Cults to Consciousness

Following up her incredible interview recounting how she grew up in a religious community-turned-cult called the Center, today Patricia Walsh Chadwick joins us live to discuss what happened after. At the age of seventeen she was forced out of her home, leaving behind her entire family, and without access to higher education. From her first job as a receptionist at a brokerage firm, she clawed her way up the ladder—rung by rung—in that bastion of male chauvinism: Wall Street. By going to college at night, she achieved her degree in economics from Boston University, and from there, she headed to New York City. With a drive that earned her the moniker “Witch of Wall Street,” she rose from the ranks of research analyst to portfolio manager, where she was responsible for billions of dollars in pension and endowment assets. A turning point in her life was giving birth to twins at the age of forty-five, and she continued forward in her career, becoming a global partner at Invesco. At the turn of the millennium, she left Wall Street behind and embarked on a second career as a corporate board director. Click to watch on YouTube Watch her initial interview here Connect with Patricia on social media: Website: https://www.patriciachadwick.com/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/patriciachadwickauthor LinkedIn https://www.linkedin.com/in/patriciachadwick1/ IG: @patriciawalshchadwick YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@patriciachadwick6951 We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

From the age of six through her high school years, Patricia Walsh Chadwick was raised in The Center, an isolated, rural community of 100 members, including 39 children, led by Father Leonard Feeney, an excommunicated Jesuit priest, and managed with an iron fist by his spiritual alter ego, Catherine Clarke. Together, they created a monastic environment that demanded obedience, silence, chastity, and detachment from family, achieved by separating parents from their children and forbidding members to read newspapers, watch television, listen to the radio, or communicate with outsiders. Patricia defied Sister Catherine’s mission to mold her into a compliant, submissive nun. At 17, in the middle of the turbulent 1960s, she was expelled from her home in Still River, Massachusetts, without a hint of how to survive, much less thrive, in an unfamiliar and frightening world. Today, Patricia has had a successful 30-year career in the investment business, culminating as a Global Partner at Invesco, as she he sits on a number of corporate boards and blogs on economic, social, and political issues. Patricia is author of BREAKING GLASS: Tales from the Witch of Wall Street, as well as a previous memoir, Little Sister, where she recounts her time in the cult. Click here to watch on YouTube Connect with Patricia on social media: Website: https://www.patriciachadwick.com/ Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/patriciachadwickauthor LinkedIn https://www.linkedin.com/in/patriciachadwick1/ IG: @patriciawalshchadwick YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@patriciachadwick6951 We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:02:55 Patricia's daughter helps her realize she grew up in a cult 00:06:23 A small Catholic church becomes isolated and more communally oriented 00:17:47 How chiIdren were isolated even further within the group and some of the rules they were required to follow 00:20:44 Sister Catherine continues to isolate families while breaking the rules herself 00:25:25 A militaristic lifestyle in the countryside of Massachusetts 00:27:06 Restricting outside influences and stripping away individuality 00:30:45 Still nurturing familial connections while under strict rules and job assignments 00:34:28 A matriarchal leader in a patriarchal world and how members were indoctrinated daily 00:39:36 How Patricia's lack of knowledge impacted her understanding of marriage 00:41:17 How Sister Catherine's personal beliefs directly influenced the lives of many 00:44:41 Patricia's meeting with Sister Catherine about her future 00:50:11 How Patricia felt about leaving and how she views cult like representation in the media 00:55:17 How Patricia was able to succeed on Wall Street after leaving the cult 01:10:42 How other members left before and after Sister Catherine's death 01:14:41 What Patricia's relationship with her family is like today 01:16:28 How Patricia is doing now 01:18:22 Linda, listen 01:18:51 Patricia's plans for more books in the future and her role models Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

The Mormon church has always claimed to be accepting of everyone including the LGBTQ+ community. However, their actions and words spoken to the congregations paint a very different picture. You can be gay, but in order to receive all the blessings from God, you must remain celibate. It has come to our attention that in some wards (congregations), openly married gay couples have not only been able to keep their membership (rather than be excommunicated), but are allowed to take the sacrament and even hold important positions in the church. Joined by Dillan, who was recently featured on Jubilee’s Middleground “Mormons vs Ex-Mormons”, and @nuancehoe , we discuss these monumental changes in the right direction. After the live, you will be automatically redirected to another live stream on Carah’s channel to hear more of Dillan’s story: https://www.youtube.com/live/tRYIIyI7fIE?si=OeCtP8XmRJltoPtJ Click here to watch on YouTube Find Dillan's recent appearance on Jubliee's "Can Mormons and Ex Mormons See Eye to Eye? | Middle Ground" video here Check out Nuancehoe's reaction to Jublilee's video: Mormons BOMB In Cringeworthy Debate | ExMo Jubilee Reaction Check out Mormon Stories' reaction to Jubliee's video: "Jubilee's “Mormons vs Ex-Mormons” on Middle Ground - Ex-Mormon Cast Reacts | Ep. 186" Mormon Stories Episode further expanding on the topic: Married Gay Mormons Get Sacrament and Callings Find Dillan Conrad on IG @dillanconrad Follow and Support Carah! YouTube: @carrahburrell Instagram: @nuancehoe Tiktok: @nuancehoe Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

This horrifying, avoidable tragedy is something the LDS church lies about to its members to promote faith. In reality, greed and purposely cutting corners led faithful saints to a horrible fate. Join @nuancehoe and I as we read actual journal entries from people who took this perilous 1300 mile trek to settle Utah. Click here to watch on YouTube Read “Devil’s Gate: Brigham Young and the Great Mormon Handcart Tragedy” Follow and Support Carah! YouTube: @carrahburrell Instagram: @nuancehoe Tiktok: @nuancehoe Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

More dangerous Mormon propaganda explained and your questions answered with Carrah Burrell! Click here to watch on YouTube Follow and Support Carah! YouTube: @carrahburrell YouTube: @carrahburrell Instagram: @nuancehoe Tiktok: @nuancehoe Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/nuancehoe We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

After a preliminary discussion about the many similarities between Islam and Mormonism, tonight we go into further detail with @apostatealaddin who grew up in the purity culture of Islam within Saudi Arabia. Join us as we compare and contrast the rest of the list. Click here to watch pt. 1 Click here to watch pt. 2 Click here to watch pt. 3 (this episode) You can watch his full interview here Find Apostate Aladdin YouTube: @ApostateAladdin IG: @apostatealaddin LinkTree https://linktr.ee/ApostateAladdin We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

After an incredible conversation with @apostatealaddin about the purity culture he grew up in within Islam in Saudi Arabia, we realized there were many similarities between Islam and Mormonism. Join us today as we compare and contrast a full list. Make sure to stay on after our livestream has ended to be automatically directed to Apostate Aladdin's channel, where we will finish the conversation. Click here to watch this interview (pt 1) You can watch his full interview here Find Apostate Aladdin YouTube: @ApostateAladdin IG: @apostatealaddin LinkTree https://linktr.ee/ApostateAladdin We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

