Brant & Sherri Oddcast

It's So Cold, Gas Station Air BnB, We're Not Libraries, Star Wars Cologne, Fast and Furious 8, The Snappy Comeback, Grateful for Servants, Brant's Wife Attacked, Joke Spa for Brant, Lebron James Blame, Breaking Animal News; Quotes: "I don't need more knowledge...the problem is I need to love people the way God says to love them." "We should be grateful for how we live...we're richer than we've ever been in history." "Some people tell me I remind them of Lebron James." "I can hear the heart cry of the listeners for Breaking Animal News." "If you're gonna have the larvae show...it's not gonna be here."

Emotional Responses, Marathon People, Hummus vs. Humans, Welcome to the Show, Sci-Fi Question: A Cruise vs. Kohl's Cash, Being Unoffendable, School House Rock; Quotes: "Be patient with people. We all relate to God differently." "I'm gonna get a t-shirt that says 'I'm warm and competent.'" "This guy Mark who started this website Facebook is just trying to make ends meet.' "We believe God wants you and it's not up to us to control you so let's be friends!!"

NBA Finals, The Toast Reception, The Titanic Equation, Monday Song, Don't Worry, Joke Spa, Brant's Book Nook, First Day of Summer, Evangelism Guilt, Good Works in Public, Food Truck Idea, Trusting the Potter; Quotes: "In any championship the most interesting interview is with the loser." "Your level of maturity is shown in how you act when you don't get your way." "Everybody loves toast...whether they admit it or not." "There's a lot of tension in the Joke Spa because my assistant is questioning everything I do."

Special Needs Perfection, Repeat the Headlines, Brant's Podcast Influence, Tattoos, The Flying Squirrel Problem, Jesus: The Basis for Forgiveness, Repentance, Passion of the Christ Sequel, False Comfort in Money, Not Feeling It, Take a Nap, Love Is Not a Business Relationship; Quotes: "With a spoonful of sugar the science news goes down." "What we're giving to you is substandard amateurism, ladies and gentlemen." "Repentance is a decision not an emotion."

History Segment: I Called It, Computer Simulation vs. God, Baby Donkey in a Hammock, Emotionless at Church, Father's Day, Breaking Animal News, Knowing the Bible, Save the Alien Planet, Associated with Jesus, Deal Breaker: A House Broken Bison, Couples That Gain Weight Together, Suaveness Tips; Quotes: "I'm the host of the show because I called it. The rest is history." "I think that everybody deep down believes there is a God." "A smiling baby donkey in hammock helps reduce stress." "God's not looking for emotions He's looking for faithfulness."

Praying For Enemies, Breaking Animal News, Father's Day, Steph Curry Shoes and Brant's Shoes, Fame/Love/Hate, No Cobbler/No Fire, The Orlando Shooting Tragedy, Spiritual = Somber?, Kamikaze Karaoke, Suaveness Tips, Ted Talk Mime Gladiator of Knowledge, Sticking Together, Figuring Out the Bible; Quotes: "Somehow we've learned that joy and laughter aren't Godly. That's wrong." "People think me playing the accordion is fake. Why would I fake it and not be better?" "If I had a shoe brand for me it would have Velcro and be tan and smooshie." "There was room for Jack on that door."

The Orlando Shooting Tragedy, Guys Crying, Having Asperger's and Following Jesus, Honored That You Listen, Brant's Bad Haircut; Quotes: "We don't always have to say something about a tragedy. Some times we can just feel it and hurt for people." "We do a really bad job in our culture about thinking about the meaning of life and the meaning of death." "She gave you a Kid N' Play haircut?" "Sometimes Facebook is not the right medium for stuff." "If I act like the founder of my religion, I'll be a healer."

A Day Off From Work, Important at the Wedding, Ted Talk, Hating Chewbacca Lady, Standing at Work, Evidence of God in Your Life, God's Not Done With You, Awkward Guys, Social Media Anger, Alexander CAMEL-ton; Quotes: "If you can't take a day off a week from work you're taking yourself way too seriously." "If the world falls apart because I took a day off it deserved to fall." "If you'd like to stay in contact with us...for what ever bizarre reason..." "I'm exuding energy because I'm standing up.' "The fruit of the Spirit is the evidence of God in your life...not your emotions."

