questions.

As I graduate in a week, I reflect on my journey with friendship and loneliness in college and everything I learned from the experiences I had. College isn't comfortable, friendships in college aren't easy, and it's very normal to experience in some form during your time at school. I journey with friendships and loneliness have made me so much more capable and knowledgeable on the world around me, and while it hasn't been easy, I wouldn't change it for the important lessons I learned.

I'm two weeks to ending my time as a college student and I have no clue how to feel about that! In this episode I share my very tentative post grad plans while also sharing the emotions that I'm feeling about post grad life. I know other college seniors will get exactly where I'm at right now with thinking about what my post grad life will look like!

I promised that I’d share everything I learned about heartbreak once I finally exited my heartbreak era and I’m happy to say it is time! Today we are talking about the good, the bad, and the ugly of heartbreak while I give you guys the ultimate guide on how to navigate your heartbreak era to ensure you come out of it so much better! I’m hoping that something in here resonates with you, gives you hope, or just helps you get through this very tough period.

You guys are in for a treat! My sister visited me in LA this weekend and we decided to hop onto the pod and tell all, and we really did tell all. Hear all about my sister's trip to LA, our childhood, and our future plans together! If you loved this episode, please let me know because I might just start doing more collabs!

Let's talk about my experience with greek life, going out in college, and being sober in college! We have so much to cover in this episode and have just a few my college stories from my freshman/sophomore year. I talk about everything from rushing a sorority to the drinking culture in college. If you have any questions or want me to cover something specific in a future episode, dm me on instagram (@Sophia_ij)!

Happy Valentine's Day Babeskis! Just because you don't have a valentine's this year, doesn't mean you don't deserve a gift so here's one from me to you! Let's talk practicing self love today and my Valentine's Day plans for myself + catching up on what my life has looked like over the past couple of weeks, as well as future plans including my sister coming to visit me and a galentine's! I love you all so much!

A month ago, I shared two very vulnerable Tik Toks with the world and the response was appalling. I could have never anticipated how much those Tik Toks would change my life in such a short period of time but here we are and I'm ever grateful for the platform they provided me with! Cheers to vulnerability and I hope this provides an important reminder that life does get better, no matter how hard it may seem in the moment. I love you all so much and thank you for being here!

After vowing not to share this horribly vulnerable topic with others, I’m finally opening up on my thoughts on the first love effect and how it’s been affecting me + thoughts on no contact, the narrative that they always come back, and my frustration on why all of this is bugging me. I’m sharing some of my most private thoughts with the hopes that other people will feel a little less alone in the post-first relationship journey.

Pretend I'm your best friend and you're on the phone with me while I recount the absolute chaos that's happening in my life. Today I'm sharing some controversial stories that I really should only be sharing with my friends but I had to let you all in. Hope you enjoy and if you want to judge, Tik Tok already did that for you when I told the first story lol.