​ @ApostateAladdin grew up in Saudi Arabia which is a Muslim majority country with strict laws originating from Islam. After going abroad to college, he recognized his learned racism, bigotry and bias was a direct reflection of the religion he was raised in. A deep dive into the theology, history and hadiths made him question everything, including his own ethics. He details how research and deep critical thinking led him to leave Islam behind, and what the consequences are of speaking out on his YouTube channel. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch his previous episodes here: Ex-Muslim Opens Up About Sex and Islam in Saudi Arabia | The Story of @ApostateAladdin An Ex-Mormon & Ex-Muslim Compare Notes ft. @ApostateAladdin https://www.youtube.com/live/g0xEu2cacEo?si=TwWZtNPOLVeOZuA9 An Ex-Mormon & Ex-Muslim Compare ALL Notes ft. @ApostateAladdin Find Apostate Aladdin on Social! YouTube @ApostateAladdin IG: @apostatealaddin LinkTree https://linktr.ee/ApostateAladdin We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:04:34 Apostate Aladdin's life growing up in Saudi Arabia 00:07:03 How Apostate Aladdin's experiences with non Muslims deviated from what the Quran teaches 00:09:25 Islam: A religion of peace or a religion of violence 00:10:54 How a lack of context surrounding the Quran can lead to Islamic extremism 00:12:43 How beginning to question Islam impacted Apostate Aladdin 00:15:11 Other aspects of the Quran that led Apostate Aladdin to question Islam 00:17:27 When living a strict religious lifestyle doesn't provide answers to questions and doubts 00:21:32 Breaking core doctrine as step in the deconstruction process 00:24:50 Overcorrection after leaving and managing emotions effectively 00:27:41 The importance of having emotional outlets and having a community 00:31:40 Have empathy for those disparaging you 00:33:18 The role of labels and identity when leaving a high demand religion 00:36:49 When the status of someone's personal beliefs is a bigger deal to others than it is to them 00:37:59 Realities of speaking out against Islam and the very real threats that people face 00:42:44 What the justifications are for extreme laws regarding those who leave Islam or speak out about it 00:44:52 How the idea of a perfect Islamic practice can cause harm to others 00:47:09 The importance of nuance and different sects in the discussion of Islam 00:49:44 How Islam is growing so quickly and is on track to surpass Christianity in numbers 00:52:41 How identity and taking your time to find your identity after leaving Islam is important 00:54:07 How Apostate Aladdin chose his name 00:54:57 Advice for those who are leaving a high demand religion Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Following up her incredible initial interview, today we are joined again by @InfidelNoodle . We discuss her research on youth Islamic radicalization and the internet, and how high control groups appeal to young people. Raised in a strict Muslim community in Australia, YouTuber Infidel Noodle led a double life for 5 years before making the big decision to leave her parents’ home before marriage. This meant she would be cut off from her family due to disobedience and not fulfilling her role as a woman. When she posted on TikTok about her heartache being ostracized, her video went viral and she decided to remain vocal about the struggles exMuslims face. However, for the safety of her loved ones and herself, she wears a mask to remain anonymous. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch her initial interview here here Find her on Social! YT: https://www.youtube.com/@InfidelNoodle IG: @infidel.noodle Resource for those leaving Islam and need help: https://www.freeheartsfreeminds.com/ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Raised in a strict Muslim community in Australia, YouTuber Infidel Noodle led a double life for 5 years before making the big decision to leave her parents’ home before marriage. This meant she would be cut off from her family due to disobedience and not fulfilling her role as a woman. When she posted on TikTok about her heartache being ostracized, her video went viral and she decided to remain vocal about the struggles exMuslims face. However, for the safety of her loved ones and herself, she wears a mask to remain anonymous. Click here to watch on YouTube Find her on Social! YT: https://www.youtube.com/@InfidelNoodle IG: @infidel.noodle Resource for those leaving Islam and need help: https://www.freeheartsfreeminds.com/ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:03:02 Why Infidel Noodle wears a mask 00:03:59 Reactions Noodle has received for speaking out on her channel 00:06:35 What it was like for IN growing up in South Africa 00:07:39 Life in New Zealand 00:10:12 The changes a young IN experienced once her parents introduced fundamentalist Islam into her life 00:11:42 How the modesty requirements increased 00:14:52 The changes IN experienced when she moved to Australia 00:18:10 Did IN push back on the strict rules with her parents? 00:20:42 Studying the scripture is what made IN want to leave Islam 00:26:13 Infidel Noodle would hide her "regular" clothes in the car 00:29:18 Finally, after 5 years, IN told her boyfriend about her double life 00:29:58 The tense time IN got spotted outside wearing shorts 00:31:50 At 20, IN decided she didn't want to live her double life anymore 00:33:56 The falling out Infidel Noodle had with her parents 00:38:54 IN planed her escape 00:41:10 Leaving the community behind 00:43:19 Infidel Noodle posts to TikTok and goes viral 00:47:34 How IN's siblings responded to her leaving Islam 00:52:13 The de*th threats IN gets 00:56:28 What made Infidel Noodle start a YouTube channel to speak out further? 00:58:54 Is IN worried about people finding out her identity? 01:00:31 The consequences of leaving Islam 01:03:48 What brings Infidel Noodle joy now? 01:05:24 linda, listen 01:07:41 Why Aisha goes by "Infidel Noodle" Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Zara Kay went viral when she was wrongfully arrested and detained for seemingly no reason. She tweeted that she needed help and since becoming an Australian citizen, she got the consulate involved. It appears that the Tanzanian, Islamic cult she grew up in, was unhappy with her outspoken (contradictory to teachings) opinions on social media and seems to have paid the Tanzanian police to arrest her while visiting home during the pandemic in 2020. No formal charges were made after ransacking her home and detaining her for hours. Soon after her release, personal information and messages were leaked to the public, her family and her received multiple death threats. She now runs The Faithless Hijabi where she provides support for ex Muslims. Click here to watch on YouTube Find Zara on social media: IG: @zarakayk YT: https://www.youtube.com/@ZaraKayk (The Untethered Mind) Website: https://www.faithlesshijabi.org/ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:02:45 Zara's Strict Upbringing in Tanzania 00:06:45 Zara's Desire for More in Life 00:09:58 Strict Rules of Zara's Childhood 00:14:24 Hijab Wearing Practices in Zara's Community 00:15:54 The Influence of Islamic Culture in Tanzania 00:26:51 Zara's father changes his mind last minute about her moving out 00:28:57 Zara's New Experiences as a College Student 00:31:44 How Zara felt like breaking former rules 00:34:31 Learning about s*x from magazines 00:38:44 Zara's terrifying jump out of the comfort zone 00:41:07 Zara's face to face confrontation with a gay man 00:42:44 Zara Begins Receiving Threats for Speaking Up on Social Media 00:48:58 Why Tanzania police unexpectedly arrested Zara 00:53:42 Zara's experience with the corrupt police of Tanzania 00:57:34 CW: Attempted SA in Tanzanian Jail 01:00:48 Zara escaped charges but couldn't leave the country 01:02:54 Zara's family got de@th threats after leaked messages 01:06:44 Tanzanian cult leaders are HOW rich?! 01:09:11 What is the "Faithless Hijabi?" 01:14:40 Precautions Zara Takes for Her Safety 01:16:06 How Zara is doing now 01:18:15 Linda, Listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Joining us today to follow up her incredible interview is South Asian ExMuslim, Haram Doodles. In one of her first public appearances unmasked, she recounted what it was like growing up with a life of restriction and fear from her parents, her culture, and God-- and why and how she ultimately left Islam. Today she addresses the controversial topic: Islamophobia. Speaking out on social media as an artist and ExMuslim Atheist, her art is a collection of haram (forbidden) doodles that advocate in solidarity with other courageous ExMuslims who’ve left Islam as a protest of Islam's strict restrictions. Her hopes are to spread the word about Ex-Muslim Awareness Month this December. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch her initial interview here Find Haram Doodles: Twitter: https://x.com/HaramDoodles IG: @haramdoodles Official website: https://haramdoodles.com We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