Espresso Bean, Lost on a Plane, I'm Defense of Christian Radio, Save the Alien Planet, Breaking Animal News, New to the Show Misfits, Letting Go of Anger, Deal Breaker: Patriotic Guy with a Wig, Spiritual Losers, Rats Laughter, Does God Love Us?, God as Creator; Quotes: "I was thinking about Ebola. That's why I forgot where my seat was." "Apparently life can still make sense if you drop your grudge." "God created this world with beauty and whimsy because He loves us." "I gave you a bean that was precious to me."

Biomimicry, Ted Talk, The More You Know, Self-Justification, Chewbacca Scholarships, 29 Miley Cyrus Tattoos, Tattoos From Narnia, Hit Your Head Just Right, Money, Introvert vs. Extroverts, The Church Is Not Cool; Quotes: "One thing about the radio is we can't here you when you talk back to us." "My problem is not that I don't know it enough it's that I don't act on the things I know." "Thanks for visiting my brain."

Tiny Villages, New Songs vs. Old Hymns, Sci-Fi Question: $1 million vs. Your Words on a Transcript, Jesus and Rest, Night to Shine, Religion as a Crutch, The PT Cruiser, Drive an Ugly Car, Kind Words, Octagon of Biblical Knowledge, Take a Nap; Quotes: "The tiny village was both motivating and frightening. Both/and." "Judgement and sorrow aren't as remarkable as grace." "I'd like these Sci-Fi Questions to have a point." "Embrace the ugly car and then repair it." "Sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is take a nap."

Affluence and Atheism, Fun with a Dollar, Birds on Sherri's Patio, Your Tone on Social Media, Monday Song, NBA Finals, Don't Move Your Eyes, Dave on the Treadmill, Save the Alien Planet, When You're Not Feeling It, Get Rid of Guilt, National Heimlich Week; Quotes: "Birds think my balcony is tacky." "There is a special kind of affluency that allows you the luxury of atheism." "I'm the Lebron of the etymology group." "Anyone from Pittsburgh is hard to like, frankly." "Just because you don't have 'warm feelings' doesn't mean you don't love God."

Dr. Heimlich Gives the Heimlich, The Strength of Human Pride, Looking At Your Phone, Older People on FB, The Cincinnati Zoo, Wisdom, Dying Phone Battery Stress, Serial Returner, Gratitude; Quotes: "Dr. Heimlich can do what he wants. " "Well, I guess the shock factor has been destroyed." "Wisdom is knowing the relative value of things." "Most of us like the self-righteous rush that comes with being angry."

The Emoji Bible, Having a Snappy Comeback, Fear of Failure, Crickets on Social Media, Forgiveness, Magnetos Bus Service (Revisited), Physical Attraction vs. Friendship, Memorial Day, "Squad Goals", Your Job is a Blessing, Getting Played by The National Day Committee, Indy 500 Lingo; Quotes: "The only real, rational grounding for forgiveness is Jesus." "This music you're hearing is me failing as a radio host." "It's a Bible chalked full of Emojis." "Without forgiveness we're doomed."

On Marriage..., Bieber About Award Shows, Stick to the Car, Cultivating Your Older Self, Magnetos Bus Service, Joke Spa, Brant's Band Injury, Honesty Cafe, Joy, The Tetris Movie; Quotes: "Marriage is a lesson on how it's not about me anymore." "If you get hit by one of their cars, you'll stick to it." "Right now you're cultivating the older you." "Joy under girds everything. I know how this story ends and it ends well."

Parenting the Parents, Steph Curry...Maybe, Work is Good!, Chewbacca Lady, FB Live, The Atheist Billboard, House Breaking Bison, Midwife TV Show, Forgiveness, TSA Entertainment, Inbox to 0, Messy Desk People; Quotes: "I don't do big things. I do small things with big love." "We're only going to mention this study because it affirms what I already believe." "It's probably a house BREAKING bison."

Brant and Sherri talk about race, Game of Thrones, Empire, and The Church as a Family

Brant and Sherri talk about race, atheists and the Jesus Freak Cruise.

