Even if it Kills Me
A podcast about fate.
FANG workshop · Jon Lullo
Show overview
Even if it Kills Me has published 7 episodes, alongside 1 trailer or bonus episode during 2024. That works out to roughly 3 hours of audio in total. Releases follow a weekly cadence.
Episodes typically run twenty to thirty-five minutes — most land between 21 min and 32 min — though episode length varies meaningfully from one episode to the next. The publisher flags most episodes as explicit, so expect adult themes or strong language throughout. It is catalogued as a EN-language Music show.
The catalogue appears to be on hiatus or wound down — the most recent episode landed 1.8 years ago, with no new episodes in over a year. Published by Jon Lullo.
From the publisher
This is the story of the band that almost was. You won’t hear what this band sounds like. You won’t even learn their name. But you know this band, even if you don’t. Even if it Kills Me is a narrative documentary podcast, chronicling the lives of Jon, Ryan, Mac and Pete as they set out across the country and try to make it as rockstars in the bygone era of the ‘00s. Each episode uses contemporary interviews and archival recordings to pull back the curtain on the nitty-gritty inner workings of tour life, all unfolding during the music industry’s own fall of Rome, as massive technological shifts upended business models that had existed for decades. Tune in weekly for the next chapter in this six-part miniseries. Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.
Latest Episodes
S1 Ep 6A Crowd of No One
EThe band grapples with crafting a successor to their debut album for the record label. Opting to part ways, they embark on a final headline tour, which falls short of expectations. One of the guys exits days before the tour's conclusion, leaving the remaining members to complete the journey without him.Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production Written and Narrated by Aaron JoyProduced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter Featuring original music by Alex DezenOriginal theme by Matt McGinleyevenifitkillsmepodcast.com fangworkshop.com mattmcginleymusic.com alexdezen.comSocialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_official Music promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / :) Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0) https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/deed.en_US Hosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.
S1 Ep 5Nothing Short of Bliss
EThe band steps up to a higher tier of touring, inadvertently upsetting the headlining band's tour manager along the way. They transition to a tour bus for a major festival, facing the juxtaposition of disappointing performances amidst luxurious living conditions.Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop productionWritten and Narrated by Aaron JoyProduced by Jon Lullo and Brendan WalterFeaturing original music by Alex DezenOriginal theme by Matt McGinleyIN MEMORY OF DUSTIN BOWevenifitkillsmepodcast.comfangworkshop.commattmcginleymusic.comalexdezen.comLobby Time by Kevin MacLeod | https://incompetech.com/Music promoted by https://www.chosic.com/free-music/all/Creative Commons Creative Commons: By Attribution 3.0 Licensehttp://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/Hall of the Mountain King by Kevin MacLe`od • Edvard Grieg | http://incompetech.comMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution 4.0 International (CC BY 4.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/4.0/Socialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_officialMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/deed.en_USHosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.
S1 Ep 4Technically, This is On Us
EThe band relies on the hospitality of others for places to sleep. One of the members experiences a breakdown and departs, coinciding with the loss of the band's cash box. A replacement is flown in, but challenges arise.Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop productionWritten and Narrated by Aaron JoyProduced by Jon Lullo and Brendan WalterFeaturing original music by Alex DezenOriginal theme by Matt McGinleyevenifitkillsmepodcast.comfangworkshop.commattmcginleymusic.comalexdezen.comSocialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_official Music promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0) https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/deed.en_USHosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.
S1 Ep 3A Little Less Than Half
EThe band grapples with the hidden expenses of touring and takes on gritty jobs to sustain themselves between tours. Additionally, they witness technological shifts unfolding while on the road.Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop production Written and Narrated by Aaron JoyProduced by Jon Lullo and Brendan Walter Featuring original music by Alex DezenOriginal theme by Matt McGinleyevenifitkillsmepodcast.com fangworkshop.com mattmcginleymusic.com alexdezen.comSocialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_official Music promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0) https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/deed.en_USHosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.
S1 Ep 2Stuck Inside The Gap
EThe band embarks on tour, only to be overwhelmed by feelings of inadequacy when measuring up to their fellow touring bands. Meanwhile, one of their tour mates achieves sudden and remarkable success on the road.This show is brought to you by Manhead Merch https://www.manheadmerch.com/Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop productionWritten and Narrated by Aaron JoyProduced by Jon Lullo and Brendan WalterFeaturing original music by Alex DezenOriginal theme by Matt McGinleyevenifitkillsmepodcast.comfangworkshop.comalexdezen.commattmcginleymusic.comSocialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_officialMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/deed.en_USHosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.
S1 Ep 1A Band Called ______
EThe band's journey begins. Fueled by ambition, they relocate to Los Angeles, seeking a record deal. Fortune smiles upon them as they secure a contract with their dream label.Tune in next Wednesday for the next chapter in this six-part miniseries.This show is brought to you by Manhead Merch https://www.manheadmerch.com/Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop productionWritten and Narrated by Aaron JoyProduced by Jon Lullo and Brendan WalterFeaturing original music by Alex DezenOriginal theme by Matt McGinleyevenifitkillsmepodcast.comfangworkshop.commattmcginleymusic.comalexdezen.comSocialized Pepsi by The Loyalist | https://soundcloud.com/the_loyalist_officialMusic promoted by https://www.free-stock-music.comCreative Commons / Attribution 3.0 Unported License (CC BY 3.0)https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by/3.0/deed.en_USHosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.
Trailer
trailerEThis is the story of the band that almost was. You won’t hear what this band sounds like. You won’t even learn their name. But you know this band, even if you don’t. Even If It Kills Me is a narrative documentary podcast, chronicling the lives of Jon, Ryan, Mac and Pete as they set out across the country and try to make it as rockstars in the bygone era of the ‘00s. Each episode uses contemporary interviews and archival recordings to pull back the curtain on the nitty-gritty inner workings of tour life, all unfolding during the music industry’s own fall of Rome, as massive technological shifts upended business models that had existed for decades. First two episodes available everywhere June 26. Tune in weekly for the next chapter in this six-part miniseries.This show is brought to you by Manhead Merch https://www.manheadmerch.com/Even If It Kills Me is a FANG workshop productionWritten and Narrated by Aaron JoyProduced by Jon Lullo and Brendan WalterFeaturing original music by Alex DezenOriginal theme by Matt McGinleyevenifitkillsmepodcast.comfangworkshop.commattmcginleymusic.comalexdezen.comHosted on Ausha. See ausha.co/privacy-policy for more information.