One of her first public appearances unmasked, South Asian ExMuslim, Haram Doodles, recounts what it was like growing up with a life of restriction and fear from her parents, her culture, and God. She reveals the details of why and how she ultimately left Islam. Speaking out now on social media as an artist and ExMuslim Atheist, her art is a collection of haram (forbidden) doodles that advocate in solidarity with other courageous ExMuslims who’ve left Islam as a protest of Islam's strict restrictions. She tells her story to spread the word about Ex-Muslim Awareness Month this December. Click here to watch on YouTube Find Haram Doodles: Twitter: https://x.com/HaramDoodles IG: @haramdoodles Official website: https://haramdoodles.com We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:03:26 Haram's life growing up as a child to immigrant parents and a Muslim 00:06:21 Planting seeds of doubt with the dinosaurs 00:08:38 Haram's teen years living with cognitive dissonance and finding ways to grow socially 00:10:58 What pun*shments looked like for Haram growing up 00:11:53 Haram's anxiety about doing the wrong thing and the pressure to answer to a higher power 00:14:27 How learning about other religions gave Haram some perspective on the world 00:16:24 The differences between how men and women are treated in Islam 00:20:45 What the Quran says about women and how Haram felt about it before and after college 00:23:47 How purity culture and modesty rules in Islam are viewed as protection for women 00:27:47 Haram's experience with facing marriage early, how college allowed her to put it off, and the rules she faced around going to school 00:30:23 Religious reasoning for young women and girls getting married 00:33:31 Studying the Quran in college from a professor who was also a Muslim 00:38:01 How women inflict gender roles onto themselves under the influence of Islam 00:40:37 How did Haram's mother feel about her role as a Muslim woman 00:43:22 Shaming others for not practicing Islam 00:43:46 Figuring out what is means to be an American Muslim 00:44:07 Figuring out what is means to be an American Muslim 00:46:07 The lack of support and shaming from Haram's family for not following a Muslim lifestyle 00:48:12 The difficulties of a lack of individuality for Muslim women 00:49:29 TW: Su*cidal ideation 00:51:51 How Haram met her husband and why she started Haram Doodles 00:57:39 What Haram Doodles has done for Haram and her followers 01:00:08 How Haram's drawings can help activate a person's critical thinking in a softer way 01:03:03 Finding bravery in her work as an artist 01:05:01 Haram's moment of freedom in Norway 01:11:54 Truly listening and seeing ex-Muslims for who they are and not for their choice to leave Islam and ex-Muslim awareness month 01:14:22 How Haram is doing now 01:16:22 Taking back power over your own body 01:19:38 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Joining us today to follow up her initial interview is Sara Glass. Sara vulnerably shares in great detail about what it was like navigating s*x, pregnancy, chiIdbirth and postpartum as a Hasidic Ultra Orthodox woman who was also gay. Click to watch on YouTube Watch her initial full interview here Find Sara on social media: Website: https://www.drsaraglass.com Book: “Kissing Girls on Shabbat” IG: @drsaraglass LinkTree: https://linktr.ee/drsaraglass We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Sara Glass knew she kept falling in love with women, but that didn’t matter. She knew her place as an Ultra Orthodox woman. She was placed into an arranged marriage to a man shortly after graduating high school and she painfully left her girlfriend behind. Sara vulnerably shares in great detail about what it was like navigating s*x, pregnancy, chiIdbirth and postpartum as a Hasidic woman who was also gay. Click here to watch on YouTube Find Sara! Website: https://www.drsaraglass.com Book: “Kissing Girls on Shabbat” IG: @drsaraglass LinkTree: https://linktr.ee/drsaraglass We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:03:56 Growing up in a Hasidic neighborhood in Brooklyn and falling in love with other girls as a teen 00:05:57 Sara grapples with who she has been taught God is, Jewish law, and her actions 00:07:32 Keeping an open heart and connecting to the story with your own struggles 00:08:27 How marriage classes surprised Sara and the emphasis on the holiness of consummation 00:12:20 How a lack of s*x education led to confusion and an invasion of privacy from the Rabbi 00:18:52 What Sara's first pregnancy was like and her complicated feelings afterwards TW: m*scarriage 00:22:06 The differences between m*scarrying a girl fetus and a boy fetus 00:23:40 Sara's husband takes the rules even further 00:25:49 What it was like giving birth without her husband in a secular hospital as a Hasidic Jewish woman 00:27:22 What the rules for birth control were in Sara's community 00:30:44 Gender roles in the Hasidic community and how the community is built around them 00:34:16 Mental health in this Hasidic community and Sara's fight for higher education 00:39:21 More rules around giving birth 00:42:48 What does Sara wish the medical staff would have done differently? 00:45:36 Sara's experience in college learning about the LGBTQ+ community 00:48:49 How Sara's social work classes applied to her own life TW: Marital r*pe 00:50:56 Rules for men around s*x 00:52:52 Divorce in the Hasidic community and the conditions Sara had to agree to to be granted one 00:56:20 Sara finally feels like she's in her own body 00:59:42 Sara expands her horizons in the secular world before remarrying 01:05:28 What did the Rabbis say about the LGBTQ+ community and men vs women 01:07:36 Sara finally decides to live an authentic life 01:12:20 What it means to leave a Hasidic community and the difficulties Sara faced 01:13:07 What Sara's relationship with her family is like today 01:14:31 What Sara's chosen community looks like now 01:17:26 Future writing endeavors Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Anyone can get sucked into a cult or be manipulated by an enthusiastic leader with bad intentions. Harvard graduate Joelle Tamraz, was young, enthusiastic and a perfect target for this specific yoga guru. Seeking enlightenment, purpose and peace, she came across a man who swept her off her feet and used spiritual manipulation to eventually exploit her and her family out of thousands of dollars. In this follow up episode we will discuss how exactly he got people to believe he had special powers and the ways in which he sucked them into his financial exploitations. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch her previous episode here IG: @joelletamraz X / LinkedIn / TikTok: @joelletamraz FB: www.facebook.com/joelletamraz1/ Book: The Secret Practice: Eighteen Years on the Dark Side of Yoga: A Memoir Website: https://joelletamraz.com/ YouTube: @elevatingvoices We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Join us live as Charlotte Medlock, former devout follower and right-hand employee to the infamous Guru Jagat, breaks down the various manipulation tactics implemented by the "Guru" in her rise and abrupt death. From sleep deprivation, to spiraling out of her sense of identity, we discuss how Kundalini Yoga was turned into a modern New Age cult. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch our original interview Charlotte: How Narcissistic Yoga Guru Jagat Exploited Her Followers Find Charlotte on Social TikTok: @charlotte.medlock Instagram: @charlottesface We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