Asking God to Prove Himself, Miming at Graduation, Marriage and IKEA, The Sad Birthday Song, Always on the Phone, Down on Christians, Sci-Fi Question: Perfect Abs vs. $1,000 Savings Bond, Octagon of Biblical Knowledge, Wedding Etiquette, Trolling on the Internet, Short Prayers; Quotes: "If God revealed His whole self to us it would crush us." "I'm packing my mime outfit for my son's graduation." "Ikea is just a big box of discord." "Having perfect abs doesn't solve all your problems. I still struggle in many areas." "We are justification and rationalization machines."

Bison: The Official U.S. Mammal, Parachuting Into America, You're Not Too Messed Up, God Gets the Glory, The White Bald Python, Justin Bieber Pictures, Eat What You Want Day, Justice Graduates, The Breaking Goose News Anchor, Night to Shine, Dishonest Kids/Parents, Don't Try to be Cool, Sin Sucker Punch, 2 FT. Long Insect; Quotes: "Except for celebrities and non-celebrities, I'm very good with people. I really am." "Bison have not done much for liberty or independence in this country" "Justin Beiber and I feel this makes total sense." "God uses odd balls and weirdos. From Genesis to Revelation it's a recurring theme." "Don't blame the Goose News Reader."

Enjoy Reading Day, Honorary Doctorates, God's Feedback, Attractive Cities, Honesty Cafe, Ultimate Beast Master, Boring Jobs, Messy Relationships, Christians/Academia, Mom w/Asperger's, Complaint Calls; Quotes: "What governing body can stop us from handing out honorary doctorates? The FCC?" "Don't tread on me." "Most of us have a problem creating a space for actual reflection." "God knows all about loving messy people. He does it on purpose."

Big Party After a Cancelled Wedding, The Kentucky Derby, The Prodigal Son Story, Boot Your Mom From Your Profile Pic, Resisting Jesus, Deal Breaker, Letting People Know You're a Believer, You're Welcome Here, How God Made Us Differently, Boaty McBoat Face, Justice Graduates, Mathematician/Terrorist, Brant Is Suspicious; Quotes: "There's something beautiful about having a big party and inviting the people that don't normally get invited." "The father in the Prodigal Son story doesn't cheer on his son's destruction." "Yesterday was National Boot Your Mother From Your Profile Pic Day."

After Mother's Day, Wounds That Heal, Entertainers Worth the Money, The Character of a Parent, $250 Million Apartment, Listening to Unbelievers, I Saw the Light, Women Smelling Like Chicken, Being an Introvert, Joke Spa, Lunch with Tim Cook, You're Welcome Here, Not Mad at Sinners, Mime the News; Quotes: "I have to trust God and be willing to let someone have the last word." "People in lab coats have determined this to be true." "On the list of 'How to get a man' put 'smell like chicken' on the list." "The unpacking of the joke is stressful." "There's gonna be some miming. There's gonna be some talk about Jesus. Stay tuned to see in what order."

Mr. Cent's Embarrassment, The Oddcast and Sleep, DC Talk, Stories of Grace, Moral Failures in the Bible, The Mother's Day Apostrophe and Actually Guy, What to Look for in a Man, No Heroes in the Bible, Honorary Doctorates, First Class Bathroom, Boring Jobs, Messy Relationships, Mom Sayings; Quotes: "His name is Fifty Cent. Mr. Cent. First name Fiddy." "Our Oddcast puts people to sleep." "Thank you DC Talk. I feel DC spry." "Other than Jesus, there are no heroes in the Bible." "People show open disdain for 'actually guy' but they really love him."

What Makes a Godly Man, HGTV Addiction, Parents of Young Kids, National Day of Prayer, Mom Sayings, Stories of Grace, Mom Fit Bits; Quotes: "Just because a man is 'church impressive' doesn't mean he's a Godly man." "Why do they never show us the garages to the houses on HGTV. It's important. I want to see them." "There are too many open things. I just want them all shut and then I can go to bed." "Turn off the radio for a few seconds if that's what it takes to connect with God. He wants you. He wants your heart." "Grace turns karma on it's head."

Hostile Calls, Atheists Praying, Pirate Talking Guy, ReligiousExtremism, The Alto Clef, Save the Alien Planet, Early Parenting,Social Tips, Mom Phrases; Quotes: "When it comes down to it, when we need healing we know whothe physician is." "He cussed us out with cuss words." "You have to get through Sherri to get to me." "I have to say Dave is blooming under my tutelage."