The new MAX documentary “Breath of Fire” exposes a dark side of Yogi Bhajan's Kundalini yoga. Today we are joined by Dr. Jules, who was featured in the doc, for a follow up to her initial C2C interview. What does it truly mean to wake up out of the “yoga matrix” after 8 years and find some sort of normalcy in life? Click here to watch on YouTube Full length interview with Jules IG: @jtotheules We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Searching for community and a higher purpose in life, Dr. Jules Hartley found herself in a Kundalini Yoga class which promised a life of prosperity. All she had to do was follow the prescribed lifestyle, wear a turban, practice yoga and meditation at 4am every day, follow a specific diet and cleanses and essentially worship the late Yogi Bhajan. It would take 8 years before she realized it none of the claims were true, her life was falling apart, and she was essentially in a cult. Watch her in the new documentary “Breath of Fire” airing October 23rd on MAX. Click here to watch on YouTube IG: @jtotheules We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:03:53 What led Dr. Jules to seek yoga and meditation 00:11:21 Dr. Jules' chiIdhood and religious background 00:16:23 Dr. Jules goes to her Kundalini yoga class 00:17:46 True Kundalini yoga vs Kundalini yoga in LA 00:21:08 How this style of Kundalini yoga came to be 00:30:10 How Yogi Bhajan's teachings were manipulative and controlling 00:33:12 Yogi Bhajan's teachings get passed down to the next generation of teachers and across the globe 00:38:47 How the culture of LA and Yogi Bhajan's version of Kundalini yoga created the perfect storm 00:44:43 How the ab*se of Yogi Bhajan is enmeshed with his style of Kundalini yoga 00:50:18 The expectation of women being with other women in the teachings and White Tantric Yoga 00:55:03 Sikhism and Guru Jagat 00:55:58 Hari Jiwan and his wife begin teaching classes 01:01:02 Hari Jiwan's inner circle 01:04:09 Dr. Jules' mental wellbeing after 8 years in the cult and what made her finally leave 01:16:13 How Dr. Jules got to be where she is today 01:23:37 How her naturopathic education aided her deconstruction and understanding of what she went through Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Breaking News - Ruby Franke and Jodi Hildebrandt Sentenced to Prison. Today we are joined by ex cult member, Kendra Lee Bryan, who has been following the case closely and will walk us through all of the sentencing updates. Click here to watch on YouTube For more information, watch these videos: Ruby Franke and Jodi Hildebrandt Sentenced to Prison w/ Lauren Mathias Sentencing Hearing | Ruby Franke and Jodi Hildebrandt Sentenced Judge Locks Up YouTube Mom Ruby Franke After She Begs for Forgiveness Subscribe to Kendra's Channel! YouTube: @KendraLeeBryan IG: no longer active We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

8 Passengers’ Ruby Franke pleads guilty to her charges with a plea agreement. Kendra Lee Bryan of [Cult]ure Shock joins us to discuss the details of the plea deal, and reveal harrowing details of what Ruby’s family endured. Kendra, a fellow cult survivor, is a valuable asset to C2C. She has come upon some hard times, and we'd like to support her by helping her find a job (unethically laid off), and throwing her some donations in the meantime. Click here to watch on YouTube venmo: @thekendrab cashapp: $thekendrab PayPal: @thekendrab You can also support by subscribing to her channel and checking out her videos. https://www.youtube.com/@KendraLeeBryan. We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Kendra Lee Bryan has been following the case closely and will walk us through all of the updates since our last livestream. Click here to watch on YouTube Subscribe to Kendra's Channel! YouTube: @KendraLeeBryan IG: no longer active We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Fingers have been pointed and blame shifted from the alleged perpetrators Ruby Franke and Jodi Hildebrandt in court. Are we really surprised? However, more and more people are coming forward to attest to the awful treatment Ruby and Jodi have both inflicted on others aside from Ruby's own. Joined by Kendra Bryan, we will discuss some of the new updates in the case. Click here to watch on YouTube Subscribe to Kendra's Channel! YouTube: @KendraLeeBryan IG: no longer active We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Breaking news with Mormon mommy blogger Ruby Franke who was arrested for extreme CA. Join me, Andrew Gold and Kendra Bryan to discuss the details of the arrest. Click here for the 1st part on YouTube on Andrew Gold's Channel before moving over here. Click here to watch this episode on YouTube Subscribe to Andrew's Channel! YouTube: Andrew Gold IG: @andrewgold_ok Subscribe to Kendra's Channel! YouTube: @KendraLeeBryan IG: no longer active We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Join us to further discuss the awful book "To Train Up a Child". As a follow up to our episode together, we will answer your questions! Click here to watch on YouTube Watch her episode first here Find Kendra on Social! IG: no longer active FB: Kendra Bryan (the bad child) TikTok: @kendraleebryan We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Childhood was anything but peaceful growing up as a “Rama kid” in this insular Shawano, Wisconsin Cult. Claiming to have seen God and speak for Him, the leader seemed to enjoy torturing his members (especially the youth) and keeping them under strict control. Michele was 5 when her parents left her at the cult compound where she was endlessly tortured. She wouldn’t fully end up escaping until her 30s. Click here to watch on YouTube Follow Michele on YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@UC-76QylEA3KKCmfBe5d0MPw We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:03:45 Rama's history and how he came to be in the United States and converted to Christianity 00:06:39 Michele's early life in the cult 00:08:39 Early memories from the cult and their lasting effects 00:12:03 What it was like living in the compound and ways in which food was used in harmful ways 00:12:49 TW: Michele was tortured as a chiIId, having to eat her own vomit 00:18:56 How Rama would pit chiIdren and families against each other 00:22:25 TW: Psychological and physical ab*se 00:28:07 What going to public school was like for Michele and how the other chiIdren and teachers treated her 00:30:48 Michele's inconsistent schooling and how it effected her later on 00:33:59 Michele's final straw to leave the church and the repercussions for defying Rama 00:39:21 How Michele's mother's relationship with her chiIdren and the church changed after Michele left 00:42:11 How Michele's mom's devotion to Rama added to the ab*se 00:44:25 TW: Physical ab*se 00:45:52 Rama's control over parents led to Michele's parentification 00:50:42 Physically leaving the cult, mentally still following Rama 00:52:18 How mental health was viewed in the cult 00:54:37 How Michele handled parenthood after her trauma 00:56:50 Michele's experience in therapy and what helped her to find healing 00:59:56 Michele's symptoms of PTSD 01:05:51 Michele uses energy healing practices to cut ties with Rama 01:11:33 What Michele believes now 01:12:04 How Michele is doing now Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Shifrah grew up in the horrific Shawano, Wisconsin cult often called SIST. She frequently witnessed people being beat*n or shocked with cattle prods. Some people joined to fulfill their own sadistic fantasies, while others were too indoctrinated or programmed to realize the CA was wrong and unacceptable. Determined to beat up adults who were harming chiIdren, shifrah became a ring leader of sorts and a huge target to the cult leader. Afraid of what influence she may have, Shifrah was kicked out and disowned from her 13 person family, expected to live on the streets at 12 years old. Click here to watch on YouTube Find Shifrah on social media: YouTube: www.youtube.com/@shifrahmorgan464 IG: @shifrah21 We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:04:07 What is the Rama cult, and why do people follow him? 00:07:23 Shifrah's family lived there and was heavily involved 00:08:40 ChiId labor on the compound 00:15:32 CW: Physical Ab*se- What the Shawano kids saw 00:20:43 There was a clear familial hierarchy which controlled how people were treated 00:21:36 CW: CSA- The various kinds of ab*se happening 00:24:52 CW:CSA- Rama pushing the men to little girls... 00:26:21 CW: CSA- rampant ab*se that led to chiIdren playing "doctor" with each other 00:32:10 Re-learning to trust her body after CSA 00:33:35 How Rama got parents to hurt their own chiIdren 00:36:58 CW: DV & CA 00:39:58 Shifrah "rebels" by starting a posse to protect chiIdren from adults 00:45:36 What led to Shifrah getting kicked out of her house 01:00:45 How Shifrah was able to go to high school 01:01:41 Shifrah's life falls apart after her first husband passes away 01:05:08 Shifrah's biological parents want a relationship with her 01:06:54 Shifrah processes everything that happened to her, and advocates against the cult now 01:16:05 What brings Shifrah joy now Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