Real Life Scripture Pictures, Wasted Life, Being an Expert, AYoung Boy with Asperger's, God in Weakness, Finish Strong,Expensive Tea in China,What's Your Biggest Challenge, Sword Fightof Knowledge, Sci-Fi Question: The Ford Fiesta, Social Media andPolitical Arguments; Quotes: "Your life is the stuff of NOW. Faith matters in theNOW." "There are no experts. Jesus is the teacher and we're allclassmates." "I'm a fount of misinformation. I don't mean to be,though." "I can't see weakness as a bad thing because I keep seeing Goduse them." "I brought that to you straight off the internet"

Cuddling Your Dog, Drafting Jason Gray as a Friend, Stick with the Program, Checklists with God, Gracious at the Drive-Thru, Honoring Dr. Jerry Umanos, The Average Christian, If You're Not a Misfit, Grandma/Cursive, Joke Spa, The Myth of Private Sin, Hi-Five Day, The $50 Ticket; Quotes: "My dogs are gonna cuddle with me whether they like it or not!" "God is not interested in us checking boxes on a checklist. He wants our heart." "The name of our band is 'Jason Gray' and the other guys." "The perfecter of my faith doesn't tear people apart. He stitches people back together again." "Coin collectors make me so mad."

When You Fail, Quiet Time in Stores, Smaller Plates, Relating to God, Songs of Advice, The Coffee Study, Bass Clef Petition, Honesty Cafe, Schoolie McSchoolFace, Coming Off Too Preachy, Save the Alien Planet; Quotes: "Can you bake my plate and put glaze on it." "Just because you're not having an emotional response to God doesn't mean He walked out the door." "I want to ban the Bass Clef." "We're the media, too guys."

Kelly/Brant Then Sherri, History Segment: TV Guide, The Brant Hansen Show Joke Spa, National Admin Day, Honesty Cafe, NFL Drafting Friends, Believing vs. Trusting, Sci-Fi Question, Working With People You Don't Like, The Bible Is Not a Fairy Tale, A Selfie at Abe Lincoln's Grave, The Wombat Cuddler Job Update, Cleaning Up Your Kids; Quotes: "We live in a time where everyone thinks they're really, really smart." "Stay in your car for 3 weeks and listen to our show." "God is a loving Father that actually wants you!" "God uses difficult people to refine our character. Sometimes that's the only way it's going to happen."

Social Tip, Smartest Man In Universe, The Prodigal Son, The 7-Hour Movie Trailer, I Saw the Light, Inconvenient Love, Visiting Listeners, Attention Surplus Disorder, At the End of Your Rope, Tax Season; Quotes: "It's obvious someone is in charge, we just don't want to humble ourselves." "This is the time of year when you may have to interact with other humans." "You may have picked up from Sherri an undertone of doubt." "If I went to a movie that was over 700 hours long, I would be tempted to smuggle snacks in."

Heroic Faith, Daily Faithfulness, Jars of Kobe Air, The Storks: Clepetan and Melena, Life on Your Own Terms, Kamikaze, Karaoke, Joke Spa, Sympathy Hotline, Shopping for a Religion, Save the Alien Planet, Faithful Over the Little Things, Welcome Misfits, Cut Yourself Some Slack; Quotes: "This isn't a jar of air from the Lakers game. This is OKC Thunder air." "Get off of Clepetan the Stork's case." "Success is living on His terms not mine." "The humor contained in that joke will cause you to relax." "If you're shopping for a religion that makes you feel good, Christianity is not a good option."

Joke Spa, Struggling to Believe All You Can Eat Fries, Sci-Fi Question: Laundry Robot, Abe Lincoln Chin Straps Revisited, Honesty Cafe, Laundry and Faithfulness, When Kids Are Wayward, Proms for Other People; Quotes: "God comes to us and he heals, not lectures. How wonderful is that?" "God is asking for faithfulness. That is heroic." "I'm gonna put hot rocks on your face to relax you."

The Joke Spa, God is a Healer, Black Coffee and Psychopaths, The Job of a Wombat Cuddler, Honesty Cafe, Love Your Enemies, "I See Where You're Coming From", PBS Stealing from The Brant Hansen Show, Paid to be Cool; Quotes: "God is a healer and healing makes all the difference in the world." "So you not drinking coffee gives you all the anecdotal evidence you need to declare those who drink coffee black may be psychopaths." "I don't know what kind of fear based world you live in where you think kangaroos are beating humans down." "PBS continues to steal things from our show."

Women Sizing Each Other Up, Miming the News, Social Tips from Brant, Politicians/Dads, A Gentle Word, Save the Alien Planet, National Tattoo Day, Honesty Cafe, Does Everyone Go to Heaven?, $218 Trillion Phone Bill; Quotes: "When I see candidates on campaign posters with their kids I want to vote against them so they can have more time with their kids." "That was a very physical mime. My makeup is a mess and I have to put my beret back on." "Gentleness is an effective way to help change people's minds." "Blowing up the planet is so much more dramatic for everyone, Sherri." "When the Department of Zig says zig, I zag." "I'd like to get a tattoo of an owl with glasses across my whole back."

Friends on the Radio, Rolling Stories, Feeling Spiritual, Accordion Scales, Spiritual People, Brant and Tap Dance, Child-likeness, Addicted to Attention, Too Attractive, Jokes and Productivity, Rage Yoga, Dealing with Anger; Quotes: "If you're not feeling spiritual, God still loves you. How about that?" "The joke falls flat when someone says 'you're not suppose to squeeze the piano.'" "Girls didn't seem to like that I played the flute and took tap dance lessons." "There's a child-likeness that comes with seeking God that makes you a ball!"

Allergies, Let the Baseball Team Name Your Baby, Being Interested in Others,Brews and Beliefs Discussion, Recreating Forrest Gump, Getting Off the Phone, God and Your Happiness, Grammar Jerks, How To Be Ripped, Maybe You're Wrong, McGrinders;

Dealing with Anger, Bible Experts, Songs of Advice, Save the Alien Planet, # of Words in an Email, The Honesty Survey, The Underdog Awards, The Ironic Anger Tweet, The California Walnut Commission, The Honesty Cafe, Do I Need to Go to Church?; Quotes: "Some situations you have to go into forgiving in advance." "Forgiveness doesn't mean trust." "We don't need to keep hearing about this grandma that dead lifts hundreds of pounds. Enough already." "If you have the gift of the discouragement, prayerfully consider if you really want to call us."

Lasers to Hide Earth, Honesty Cafe, Domino's Fast Pizza, The Problem with Peace Activists, 999 Mega Bytes Band, Sci-Fi Question: Looking Great vs. $500 to a Charity, Rejecting the Real Jesus, Kamikaze Karaoke, Brant Talking to Doctors, Praying for Annoying People, Getting Off the Phone;

Jesus & Religion, Religious Discussions, Award Ceremonies, Kamakazee Karaoke, Accordion Players and the Pope, Sports News Segment, Thank God for Autism, Cursive as a Secret Language, Songs of Advice, Protecting Our Self-Righteousness, Honesty Cafe, Calendar Issues for Women, Prayer; Quotes: "As a believer in Jesus, be the person known for speaking healing and building people up." "It's our fallen human nature that makes us want to protect our self-righteousness."

Vaudeville NCAA, Brant's in Charge of the Mixer?, Giga Mac, Believe These 2 Things, Offended By Healing, How to Get Off the Phone; Quotes: "God has a way He wants you to live that is the best and most freeing way to live." "There is literally nothing you can do in the world that will not offend SOMEONE." "You can't reduce God to a formula. He's relational." "You'll know it's my FB page because you'll see a 2-legged chihuahua wielding light sabers."

April Fools, Venting Anger, Songs of Advice, Tipping Servers, Save the Alien Planet, Things You're Grateful For That You Never Thought You Would Be, Wisdom From Bev, Protecting Your Peace, Octagon of Biblical Knowledge, Cyborg Beetles, Getting Out of a Conversation, FB Emojis; Quotes: "Thank you to the audience for overriding what my producer wants to do with the show." "Venting your anger doesn't help. It actually makes you madder." "I wrote a song entitled 'Stop Eating That Garbage.'" "There is so much hanging in the balance on this program you simply must listen."

Enough About Me, A Song of Advice, Tipping People, Sprintos, #WednesdayWisdom, Grandma Lifting Weights, Faith vs. Emotion, Accordion Stress Melting, Unicorn vs. Rhino, Dessert by the Window, 50 Years of The Brant Hansen Show, Taking Ourselves Seriously; Quotes: "If you receive poor service tip MORE. What better way to show grace?" "I think they should put the eggs and bread in front of the store and let people duke it out over them." "Following your heart can lead you to destruction." "There's something poetic about doing something because of commitment not because of feeling." "When I'm doing this show 50 years from now it will be really good. I would have figured things out by then."