CW: CSA, SA, Abuse. Cult dynamics can be found in large, high control groups, as well as in single families. From no locked doors or privacy within the house, to accompanying her on dates, ab*sing her with barb wire, and hold her family hostage, Kahlia’s father essentially acted like a cult leader in her household and kept her imprisoned with manipulation tactics and various forms of ab*se. Learn what it took for her to leave her dying grandmother (per her wishes) so she could escape and find true freedom and happiness. Click here to watch on YouTube Follow Kahlia on Instagram: @vintagelia96 We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:04:05 Kahlia's family dynamic growing up 00:05:29 Kahlia's father's rules with purity culture 00:08:55 Kahlia's father didn't allow her to have any friends 00:10:28 Kahlia's home school experience 00:12:56 The different religious beliefs Kahlia's father thought was the true way 00:14:42 Kahlia's hairstyle was controlled by her father 00:16:37 TW: Kahlia's father threat*ned their lives by kn*fepoint whenever her mom tried to take them and leave 00:19:21 Kahlia's father told her she'd be responsible for breaking up the family if she spoke out 00:23:35 Kahlia's father would bully her 00:25:08 TW: walking in while undressing, groping, SA 00:26:30 TW: CSA (father forces a tampon when Kahlia is 11) 00:29:33 TW: CSA (17 years old) 00:32:06 TW: SA (the last incident that made Kahlia leave for good) 00:37:36 What motivated Kahlia to get out of the abus*ve situation 00:39:48 Kahlia's family's negative reaction to her dating her now husband 00:43:38 Na na's parting words to Kahlia 00:45:00 What it was like acclimating to a new life outside of control 00:54:56 What brings Kahlia joy now Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

The Samanta Roy Institute of Science and Technology, known also simply as SIST, is a secretive fundamentalist Christian-like group based in Shawano, Wisconsin. The group was founded by Rama Behera, a Hindu who converted to Christianity, who later changed his name to Dr. Rama Chandra Samanta Roy. Born and raised in the insidious cult, Elisabeth Gronval and her 8 other siblings went through hell at the hands of the leader. He would isolate and torture chiIdren with hard manual labor, disturbing physical punishments and verbal ab*se. Elisabeth was publicly humiliated when her home was ransacked at the leader’s command and extremely private belongings were passed around to hundreds of members. Excommunicated from her church and her family, she was left alone to navigate an unknown world. Click here to watch on YouTube Find Elisabeth on social: IG: @enliven_hope_productions Email: [email protected] We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:00:00 Intro 00:05:07 Who is Rama Behera and why do people follow him? 00:08:16 Elisabeth and her family traveled to the compound every weekend for his sermons 00:09:48 The torture that Elisabeth witnessed 00:13:16 In Rama's mind, what was meriting this type of torture to chiIdren? 00:17:04 Some of Elisabeth's chiIdhood memories in the cult 00:20:37 Were parents isolated and kept away from seeing the chiIdren tortured? 00:21:47 What was Rama saying to convince people he had authority? 00:27:25 Sticking out like a sore thumb in public school 00:29:19 Why Elisabeth started to "rebel" in her teen years 00:38:15 What made Elisabeth want to escape? 00:43:03 The beginning of when it seemed it was time for Elisabeth to leave 00:48:11 Elisabeth going back and meeting Rama's wrath (he shared n*de photos of her to everyone) 00:56:35 Elisabeth's final escape 01:01:44 When Elisabeth's family decided to leave the cult 01:04:45 Elisabeth opens up about her father and his vulnerabilities 01:10:19 Elisabeth feels Rama has mental illness 01:14:31 Has Rama seen consequences? 01:19:35 What brings Elisabeth joy now? 01:27:25 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Hannah Neeleman, LDS trad wife and mom-fluencer for over 9 million collective followers is under high scrutiny from the world after an article in The Times, pulled back the veil from her seemingly perfect life. Journalist Megan Agnew wrote about her sneaking suspicion of secret oppression going on behind the scenes due to her impression of Hannah’s heavily lurking husband. Is Hannah, the pageant-winning, butter-churning, picture perfect mother of eight actually happy to have blown up her ballerina career at Juilliard for this exhausting lifestyle? Joined live today, former LDS trad wife and content creator. Jennie Gage, weighs in on her opinion of the matter. Click here to watch on YouTube Find Jennie on social media: TikTok: @lifetaketwo IG: @lifetaketwojennie We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Click here to listen to Part 1 on YouTube An old official LDS church document has just surfaced on Reddit about the “dangers” of masturb*tion and we are here to cover it with @alyssaadgrenfell. Also on the docket are other harmful talks about the normative practice. Make sure you go to Alyssa’s channel to watch part 1 before we redirect to our channel to continue the conversation! Click here to watch this episode on YouTube Find Alyssa on social media: YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@alyssadgrenfell TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@alyssadgrenfell Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/alyssadgrenfell/ Blog: https://www.mormontruths.com Email: [email protected] We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Ex Mormon YouTuber Alyssa Grenfell, opens up about her experience going to the Mormon University Brigham Young University and on her service mission for the LDS church. Here is why she ultimately regrets spending a year and a half trying to convert people to the faith. Click here to watch on YouTube Catch Shelise on Alyssa’s channel where they discuss soaking and other loopholes Find Alyssa on social media: YouTube: @alyssadgrenfell TikTok: / alyssadgrenfell Instagram: / alyssadgrenfell Blog: https://www.mormontruths.com Email: [email protected] We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:00:00 Intro 00:05:41 How Mormonism impacted Alyssa's childhood and her personal relationships and led her to BYU 00:10:44 BYU as a symbol of Mormon culture and a goal for those outside of Utah 00:15:58 Rules at BYU that prevent students from taking tests and forming connections with other students 00:22:24 Threats of degree revocation as a control tactic to keep students within the honor code boundaries 00:25:57 The impact of BYU surveillance and the honor code on victims 00:28:10 Alyssa begins to experience dissonance with her faith and personal beliefs at BYU 00:33:58 How missionaries are viewed in Mormon culture and how it coerces LDS members to serve 00:42:03 Alyssa's personal revelation from God... that contradicts the church 00:48:10 Alyssa's first experience in the temple and how it impacted her mission 00:58:14 The implications of going through the temple and then cancelling your mission 00:59:54 The isolation of a Mormon mission 01:07:51 How the church promotes religious OCD to its missionaries 01:10:22 How Alyssa's mission affected her mental health in the field and when she came home 01:15:16 Living with a hoarder as a missionary and how the church deemed those to be adequate conditions 01:19:51 What the consequences were to raising concerns about improper housing 01:26:04 How the goal of worthiness keeps missionaries in line and in potentially harmful environments 01:28:44 Baptism quotas, avoiding certain questions and omitting the truth while trying to convert 01:32:33 When numbers get in the way of actually helping those in need 01:35:36 Why Alyssa regrets her mission 01:39:19 What to do when you meet a Mormon missionary 01:43:49 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Born into this hyper-strict cult in Wisconsin, Martha Glory Stecker Kartaoui was told she was one of the chosen people. Intense modesty rules and odd dietary restrictions were nothing compared to what she endured every weekend at the compound with her family. Groomed by the leader himself, Martha was chosen to move to the compound where she would be psychologically, emotionally, spiritually and physically tortured for 8 years until she could escape his tight grasp. Now, Martha is a certified life/health coach, spiritual mentor specializing in trauma. She’s an Amazon Best Selling International Author, a dynamic speaker, and a skilled healing facilitator. As a cult survivor, she finds purpose and passion in leading healing retreats/workshops for others who have survived Cults or other high-controlled groups and their communities. Because she knows intimately the challenges of reclaiming one's identity outside the constraints of the cult culture, she’s dedicated to assisting individuals seeking to reclaim their lives in order to thrive in their own journey towards self-discovery and divine fulfillment. Martha is building a platform (Cult-X) for those interested in connecting in a safe space to share experiences and find healing. Cult-X is a hub for resources, community, workshop/retreat opportunities, and group sharing. For more information, email Martha at [email protected] Click here to watch on YouTube Find Martha on Social media… IG: @marthakartaoui Facebook: Martha Kartaoui LinkedIn: http://www.linkedin.com/in/martha-kartaoui-a7840b291 Website: https://cult-x.org Book: Glory: Going All In We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Join us with the amazing husband and wife team, Sam and Melissa from @GrowingUpinPolygamy as they break down their latest exclusive interview with the son of the notorious Polygamist Fundamentalist Mormon (FLDS) leader, Warren Jeffs. Ammon Jeffs shared with them an unprecedented glimpse into life at YFZ Ranch, shedding light on the realities of being raised by the infamous polygamous prophet, the untold stories, challenges, the traumatic Texas Raid, and the insights from someone who lived through it all. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch their full interview with Ammon Jeffs on their channel here YouTube: @growingupinpolygamy Website: https://www.growingupinpolygamy.com/ Instagram: @growing_up_in_polygamy Email: [email protected] Resources for leaving Polygamy & volunteer opportunities If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org Holding Out Help: https://holdingouthelp.org/ Short Creek Dream Center: https://www.shortcreekdreamcenter.org/ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

People often ask how anyone can believe in a Prophet who's currently in prison. We will hear from ex-FLDS (Fundamentalist Mormon) member, Sam, from @GrowingUpinPolygamy , what his spiritual experiences were like inside the cult. His wife, Melissa, will join us to add her opinions on her spiritual experiences in mainstream Mormonism. Click here to watch on YouTube Make sure to catch the live with us on their channel immediately after C2C interviews GUIP: https://youtu.be/9-1ds4x1eXk?si=SnmoN31Y_ScQ5na8 Watch the episode we did on their channel here: https://youtu.be/zXQUeXwkMRk YouTube: @growingupinpolygamy Website: https://www.growingupinpolygamy.com/ Instagram: @growing_up_in_polygamy Email: [email protected] Resources for leaving Polygamy & volunteer opportunities If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org Holding Out Help: https://holdingouthelp.org/ Short Creek Dream Center: https://www.shortcreekdreamcenter.org/ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

The new cult documentary "Daughters of the Cult" explores the LeBaron family, as it relates to killings in the name of God, also known as Blood Atonement. Sisters, Anna and Celia LeBaron, join us to discuss details that were left out of the documentary. Click here to watch on YouTube We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Led by the currently incarcerated prophet Warren Jeffs, the Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints have strict rules and one major part of their doctrine is the practice of polygamy. The women who are often assigned and married off at a young age, are forced to bear as many children as possible. Warren took it upon himself to separate mothers and fathers from their children at astonishing rates. We will discuss with Ceci Hendrickson (a former polygamist wife and mother) all of the ways they suffered in the FLDS. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch her full interview here Find Ceci on Social! IG: @Ceci.Hendrickson Clothing Line: https://pinkvalor.com/ IG @pinkvalor We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Amanda Rae who grew up in a Fundamentalist Polygamist Mormon sect, shares her thoughts on the damaging effects of polygamy being glorified on TV. Shelise's mom, Lisa, an avid watcher, also joins us to chime in with her thoughts. Click here to watch on YouTube Click here to watch the live we did on Amanda’s channel immediately after! Find Amanda: YouTube: @TheAmandaRaeGrant IG: @amandaraegrant If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Joined today in studio with Amanda Rae ( @TheAmandaRaeGrant ) we discuss never talked about behind-the-scenes secrets about her time on the TV show "Escaping Polygamy." Click here to watch on YouTube Click here to watch the live we're doing on Amanda’s channel immediately after! Find Amanda: YouTube: @TheAmandaRaeGrant IG: @amandaraegrant If you or someone you love has left polygamy and needs assistance, please reach out to "Holding Out HELP" at 801-548-3492 or visit their website at www.holdingouthelp.org We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