Wanton Marble Playing on College Campuses, Figuring God Out?, The Netflix Countdown, The Work Is Done, Songs of Advice, Lemon Chiffon Cake Day, Ricky Gervais & Christianity, The Wrong EPA, Octagon of Knowledge, No Formula to God, Knowing God, Life Hacks for Cars; Quotes: "It's just wanton marble playing all over the campus." "We are just beginning to scratch the surface of God's goodness." "Relationships go from face to face to shoulder to shoulder." "You don't need an emotional response to repent." "We're not gonna let the Lemon Chiffon industry push us around."

VHS Arrest, Every Other Word Friends, Mr. Hotwing the Goldfish, Pakistan Tragedy and the Persecuted Church, Team Tori, What Not to Say on Your Resume, Movies: Zootopia, Superman vs. Batman, April Fool's Day, Contentment/Relationship, Your Brain and God, Music and Your Emotions, NASA and Grocery Pressure; Quotes: "When you're going to the grocery store on behalf of someone else, the pressure is on." "Blockbuster was like Redbox with people in it." "It's encouraging to me that it's encouraging to you that I just called you lazy." "Sin is really isolating." "That's how ended up with no friends. I forgot."

Brant and Sherri do a long form podcast. Topics include: God's Sense of Humor, Brant and a Reality TV Show, Listening to Listener Complaints and Answering the Question: "Is the Show Scripted?"; Quotes: "It should have been mirthful in Eden. What made it not mirthful was pride." "Let's not take the Subway Sandwich Artist thing too seriously." "If this show was scripted it would be way better."

Brant and Sherri do a long form podcast. Topics include: Should Brant and Sherri Do Talk Radio?, Jesus as a Master Marketer, Why Is There a Prom?, Samson and the Fallacy of Christian Heroes Quotes: "You should breathe grace in every day and be instantly amazed." "Jesus wasn't giving us a ticket to leadership success. He was giving us a ticket to die." "I want to make sure that my bad prom experience ruins it for everyone else." "There's stuff that we say that our Mom's don't want."

Prayer at a Drive-Thru, The Lord's Short Prayer, Bad Baby Names, Peter and Jesus, Don't Uncover, Sports & Miming, Bloody Good Friday, Fattest City, Baby Goat Videos, The Honesty Cafe, Home Buying Tips from the Onion, What Good Friday Paid For, Grace: Singing vs. Anger; Quotes: "Peter betrayed Jesus and Jesus said 'this is the guy that will start my church." "People would pay top dollar to see mimes reenacting the Civil War." "I didn't say I was giving the best advice. It's just advice. I'm just spouting advice." "What Jesus went through on Calvary is because our sin was so ugly. It was so bloody because of us." "Not sure mimes playing football in the NFL is the best idea." "Grace either makes you burst into song or it makes you very angry."

50 Things Keeping You Fat, Struggling with Weight, Palm Sunday Donkey, March Madness, Good Friday Questions, Wheat Thins, Boaty McBoat Face, South by Southwest Invitation, Forgiveness Lifestyle, Sci-Fi Question: Intelligence vs. Being Attractive, You're Welcome Here, Good Friday Guilt, Eating by the Window; Quotes: "Somebody's spreading Nutella on Thin Mints and wondering why they're gaining weight." "In our office brackets I'm number 18 out of 21. That means I'm crushing 3 people like a tin can." "Good Friday is the answer to the question "How much do I mean to God?" "Forgiveness is a lifestyle." "God has a robe to cover your shame and it's beautiful."

Short Prayers, How to be a Catch, Honesty Cafe, "Major" America, I Saw the Light, Not Picking Up on Stuff, Good Friday, Kids and Agendas, The Power of the Bible; Quotes: "To make yourself a good catch, guys, you should be a full on clown. Like with the hand buzzer, big floppy shoes, the flower that squirts water. All of it." "God provided manna for his people. Who am I to turn away from a croissant." "Seems like Captain America should be Major by now. He's done a lot." "Good Friday is the answer to sooo many questions." "Forgiveness is excruciating."