“Escaping Polygamy” was a hit international tv show that ran from 2014-2019 following a small group of ex-polygamous cult women who helped others escape their polygamous cults on camera. @TheAmandaRaeGrant continues to help women who have escaped, by hosting an annual retreat in Malibu for connection and community. We were lucky enough to be invited and spend time getting to know these amazing ladies. While there, we got to film with most of the cast of the show (Amanda, Andrea, Jessica and Shanell) and talk about their experiences while filming, behind the scenes and the aftermath. Click here to watch on YouTube Resource for those escaping polygamy: https://holdingouthelp.org/ Find and support Amanda! YouTube: ​⁠​⁠​⁠ @TheAmandaRaeGrant IG: @amandaraegrant Find Shanell! FB: https://www.facebook.com/shanell.snow IG: https://www.instagram.com/shanellsnow/ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** 00:00:00 Intro 00:01:02 Dealing with backlash 00:02:44 The Order cult, explained 00:04:37 Amanda Rae talks what it was like filming the Escaping Polygamy TV show 00:06:20 The internal conflict the first years of filming for Jessica 00:08:17 The show helped bring community for Shanell 00:09:04 Jessica & Andrea reveal how the Escaping Polygamy TV show got started 00:16:09 Shanell talks why she joined the show 00:18:41 Not wanting to keep Order secrets anymore 00:20:12 Stipulations the cast had for the show 00:21:37 Jessica regrets saying they needed security 00:23:33 Amanda wishes they producers were more aware everyone's state of mind 00:26:51 Did they have anyone trauma informed on set? 00:32:50 Did the show try to create divides between the girls? 00:36:24 Dealing with backlash 00:38:22 What the self sacrifice looked like 00:44:52 What the daily mental health was like for the cast 00:50:52 The show's after effects on Amanda Rae and Jessica 00:55:57 Jessica thought the show and their efforts would bring change with The Order 01:04:37 What can someone do to help members in The Order? 01:07:18 Are the girls religious after leaving The Order? 01:14:39 Updates! How is the cast doing now? 01:21:59 What was it like for Shelise to infiltrate the retreat as an outsider? 01:28:16 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Season 2 of Secret Lives of Mormon wives drops Thursday! Joined by @alyssadgrenfell we give you a full recap of Season 1 along with what our predictions are so you can be all caught up and ready to binge! Prepare for our own commentary as ex- Mormons. We have a lot to say! Click here to watch on YouTube Part 2 on Alyssa's channel: https://youtube.com/live/I6TgOCRaUVs Find Alyssa on social media: YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@alyssadgrenfell TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@alyssadgrenfell Instagram: @alyssadgrenfell Blog: https://www.mormontruths.com Email: [email protected] We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Join us live to talk about life inside and outside of the Amish settlements. You can watch their episodes prior to the live, so you have more context. Click here to watch on YouTube Eli Old Order AMISH: When Depression is Considered Sin https://youtu.be/AVES4ukGWyg Old Order AMISH: Devastating Effects of ZERO S*x Ed Before Marriage https://youtu.be/fXNayAfl294 Meg “Sins of the Amish” Doc: Darker Details than They Were Willing to Release on TV https://youtu.be/96RGRjyTTNI Find their channels: Eli: @eliyoder491 Meg: @coloringspirit ​ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Luci Coblentz was born and raised in an Old Order Amish Settlement where she was worked so hard as a chiId it literally broke her back. At 17 she had to escape twice before she was free. However, still new and naive to the outside world, she quickly found herself in another non denominational Christian cult, run by a charismatic preacher “chosen by God himself” who controlled his congregation with heavy handed fear. There she would coincidentally run into another former Amish boy from the same settlement who she would end up marrying. It took them 10 years to wake up to the ab*ses perpetrated in the cult and leave together. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch pt 1: https://youtu.be/gS_ott73X08?si=SHGru57WV7CdHICO Connect with Luci IG @lucindacoblentz https://www.instagram.com/lucindacoblentz FB https://www.facebook.com/lucinda.coblentz We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Chapter Marks 00:00:00 Intro 00:03:40 What life was like for Luke growing up in an Old Order Amish community 00:06:30 How scaling back on worldly things led to Luke's family leaving the Amish community 00:11:24 How Luci and Luke interacted in the Amish community before connecting again as adults 00:14:19 Things that made Luci vulnerable to joining another cult 00:19:18 How Luke got involved in the church before Luci joined 00:21:11 What made this church so appealing to someone leaving the Amish church 00:24:23 What it was like for Luci and Luke to see each other again years later and after leaving the Amish community 00:29:14 How unhealthy power dynamics and toxic relationships can lead to mental health struggles 00:34:17 What the church provided that Luci had been craving 00:38:41 Ways in which the church kept members under control with a false sense of choice 00:41:39 How this church further manipulated the congregation and misused donations 00:47:31 How Luci's family's way of speaking led to realizing the church leader's manipulation tactics 00:51:33 What made Luke and Luci finally leave the church 00:56:25 Luke's experience leaving the church 00:58:10 How they navigated their lives after leaving the church and having autonomy for the first time 01:06:03 Where Luke and Luci are today and what makes them happy\ 01:13:59 Final thoughts 01:16:15 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Part of a very strict Old Order Amish settlement where children are seen as inherently evil and corporal punishment is the cure, Luci often fantasized about a completely different life. Child labor was so intense, she broke her back and received no medical attention. Finally as a teenager she escaped to her brother’s home only to be taken right back. Her family was forcibly keeping her in her room until she hit her breaking point and ran as fast as she could with her older brother chasing her into a neighboring cornfield. How could she escape? Click here to watch on YouTube Watch pt 2: https://youtu.be/4ujbGhZCHPo?si=1vctd96V7cNINQA1 Connect with Luci IG @lucindacoblentz https://www.instagram.com/lucindacoblentz FB https://www.facebook.com/lucinda.coblentz We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Chapter Markers 00:00:00 Intro 00:02:26 Where Luci grew up and how roles in the church were seen as a burden 00:05:06 What it was like being unable to read the Bible but being expected to follow it 00:07:52 Church leaders who unintentionally perpetuated more ab*se 00:10:56 What the repentance process was like 00:12:59 What happens when someone does try to go to the police 00:13:25 How the community treated the victim and why 00:15:43 How the Amish community has created an environment where perpetrators thrive 00:19:26 Luci's childhood and life at home 00:21:33 Luci has a major injury while working on the family's dairy farm 00:24:42 What was life like for Luci's mother? 00:26:03 Parentification in Luci's childhood home 00:28:18 "Rebellious" acts Luci did as a child 00:29:36 Sneaking in a newspaper 00:30:40 Escaping shame and v*olence with an imaginary family 00:35:32 Shame leading to serious mental illness in children 00:39:36 How did reading the Bible lead Luci to leaving the Amish community? 00:42:04 How little interactions with people outside the community impacted Luci positively 00:44:30 How those in the Amish community can lack documentation of birth 00:46:14 Luci's plans for escape 00:51:34 Luci's family violently attempts to thwart her plans 00:59:38 Luci finally escapes for good 01:03:24 How Luci felt and started to cope after leaving everything she ever knew 01:04:47 Finding a job without having legal documentation 01:07:04 The difficulties Luci faced when people found out about her Amish past 01:09:14 How Luci met her husband and joined another cult 01:11:16 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

From Evangelical camp kid to youth director, Dr. Laura Anderson recognized early on that something didn’t feel right. It wasn’t until her late 20s that she learned what she had gone through at the hands of her pastor was spiritual and psychological abuse. She also discovered that her symptoms had a very specific name, cPTSD. When she realized most therapists didn’t understand the trauma that comes with leaving a high control group, she made it her mission to become part of the solution and become a therapist who specialized in those types of cases. Click here to watch on YouTube Find Laura! Website: https://drlauraeanderson.com/about IG: @drlauraeanderson https://www.instagram.com/drlauraeanderson/ Her book: https://amzn.to/40HUXrU We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Let's talk about the aftermath of being in a cult. Pulling from our post-cult guests' experiences and our own, Derek from @mythvisionpodcast and I, dive into some of the harms that can accumulate from being manipulated, coerced and powerless. Join us and ask your questions! Click here to watch on YouTube Find Derek on Social! Youtube: @MythVisionPodcast MythVision Website: https://mythvisionpodcast.com/ MythVision Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/mythvision Facebook page: https://www.facebook.com/MythVision/ Facebook group: https://www.facebook.com/groups/TheWaterBoyZRadio/ Twitter: https://twitter.com/DerekPodcast TikTok: https://www.tiktok.com/@mythvision/ Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/dereklambert_7/ Discord: https://discord.gg/dRQXdZBq6E We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

BREAKING NEWS! After months of trial and jury deliberations, the judge has ruled in the case of Danny Masterson. Life in prison with chance of parole in 30 years. This is a huge win for not just the 3 Jane Doe survivors in this case, but for all survivors of SA who are looking for justice. Joined by former top ranking Scientologist, Claire Headley, we discuss the sentence and what we think contributed to it. Click here to watch on YouTube Find and Support Claire! The Aftermath Foundation: http://www.theaftermathfoundation.org/ To volunteer: [email protected] Her Website: https://blownforgood.com/ YouTube: @blownforgood Instagram: @blownforgood https://www.instagram.com/blownforgood/ Twitter: @claireheadley https://twitter.com/claireheadley We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

First rule of a cult, you're never in a cult! As two ex cult members, we have lived on both sides of the doctrine. The "true" side, as told to us by the leaders, and the actual truth. In this live we will be discussing the enormous amount of information control that goes on within Mormonism and Scientology and how it is used against its members to keep them in. Click here to watch on YouTube Help getting out of Scientology: https://theaftermathfoundation.org/ Find Apostate Alex on Social! YouTube: @apostatealex Instagram: @apostate.alex https://www.instagram.com/apostate.alex/ Get in touch: [email protected] Discord: https://discord.gg/vfkksKgs9d We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Elad, a college student searching for answers to the mysteries of the universe, found mystical answers within a strict Hasidic community. A secular Jew up until that point, he fully embraced the theology, rules and culture. Little did he know, just how controlled his life would soon be and how much scandal he would unearth once his journalism career within the community started to take off. The cover ups, silencing and shaming was too much to ignore. Click here to watch on YouTube Find Elad on Social media: IG @eladnehorai https://www.instagram.com/eladnehorai?igsh=MzRlODBiNWFlZA== Substack: https://eladnehorai.substack.com/?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAabXOk7qJmywOIOi5YQsWahZSKZrhsNDhLH676jKVYOcLeLUScGyrFvqSro_aem_rrCp42zF1D9A8hnQpoZe8w We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Chapter Marks 00:00:00 Intro 00:02:41 Understanding and uncovering systemic ab*se in high demand religions 00:03:09 Elad's parents and how the family practiced Judaism during Elad's childhood 00:04:45 How Elad found this Hasidic group appealing 00:11:14 How Elad's near death experience and diagnosis of bipolar disorder led to a Hasidic Rabbi 00:16:57 Seeking answers from a popular Rabbi 00:21:05 How thought terminating arguments were used as a powerful tool 00:23:13 Think critically but come to the same conclusion 00:24:44 How Elad began to realize the high control nature of Hasidic Judaism 00:26:30 Hasidic rules make their way into the bedroom 00:29:47 Being taught to self-shame in the Hasidic community 00:31:57 How speaking up about mental health was perceived in the Hasidic community 00:33:52 How men were permitted to study Judaism and how it aided in their goal of every Jew becoming Hasidic 00:35:16 Elad begins to unravel his beliefs 00:37:31 How Elad's encouragement of creativity rocked the Hasidic world 00:42:46 Elad gets pushback for publishing stories from his community 00:45:54 How a conservative community can attract a liberal or progressive person 00:47:09 How the different application of morals among a community can crumble a person's faith 00:50:41 How a friend's divorce became Elad's last straw 00:54:03 Feeling God for the first time again 01:00:37 How further isolation was necessary for growth 01:04:12 How Elad navigates spirituality today 01:12:48 Linda, listen Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.

Certain Ultra Orthodox communities are considered high control groups by former members. Today, Beatrice Weber, who was a wife to a Rabbi and mother of 10 inside a Hasidic sect, takes us through the book of modesty that they were expected to follow. She will share just how much control she was under when it came to her appearance and every day expectations. Click here to watch on YouTube Watch pt 1 here: https://youtu.be/LGXNrG7kIec?si=0IbiLk6h7XQ0jtZO Watch pt 2 here: https://youtu.be/6MXpJm_aRoU?si=L67psW-uh-nOcwJX Resources for help leaving Orthodox communities Footsteps https://www.footstepsorg.org/ Rights and Religion Forum https://rarforum.org/ Find and support Beatrice! Linktree https://linktr.ee/bweber Website: https://beatriceweber.com/about/ We want to meet you in real life! Come adventure with us on our 2nd C2C VACATION! Click here to go to the official booking page Subscribe to our C2C "CLIPS" Channel! Support C2C - Any donations are welcome and appreciated to support the making of this podcast. Find our FULL (uncensored) merch store here! Patreon https://www.patreon.com/cultstoconsciousness Venmo @sheliseann Find us on Social media! Instagram @cultstoconsciousness Host Instagram @sheliseann Co Producer / Host @jonathan.rosales_ TikTok @cults.to.consciousness Twitter @cultstocon **Disclaimer: Thanks for joining us at Cults to Consciousness. This storytelling podcast is meant to be for entertainment purposes only and does not substitute for medical advice. We may discuss triggering topics and we ask that you make your personal mental health a priority. Lastly, the opinions of our guests do not necessarily reflect the opinions of the host.** Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoicesSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info.